Chapter 33: Loneliness
"With your exchange, the fate of you and Zi Lan will also be exchanged. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. biquge。 info" Xinqi said as he took the pen and added a few words to the page of Fang Cai's book, and quietly put away the unfinished text and put it in the drawer.
Zitong looked at Xinqi so calmly, but she vaguely felt in her heart that things were ...... It's serious.
"I don't want to say anything too cruel, but I'll tell you a story and make an analogy. ”
She listened quietly to the story he told, not like the old man, the story was so plain, very bland, she couldn't interject at all, and she didn't think to interject.
The main characters of the story are a red fox and a white rabbit. They are very good friends. There was a magician who had a very perverse personality.
One day, the magician turned into a hunter and stood in the way of the red fox and the white rabbit, dangling the barrel of his gun in front of them, and said domineeringly, "I wanted to kill both of you, but I changed my mind. Only one of you will need to die, and the remaining one, I will let it go, and I will use magic to keep it alive and well until it dies. Give you a chance, and decide for yelves. ”
"Let me die, let me die......" They scrambled to get to the guns, and they all wanted each other to live, because they were friends—very good, very good friends.
"That's enough! before I can regret it, you can decide!" the hunter scolded.
The red fox and the white rabbit were so frightened that they didn't say anything, and they stared deeply at each other. Suddenly, the red fox understood something, and it said softly to the white rabbit, "Honey, I won't let you be alone." "It pushed the white rabbit towards the muzzle of the shotgun.
"Bang!"
A gunshot rang out, and the red fox burst into tears. The white rabbit was stained red with blood, and it really looked like a red fox.
In my memory, the sentence "I won't let you be lonely" was said when the red fox accompanied the white rabbit when I first met, but at this moment, this sentence is a farewell.
It turns out that even the best friend is nothing more than this in the face of life and death. Selfish......" the hunter chirped.
"No, it's not. If you think about the future, you will know how lonely it is to survive when your most beloved friend dies. I'm not going to let it live so painfully. Death is only a moment of pain, but the loneliness of living is so long. Having lost it, there is no second friend like it. I don't want it to be sad that it misses me, I don't want it to keep a lonely vigil, I don't want it to live in torment, so I'd rather die alone. ”
"You're making excuses for your selfishness...... Do you think this will exonerate you? I will punish you, I want you to live well, and you will regret what you said......"
The red fox survived and stayed in front of the white rabbit's grave every day. Because of the spell cast by the magician, it lives well without eating or sleeping. Finally, one day, it was about to run out of life. The magician asked it, "If you could do it all over again, would you regret letting the White Rabbit die that day?"
"No matter how many times I try again, I will let it die first, because it is really difficult to survive. It glared fiercely at the magician, making a determination to die, and then with its last strength it stroked the white rabbit's tombstone and whispered, "I am alone, you are not ......"
Zitong understands that the so-called loneliness is not lonely, it is actually a matter of life and death. Zi Lan got the answer "no", then, it means that he ...... Purple Pupil's mind was in chaos.
"You and Zi Lan are equally capable, and you were both qualified to be the ultimate savior, but you exchanged your answers. Therefore, the first to die will be Zilan. The one who is lonely in the end – it's you. Xinqi still said calmly.
"The dead will be ......lonely when they become ghosts," Purple Pupil's heart was empty.
"If there really are ghosts, I can turn into a ghost to save the world after I die, so why bother to predict dreams for you...... Now that you have been exchanged, you can't change the mistakes you made, and what you can do is to live well and complete the mission that the deceased failed to complete. Xinqi put his hand on her shoulder, trying to calm her down.
Purple Pupil pushed him away fiercely and roared angrily: "Get out of the way, you!"
The night was still quiet, but a girl's sobbing whimper could be faintly heard.
Red Fox let the White Rabbit die because she didn't want the White Rabbit to be lonely, and she didn't want Zi Lan to be lonely, but she let Zi Lan die. Thinking of this, her heart twisted into a ball, and she was extremely ashamed.
"Zi Lan will definitely hate me, and he will definitely ...... I was wrong, I was wrong......! The one who should have died should be me, me, not him......" She burst into tears, muttering intermittently, which can be regarded as a kind of repentance.
Ling Junyi heard her voice, and immediately came out of the drawer with agility, and asked with concern, "Purple Pupil, what's wrong?"
"It's okay!" she quickly wiped the tears from her face with her arm, but the aqua blue eyes still couldn't hide her mood. It really makes Ling Junyi's heart ache when he looks at it!
"Purple pupils, don't hide it yourself if you have something on your mind, I can share it with you at any time, just like when you used to be mindful. He said eagerly as he walked over to her.
"Go away! I'll kill you too!" Purple Hitomi rolled over and fell into a corner, burying her head in the crook of her arm, crying even harder.
"I'm not leaving! For you, I will only pay for you wholeheartedly, and when you are sad, I will do my best to accompany you. Even if you kill me, I will love you without hesitation!" Ling Junyi's eyes closed deeply, and he muttered a spell on his lips, and what happened was clear to him. He looked at the purple pupil, she was still crying, and continued: "The mistake is not terrible, as long as it is corrected, it will be fine." ”
Purple Pupil felt that there was a wild beast in his heart, crashing wildly, and the only conscience was struggling desperately, and said: "It's too late, I made an irreparable mistake, blame me, blame me...... It's all my fault! Those mistakes made when you don't understand them, when you understand them, you can't get them back...... I didn't mean it, I didn't mean it......"
Ling Junyi listened and listened quietly, because he knew that the best comfort for her now was not to say anything, just listen to her pour out, and if she said it, she would be fine.
“…… I can't remember how many people I've hurt, and I don't want to...... It's that I'm so self-righteous, I think it's the right thing to do, but I don't understand anything, I'm so stupid, I'm so stupid! Even a criminal who is about to be executed has even the slightest conscience, and I'm not so bad......"
After a long time of whispering, she suddenly stopped talking, and sat in the corner in a daze. His hair was scratched messily, his face was mottled with tears, and his eyes were hollow...... It's like a sick madman.
For a long time, her lips moved slightly. "It's not mine. I'm going to...... Get out of here. This sentence was said in an extremely low voice, she had always spoken to herself, and she would never hear it unless she really cared about her. And Ling Junyi is exactly the one who really cares about her.
"Purple pupils. Don't leave. Your life is not a flight, and the mistakes you make, and escaping them does not reduce the harm......"
She glared at him coldly, and shouted almost hoarsely, "You! no!"
He was silent. He had lived with her for more than ten years, and he had comforted her countless times, but not now, he didn't know how long he could stay with her like this, he had fears and worries about the future, and some words could only be stuck in his throat - he couldn't tell.
Purple Hitomi was about to pack up some things, but looking around, nothing here really belonged to her, since that was the case...... With tears in her eyes, she pursed her lips, trying to laugh but couldn't...... Her right hand rested on the doorknob, which was as warm as she was, and with a twist she could escape quickly.
Suddenly, her left wrist was strangled hard, and when she turned around, there was no mistake, no repentance, no escape, only the touch of soft lips......
Sometimes, a small decision can make the ending the same. If Zi Tong knew what was going on, she would never have given her answer to Zi Lan.
There seemed to be no end to the night, just humming softly and dripping. It's rain.
Purple Hitomi felt a darkness in her field of vision and fainted. Her hair was wet. Ling Junyi gathered the small droplets left on her hair, put them under her nose and sniffed them, and couldn't help frowning: "There is something wrong with this rain!"