5. Loneliness

Dead fish with many friends, is he lonely?

Perhaps no one could have imagined that he would be alone. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info everyone thinks that Dead Fish is a person with many friends, and with so many friends, he will never fall into loneliness in his life. But few people can see that the dead fish is actually lonely, and if it weren't for that, he wouldn't have a screen name called Fish in the Deep Sea.

It turns out that everyone is lonely, like a fish in the deep sea, without a trace.

I know that Dead Fish is lonely at the moment, he used to be so happy with Qingqiu, but now, Qingqiu has left him. When the era of the Hundred Flowers Fairy Palace ended, it came to the era of waking up to Peach Blossom Island. The era of waking up to Peach Blossom Island is over, and the dead fish follows the ecstatic and returns to the Crystal Pavilion together. When the era of the Crystal Pavilion was over, the dead fish left the journey to the west and developed alone in Beijing. Even later, he told me that when he arrived in Guangzhou, he came from the northernmost part of China to almost the southernmost part of China by himself, and such a northeastern man actually completely changed his identity at this later moment in his life......

He used to drink and chat with those friends, those friends in the north, with whom he made more than 30 bottles of wine a day. Although the dead fish is not satisfied, he has been working hard. It's just that, even so, the dead fish eventually gave up on them, and gave up on these relationships that seemed to take a lot of effort to build.

There's no way, who makes these relationships just relationships between fox friends and dogs...... Although the wine is drunk and the is blown, in the end, these relationships are still some very unreliable things. When it comes to the most critical moment, no one will help the dead fish, yes, yes, no one will help him.

So the dead fish is still lonely after all, just like his screen name - the fish in the deep sea, the deeper the sea, the deeper his loneliness is.

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In the deep sea, a fish swims slowly. He seemed to be free at first, but as he swam longer, he felt as if he was becoming more and more lonely. Because the sea is getting colder and colder, in the darkness and coldness that does not see the light of day, the fish in the deep sea does not see any light, nor does he feel any warmth in his body.

So he was lonely. The sun he longed for so much, but he never felt it. If he leaves the deep sea and goes to the shallow sea, he will die because he is not adapted to the environment of the shallow sea. So in this life, he is actually destined to be lonely, especially when he wants to be warm, the fish he longs for swimming in the shallow sea, which seems to be close in front of him, but in fact it is separated by the moat......

In fact, the dead fish is like this, and in his life, he is swimming across the moat. If it weren't for his loneliness, he probably wouldn't have been so eager for friendship. In other words, the reason why he likes to make friends so much is precisely because he has no friends, at least not that kind of real friends......

A lonely dead fish, many people can't see his loneliness, but I can see it.

It's true, many people drink with him because of the entanglement of interests, but I am not. The wine I drank with him was really happy and happy, and it was a once-in-a-lifetime staggered meeting. Dead Fish also knew that it was the happiest drinking of his life, and for me, it was the same.

Am I not lonely when the dead fish is lonely......

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Sixth, memories

Fish in the deep sea are just memories many times in life. His long life was even much longer than mine, and now that I'm in my 30s, he's probably in his 50s. When you are over half a hundred years old, many times you don't want to get anything anymore. The only thing he wants now is to spend his life quietly, and in his life, he will always remember some memories.

I knew there must be me in his heart. One of the owners of Peach Blossom Island, Feng Xi Yanyu, he must think that this is his little brother.

He would recall every time he took me to the sky, and he would recall every time he took me to weigh me. Let's help fight together and travel together in various scenic spots of the Journey to the West. I don't believe it when I say it, if others will travel to various attractions in Journey to the West, it is often boys with girls, or girls with girls. It was only me and the dead fish, two big men who went to travel, and traveled to various scenic spots in the Journey to the West......

Four Holy Village, Wanshou Mountain, Putuo Mountain, Shura Ancient City...... Of course, there is also the beautiful waterfall in the country of Aolai, and there are many, many beautiful scenery that I knew for the first time, and it was all told to me by a dead fish.

That's an indispensable feeling in life.

In his memories, there will definitely be a Hundred Flowers Fairy Palace. He grew up in this gang, and he also felt the ups and downs of love in this gang. From the Hundred Flowers Fairy Palace to the Peach Blossom Island, the ups and downs felt by the dead fish have been continued in more than one place...... It may be sweet at first, but the more you get to the back, the more different it becomes. But what he got in the Hundred Flowers Fairy Palace was not only love, in fact, he also got many friends. In addition to me, there are ecstatic people, who are actually very sincere about dead fish. It's just a pity, because of Qingqiu's relationship, the dead fish can only contact them with ecstasy in the end.

Sometimes, love is sweet and bitter. Sometimes, love can make or break a person. Sometimes, love can also affect the people around you, making one person last hostile to the other, those who should be friends. Maybe this is whether love is good or bad, whether it is good or bad, the final retribution for the dead fish is a kind of pain.

Not many people know him, especially those who have joined the gang in the late stage of waking up from Peach Blossom Island. Those who can understand dead fish, and are very familiar with dead fish, are actually the same group of people from the original Hundred Flowers Fairy Palace. Actually, I am still very grateful to the Hundred Flowers Fairy Palace, it has brought me so many friends, and the dead fish is one of them, the best friend I have met in the Hundred Flowers Fairy Palace.

Most of the time, when I think about dead fish, I always think of the Hundred Flower Fairy Palace. Because that's where I met the dead fish, and that's where he introduced me as a brother. Perhaps sometimes, people's memories will always return to the beginning, and under the guidance of the initial memory, people can return to their original hearts and understand the meaning of people's original goodness.

Actually, I know some things about the dead fish that ordinary people don't know. However, there are some secret things that I won't write about.