001 Dreams
In the flower-filled courtyard, under the east wing, the green vines crawl all over the shelves for enjoying the shade. The chubby little girl blinked her big round eyes, and as soon as her little fat hand stretched out, she pulled off an emerald green leaf.
"Worms, worms. The little girl giggled and spread out the leaves in her hand to show the nurse.
There are two fat green insects sticking to the leaves, and the meat is not scary, but it is also a worm, how can a child play with insects?
The nurse took the rice bowl to coax the leaves in her hand: "Miss Fifth is good, insects bite people and can't play, Miss Five eats sugar, don't be insects..."
"Don't eat, ...... To the mother...... See for yourself. "The little girl is only two years old and is not yet fluent in complete sentences.
She held the leaf between her hands, no longer showed it to the nurse, and passed under the nurse's arm, and ran into the chamber with a grunt.
"Mother, mother, worm ......"
My mother is not in the east wing, where is my mother? Does my mother not want her anymore? The little girl was a little anxious.
The little short legs ran faster, looking for their mother everywhere in the yard, and the nurse chased her behind, but she ignored it.
Finally found my mother in the main house, my mother held her big belly with her hands, and two lines of tears hung on her face, sitting on the Luohan bed with yellow rosewood and rich flowers, and a man in brocade clothes sat opposite my mother.
"Xiaojue, how can she be a troublemaker, she is just an ordinary child, it is those stinky Taoist priests who are framing her, framing our children, you quickly beat them out. Mother cried.
The father frowned and asked, "When was Xiaojue born?" Have you forgotten, where did those Taoist priests talk nonsense? ”
"Xiaojue was born on the day of the broken city, so what?" The mother stood up suddenly, and she didn't care about protecting her stomach, and said in a trembling voice: "The emperor is on the side of the king, ruling the world, my son was born, this is just the right time, he is a rich and noble person, how can it be a disaster." ”
"Alright. The father also stood up, blushing and said: "This kind of shameless words can be said by your Zhou family, the emperor just came to the city, your brother can't wait to open the city gate, he has long forgotten how his father-in-law guarded the first emperor, it is really disloyal and unfilial, this is a state affair, and it is a great rebellion to shout out, I don't want to say to you an ignorant woman, but you are the same as your thief brother, greedy for power, unkind and unfilial." ”
"Greedy for power, unkind and unfilial?" The mother cried and laughed: "If my brother doesn't open the city gate, do you want my Zhou family to die?
My father was annoyed and embarrassed by what he said: "What good can you get if I die?" And my scenery today is all spelled out by myself, and it has nothing to do with your Zhou family, your brother has been scolded all day long and shrunk his head, and now he is degraded by the emperor to the land of barbarism, what can he help me? He can only harm me to be dragged down and impeached by the imperial history. ”
The more my father spoke, the more angry he became: "My Lin family has been clear for generations, just because I married you, the daughter of a reckless man, and ruined my innocence, I divorced you." ”
"Smack!" The mother slapped his father: "Lin Shize, you finally said this, you bought a channel person, used your mother, and said that my daughter was a curse, didn't you just have a head and tail with that fox spirit, so you want to stop your wife and marry again?"
My mother's family was born as a military general, and my mother knew how to punch and kick, and my father was beaten by him, glaring at my mother angrily, but he didn't fight back.
After a while, my father seemed to have figured out something, sighed, and begged: "Bao'er, you take Xiaojue back to your hometown, your father-in-law is dead, the eldest prince is disabled and can't be counted on, and my brother is now difficult to protect himself, our family is down, and I will be guaranteed if I marry Wen Xianlin's family." I'm doing this all so that you and Xiaojue can live a good life in the future. ”
This is low and small, and I don't know how much true love there is.
The mother did not speak with a sarcastic smile on her face.
My father was embarrassed, but he still persuaded him: "I'll pick you up when I sit down in Sanpin, okay?"
The mother sighed, squirmed, and said nothing.
It was under the green vine frame in the east wing again, this time there was no nurse, and there were no insects, and the little girl felt very uneasy, as if she had lost something.
She thought, she thought, what did she lose?
It was the mother who lost it again.
The yard was quiet today, and my grandmother hadn't seen her since she came.
When my grandmother came, my mother would cry, and she would wipe away her tears.
She ran again and staggered, first to push the door of the east wing, but there was no one in the east wing, so she went to the main room again.
Today, the door of the main room was closed, and she tried hard, but she didn't open it, and she pushed hard, but she still couldn't open it.
She was so anxious that she cried and cried out to someone to open the door for her.
The courtyard suddenly became lively.
"Second lady, open the door, ......"
"Second lady, you can't think about it......"
"The second lady hanged herself......"
All kinds of chaotic sounds came and went, she didn't understand, and she didn't want to understand, only that the door opened, and a woman turned her back to her, swinging on the beam.
The woman was wearing a red dress, the soles of the embroidered shoes were exposed under the corners of the skirt, the sole fabric was luxurious and exquisite, the whole woman was more like a flying butterfly, and the soles were beautiful tentacles, and when the wind blew, swaying, swaying......
It's not her mother, it's not her memory, so why is it in her mind? It hurts her heart.
Lin Xiaojue wanted to open his eyes from the boundless darkness, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't break out of this dream.
The surroundings suddenly became brighter, it was still the small courtyard where my mother lived, and there were two white silk hanging sporadically under the eaves, which looked like a funeral but was not grand at all.
No one spoke, only servants dressed in filial clothes knelt before the threshold of the main house.
At this time, there was no one to take care of the little girl, and she was about to run into the house.
The middle-aged kind, but very haggard servant grabbed her little arm: "Fifth Miss, don't go in, let's not disturb Madame." ”
"Brother...... Brother ......" The little girl's anxious little face turned red, and she stiffened her small body to run into the house: "Mother, give birth to a younger brother." ”
"Wow, wow, wow......" A baby's cry suddenly came from the room. The servant's eyes widened in shock. "Madame is born. The next moment tears flooded her pale face, and she picked up the little girl and rushed into the house.
In the rosewood coffin without a lid, the baby's cry became more and more intense.
The servant put down the little girl and took out a crumpled baby boy from under her mother's red dress.
"It's my brother. "My mother didn't know what kind of spirit she used to give birth to her younger brother in her womb with her dead body. The little girl wept loudly, and she moved her eyes to her mother's face, whose bright smile was gone, and now only blurred and bruised, except for a tear the size of a pearl in the corner of her eye.
"Mother. ”
"Don't. ”
"Don't rob my brother. ”
The light and shadow were like a shuttle, turning out a whirlpool, and there were many fierce old slaves in the yard at once, and they picked up the little girl by the waist and stuffed it under the arm of a wicked slave, and the little girl's world was completely upside down.
"Where's the coffin?, Xu Si, the old goods?" they looked around for their younger brother and the kind old servant, but they couldn't.
"My brother is gone. The little girl laughed silently, unable to make a sound.
As she turned, the yard where her mother lived seemed to be so tall and tall, and gradually, the glazed tiles that shone with a gentle glow became farther and farther away from her.
"Send me this obstacle to the temple. Filled with frightening shouts and helpless stampedes, the little girl disappeared into the white halo in the carriage.
"I'm not Lin Xiaojue, she's not me, who am I?" Lin Xiaojue woke up silently, she sat up, and what caught her eye was the candlelight jumping on the square table.
"Where?" she wanted to speak, but her throat hurt like a knife, and she only uttered a single ah.