It's shallow

My name is Jun Qianruo, I was born in a very large family, my parents only have one daughter, but I have many brothers and sisters. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

The current patriarch of the family is a cold and heartless old man, and I call him Grandpa. And my father is the next patriarch of the family.

When I was young, I didn't know what a patriarch was and what the next patriarch was, and in my eyes I only knew that they were my relatives. However, it seems that no one really likes me except my parents.

My grandfather never looked at me squarely, and in his eyes, as a girl, I was dispensable in the Jun family. In my grandfather's mind, I was a granddaughter he didn't even remember by name, or didn't want to.

Because the Jun family has a rule, the patriarch must be a man. So my presence is not going to be loved by other people, especially grandpa. Because I...... Useless.

My second uncle was a man with gloomy eyes, and I was most afraid of him when I was young, especially his eyes. From him, I can see the aggression and the unwillingness. And he always looked at me with a smile on his face. It scared me even more.

My second aunt was a gentle woman, but only for her own children. She is a woman who shushes me in front of people, especially her parents, but stares at me with vicious eyes behind her back.

My cousin, my cousin is the one who will bully me openly in the name of being young. Ever since I was a child, what they didn't have would rob me, and what they had would rob me! They would leave me with inconspicuous, but very painful wounds where my parents couldn't see them. will also pretend to be pitiful together when I sue, and let my grandfather reprimand me for being innocent and hurt.

There are also a few other people who are either married and have children, or are studying outside, all of them are superficially close to each other, and they are framing each other behind their backs. And the father of the next patriarch was dealt with by them together.

When I was young, I often saw my second uncle and mother bullying my mother behind their backs, and then my mother would hide in the room and cry secretly, and always smile gently in the face of my father. And my father always didn't speak, just gently hugged us in her generous arms and sighed slightly.

Originally, I thought that my whole life would be spent in such a time. But when I was five years old, something changed dramatically. As a result, my life has changed dramatically.

One dark night, when I was getting up to get water to drink, I suddenly heard a roar. I was scared and shivered and walked towards the source of the sound. I saw that in the hall of Kuanmine, the mother who had always been gentle threw herself on the second uncle's body and beat him, crying and shouting loudly.

"Give back my husband, pay me back Brother Rui...... You murderers, murderers. ”

"Why are you so ruthless, he is your eldest brother, he is your eldest brother, how can you bear to ......" scolded and scolded his mother for being pushed to the ground, sat on the ground and kept repeating those words and muttering to himself.

The second uncle and mother, who pushed her mother on the side, looked at the scars on the second uncle's face with a distressed face, turned her head and looked at her mother viciously, and comforted her kindly, "Sister-in-law, mourning! We are also sad when the eldest brother is gone, but this has nothing to do with us!"

The third uncle sighed, turned her head and lifted her mother on the ground with a sad face, and touched her tears. Said a mourning. But the gloating eyes and the gloomy expression that turned his head and smiled were not fake.

I stood in the corner of the second floor and watched the chaotic scene below, I wanted to hug my mother but couldn't move, I thought to myself what this is "gone", is it my classmate Xiao Min's father and the other women left, or Xiao Ming's mother told Xiao Ming that his father went far away!

That night, there was a long quarrel in the hall. It wasn't until the grandfather, who had been sitting on the sofa with a gloomy face, warned that everyone slowly retreated.

I was left with my mother, who was sitting on the ground expressionless, and me, who had been standing in the corner and watching my mother.

I slowly walked up to my mother and silently wiped away her tears. Ignorant eyes looked at the mother's red eyes.

That night, my mother hugged me and cried all night. And I cried with my mother all night.

For days after that night, my mother didn't say a word or move. I had been sitting in our room, staring at the big family photo. I talked to her but never got back to me. Thankfully, she was able to eat the food I fed to her mouth.

Those days were the most fearful and fearful days for me. Maybe it's because I'm precocious, maybe it's because of the atmosphere, I know what "Daddy is gone", what it really means. But I didn't dare to cry, I was afraid. I didn't even dare to mention any information about my dad to my mom.

I even secretly hid everything about my father, including the family photo. I'm afraid, I'm afraid that my mother will suddenly disappear too.

Mom was still staring at the wall where there were no more photos. I sat by her side every day and stayed with her. Only go out when you go to get food.

I don't want to go out, I don't want to see the picture of those people's family and harmony, and I don't want to see the second uncle, who was originally gloomy, now sitting with a smile on his face where his father used to sit, drinking tea, eating, and watching TV.

In the next half month, my mother seemed to be a little abnormal. Sometimes he would smile at the empty room and say something in his mouth, and sometimes he would cry and smash the things in the room. But most of them are still obsessed with their own world.

In the following month, my mother's temper became more and more difficult to control, and sometimes she would even beat me. I always had a little bit of a scar on my body during that time.

But I don't hate my mother. Because I know she's always loved me.

A doctor came to treat my mother, and after my mother scratched the doctor's face, the doctor declared that she was insane. Because I couldn't stand the blow, I went crazy.

When I heard the news, my "loved ones" did not have the joy they imagined, but some of them were sad and hateful.

However, late one night, my mother, who had been diagnosed as insane, woke me up from my restless sleep, put a necklace around my neck, and spoke a long and earnest speech.

"Ruo'er, your father is gone and won't come back. You must put this necklace away, you know?" It makes me feel like I'm going back to that happy past.

"Ruo'er, my mother loves you. Mom's last reluctance is to hurt you. So don't hate Mommy, Mom really doesn't want to hit you. "My mother hugged me and cried, I smiled and hugged my mother, and gently told her that I had never hated her.

"Ruo'er, tomorrow my mother will be crazy, really crazy. So...... From today onwards, you are not allowed to speak again. Do you know?" my mother stared at me tightly.

I wondered what my mother was asking for, but nodded. My mother breathed a sigh of relief, but she still reminded me. "Don't talk to anyone in the future, especially if your parents have given you anything. You don't want to tell anyone about the necklace!

Sometimes I really think, how nice it would be if it was all a dream of my own, and if I would wake up tomorrow and find that it was all a dream, a nightmare that I had.

"From tomorrow onwards, don't get too close to anyone, don't get close to anyone in the Jun family, especially your mother. In the future, you will rely on yourself, and you must live well. Whatever you see, whatever happens to your mother, don't care, don't say it. Do you know?" my mother warned me over and over again with tears in her eyes.

I cried and shook my head, but my mother screamed even more sadly, and finally I agreed in my mother's pleading voice.

My mother kissed me lightly on the forehead.

From that night onwards, my mother went completely "crazy". So crazy that I don't know who I am, so crazy that even I will beat and scold. And I became a little mute.

The people of the Jun family also asked a doctor to show me, but they came up with a diagnosis that there were no symptoms. Later, I reluctantly said in the diagnosis again and again that I lost my ability to speak because of nerve compression caused by too much stimulation received in a short period of time.

The second uncle and others really couldn't help but ask me about whether my parents had left me anything, but I stopped them without saying a word. My aunt and cousins also asked me about it, but they didn't find anything. Gradually, after they found nothing from the initial inducement to the later questioning, they also believed that there was nothing in my heart.

So they targeted their crazy mother. During that time, I could always see horrible scars on my mother's delicate face. But I couldn't get close to her, so I could only hide in the quilt and cry secretly at night, but I always followed my mother's wishes and never went out of my way to get close to her.

And my mother never looked for me, and she didn't even look at me usually.

Ever since my mother's life became so much better. Although no one cares about my life or death, no one cares about me, but no one is pressuring me. And so the days passed......

For some reason, the Jun family fell. First, several uncles died or disappeared mysteriously, and then several cousins and cousins were imprisoned for rape and drug use. The death of the direct subordinates of the Jun family in one night, the death of those who went to prison. It's been scattered for a long time.

Those uncles, aunts, etc. have long since disappeared without a trace, and even the servants have slowly disappeared one by one because the master's family cannot pay their salaries.

In the blink of an eye, only the old man who was strong and the little mute me were left in the Jun family. The crazy mother disappeared at some point.

The huge Jun family had already become empty at this time. Those antique calligraphy and paintings have also been moved, and even the house where the Jun family has lived for decades is about to become someone else's.

I stood in the corner of the second floor a few months ago, looking at my grandfather, who seemed to have aged a lot overnight, and I felt a sense of relief in my heart.

Then I woke up in a strange place. It turned out to be my mother who had been missing for a long time. In just a few months, my mother had aged a lot, she didn't look like a thirty-year-old lady at all, her beautiful face was gone, and her straight back was bent.

I looked at the old mother in front of me sadly and shouted out the first sentence in a few months. "Mom~~"

My mother wiped her tears and told me not to tell anyone my real name in the future. Protect the necklace well and don't let people see it easily. Stay here, don't leave, take care of yourself, eat well, sleep well. Don't trust anyone easily, learn to grow quickly. Don't think about mom and dad and talk less.

Then she disappeared again, and I haven't seen her since. And I also followed her request to talk less and try to grow up quickly.

Later I learned that the place I was in was an orphanage. The dean was a vain, money-hungry woman. Many good-looking, intelligent children were sold by her to rich people. And although I am good-looking, I am a little mute, and dull and dull, so I am not liked by the rich, let alone the dean. Therefore, he is often hungry and often bullied by some older children.

It was at that time that I met my little brother Xiaoyuan, who really loved me in modern times, except for my parents.

The phrase "Don't hit Ruoruo, if it hurts!" opened my heart. It turns out that there are still people in this world who really feel sorry for me. So, I gave him a warm smile when he got in my way and took the punches and kicks from the big kids for me.

And this smile became the motivation for him to decide to protect me. He said I should have laughed like this all the time. He said he would always watch over my smile and watch over me. He said that he was my little brother and I was his Ruoruo sister.

Later, I called him, Brother Xiaoyuan. He was amazed at first, then ecstatic. Hold me and yell happily.

My sister is not a little mute, my sister calls me Brother Xiaoyuan.

From then on we lived together for several years, until that year he was taken away by a noblewoman. On the day I left, he took my hand and said to me, "Little sister, listen to my brother, don't cry." Brother Xiaoyuan is leaving. Brother Xiaoyuan wants to work hard, take the little sister over in the future, and find a wishful husband for the little sister. Let the little sister smile happily forever. ”

"You have to stay here and wait for Brother Xiaoyuan, and come back to see you when I settle down. Buy you a storybook to read. ”

And then the only person in the world who probably loves me and loves me is gone! With a vision for the future, with my future happiness, I am reluctant to leave.

Since that day, I've worked hard to grow up. After I was a child, those children started bullying me again. But this time I won't compromise. Every time they beat me, I would grab a guy and beat him up. Slowly I was able to beat one of them more and more severely, and slowly I got less and less injured.

I started to figure out my own fighting skills, and then secretly went to fight them when they were alone. Slowly from being beaten to beating them up. Of course, they will also come to me in angry clusters. But I still only fight that one, and when I have the opportunity, I will run to fight him when he is alone, and slowly the boy will no longer dare to fight me with them, and I will find another target.

After a few months, the children who used to bully me gradually became my little brothers, and I recovered them. I still waited peacefully for Xiaoyuan's return, although he never came back.

But what I didn't know was that a pair of eyes had been secretly observing me in the dark for a long time.