Chapter 276: If only I were an orphan
Seven days later, the final challenge will be, and if it fails, all-out war will ensue.
On this day, Tianyou wandered alone in the shopping street of the gods, Tianyou ordered a meatball roast at a local stall, a string of five meatballs, with a red spicy sauce on top, Tianyou ate quietly there, looking at the people around who kept buying and selling things, there was a new place of trial for the dependents, and the demons were not making trouble, they were all waiting for the battle in seven days, once the god of the world destroyer wins, he will lead the demons to start slaughtering and destroying the gods and many worlds.
"Your Excellency is an elven god, right?" A girl with a mask, dressed in casual clothes, asked in front of Tianyou, and Tianyou replied in a daze: "Yes, you are?"
"Oh, let me introduce myself, my name is Wuxin, the demon clan came here to wander around, is it said that the land of the gods is quite big, and there are things for sale everywhere!" the girl finished and looked around.
Tianyou continued to stare at the balls in his hand: "It's okay!"
The masked girl was unintentional: "Seven days later is the decisive battle, so why is the Heroic Spirit God still eating in front of the stall?"
Tianyou smiled and replied, "Just because it's a decisive battle, I decided to eat and drink well and sleep well these days!"
The masked girl is heartless: "You are a typical heartless!"
Tianyou stretched out his hands: "Sort of! After all, he used to be a heartless human being!"
"Oh, oh human, what kind of person were you before?" asked Intriguedly.
"It's all said that he is a heartless person...."Tianyou didn't finish.
The masked girl was unintentional: "Be specific! For example, dreams, life experiences, etc., regrets or something!"
Tianyou: "You're here to dig up my story?" Okay, it's boring to be idle, where do I want to start?"
Tianyou fell into memories, he is an ordinary person in that world, after the nineties, after the end of junior high school, he began to work independently because of family factors, and he has done a lot of things, waiter, repairman apprentice, network manager, he and his friends went to their own capital to see, and became a high-end community security guard, and then that there was an apprentice in the back kitchen of the hotel, and then went out to change the knife with side dishes, more than 20 years have passed, and the teenager has also smoothed the edges and corners after so many years, and the impulsive temper of Mao Leng is gone, and he seems to be a walking dead life every day, going to work during the day, watching anime after work, and the teenager sometimes asks himself"Is this kind of life what you want? It doesn't seem like it, do you feel miserable and poor? No, there are many people who are worse than yourself, and you haven't complained about anything, but the more time passes, the more you feel that the world is boring, this world is not the world you like, and you feel lost, and you have lost your goal in life, and then sometimes you will have an idea that you are born, is it really right? Is it meaningful?"
The masked girl was careless: "And then? This is you, Heroic Spirit?"
Tianyou smiled self-deprecatingly: "Who knows? It could be that I could be anyone, maybe not one person, but a group of people, the same people"
The boy is in his twenties, although he has achieved nothing, but he barely lives and can support himself, but the boy feels that this kind of life has no meaning at all, even if he likes to buy a house and get married in the future, but what is the difference between him and ordinary people? Besides, isn't this kind of life tiring? Isn't it boring? Can't he cross over to the middle?
Later, a few years later, the boy was already twenty-seven, and he saw that he was about to go to thirty, and he also figured out something, and he was depressed and degenerate over the years, and he also fell into darkness like this society, and he gave up on himself, but he also hoped that he could have a good life.
Now that it has been shattered, the teenager has no dreams, aspirations, and things that he desires so much, and what he is living now is the shackles and morals that he was born to be given.
It's not that you want to do this, but some burden forces you to do these things you don't like, life is like this, nine times out of ten it is unsatisfactory, life is uncertain every day, you don't know what you will be greeted when you wake up the next day, what will happen around you, and who you will meet.
"I'm bored, I'm tired, I seem to be ............ dead"
This kind of thought began to emerge in the young man's heart, there is no goal in life, there is no courage to die, and there are worries about drama, so he continues to live half-dead like this, and he has been in love a few times in his life, but people can't be together just because they like it.
Boy: "What is the point of my life? Why do you want to live such a tiring and boring life, although human beings cannot control their own destiny, they can control their own life and death!"
You can choose your own way of death, since you were born, you never thought about leaving alive, some people say that it is not good to be born, but it also takes courage to choose death by yourself, and it is a lot of courage!
Some people say how good it is to live, eat and drink well, have fun or something, and some people just say that they work hard, make money, start a business, and fight!
God bless: "But these are your own ideas, don't impose them on others! Everyone's thoughts and experiences are different! What follows is different choices, but teenagers are different, teenagers are more terrible than dead houses, teenagers' hearts are empty, there is only one thing in their hearts, boring seems to sleep and never wake up, hate everything around them, see enough of all the dirty things around them, positive energy? hehe!"
"Don't talk to me about that, everyone has no qualifications to talk about others, you only have the qualifications to manage your own qualifications and decide your own qualifications for life and death!"
How many years have you not laughed heartily or laughed happily?
How many things have been lost and regretted?
Do you remember your dreams?
"No! And it's not that I forgot! Because I didn't have any wishes since I was a child, and I've always come here in such a muddle! I don't want to get anything I want very much, but there are a lot of things I hate!"
What about favorite things and people?
"Two-dimensional, is it still a like, very, very favorite person.....?
"Even if you have some friends around you, but even when you are with your best friends, you know that you are smiling and not smiling, why do you forget the feeling of really laughing?"
"Ah~~~~"
When did you become like this?
Why did you lose the will to live?
Even if you haven't suffered too many setbacks, what made you like this?
"An ordinary life can't be in an ordinary life, I really want to end, but I don't have that kind of courage, and it will cause trouble to the people around me, sometimes I feel like I would be an orphan......."