Chapter Forty-Six: Difficult to Face
Jia Xu, Jia Engong, is it really the kind of person that Brother Guo said? Deliberate and unscrupulous?!
If everything is true, then he is also terrible, playing with people in applause, and making people grateful to him! How can there be such a sinister and cunning person in the world!
Great sage and good teacher, if he is really forced to rebel, should I join his camp, after all, he has saved my mother and the people of the whole village. If the pen & fun & pavilion www.biquge.info don't report it, how different is it from pigs and dogs? !
…… However, what Brother Guo said is not unreasonable, I can't ignore my mother and Geely......
What should I do?
Sending Guo Jia away, Mu Shan sat on the wooden chair in a state of confusion, thinking of Jia Xu and Zhang Jiao, he felt that his head was buzzing, and it was like a mess.
"If you can't figure it out, let's put it down. Loyalty, treachery, good and evil, let time tell! ”
When Mu Shan was annoyed by himself, he heard Xiuniang's voice coming from behind him, and couldn't help but look back, only to see Xiuniang's soft green silk messily sprinkled on his shoulders, his pale cheeks could almost see the blood vessels under the skin, and his bloodshot eyes were slightly puffy, and he didn't know if this sentimental girl had secretly hid in the quilt and cried.
Mu Shan looked at Xiuniang who was obviously very haggard, but she was pretending to be strong, and said distressedly: "Why don't you sleep more?" Look at your eyes, they are swollen like walnuts, and you are not afraid of being laughed at. ”
Xiuniang shook her head slightly, and the corners of her mouth were still reluctant with a playful smile: "Just laugh, laugh, it's better to be able to laugh than to cry with a sad face." I can't sleep, just like you, I'm preoccupied and don't know how to decide. ”
Mu Shan looked at her forced smile, and for some reason, his heart felt like he had been pricked by a needle, and he was about to suffocate in pain, as if he was about to lose something. Although Xiuniang didn't know how to decide, Mu Shan knew that she had her own choice, otherwise she would not have come to see herself with this haggard appearance at this time.
If possible, Mushan hoped that she would never make that choice public.
Mu Shan took a deep breath and pretended to smile: "Today's weather is good, the wind is beautiful, fresh and cool, and I am full of energy. Xiuniang, you sit down for a while, I'll go and wash your face in a basin, and then try my unique craftsmanship, so that you can feast. ”
Xiuniang bowed slightly, smiled, sat alone on the wooden chair, looked out of the room with her eyes, and said nothing.
Outside the house, the sun gradually climbed, and the warm light emitted became more and more enthusiastic, but Mu Shan still felt that this day was a little cold and a little gloomy, as if there was a dark cloud, covering the sun and his heart.
Mu Shan and Xiuniang sat opposite each other, and no one had any intention of speaking.
At the dinner table, the freshly heated dishes are steaming hot, lying between each other, as if they are close at hand, far away from the world.
I don't know if the heat blurred each other's vision, or because there was already a layer of white dew condensed in those clear eyes?
"Mu Shan......, in the morning, Geely has come to ......" Xiu Niang's voice was very soft, very soft, like a whisper in a deep sleep, but in Mu Shan's ears, it was very heavy and heavy, like a thunderclap: "I, always want to go back!" ”
Mu Shan stopped the chopsticks in his hand, and even forgot to chew the bear meat in his mouth, so he looked at Xiuniang in a daze, the whole person seemed to be petrified, but the undercurrent in his heart had obviously rushed to his face.
Mu Shan put down the dishes and chopsticks, suddenly got up, and faced out of the house, not letting Xiuniang see his expression at the moment, he wanted to roar loudly, venting all the grievances and sourness in his heart, but for some reason, the voice reached his throat, but it was like a wounded beast whispering: "Xiuniang, why are you always so indecisive!" Marriage is a lifelong affair for a woman, not a child's play! ”
Mu Shan said and spoke, his voice was actually filled with a bit of prayer and expectation, and his body began to tremble a little: "Can't you be resolute and follow your own wishes to be the master for yourself!" If you are talking about the owner, you don't need to pay attention to him. My mother once told me that fate is in your own hands, so why bother with the eyes of others! This sentence also applies to you, whether it is me or Geely, we will support you. ”
Is fate in your own hands? Is that really the case?
Xiuniang looked at Mu Shan with deep eyes, hesitated for a moment, as if she had made up her mind, and said in a solemn tone: "Mu Shan, for a woman, it is a kind of luck to be able to marry a man she loves; It is a blessing to be able to marry a man who loves her; And people who are happy with each other can come together, I don't know how many lifetimes can only be cultivated. Xiuniang knew that her fortune was shallow, and she didn't dare to ask for anything. Since I was a child, my uncle has been the master for me, and the good and the bad have all come over like this. I know you're good to me, and now, let you be the master for me, do you think I should stay, or should I go back? ”
"I ......"
In an instant, Mu Shan only felt a buzz in his head, he couldn't see anything, he couldn't hear anything, he was the only one sitting there stunned.
Joy, excitement, hesitation, and shame kept rolling in Mu Shan's heart, like the deepest whirlpool, sucking all his emotions into it, and finally fused into endless confusion.
Stay!
A simple word, Mu Shan has never felt as heavy as today, like an invisible mountain, pressed against Mu Shan's throat and eyes, no matter how hard he tries, he can't spit it out.
After half a sound, Mu Shan slowly came to his senses and looked at Xiuniang with a complicated expression.
Mu Shan never thought that he would have a moment when he decided to leave Xiuniang, he hoped from the bottom of his heart that Xiuniang could stay, but he felt that if he asked for this, it would be too selfish and shameless, and what face would he have to see auspiciousness and immortality in the future! What a shame will Xiuniang live in the future!
And if Xiuniang is sent back to Guanjiazhuang, it is something that he has always resisted in his heart, when he thinks of Xiuniang returning to Guanjiazhuang, that kind of depressed and cautious appearance, Mu Shan has a kind of pain in his heart like a knife!
The left hand is brotherhood, the right hand is a confidant, the palm of the hand is the back of the hand, Mu Shan has never struggled like this, he has been in pain, if he can, he would rather go to the hook again to fight hard, than face this dilemma.
How can we not live up to the auspicious and not wronged the beautiful girl?!
Mu Shan, Mu Shan, you are really greedy and insufficient, and you can't have both fish and bear's paws, don't you understand! What exactly do you want? And what qualifications do you have to ask for so much! If you keep Xiuniang, what can you give him? You're just a poor bastard with nothing, you're nothing!
"Xiuniang......" Mu Shan bit his lower lip tightly, the blood on his face quickly faded, his body was trembling obviously, and his eyes were full of fragility and unwillingness.
"Mu Shan, you keep saying that I am indecisive, why don't you? It's just that no one has ever pushed you to the point where you have to make a choice. Like today, did you ever know what you wanted? Xiuniang got up, sighed softly, and walked out alone: "At this point, Changsheng is much stronger than you, from beginning to end, he knows his philosophy and is consistent. It's getting dark, it's time for me to go back! ”
"Changsheng ......, Xiuniang, maybe in your heart, that luck, only Changsheng can give you!"
Mu Shan only felt as if he had lost something in his heart, empty, numbly followed behind Xiuniang, and said abruptly: "I do hesitate, but your heart already belongs, why don't you fight for yourself?" Maybe what you want is actually so simply in front of you, but you have always simply thought that he is so out of reach! ”
Xiuniang slowly turned her head and smiled sadly at Mu Shan, her long and upward eyelashes were slightly lowered, blocking the secret hidden in her heart. The black hair, which hung like a waterfall, fluttered gently in the wind, and pressed against her fair cheeks, with a heartbreaking beauty. The fluttering and bulging clothes, like the fate of life, rise with the wind, and I can't help myself.
Mu Shan didn't dare to look at Xiuniang's suffocating face anymore, he was afraid that his persistence would completely collapse in front of the cheek that often appeared in dreams!
Speechless all the way, Mu Shan followed Xiuniang in a daze until he sent her back to Guanjiazhuang.
Standing outside the village, Mu Shan suddenly felt that the magnificent mountain villa was like a luxurious cage, firmly locking the extremely important things in his heart!