(PS: Hanhan bowed and thanked Sister Ran Ran's little fan, what a surprise, Mo Da, thank Brother Yixue, book friends, and Brother Superman for their gifts, thank you Brother Erhu for your wonderful long comment, what a talented brother, (*^__^*)

Hee-hee...... Thank you Brother Ben for working hard to build the building, you are all the best, Mo Da)

That night, the two of them lay in bed, thinking about their own thoughts, and did not fall asleep until very late.

The next day, Zhao Gang went to work, Ruhan was home alone, after cleaning the room, he didn't comb his hair or wash his face, so he sat on the sofa and thought nonsense. Thinking about it, he was irritable, so he found Zhao Gang's dirty clothes and put them in the washing machine to wash. In the slight roar of the washing machine, she felt her heart be stirred like those dirty clothes, unable to extricate herself.

In the depths of Ruhan's heart, I am looking forward to Zhao Gang marrying her, the two snuggle up to each other, live an ordinary and comfortable life, and after the New Year, they can go home to see their parents together, and when they get off work, they can chat while watching TV. At the same time, she is very conflicted, if Zhao Gang marries her, then their happiness is based on the pain of others, which is unfair to Liu Chunyan and the child. After thinking about it for a while, Ruhan decided not to stick to her original intention, but to retreat to the next best thing, not to get married, as long as Zhao Gang is a person, as long as there is a family, she will wait for him at home, and come over to accompany her when it is convenient for him.

I want to have a home, a home that really belongs to you and me, don't need to be too prosperous, as long as you accompany me, I am a bracket of happiness, never separated from you, hugging each other, walking on the street at dusk, behind me, the red sunset only reflects the back of you and I rely on each other, walking footprints, leaving only romantic memories, I make a romantic breath for you with my heart, every day like this life, I would rather exchange a qiē in the next life for the happiness of being with you in this life, I really want to have a home, I love you, You love my home, the dining table is the food you cook for me with love, wearing the clothes I have washed for you, I only feel that I am always hugging you, warmth and happiness are always in my heart, in addition to loving you with my heart, I can no longer find how to take better care of you, please remember, it's not that I don't believe that you and others will live happily, but I'm really afraid that she doesn't love you so much I don't love you so much, I want a home with you so much, I walk with you at night, snuggle under the stars, you are under the long pavilion in the park, the cool night breeze blows my hair, you only smell the fragrance of my body, let me really revel in your arms, when sleepiness hits, let you hold me back home, open the warm softLighting makes our sweet words more flavorful, this kind of night romance, will you promise to spend the rest of your life with me, do you and I want to have such a home, a family that only belongs to you and me, and a family of future children, a family of three lives quietly and happily, and will not quarrel because of unpleasant things, because I regard you as the world, and when I agree to marry you, I have already done a good job, and I will listen to you, happiness and romance are the colors of this whole family, please believe me, I only believe once in my life, I have always longed for such a home, but I am not sure who will accompany me to build such a home, waiting for the arrival of that person, afraid that fate will play tricks on me, afraid that it is not you who will accompany me through this life, but another, he is even more unsure that you and I will have a good moon between you, or go to the end of the world, just want you to remember, you have to keep it in my heart, this happy home is built for you, if you have no chance to live in this life, I will only see it as you forgot to bring the key, please come to the next life, please come to the next life, and then come to this real home that belongs to you, come to this life, the next life。 In the next life, in this life, I don't know if you are the first to choose this life or the next life, but I will wait slowly, slowly wait for your arrival, because I put the key to the door for you under the doorbell This is a small poem written by Ruhan for Zhao Gang, she has not shown it to Zhao Gang, nor has it been published in the space, but saved it in her own computer, just waiting for the day when they have a real home to read it to Zhao Gang.

In the definition of a woman, home is a private space, a haven of love, there is no woman who does not desire the warmth of home, home is a place shared with her lover, unique, not allowed to be trampled on, Ruhan knows, she and Zhao Gang have never had a real home, Xingling's "home" Zhao Gang's wife has been, an unknown woman has been; Hulin's home does not belong to him, because she knows very well that Zhao Gang does not like her to go to Hulin to see him, no matter what the reason. Compared with when he was in Xingling, Zhao Gang was much less enthusiastic.

Ruhan thought about finding a home of their own. She told Zhao Gang her thoughts, but Zhao Gang didn't agree, and he didn't object too much, but with the current situation, there was no need to look for a house, let Ruhan live in his dormitory, and look for a house when the two could be together often when they returned to Haicheng. Ruhan is a little lost, she has been under a lot of pressure with Zhao Gang, she has a lot of grievances, she doesn't want to live this unstable life anymore, she just wants to have a home, so that she and Zhao Gang's love can be relied on.

After getting off work in the afternoon, Zhao Gang went out to socialize, came home very late, washed up, the two lay on the bed and chatted, Zhao Gang suddenly mentioned his former lover Zhang Nan.

"Baby, there's something I think I need to tell you, I don't want to hide it from you anymore, you should know. I want to tell you about me and Zhang Nan. ”

"Zhang Nan?!, husband...... Why do you suddenly want to talk about this?" Ruhan asked puzzled.

"Baby, I don't want to hide anything from you, I will tell you slowly if you don't know......" Zhao Gang said guiltily.

Ruhan didn't make a sound, it was a tacit approval, and he just wanted to hear what he said.

Before being with Zhao Gang, Ruhan didn't know that he had a lover, until a chat, Ruhan joked with him and asked him if there was anyone else besides himself, Ruhan just asked casually, but he didn't expect Zhao Gang's "answer" case to be "yes" Ruhan thought he was deliberately angry with himself, so he smiled and asked if they were separated. Zhao Gang said that they were separated, Ruhan wanted to continue asking, but when she saw the tears in his eyes, she realized that she was joking, but Zhao Gang was serious.

At that time, Ruhan was immersed in sudden love, and didn't mind Zhao Gang's words, and when she heard Zhao Gang say that she had broken off contact with Nan, she didn't ask anything anymore, but she could see from Zhao Gang's demeanor that Zhang Nan had a very important position in Zhao Gang's heart, and Zhao Gang never forgot her.

Ruhan was a little worried, but Zhao Gang repeatedly said that he would no longer contact Zhang Nan, and it was Zhang Nan who abandoned him, and the two of them could never be together, Ruhan believed his words, and never mentioned Zhang Nan again, nor did he doubt Zhao Gang's sincerity to himself. It wasn't until this moment that Zhao Gang took the initiative to mention the story with Zhang Nan, and Ruhan remembered that there was such a woman who appeared in Zhao Gang's life with the same identity as herself. It's just that Nan is in the past tense and himself is in the present tense. After pondering for a moment, Zhao Gang narrated the story of him and Nan in a deep and emotional voice: " At the end of 2010, I was very irritable because of work, I asked two buddies to go to relax, in KTV, I met Nan, I was not impressed, I thought it was very beautiful, and then I met Nan again when I went again, she thought my singing voice was very good, after several contacts, we had a good impression of each other, came together, I took her to the cinema to watch a movie, and a few days later I found her a house, rented it at a high price, the house was very beautiful, we officially moved into a new home, I have been with her for many days. On December 19, I promised her one thing, I bought her a mobile phone, which was the most popular Apple 4 at the time.

After a while, some of her practices began to confuse me, I didn't know whether she loved me or my money, and after her repeated requests, I bought her a very expensive dress, a ring, and a necklace. I paid a lot for her, I had feelings and money, but she was still not satisfied, betrayed me, brought a man to our house, and was seen by me, but I loved her too much, I wanted to forgive her, but after I forgave her, she did something that made me sad, I went to Sanya with my friends without my consent, and I was very angry when I came back, but she was still that temper, and I realized more deeply that she was probably just loving my money, and when the goal was achieved, she would leave, and sure enough, as I expected, she proposed to break up in our quarrel, and told me to commit suicide, I don't know if he will really commit suicide, but I love him, no matter whatI don't want to lose her ......"

"Is she dead, Zhang Nan is dead?" Ruhan interrupted Zhao Gang's words, a little excited.

“…… No, I stopped it in time and I kicked open the door to her house...... She's fine...... There is nothing to do" Zhao Gangqing lost control and choked up several times. "I found out later that she was scaring me, and she wouldn't have killed herself at all!

After listening to Zhao Gang's words and knowing the story of him and Zhang Nan, Ruhan understood that Zhao Gang had never forgotten this woman.

"Piggy, don't cry, isn't it good that he's okay, and I can't tell that she loves you very much, if she really loves you, she won't leave you no matter what" Ruhan comforted Zhao Gang, this is her understanding of love, Ruhan firmly believes that what never leaves is true love.

Zhao Gang did not respond to Ruhan's words, and lay on the pillow with tears, and the room was silent. Later, Ruhan accidentally saw the chat records of Zhao Gang and Nan, only to know that he had never stopped caring about Nan, the mobile phone password 1214 is still Nan's birthday, they have always been in contact, Ruhan began to suspect that two months after breaking up with Nan, Zhao Gang chose herself, what is it for, she even suspects that she is just Zhao Gang's healing tool, for herself, how much does Zhao Gang love?