023 Between going and staying

When I got back to the beech ranch, it was already eleven o'clock in the evening. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 infoAt this time, New York has just begun to revelry, but in this small town, everything is quiet, you can clearly hear the sound of the stream flowing and the breeze in your ears, and the world is so quiet that it seems that only you are left.

At Lily's insistence, Ronald personally sent them back, and after confirming that Cole and Lu Li were fine, they left.

After watching Cole return to the cabin next to him, Lu Li was the only one left in the main house. I drank a lot of beer tonight, and although he wasn't drunk, his steps were still a little erratic, and he really hadn't relaxed, enjoyed, and partyed for a long time. The picture in my mind is still vivid, the roaring bonfire, the aroma of roast pigs, the swirling skirts, the bright eyes and bright teeth, the cowboys singing and dancing...... It seemed that the laughter was still echoing in the air, and the aftermath lingered.

Looking around the unfamiliar hall, it is only the second time he has returned here, but Lu Li has already developed a sense of familiarity at home, and those unfamiliar furnishings are telling the traces of Liz's life, intimate and quiet, Lu Li can describe in his mind the appearance of sitting on the porch quietly watching the sunrise and sunset.

Follow the stairs to the second floor, where there is a room at the left and right ends of the hallway, the master bedroom on the left, two rooms in the middle, and the guest bathroom at the end of the right.

Open the door of the master bedroom, there is an empty piece inside, only a bed frame and an octagonal cabinet, unlike the downstairs hall, all traces of life seem to have been erased, as if no one has ever lived here, through the huge glass window of the bedroom, the bright moonlight and twinkling stars are clearly visible, and you can vaguely see the pasture that slowly blends into the night in the quiet, and the coldness and loneliness in the room set off the cruelty of yin and yang more and more clearly.

Closing the bedroom door again, Lu Li returned to the middle of the hallway, opening a room at random, planning to spend the night here tonight.

There was a single bed with sky-blue checkered sheets, a movie poster of "The Godfather" and a poster of "Back to the Future" on the wall, a bookcase by the door was stuffed with books, and the upper and lower shelves were full, and directly opposite the window was a large desk with a few knick-knacks scattered on it, as if someone was still living here last night.

Lu Li suddenly realized that this was Dylan's room. Liz carefully kept everything in the room, and the thin layer of dust must have accumulated recently.

This made Lu Li's footsteps stay in place, quietly looking at the space, the small Statue of Liberty key chain on the table attracted Lu Li's attention, he involuntarily stepped forward, picked it up and looked at it carefully, he knew that this was the key chain he gave to Liz - sure enough, the one hanging on the pen holder next to it was a big red Chinese knot, Lu Li gave her the key chain and the Chinese knot together as Liz's discharge gift, and it was famous: blessings from China and New York.

Looking at the two gifts in her hand, Liz not only did not casually stuff them in any corner, but also carefully preserved them and kept them in Dylan's room. The last piece of the memory puzzle was put together.

Suddenly, Lu Li remembered his mother who was still at home, the mother who always looked at him with a silent smile, the mother who supported the burden of the whole family with her shoulders without complaint, the mother who encouraged herself to chase her dreams and give it a go, and the mother who shielded herself from the wind and rain with her thick wings.

Liz had never talked about Dylan in front of Lu Li, but in the room in front of her, every detail was telling about the memories that never left or disappeared.

Lu Li once read a passage that said that people will experience three deaths in their lifetime.

The first time was when he died, physiologically speaking, he died, the second time was when he was buried, people came to his funeral, remembering his life, sociologically speaking, he died, and the third time was when the last person who remembered him forgot about him, and emotionally speaking, he actually died.

In Liz's story, did Dylan never leave? But now that Liz is gone, is Dylan gone?

The wind outside the window rustles the branches, and the silence of the night spreads, as if telling the story of the beech ranch.

Lu Li exited the room, carefully closed the door again, and then came to the room near the guest bathroom, which was obviously the guest bedroom.

The layout of the whole room was very similar to that of the next door, but it was much simpler and more generous, the white sheets were neat and clean, there was a lamp on the desk at the foot of the bed, and two notebooks on it, and on the cabinet at the door was a pot of flowers, the wilting buds had not yet fully withered, and it looked like they had been placed yesterday or the day before yesterday - Cole must have prepared them to welcome him.

Lu Li put down his luggage, took out his toiletries, went to the bathroom, and began to prepare for bed.

Standing in front of the mirror and brushing his teeth, he was slightly tired in the projection, and he did feel a little tired from the long journey and non-stop revelry. But in addition to being tired, it is more relaxed, unprecedentedly relaxed, it seems that the whole person is completely relaxed, and the kind of comfort and casualness makes the fatigue of the body swept away and the spirit is vibrant.

Lu Li couldn't help but think of that question again, how should he choose the future? urban and rural, which side is the right side to choose?Degas's paintings, beech pastures, future career planning, life choices and persistence, dreams and freedom...... Trivial topics are sprinkled one after another, but no definite answer can be found.

Lu Li must admit that it was just one afternoon before he fell in love with this town and the life here. Of course, Lu Li knew that ranch life was not so simple, and managing the ranch was certainly not as easy as he imagined, and he was just seeing the positive side of the ranch now, as if he had just arrived in New York and experienced forty-eight hours of sleepless revelry, and the tourists and residents saw a completely different look of life.

But Lu Li can feel that life here is so full and so leisurely, this is a world that is truly completely different from New York.

There is endless farm work every day, perhaps even more onerous than many white-collar jobs, and the income is far less than that of the elite on Wall Street, but here you can feel the true meaning of life, not to live for money, nor to live for the sake of living, but to live for yourself sincerely, and to feel the ups and downs of life.

Every day there are business problems to consider, investing in a business is far more complicated than working for someone else, just look at the difficult operation of the Ritz, if you are not careful, not to mention a Degas, even two Degas will lose it, but here there is a lot of time to really enjoy life, enjoy the joy of working with both hands, and enjoy the freedom of the sky and the sea.

Throughout the afternoon, he didn't take out his phone or check the Internet, but he was extremely happy.

The sunshine, oxygen, grasslands, forests, the broadening of the horizon make the mood more distant, horseback riding, sheep herding, winemaking, barbecue, the joy of the hands personally harvest every minute and every second of time becomes real, singing, dancing, beer, sports, running with muscles makes people lazy and casual.

Picking chrysanthemums under the east fence, leisurely see the South Mountain. The life dreamed of in the poems of the ancients is evolving into reality step by step.

And Liz, Liz with a warm smile.

After getting to know Lily tonight, Liz's image became more and more full and rich, the old lady who had been with her for a month, kind and wise, nagging and warm. She left him the hard work of her life, she left him the home that she missed her son, and she left the memories containing sorrow, happiness, loss, and hope forever on this land and left it to him.

Like the next room, this ranch is proof of Liz's existence, and it is the work of Liz's life. The reason why Liz left the ranch to Lu Li is not only because she misses her son, but also because of her trust in Lu Li, and she believes that Lu Li's meeting will become a gift and be passed on in Lu Li's hands.

If the ranch is gone, Liz is truly gone, and Dylan is gone forever.

Lu Li knew that he could auction the ranch, just like the Degas, and then bring Liz's gift back to China to create a different life, or follow in the footsteps of his journalism profession to become a freelance journalist and run for journalism. But, he didn't want to.

He wants to stay, because of Liz, because of the pasture, but also because of himself, he wants to stay here to "wind the grass and see the cattle and sheep", he wants to stay here to "steal half a day of leisure", he wants to stay here to "ride a horse and gallop and live a wanton life". More importantly, he wants to re-establish the beech pasture, he wants his parents to retire here, and he wants to build his own future and his own life.

When the idea popped up, it was like a spark burning the prairie and couldn't stop it anymore, which really startled Lu Li. He didn't know if it was impulsive, or if it was a whim, for he didn't know anything about running a ranch, for he had only been here for an afternoon, for he was far from being empty of a mountain even after filming Degas...... Choosing a ranch not only means choosing the unfamiliar and choosing the challenge, but also means choosing the unknown.

However, the idea spread uncontrollably. Lu Li clenched his fists and made a choice.

He, decided to inherit the beech pasture!