(The second watch is sent, continue to ask for little powder, I'm going to sleep, An'an)

Zhao Gang's diaries are stored together with the chat records, but the password is set, and Ruhan hasn't seen it for the time being.

Diaries are the most private things, recording the most real thoughts, these diaries have the so-called love stories of him and several women, and he has true feelings for Zhang Nan, Yu Manli, and Zhang Hongmei (Cui'er), but what makes him strange is that he can fall in love with several women at the same time and pay for them willingly.

In his spare time, he would look through these diaries, and each time, he would be touched by himself:

I'm a fish

Today I drank too much again

I don't know why, I drank too much and wanted to call her, but she still didn't answer after calling 50 times

It reminds me, Bo, that I didn't like her, but she liked me, at least until she left China

I remember that night, I was on a business trip, I drank a little wine with my colleagues, I slept, someone called me, I didn't answer, and muted, but when I looked at my phone in the morning, there were nearly 100 missed calls, all of which were from her, and now I understand that when a person thinks about you, no matter how many times he will call, I know that he answered, but I didn't answer.

It's all my fault, I hurt her, and I regret that I shouldn't have let her know me, let alone give her that opportunity - we talked until dawn.

Let go of this emotional problem, there are many problems

I miss her, so I call her, maybe the more I can't get it, it's always the best, I don't know what I thought at the beginning, I have to leave her, I don't understand myself, although I chose to leave, but I really still can't let go, and at that time I had to make that decision, I really don't want to hurt her, I don't want to disrupt her life because of my appearance. Although I was still disrupted, I left, I thought I could solve a qiē, but no, I was wrong, really, I really hope that she doesn't really like me, but I'm still wrong, I just want to say to her: I'm sorry.

n is your eternal treasure

n is your eternal treasure, what about me?

Maybe I'm nothing. Maybe I'm a passerby. Maybe......

There are 14 hours left today. Time flies.

Tears flooded my heart, your unpromise left me helpless, maybe this is the end.

I will no longer shed tears for you, because the tears have dried, because the heart has been pierced, because the path of love has collapsed.

I'll spoil you in everything. But this thing won't, because it hurts too much.

Birthdays don't matter, anyone can spend it alone, but I really don't want to spend my birthday "alone" this year, but in the end it's "alone".

From the day I was about to leave Haicheng, I thought of such an ending, I was entangled, I could choose not to go, but I still wanted to confirm my guess. outcome

It wasn't until I knew the answer that I told my colleagues that it was my birthday because I didn't want to be alone.

Maybe there are many birthdays in a person's life, but I am afraid there are not many birthdays with yours.

I don't have a "gift" for my birthday this year.

Today, happy birthday to me!

Baby. I'm sorry

Today, we are no longer lovers, but good friends, and we will never mention the past in the future, but in my little world, I still want to say what I think, so that my heart can feel better.

Nan, I'm sorry, I failed you, but fate is arranged like this, people who love each other can't be together.

To be honest, sometimes I really hope that your words are true "I'm just in it for the money", so that I don't have to worry about myself and don't blame myself, but I still know that that sentence is not true, even if they all say that I am stupid and say anything about you, I never care, because I know that you love me, and I am the second man you love in your life.

Let's remember our past, to be honest, our first meeting was when I asked my sister to find you, because my sister said "she (that is, you) likes my songs", I want to meet you, because at that time I had just come out of another relationship, I didn't want to stay in the past, I wanted to find a new life, and you didn't want to appear at this time.

There are a lot of things that are said here that you haven't heard, but all of them are the most true.

When I first came into contact with you, I also had this wariness, because I knew that such women were all for money, but soon I found out that I was happy, because you really liked me, I conquered you, or you conquered me, no matter what, we were very happy together, especially the other day, I said "I'm ready, are you ready", you weren't ready, so I won't touch you until you're really ready.

For you, I rented you a house, a little fast, we have only known each other for a few days, but I still did it, buy a mobile phone and what you want, it is expensive, to be honest I feel a little distressed, but for you I still did it, buying that dress, it was a little difficult for me, I hesitated, I was afraid that what I did was not worth it. No way, because I like you and love you, I still did it, I made a lot of determination, or I said that there was no way not to do it, and I could only do it, this is the consequence of coming out to play, and I fell deeper and deeper.

There must be a reward for paying, this is the principle of doing things, but I don't think the reward I get is enough, you are too picky, so I want to scare you, I took the clothes, and then that qiē happened, and our relationship began to have a gap.

And the reason why I didn't take the initiative to buy clothes was because I just agreed to let you go to work, and you went out to fool around, I was very angry, I have been hesitating whether you are worth it for me to do that, and then I think, do it, I didn't listen to the dissuasion of others, because I want to see what kind of woman you are, the same step as her, the result is inevitable, women are the same, money is very important.

But I know you still love me (maybe I'm too poisoned).

It's like ignoring me for clothes, I feel an inexplicable helplessness, and I even think of leaving this noisy city, leaving this life that I don't belong to, that is, at that time I met my destined fate in this life, and with her comfort, I have hope again.

I gave you another chance, but frankly, I kept in touch with her while I was with you, but only by phone, because she came home the day after the accident.

Zhao Gang is talking about her here, she is Zhang Hongmei, that is to say, when he was with Zhang Nan, although he had little contact with Zhang Hongmei, he never broke contact. RL