Gu Tianyou grew up in prison for the first 14 years of his life, saw the most evil criminals, heard the most complicated and tortuous criminal experiences, but never came into contact with the lights of his parents in an ordinary life. On the first day I came to Jiang's mother's house, I sat at the small dining table, looking at the fragrant white rice in the bowl, the braised pork on the plate that looked ordinary but exuded the taste of home, and the girl with bright eyes and bright teeth opposite, and suddenly felt that everything in front of me was as unreal as a dream.

If it's a dream, then you might as well go for it.

From this day on, Gu Tianyou's fate took a turn. It seems to be back on the normal track of life that a child of his age should follow.

Jiang Chunxiu's family told Tianyou by word and deed that in addition to the evil side of this world, there is also another side of goodness. But she can only instill this concept into Tianyou's brain, but she can't dig out the deep-rooted evil skills and the bad roots of cold reality in Tianyou's brain.

While in prison, the body is not free, but there are no mental restrictions. And since coming outside, schools, teachers, parents, morality, laws, all kinds of constraints and rules have come from all directions. For Tianyou, who is used to being independent and free in spirit, this is difficult to adapt.

He is unruly, with a mind and insight far beyond his peers, and everything his classmates like is naïve and unfamiliar in Tianyou's eyes, and he can't arouse the slightest interest. Because of this, it was difficult for him to make any friends at school. Most of the time, Gu Tianyou always strolls alone on campus, without any sense of existence.

Fortunately, there is also Xu Jiahui.

Gu Tianyou likes Xu Jiahui. At first, it was out of the instinct of adolescence to yearn for the opposite sex. After living together for a long time, this love has gradually expanded into love, I love Xu Jiahui's sunshine and fitness, I love her big grinning temperament, and even her little temper that attacks and suddenly goes out, and even her appearance of picking her nose is so interesting in Tianyou's opinion.

Gu Tianyou's age is the young Mu Ai, the age when he has just begun to have great curiosity about the opposite sex, and the impulses of adolescence are like a beast ready to go, trying to devour his reason at any time. But no matter how strong the impulse in his heart was, he could always submit to the beast.

Not only because of the strong self-control ability that he has practiced since childhood, but also because the person who taught Tianyou to read and write is Miao Shifan, this sick and cruel serial killer most of the time only passes on art and not morality, and in the more than a year that Tianyou has studied with him, the only moral constraint he instilled in Tianyou is to respect women.

In the prison ecosystem, rapists are the most despised kind of people. Tianyou remembers that at that time, the only thing Miao Shifan was keen on was torturing this kind of person. Every time he has a whim, he likes to find a rapist and teach himself to do mock surgery on others.

From the age of fourteen to Jiang's mother's house, for two whole years, Gu Tianyou maintained his innocent and holy love for Xu Jiahui.

However, the fire of youth is constantly burning, and it is not just God who is tested for reason.

This year, Gu Tianyou and Xu Jiahui were both sixteen years old, and they entered high school one after the other.

Two young men and women who are in the stage of being extremely curious about the body of the opposite sex live under the same roof, Gu Tianyou is a young man, tall and delicate, and his special life experience brings him a mature charm that is far superior to that of teenagers of the same age, both physically and psychologically. And Xu Jiahui is already a slim girl in the flower season, like a flower hanging with morning dew and budding flowers.

He and she were attracted to each other at the age of the beginning of love, and everything started naturally, as beautiful as a good couple.

Gu Tianyou can resist his growing desires, but he can't resist the growing enthusiasm of Xu Jiahui, who is cheerful and decisive by nature.

Jiang Chunxiu is busy with work most of the time, and her husband Xu Jinwen is a border guard and is away all year round. In this family, most of the time, there are only two teenagers and men who lack common sense about sex, and they have a lot of private time for each other every day. Coming together seems to be a natural thing.

It happened on the winter solstice, and that afternoon, the sun was exceptionally bright.

When Gu Tianyou returned home, Jiang's mother was working overtime in the unit, and Xu Jiahui was preparing dinner there. She wears a blue and white sportswear, the sun shines on her, and the graceful lines exude the glow of youth. Gu Tianyou's eyes were as calm as water, staring at her, and the desire in his heart was already surging.

Xu Jiahui suddenly raised her head and smiled at Tianyou, "What are you looking at?" Can't help yet? As he spoke, he hooked his fingers. It's a hook finger, not a beckon. Tianyou walked over like an evil one, Xu Jiahui suddenly got up, as if her feet were slipping, and the whole person fell into Tianyou's arms.

The fiery youth was as red as blood, and the joy and pain brought by the first sacrifice of life were intertwined, and the two young men and women finally stepped on the forbidden area and picked the forbidden fruit of life.

Xu Jiahui was unexpectedly pregnant••••••

was first discovered by Jiang's mother, and then the angry Xu Jinwen rushed home when he heard the news. In this family, he is Jiang Chunxiu's husband and Xu Jiahui's father. In a certain border defense department, he was the deputy squadron leader of the armed police of a certain anti-narcotics unit, and was awarded a hero of third-class merit many times. On the day he learned of this, he rushed home from the army, and when he entered the door, he raised his gun and pointed it at Gu Tianyou's head.

"We took you home from the number, provided you with food, provided you with education, helped you integrate into society, and lived a normal life, and that's how you repaid us?"

Xu Jinwen's angry gaze was about to breathe fire, and his trembling hands seemed to be unable to resist the urge to pull the trigger. If it weren't for Jiang Chunxiu's desperate blocking, it would be difficult to say whether this father, who was in anger and valued tradition and loved face, would really shoot.

"I'll take care of it!" Gu Tianyou honestly stood in front of Jiang's mother. Although the little boy looks thin, he already has more than the average adult's size, and he looks at the middle-aged woman who accepts him with all sincerity and tolerance from a condescending perspective, and there is no remorse in his expression.

Jiang Chunxiu was willing to believe that Gu Tianyou's words were sincere, but she couldn't make the decision, so she just shook her head helplessly and set her eyes on her husband.

The Xu family is a very traditional family, and Xu Jiahui's pregnancy is completely unacceptable to Xu Jinwen. Not only did he hate Gu Tianyou, but he was even more angry with his daughter for doing such an immoral thing. His face was full of anger, and he turned to Xu Jiahui••••••

"Don't touch her!" Gu Tianyou raised his voice and shouted: "It's all my fault from beginning to end, I forced her!" ”

Xu Jinwen turned around abruptly and stared at Gu Tianyou. Of course he knew it wasn't. But Gu Tianyou's words made him see a possibility.

Gu Tianyou's expression remained unchanged, and his gaze was firm.

After a long time, Xu Jinwen's tense expression seemed to loosen slightly, took a deep breath, and asked, "You will say this everywhere?" ”

Xu Jiahui is still young, Gu Tianyou wants to take responsibility, but Xu Jinwen doesn't plan to give Tianyou this opportunity at all. In his opinion, Gu Tianyou, a child who grew up in prison, is not worthy of being his son-in-law at all, and his daughter is pregnant unmarried at a young age, which is a loss of women's morality. The Xu family's innocent reputation must be preserved.

Gu Tianyou saw through his mind and simply took all the responsibility on himself. At that moment, Xu Jiahui looked up at him, her eyes were sad, and she shook her head frequently. He turned his head to look at his father in a rage, and finally slowly closed his eyes and did not speak. For a girl who grew up under the care of her parents, it is too difficult to help Tianyou resist her father at this moment.

Gu Tianyou looked at her and said with a smile: "It's okay, although I can't afford a family now, but at least I can afford to bear a few infamy, you are good, I don't care!" ”

Xu Jinwen turned a deaf ear to Jiang Chunxiu's dissuasion, stared at Tianyou, gritted his teeth and said: "This is what you said, if you do what you say, I count you as a man enough!" ”

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Before the Spring Festival ended, Gu Tianyou was sent to a juvenile correctional facility for the crime of seduction.

This year, he was sixteen years old. The trajectory of life that has been reversed seems to have turned back, back to the original set track.

Juvenile detention center, an institution for minor children who have made serious mistakes and broken the law. For other children, walking here almost means that their future life is completely denied, and it is difficult to turn back. But for Tianyou, who grew up in prison since childhood, this place is only a low-difficulty return journey.

This is the golden time of Gu Tianyou's life, and the seemingly harsh life in the juvenile detention center is not difficult for him. Whether it is coping with labor and study, or dealing with various people such as correctional police officers, he is able to advance and retreat with ease. At this time, Gu Tianyou was a young man, tall and handsome, enjoying a comfortable and worry-free time.

Once a person has a goal, he will not be blind.

Thoughts are like a fire, urging Gu Tianyou to work hard to adapt to the laws of society. Study and study, grow up in a way that is recognized by everyone, and wait for one day to grow up, to be a so-called useful person to society, to be able to shoulder the responsibilities of a family, and to be recognized by Xu Jinwen.

In the spring, Gu Tianyou sat on the windowsill, the mountains in the distance were vibrant, but he turned a blind eye, holding Xu Jiahui's letter and reading it over and over again. In summer, the orchard outside the wall, the peach and plum are fragrant, the flowers are red and willow green, Gu Tianyou is too lazy to look at it, holding a thick stack of letters, new and old, never get tired of looking at them. In autumn, the self-planted vegetable garden of the juvenile detention center was full of fruits, melons, fruits and vegetables were shining in red and green, and Gu Tianyou rubbed the letters sent in the summer, and his heart was empty.

From July to October, Xu Jiahui had not heard from her for three months.

After several rounds of tossing and turning, I asked someone to inquire about the news that Xu Jinwen had been promoted, and the family had moved to the south with the army. Gu Tianyou had no way to inquire about the new address of the Xu family, so he could only look forward to Xu Jiahui's letter, but Xu Jiahui never wrote again.

Until one day, Jiang's mother came and brought Xu Jiahui's breakup letter, and there was no new address on the envelope. She said in the letter that she had started a new life in a new city, was working hard for her life goals, that she was still young, not yet old enough to make decisions about her love life, and that she had made God forget about her••••••

Torn pants and wrapping legs is not Gu Tianyou's character, since Xu Jiahui has made a choice, he will simply let go, even if it makes him feel painful.

The most beautiful thing in life is the first love, and the most helpless thing in life is always the first love.

A beautiful relationship that poured all Gu Tianyou's enthusiasm finally ended without a problem. As the song goes, the merciless bonds of the world always divide the amorous people on both sides.

A woman's charm is always related to men, and a man's growth is also inseparable from women.

The experience of falling out of love for the first time in his life taught Gu Tianyou one thing, you can be sincere in your feelings, you can work hard, but you must not be stuck in the mud and cannot extricate yourself, you can let go and be able to receive.

Mother Jiang sighed and left, and Gu Tianyou closed herself for three days without eating or drinking. finally realized that to survive in this society, the weak can only go with the flow, at the mercy of fate, what the society gives is only what they deserve, and the current self is a weak person in front of Xu Jinwen. If you don't want to let fate take away everything you love, you must be a strong man.

At present, you can study in the juvenile detention center, but the sentence is only 18 months, and seeing that the autumn is past the winter, what kind of life will you live after you leave here at the end of the next year? What does it take to be a give-and-take?

At that time, I was forced to learn all kinds of skills, and I never thought about what I was going to do in the future, and in the two years at Jiang's mother's house, there seemed to be only one Xu Jiahui in the whole world. For her sake, Gu Tianyou doesn't mind doing anything to become a kind of person. Now, Xu Jiahui has left, and the previously clear goal is suddenly blurred again.

Wandering the rivers and lakes?

With an ancient color trick, you can be a wandering artist who sells for a living. But as soon as I thought of this, the old face of the old immortal came to mind. He always said that this world doesn't raise tricksters. And the life of a strong man should not be like that.

In the sixteen years of my life, in the first fourteen years, everything I saw and heard was related to crime, and it was all anti. Social. Miao Shifan has taught himself many practical skills, but he needs diplomas and qualifications to practice medicine, and he needs capital to engage in finance, and he does not have these two conditions at present. And the rules of this society are so unbreakable. What's more, these two professions are not something that can be achieved on paper.

In the two years since I left the number, in addition to having a romantic love, I went to school for two years under the examination system. All the scholars are used to cope with the exam, not to mention becoming a strong person, it is all wishful thinking to make a living.

However, it is not completely nothing, at least I have realized a reality: this is a world of competition, the competition is dad, and the fight is also dad, and the vast majority of social resources have long been divided according to the division of strength. The director's son became a section chief, and the worker's child became a worker. In that so-called strong field, there are very few self-made people. There seem to be only two ways for a young man like himself to rise in this era of peace and become a strong man who occupies a lot of social resources.

The first one, the sword goes off the edge and catches the door, which is the way to play with the fire and dancing on the tip of the knife. It's the heartbeat that plays, and the fight is a small life. It's a tightrope walk that requires a great deal of skill. I remember that Long Ye said that the society outside is not two distinct black and white worlds, and there is an extremely narrow gray area between the two. Once you learn the skills to survive in this gray area, there's nothing you can't do.

The other way, which is relatively safe, is to cling to the strong. Follow the strong, and then become the strong. This road is not easy to follow, but it is much easier than the first one. However, it comes at the cost of dignity and time.

Because the strong don't need the strong around them, all they need are dogs, hunting dogs, pugs, and watchdogs. If you want to rely on the strong, you must first learn how to give full play to your own strengths and be a good dog. It will undoubtedly take a long time to go from a good dog to a person who is on an equal footing with the strong. Many people have been doing it all their lives and have not survived.

There is no need to weigh it, Gu Tianyou is self-aware, and he is destined to be a dog in his life. Because since birth, the people who have been in the deepest contact with him have never taught themselves how to be dogs. Long Ye Rong has been on the horse for half his life, and he would rather bend than bend. Miao Shifan is unruly with unique skills; The leader of the blasting team is gentle and introverted, soft on the outside and rigid on the inside, and would rather be broken jade than a complete tile; The old immortal wanders for half a life to be self-sufficient, and the world does not support craftsmen, and would rather be imprisoned for life than flattery and entertain.

Hey, it seems that the only way to start is to get out of the way.