In the early morning in a residential area in the United States, in front of a house, Huang Meiying, who had just gotten off a plane from South Korea to the United States, stood in front of the door in a daze, hesitating whether to ring the doorbell to wake up the people in the house. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

She can't accept the fact that Kim Taeyeon and Jung so-yeon are together, even if she has decided that even if she can't become a lover with Kim Tae-yeon, even if she can only be by her side and be a person who silently guards her, she doesn't want to see Jung so-yeon get along with Kim Taeyeon in front of her.

She had never experienced that feeling, and the first time she felt heartache would be unbearable for her.

So she left, leaving only a letter to Kim Taeyeon telling Kim Tae-yeon that she was gone.

But where else could she go? Injured, the only safe haven was probably home, and back and forth to the original point, she still returned to her home in the United States.

When she came to South Korea, she came to fulfill a dream of singing, and the dream has come true, and she has also discovered that she is in love with someone who can care for her for the rest of her life. It's just that in the end, she was injured, and she withdrew from this silent competition with a broken heart.

She knew that she was very reluctant to Kim Taeyeon, but if it went on like this, she would not be able to stand it, afraid that she would quarrel with Jung so-yeon, and asked Jung so-yeon why she robbed her beloved.

For the sake of friendship and in order not to get hurt again, she left and chose to let go, as an adult beauty, to fulfill Kim Taeyeon and Jung so-yeon.

However, when she stood at the door of the house, she hesitated, not knowing how to explain to her family why she suddenly came back, and did not know how to explain the fact of leaving Korea and quitting Girlhood.

When she hesitated, she even felt a trace of despair, feeling that she was superfluous in this world, no one loved her, and no one was willing to accept her.

After standing for a long time, she turned around and wanted to leave, because she didn't want to lie to her father, she didn't want him to worry about her, knowing that she came back because she was emotionally hurt.

But the moment she turned around, the door opened, and Father Huang stood at the door in surprise and looked at his little daughter, and called out in surprise: "Meiying, are you back?"

"Daddy......" No matter how much he hesitated, when she saw that her father was in front of her, Huang Meiying, who had never been able to let go of her family affection, shed tears, gave up the idea of leaving, and turned around and threw herself into her father's arms.

"It's good to be back, it's good to be back. Huang's father also wanted to cry, since Huang Meiying's debut to now, he is the first time to see his daughter again, and in the past two years, relying only on phone contact cannot satisfy his heart of missing his daughter.

The return of his daughter made Huang's father leave behind the fatigue of many days, and the tiredness caused by work seemed to have disappeared, and he happily led Huang Meiying into the house, and was busy taking care of her, as if nothing could make him happier than taking care of his daughter.

After making her favorite American breakfast for Huang Meiying, Huang's father brought the breakfast to Huang Meiying and motioned her to hurry up and taste the breakfast she hadn't tasted for a long time.

Her father's care made Huang Meiying feel very sad, she silently ate the breakfast made by her father, and tears flowed uncontrollably.

"Meiying, what happened?Why did you come back all of a sudden?" How could the father not see the abnormality of her daughter?From the moment she entered the door, he noticed that her mood was not very high, and she looked very unenergetic, as if she was very tired, and Huang's father was a little worried about his daughter's condition, so he couldn't help but ask.

Who knew that this question happened to poke Huang Meiying's heart, tears flowed down like a burst, put down the tableware in his hand and threw himself into his father's arms, crying very uncomfortably.

seemed to understand something, Dad Huang didn't continue to ask, and comforted Huang Meiying while gently patting her back.

When my daughter grows up, it is estimated that she has encountered emotional setbacks and injuries, so she will go home, right? This is fine, at least she is not nothing, and her family can be her safe haven, as long as she finds a better one after being injured once......

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It has been three days since Huang Meiying left, and in the past three days, because of Huang Meiying's sudden disappearance, coupled with the report that Huang Meiying was suspected of going abroad, the outside world seems to have more speculation, thinking that Huang Meiying may have something happened at home, so she suddenly returned to the United States. As for Girls' Generation's Anti, they said that Huang Meiying couldn't bear the busy work and pressure, and fled home like a coward, and there were only eight people left in Girls' Generation.

Because of this kind of positive and negative comments,There was a bloody war on the Internet,SONE clarified for Girls' Generation,Defend Girls' Generation,And Anti is slandered from various unreasonable aspects,So that many people can't wait to find the other end of the computer to beat up the anti who wantonly slanders Girls' Generation.。

However, Kim Taeyeon didn't know about these things. Because Huang Meiying didn't say goodbye, she collapsed, and for several days in a row, she lost her soul like she had lost her soul, she couldn't eat, she couldn't sleep well, she didn't have any anger at all, and the whole person lost her former look.

Zheng Xiuyan knew that she was worried about Huang Meiying to become like this.

But what can she do? The three of them have been together for so many years, and it is only in the last year that they have understood each other's intentions, the difference is that she and Kim Taeyeon came together, but Hwang Mi-young was rejected by Kim Taeyeon, and she couldn't accept this contrast if it was her.

What's more, she cares about Kim Taeyeon, cares about Kim Taeyeon's every move, and knows that she is the kind of person who values feelings, and suddenly the departure of her friend gave her a big blow, so it caused her to become like this.

Maybe it's her insertion that will become like this, right? If it weren't for her confession, she and Kim Taeyeon wouldn't be together, and Hwang Mi-young wouldn't have left, maybe all of this was caused by her.

Jung so-yeon fell into deep self-blame, and kept thinking in her heart that if it was possible, she hoped that Hwang Mi-young would come back, even if it was to separate her from Kim Taeyeon, and she would only accompany Kim Tae-yeon like Hwang Mi-young did at the beginning, as long as she could accompany Kim Tae-yeon.

Because she doesn't want to see Kim Taeyeon lose her soul all day long, it's not like her at all, what she wants to see is the Kim Taeyeon who will show a heartfelt smile after seeing them every day, no matter how tired she is, not Kim Taeyeon who is now lying on the bed like a puppet without thoughts and feelings.

"Taeyeon...... If Pani is here, she doesn't want to see you like this, right?" Jung so-yeon's heart hurts, and she wants to do something to cheer Kim Tae-yeon back up.

But what can she do? Kim Taeyeon's heart disease is Hwang Mi-young, and she can only recover if Hwang Mi-young comes back.

"Let me be alone for a while, I'm fine......" Kim Taeyeon spoke, this was the first time she had spoken in the past few days, and her face was pale and a little uncomfortable, which made people feel very distressed.

"Taeyeon...... Please, okay?Even if you don't think about yourself, for me, for Pani, don't be like this, okay?If you fall ill, how will you face Pani if she comes back?"Jung so-yeon has already decided, if she can really get Kim Taeyeon back together, why not let them separate? Loving someone is not about pestering her for the rest of her life, it is enough to be able to watch her silently and guard her.

As long as Kim Taeyeon can recover, even if she gets Hwang Mi-young back, she doesn't care if the two of them are together.

However, Kim Tae-yeon was silent and did not continue, which made Jung so-yeon very sad, she silently put the medicine in her hand on the side of the bed, turned around and left the room.

After Jung so-yeon left, Kim Tae-yeon looked at the ceiling in a daze, and after a long time, a sentence came out of her mouth: "Pani...... Where are you?"

I was lying on the bed for a long time, and I don't know how long it was, but the doorbell of the dormitory rang, and Kim Taeyeon didn't hear it, and was still lying on the bed.

I heard the sound of someone opening the door and talking, and then I heard the sound of footsteps going upstairs, and it didn't take long for me to come to the door of Kim Taeyeon's room.

"Taeyeon, your aunt is looking for you. It was Jung so-yeon who opened the door, she knew if Kim Taeyeon would get better for a while, in order not to disturb her, and also worried about what to do in the future, she left the room to plan what to do in the future, but met Chen's mother who came to find Kim Tae-yeon.

When she learned that Chen's mother had something to give to Kim Tae-yeon, she hesitated for a moment and took Chen's mother upstairs.

"Auntie......" After seeing Chen's mother come in with Chen Yuxuan in her arms, Kim Taeyeon sat up with her weak body and screamed.

"Are you sick, how did you become like this?" After seeing Kim Taeyeon, Chen's mother was surprised, as if she didn't know Kim Taeyeon.

"Hmm...... I've been sick for several days......" Kim Taeyeon didn't say anything, didn't want to tell Chen's mother about her body, answered along with her words, and then asked, "Auntie, do you have anything to do with me?"

"That's the case, a few days ago, Meiying came to my house to see Xuanxuan and Qiqi, Xiaoyu and Shiyao were not there that day, I just wanted to go out to buy vegetables, so I asked Meiying to help take care of it, and when I came back, Meiying left, as if she had cried, when I asked her, she didn't say, she just left, I should have been too anxious when I left, I didn't notice that Xuanxuan took her things, and I didn't find out until last night, so I came over and wanted to return the things to Meiying. But so-yeon just told me...... The United States and Britain have returned to the United States?"

"Hmm...... She has an urgent matter at home and has to go back for a few days. Kim Taeyeon didn't deny it, anyway, it won't be long before S.M will make a final decision on Hwang Mi-young's departure, and she has been asking them what Hwang Mi-young is doing in the past few days and why the phone can't get through.

"Then this thing ......" Chen's mother said with some embarrassment, freeing her hand to take a pink object in Chen Yuxuan's hand and wanted to give it to Kim Taeyeon, but she didn't expect Chen Yuxuan to cry all of a sudden, holding that thing and refusing to let go, the harder Chen's mother worked, the more she cried.

"I don't know what's wrong with Xuanxuan, anyway, since last night when I saw her holding Meiying's things, as soon as she reached out to take them, Xuanxuan cried, no matter how much she was persuaded, it was the same for Xiaoyu and Shiyao to get it, Xuanxuan didn't give it to anyone, and whoever touched her cried. Chen's mother was helpless, she didn't know what this thing was, she only knew that she knew it was Huang Meiying when she saw the word tiffany on it, but she didn't expect Chen Yuxuan to like this thing so much, and no one was allowed to touch it after holding it in her hand.

"This is ......" Kim Taeyeon was stunned when she saw what Chen Yuxuan was holding in her hand, she recognized that it was a small voice recorder that Huang Meiying bought when she was afraid that she would not be able to remember it when she was suddenly inspired when she was creating, because it was pink, she liked it very much, and specially pasted her name on the voice recorder, but she didn't expect to see it on Chen Yuxuan's hand at this time.

As if because it was Huang Meiying's thing, Kim Taeyeon's originally somewhat weak body seemed to have some strength, propped herself up and got out of bed, walked in front of Chen Yuxuan, and when she wanted to get the voice recorder, she remembered what Chen's mother had just said, and was worried that it would make Chen Yuxuan cry, so she glanced at Chen Yuxuan and tried to say, "Xuanxuan, is it okay to give this to my sister?"

Chen Yuxuan is nine months old, and according to common sense, children of this age still can't understand words, but I didn't expect Kim Taeyeon to say this, Chen Yuxuan looked at Kim Taeyeon in a daze, and slowly stretched out her little hand to put the recorder in front of Kim Taeyeon's eyes.

When she saw this scene, Chen's mother was very surprised, thinking that Chen Yuxuan could understand the words, and looked at the scene in front of her in surprise.

The recorder was taken away by Kim Taeyeon, and Chen Yuxuan did not cry, but turned her head and lay on her mother's body, as if she had completed a very difficult mission, and fell asleep on her stomach after a while.

It seems that Xuanxuan wants to return this with her own hands, so no one will touch it. Chen's mother was also very helpless, she didn't know what to say when she encountered such a situation, so she could only say it like a joke.

"Probably......" Kim Taeyeon smiled helplessly.

Then Chen's mother hugged Chen Yuxuan and said goodbye to Kim Taeyeon, Jung so-yeon went out to see them off, and Kim Tae-yeon stayed in the room, looking at the recorder in a daze.

Moments later, she pressed the play button on the recorder, wanting to hear what Ms. Huang had recorded for the last time.

Even though she is gone now, Kim Taeyeon still wants to hear Hwang Mi-young's voice, even if it is enough to hear only one sentence, as if only in this way can she feel that Hwang Mi-young is still by her side.

“daedae…… Maybe I'm too stupid to tell myself what to say...... Seeing you and Jessi together, I ...... Seriously, it's heartbreaking, but I still hope you can be happy forever...... I'm leaving tomorrow, and I probably won't come back, so I'll take those words from my heart. ”

Kim Taeyeon didn't expect that this recording was actually recorded recently, and it was recorded the day before Hwang Mi-young left. She was surprised, she didn't know what Huang Meiying wanted to say next, so she put the recorder next to her ear and listened carefully.

"I saw that you and Jessi have been together for a long time, and after seeing it, I knew that sooner or later there would be this day, and I didn't know what I could do, and blessing you might be the only thing I could do. You won't hear this recording, but I don't know why, I just wanted to record it, and I think it would be the last time I would express my heart to you. ”

"This song may be the last song I'll sing for you, and after I leave, I may not sing anymore, so ...... Think of it as my parting song......"

When she heard this, Kim Taeyeon was already in tears, and she could almost imagine the scene when Hwang Mi-young recorded this passage.

"This song is called "Reluctant", and I wrote it after the initial confession failed...... Maybe it's ironic, but if it didn't work out, I already thought about the way back, and I wrote such a song......"

"The first time you sat with me~ my palms were empty"

"I know that you are trying to hide those text messages~ I'm afraid I'll be sad"

"Don't ask why~ It's my last tenderness"

"I want to laugh and echo and say that it's good to be separated"

"But how did we ~ cry together"

"I can't bear it~ but I can't go back"

"It's worth loving you~ It's just time to stop"

"You're going to be fine without me"

"I can't bear it~ I hugged you for the last time"

"What we missed ~ If it's wrong, it's wrong"

"Don't worry about me ~ I don't love you anymore"

"Don't ask why~ It's my last tenderness"

"I want to laugh and echo and say that it's good to be separated"

"But how did we ~ cry together"

"I can't bear it~ but I can't go back"

"It's worth loving you~ It's just time to stop"

"You're going to be fine without me"

"I can't bear it~ I hugged you for the last time"

"What we missed ~ If it's wrong, it's wrong"

"Don't worry about me ~ I don't love you anymore"

"At least the memory of me in your memory~ is smiling"

"Honey ~ those days when you held me"

"Really happy"

"I can't bear it~ but I can't go back"

"It's worth loving you~ It's just time to stop"

"You're going to be fine without me"

"I can't bear it~ I hugged you for the last time"

"What we missed ~ If it's wrong, it's wrong"

"Don't worry about me ~ I'm gone"

This recording of Hwang Mi-young is sung a cappella, although there is no melody, but in the singing she sings, Kim Taeyeon can still make Kim Taeyeon feel the reluctance and inner pain when she is about to leave, as if she is in the scene where Hwang Mi-young left to record this recording at this moment.

"Pani ......" Kim Taeyeon cried, she deeply regretted that she was the one who caused all this, so that Hwang Mi-young carried that heavy pain, and in the end she left with bruises.

"Taeyeon ......" Jung so-yeon has already returned, and she has already returned when Kim Taeyeon played Hwang Mi-young and sang the song "Reluctant".

Only then did she know that Hwang Mi-young had a deep affection for Kim Taeyeon, almost surpassing her feelings for Kim Taeyeon, in comparison, what could she compare with Hwang Mi-young? In the end, Hwang Mi-young even chose to quit in order not to hurt the two of them, but she had no choice, she couldn't even comfort Kim Taeyeon.

Maybe she's the loser......

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"Now, do you know the answer in your heart?" After crying, Kim Taeyeon sat on the ground in a daze, and Jung so-yeon also sat beside her in a daze, and at this moment, Kim Tae-yeon's heart once again came out of the unknown voice that appeared that day.

"I ...... Got it...... It's because of what I did wrong that will make Parney leave......" Kim Taeyeon answered the voice in her heart, and when she answered, her heart was fluctuating.

She wants to get Hwang Mi-young back, and without Hwang Mi-young, it would be impossible for her Kim Taeyeon to continue.

"Then you've decided? How do you explain it to Sika?" read Kim Taeyeon's inner thoughts, and the voice asked again.

"I'll tell the truth, whether Xiuyan accepts it or not, I have to do it, otherwise...... I'm better off than dead. ”

"Maybe you should ask Sika for her opinion, she's the one who is with you now. Bye. The voice vanished as if it had never been there.

After a long time, Kim Taeyeon raised her head and looked at Jung so-yeon beside her, and said with determination, "Su-yeon...... I want to go and get Pani back. ”

"......" Zheng Xiuyan didn't speak, and lowered her head and was silent for a long time before saying, "Go ahead......"

"Su-yeon, I don't want to see Pani get hurt because of me, but I also don't want to see you end up in the same way because of what happened to Pani. But I don't know what to do, and I don't know what to do, but I promise you that if I get Pani back, I'll do my best to fix it. ”

How to solve it? The bond between her and Huang Meiying is incomparable to her Zheng Xiuyan, and when Huang Meiying comes back, it may be her turn to leave. But this should be the best ending, right? It would be enough for her to be by Kim Taeyeon's side.

However, when Jung so-yeon just wanted to look up and tell Kim Taeyeon to tell her not to worry about her, Kim Tae-yeon suddenly came and kissed her.

This kiss made Jung so-yeon feel the initiative that she had never had before, and melted into Kim Tae-yeon's kiss for a while, and the tears had fallen unconsciously.

After a long time, after the two separated, Kim Taeyeon wiped away the tears on her face and said softly: "Su-yeon, this is the first promise I made to you, whether it is you or Pani, I don't want to lose." Because...... You are the love of my life, and I didn't understand it until now, so I won't give up on any of you, whether you want to say that I am a flower or something, I admit it, as long as I see you by my side, I can do nothing else. ”

"Taeyeon...... I believe you. From that kiss, Jung so-yeon knew Kim Tae-yeon's determination and understood her intentions, so she didn't say anything more, but handed over her trust to Kim Taeyeon, who made a lifelong commitment to her.

In the afternoon of that day, Kim Taeyeon also left, and with the determination to find Hwang Mi-young and to find back Hwang Mi-young, whom she had always loved but never understood her heart, Hwang Mi-young, who had left her, boarded a flight to the United States.

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