Forty-seven, compromised

Seeing that the college entrance examination is imminent again, Shandan can't calm down to study, she is very worried about her father's health, and she is also worried about the source of tuition fees for admission to college.

My father's body was no longer able to herd cattle and sheep to earn wages. It also takes a sum of money to treat the disease, and it is really a penny to force down the hero, and the little woman Shandan is still a child, she is very conflicted and uneasy.

In addition to the grain to be jumped, there is not much surplus in the field, and some must be stored in case of a famine.

Although the debt has been paid off by my mother's hard work, the cost of going to college is by no means as small as that of secondary school.

If you have to go away from home, the travel fee is not a small amount.

Shandan is worried!

It's the day to apply for volunteering again, and Shandan can't make up his mind to apply for a key university.

She never had a chance to take another risk, fate had cornered her, and she had no way out!

She can't let her mother suffer her failure again, this time she must succeed, and there must be a happy event here for her mother to expel the gloom in her heart, she has had too much trouble.

After weighing and hesitating, Shandan reported the orientation in the district, and compared and compared, she had no other choice but medical school.

What is the Normal University, the College of Agriculture and Animal Husbandry...... None of them are acceptable to her.

Although choosing medicine is not her liking, at least she can guarantee that she will not lose her job in the future and can earn food whenever she wants. It can also save people's lives and relieve them of the pain of their illness, which is a profession to be proud of and worthwhile, she naively thought.

Mao Daner disagreed with his sister's application for the examination area, he decided that she would definitely be able to pass the key points, and he also knew his sister's ideals and ambitions for so many years, and it was overkill in the application area, which was a great grievance for her.

But how did he know what kind of load she was carrying?!

First, she has to ensure that nothing goes wrong, she can't have any mistakes this time; second, she has to consider the cost, the tuition fee in the examination area is relatively small, and she can save a lot of travel expenses if she is close to home; if there is anything at home, she can come back to take care of it as soon as possible.

People are like that sometimes, having to submit to their fate.

Although she is so unwilling, what can she do? How can she be indifferent to her hard-working parents and the hardships of her family? How can she not take care of them?

She felt that by doing so, she could not only ensure that she could go to school, but also take care of her family, so that her family would not be in debt again because of her entrance examination. In this way, her heart will feel better, and besides, her future achievements will depend on her own struggle.

She also comforted herself: the road ahead is very long, and gold will shine wherever it is.

Mr. Guo was very annoyed when he heard that Shandan had reported the orientation in the district.

He thought that Shandan had flinched—without her original sharpness and fighting spirit.

Although he once advised the child not to be ambitious, it was because he was afraid that she would rather bend and drive himself crazy when she encountered setbacks, and he hoped that she would take a detour and avoid risks when facing the ups and downs of fate.

Now, the results are here, the scores are here, but people are holding back?

Before the volunteer was delivered to the Education Bureau, Ms. Guo found her for the first time since she was tutoring in Shandan.

His first sentence was, "Why did you report to the district? and you didn't discuss it with me?"

Faced with the teacher who had been avoiding him for a year, Shandan's tears flowed like a stream bursting the embankment.

Mr. Guo had heard his lover talk about her sister-in-law and father. He knew that the child had wronged himself again for the sake of her troubled family. Like a father facing his own child, he looked at Shandan with distress and love.

He looked at the child who was sobbing with tears and bowing his head, without the annoyance when he first heard that Shandan had reported to the district, and a trace of uneasiness and guilt secretly rose in his heart, because he did not channel the child's psychology in time and did not give her the care she deserved.

He thought she was quiet and strong in the face of a qiē, and he thought she had overcome herself. He thought that if Tong Guò failed once, her fighting spirit would be infinitely aroused, because she had always been so competitive and refused to admit defeat.

Her eyes always shone with high morale, and there was no dimming for a moment.

In fact, he has been secretly paying attention to her, she is such a different student, he pities him, and he can't let go.

After teaching for so many years, it is the first time that he is so concerned about a student, and he loves her like his own child.

She never let him down, she always did better than he expected, she was so empathetic, she was always considerate of others wronging herself.

Shandan also has his share of responsibility for the mistakes in the college entrance examination, but he has always thought that this is not necessarily a bad thing for this child, and she has always thought that there will be rewards for paying, but in fact, when facing fate, it is not certain.

A defeat or blow may be able to sharpen her edges and corners a little, but it is not enough to wear out her fighting spirit and will.

But in the face of her family's poverty, she once again chose to wronged herself.

Her hard work or filial piety should not be blamed.

Think about how often you can do whatever you want on the road of life?

Shandan didn't say why she applied for the district, she just bowed deeply to her teacher with tears in her eyes, and then pulled away.

Teacher Guo's advice came from behind him: "Take the test well!"

Shandan returned to the classroom, unable to calm down for a long time. How should she answer the teacher's question?

Say you can't afford to lose? Say you don't have money at home and can't afford tuition?

She can only bear the helplessness, bitterness and unwillingness that others can't understand!

Once upon a time, she was so determined that she could be admitted to a major university, and then her ideal would be realized, and the future would be bright, and her relatives would no longer have to suffer and be tired......

She is looking forward to the day when "one person will attain the Tao and the dog ascend to heaven", and when she faced the bitterness and hardship of her relatives since she was a child, she wanted to be the one who "attained the Dao", and she also firmly believed that she was the one who "attained the Dao", and she always believed that she could do this.

She worked so tirelessly, but fate didn't seem to intend to protect her. She was so unconvinced.

But my mother often has a helpless sentence in her ears whenever she faces a hurdle that she can't overcome: "People can't fight for their lives!"

She didn't believe it!

Didn't my mother rely on her own wisdom and hands to create today's life? Didn't she live a life from poverty to worry-free food and clothing?

Maybe sometimes, bow your head to fate, avoid the edge, and twist and turn a little can also "lead to a winding path".

Shandan laughed dumbly at the "winding path" he thought of, maybe the "life" is to bow his head when he should bow his head, turn when he should turn a corner, and can't go one way to the end, right?

After Shandan figured it out, she began to study again, she had to fight against fate with excellent grades, and even deliberately embarrassed her fate.

My father's illness has also improved, and he is still taking medicine.

It's just that the tinnitus is terrible. She consulted Director Gao, who said that it was caused by the toxic side effects of intramuscular streptomycin, and that streptomycin could be temporarily stopped for two weeks before taking the shot.

Shandan's worries were a little more relaxed.

On July 1st, there was still a holiday before the exam, and when Shandan returned home, he saw that the family was happy, and his heart was much more relaxed.

The little nephew Xiaoyu also grew a lot of flesh and flesh, and his eyes could follow people left and right, and his father also had some spirit and could get up and do some housework.

Shandan knew that tuberculosis was an infectious disease, and she saw that her father was very rare and his little grandson was very rare, and she couldn't bear to tell her father to stay away from the child, she was afraid that her father would be too concerned about them and dislike him, and she was also worried that her father would break the jar after being deprived of his only pleasure.

Watching his father customize a trolley with a small wooden board for his little grandson, who couldn't climb yet, the happiness on his face deeply touched Shandan!