In this world, there are not many people who can be called evil, and there are not many extremely vicious people in this world, but everyone, including myself, hopes that they can live a little better than others.

Is there something wrong with that?

Never!

This can't be wrong.

It can't be wrong to aspire to a better life.

But what happens to our world when aspirations collide with reality?

I know better than anyone what this conflict brings.

「Khetia... I used to be a person who was constantly escaping reality, didn't there be such a saying? Drowning with ideals, I am such a person, holding the so-called ideals, constantly evading, evading, unwilling to accept the reality of my own incompetence, using hard work as an excuse, constantly evading, do you think, there is a future in my eyes?"

「...」

"Don't you know? I'm telling you - I still have a future in my eyes, but this future is just a bubble, bursting at the touch of a button, I know better than anyone else, I can't hold on, I need to change, but I just chose to escape, because this escape can give me a real sense of life."

「...」

"Do you think that you are really alive with a wage, barely living? Is it really alive to lose your dreams, to lose your impulses, to do repetitive work like a machine, day after day?"

「...」

"I don't think it's living, so I refuse to change, I stick to my dreams, but you know, this world, it's not enough to have dreams, if people don't have enough talent, they are destined to be at the bottom, sometimes, people are like this, they have to give up, they have to admit their incompetence."

「...」

"There are many kinds of escape, but mine is the worst one, escapism, do you know why this escape is the worst?"

Reminiscing about those old days.

The wounds of the past are still bloody.

I... Stepping over, even if it was just to think about it, the wound was as painful as it had been left yesterday.

"Do you think escapism brings joy? On the contrary, all those who run away are desperate, because of this despair, many people give up thinking, give up their rational thinking, and once they give up on these, what are we left with? But if we don't give up, the wounds that keep bleeding will drain our blood sooner or later."

"As long as we work hard, we don't... Nothing... Nope—"

Khetia himself has no way of perpetuating this false lie.

Hard work will pay off, as long as you work hard and don't give up, there will definitely be change.

Your tomorrow is your today, because you don't work hard at all.

With such hypocritical words, those high-sounding idiots who try to educate and reprimand you, no, they are not idiots, but treat us as idiots, because only then will you not be able to see yourself clearly.

And the inability to see the cost of yourself is that you forget what you really want.

I used to be like that, what do you think I don't give up?

Isn't it because of the encouragement of those people?

As a cheap laborer, he gets a salary that is not even as good as the welfare money.

No one is to blame, it's just that I chose to believe in the dreams that others gave me.

I believed it, forgot the meaning of the word "do what I could" and threw myself into the so-called dream.

"Khetia, you probably haven't felt it, and I think you can feel this despair when you can't even afford to eat ten dollars of fast food on the side of the road."

No one knows what they want their life to be like, from school to society, this is a process of exploration, in this process, if you lose your heart, then your value as a human being, that is, the end.

"At that time, I really didn't have any other thoughts except suicide, do you think I have lived to this point, is it really necessary to live?"

"Suicide... This... Wrong... It's not... We should... do, as long as we live, we will see—"

"The textbook answer is this, as long as you live, you will hope, as long as you live, there will be a future, even if this world is not the world you expect, even if the world hurts you again and again, you must live, because it is possible to live?"

"That's right... There's nothing wrong with that."

"Is that really the case? Do you know what happens when a person's ego and the world collide? What do you think will happen when the world turns out of your favor?"

「...」

"Man and the world are enemies, there is only one way to die, the world has deviated from you, either catch up or be abandoned."

This is our world, assimilate or die.

Especially in this impetuous world, many people will deny you based on their self-feelings.

They have no basis, let alone understanding, and they just deny you because of their feelings.

It's not terrible to be denied, but now, in our world, this feeling of denial has become mainstream.

To exaggerate, this negation has become the world itself.

Khetia is the one who recognizes such a world.

"There's nothing wrong with that, if people don't keep up with the world, they can only be eliminated by the world."

"What if the world is wrong? Is it true that our world is all right? I think definitely not, the history of our human race, what pushes us forward, is not right, but wrong, primitive people thought that fire was the gods and we could not use it, the Middle Ages thought that it would be better if we only needed to pray to the gods, and in modern times, the whole world was involved in wars, we have gone all the way, are we still wrong?"

"But we're coming."

We've come here, does that mean we can forget the past?

How many of those heroic epics that have been praised should have been tragic that made people feel the pain?

But how many people now think about what these stories really want to express?

Are there fewer people who believe in words that are not even inducements, and thus lose their judgment?

"Remember the story of Prometheus? He gave fire to mankind, but because he disobeyed Zeus, he was tied to the rocks of the Caucasus Mountains, and his liver was pecked by hungry eagles every day, and this is the price of conflict with the world, and this price will be borne for 30,000 years, a full 30,000 years."

「...」

"You can also understand that the sages brought us fire, but they were accused of blasphemy and died a tragic death, and it was not until 30,000 years later that they were understood, our reality, such things happen too much, and there are still fewer heroes and scientists who have been persecuted to death in the name of religion?"

(End of chapter)