Chapter 7: Memories
The room was silent, and Chen Guosheng looked at the second daughter in front of him, as if he saw himself when he was young, with the same arrogance and confidence. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info
A lady's military uniform was worn on her body, setting off her cold and lonely like a kaolin flower, neat face, cold eyes, until now Chen Guosheng's mood has not completely calmed down, he never thought that his daughter Yuqing would have known about that incident a long time ago, when did she know, who told her, and what did she think after knowing, these thoughts flashed in Chen Guosheng's mind, and there was still that surprise in his eyes, Chen Guosheng said to his daughter;
"You~
When did you find out? ”
Chen Yuqing's eyes did not flicker, looking directly into the eyes of her father Chen Guosheng, as if she wanted to read something from them, and said in a cold tone;
"On the night of my first year of junior high school, it was at that time that I realized why my parents had always treated me like that since I was a child, for as long as I can remember."
Chen Guosheng knew when it was after a little thought, it was still one of the few conversations between the husband and wife in order to discuss that matter, and other times they didn't mention it in front of their daughters, for fear that they would not be good for their psychological growth after they knew, but they didn't expect to be heard by their daughters.
Eight years ago, on a winter night, Chen Guosheng sat on the head of the bed in the bedroom and said something to his wife Chu Rong, who was sitting in front of the makeup mirror opposite, only to see Chu Rong say to Chen Guosheng with a slightly excited expression;
"Is there no other way~
Yuqing is still so small, we put such a heavy burden on her,"
Chen Guosheng didn't answer immediately when he heard this, but took a pack of cigarettes of unknown brand on the bedside table, took out one and put it in his mouth, and then took out a lighter from his chest pocket, lit the fire, inhaled, and exhaled.
Chen Guosheng's hoarse voice with a little helplessness came out through the thin smoke,
"What can I do~
Yuqing is also my daughter, watching her not communicate and play with her peers since she was a child because of us, and the whole person is just going back and forth in school, after-school tutoring classes, and at home
But~
For the sake of her daughter Xueying's future, Yuqing must do this, only in this way can Yuqing take care of her sister Xueying after we both are gone, didn't we already think of these before Yuqing was born!
Unfortunately, if Yuqing is a boy, the situation may be easier, although girls are more likely to take care of people. ”
Chu Rong couldn't hold back her crying anymore when she heard this, and shouted in a low voice while crying;
"Woo~woo~
Why~
Why are my daughters so miserable~"
He took out a few pieces of paper and wiped his tears, and then continued to sob;
"And ~ after Yuqing knows, will she hate us?"
Chen Guosheng seemed to have thought about this question for a long time, and said directly after hearing it;
"I don't know, but I'll tell her when the time comes, all this is planned and implemented by me, if you want to hate, let Yuqing hate me alone."
Chu Rong was stunned for a moment when she heard this, and then reacted and said urgently;
"What~
No way~
I don't agree, how can you bear Yuqing's hatred alone, didn't you say when you got married, is there something that the two of us have to face together, why every time something happens, you always walk in front and bear it alone. ”
Chen Guosheng heard the words and said softly;
"Why~
I've thought about this before, maybe it's because I'm a man~
How can a man let a woman bear the burden whenever something happens~ Hehehe"
Laughing in a low voice, Chen Guosheng stared at Chu Rong and said seriously;
"So leave it all to me~
Besides, Yuqing is so well-behaved and sensible, she will definitely forgive us. ”
When Chu Rong heard him say this, her heart was sweet, as if she had eaten honey, although she still wanted to refute it, but she thought that it would be forgotten, and she would talk about it later, and she didn't know what would happen at that time.
"Hehehe~ Forget it, don't talk about this, it's not too early, what's the next time."
Chen Guosheng was laughed at by her, and he was in a better mood and said; "Hmm~"
After Chu Rong climbed onto the bed and covered the quilt, Chen Guosheng turned off the bedside lamp, and then everything fell into peace.
Outside the door of Chen Guosheng and Chu Rong's bedroom, Chen Yuqing, who didn't know when she was standing here, looked shocked and incredulous, how did she return to her bedroom after that, Chen Yuqing didn't feel it, she was still immersed in the conversation between her parents just now and didn't know what to do, thinking wildly in her heart;
"Mom and Dad gave birth to me because of my sister, not because I am better than my sister, but because I have high hopes for my sister~
I~
Is it for my sister? ”
I don't know when the tears have fallen, and the paper in his hand has also fallen to the ground, it is the report card of this week's exam, Chen Yuqing originally planned to let his parents see it, let them know that they did a good job and did not disappoint them, but I didn't expect to hear such a thing.
Lying on her own princess bed, Chen Yuqing sobbed in a low voice;
"Is everything I do for my sister~
Do Mom and Dad want Yuqing to do this~
That~
Yuqing will definitely do it, and she will do her best, because Yuqing doesn't want to disappoint her parents, and Yuqing has to become stronger from today onwards and help her parents take care of her sister and not let them worry. ”
The sound is choppy.
Everything is for my sister, this sentence has always been remembered in Chen Yuqing's heart, and she has never forgotten it until now.
Chen Guosheng thought back to the conversation at that time, and couldn't help but suddenly realize that he was in his heart;
"I see, I thought that the huge change in Yuqing's personality was because she grew up, became more sensible and mature, but I didn't expect it to be ~alas~"
sighed heavily in his heart, looking at Chen Yuqing's cold eyes, Chen Guosheng exhaled and hesitated slightly;
"You~
Hate me? ”
Chen Yuqing's eyes did not flicker, and her tone did not hesitate;
"No, I may have hated it before, but now I can't, I just want to know, what happened to my sister, what is it that makes my parents train me to take care of her for so many years~
I~
I want to know~"
These words that have been thought of a long time ago were said by Chen Yuqing, after finishing speaking, it was like a stone in her heart fell to the ground, and her whole body was relaxed, to be honest, Chen Yuqing has always been very curious, what is there about her sister that will make her parents so worried, and even her father risked being punished by the military region and gave birth to herself to take care of her, and today she can finally answer the questions she has been thinking about for many years.
Chen Guosheng was not surprised to hear this, he originally called Yuqing back this time to tell her about it.
No longer delayed, Chen Guosheng said slowly in a reminiscent tone;
"It was when Xue Ying was two years old, and the two-year-old Xue Ying looked really cute, with big and bright eyes, a little baby fat on her face, and pink lips, just like your mother said, she looked like a doll~
The neighbors, comrades-in-arms and their families who live in the compound of the military region like her very much, and they come to see her every once in a while, and the name of the little princess doesn't know who called her first, and the little princess has become Xueying's nickname~
At that time, my personality was relatively easy-going, unwilling to make friends with others, and peace was precious in everything, so the relationship with my comrades-in-arms was still quite good, and I had a gentle wife and lovely daughter at home, and I really felt that I was the happiest person in the world during that time~"
Speaking of this, as if remembering something happy, Chen Guosheng's face showed a big smile.
The first time I saw my dad smiling like this in front of her, Chen Yuqing's heart was vibrating violently, what kind of smile was that!
In Chen Yuqing's eyes, it seems that the world has lost its color, and only Dad's heartfelt and happiest smile remains.
In Chen Yuqing's memory, Dad has never laughed like this, even if he laughs, it is as if he is suppressing something, but he just has a smile on his face.
Happiness, joy, and emotions are sometimes contagious to each other, looking at her father's smiling appearance, Chen Yuqing was also infected by this atmosphere, but before she could react, she saw her father crying.
When a person laughed to the depths of his heart, he suddenly burst into tears, this funny scene Chen Yuqing had never seen before.
Looking at the middle-aged man in front of him, seeing that he still had a smile on his face, but tears were streaming in his eyes, Chen Yuqing's heart seemed to have been whipped by something.
Chen Guosheng, this man, who went to the army at the age of twelve because of family reasons, has been a soldier for 14 years, during which he was promoted to the commander of the regiment, has made countless large and small achievements, and has suffered countless pains, but he has never made him cry like this.
Mental pain or physical pain, which is more deeply rooted in the hearts of the people and makes people feel painful, Chen Yuqing doesn't understand, she is still young and has not experienced anything, I believe that when she walks out of the house and enters the society, she will be able to understand something.
Chen Guosheng was very emotionally unstable because of his memories, Chen Yuqing hurriedly stepped forward and gently stroked his back with his hand, so that he could calm down, after a while, Chen Guosheng's mood calmed down a little, and waved his hand to signal that his daughter didn't need to caress anymore, Chen Yuqing straightened up when he saw this and stood still.
Taking a deep breath, Chen Guosheng spoke again