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After reading the poems casually for a while, Ruhan was called away by Zhang Zhifei of Haicheng TV, discussing the next day's activities, and preparing lines together.

Zhao Gang was still in front of the hospital bed, and he was not ready to leave with Wenwen until Liu Chunli arrived.

Seeing Zhao Gang, Liu Chunli couldn't help but be excited, and said angrily: "Zhao Gang, I sue you, my sister's illness is all caused by you, if it weren't for you, she wouldn't be so painful and torture herself so much!" These days, she washes her face with tears, if it weren't for this, she wouldn't have become depressed and get this disease! ”

In the face of Liu Chunli's accusation, Zhao Gang was speechless, he didn't say anything, just silently listened to her count.

"Sister, don't say it, let him take Wenwen away, the child is too small to stay in the hospital." Liu Chunyan was worried about her son and said breathlessly.

Hearing her sister say this, Liu Chunli didn't want to say anything more, said goodbye to her nephew, and watched them leave.

Zhao Gang took his son home, thinking of his ex-wife lying on the hospital bed, Zhao Gang couldn't tell what it was like, there was guilt, heartache, and self-blame......

In the evening, he cooked some noodles for his son and watched him eat them, but he couldn't eat anything. After eating, he put his son to sleep, but he couldn't sleep, so he got up and went to the living room, lit a cigarette, and smoked it one after another, and his irritable mood got a moment of peace.

At this time, Ruhan was lying on the bed, holding an Ipod, writing the text she liked in the QQ space, this is the place where she and Zhao Gang communicated, and the text there was only the two of them could see: My space, I'm here again, my heart hurts, tears are left wantonly, I can't stop it, I think of you again, my space, I really want to drink you to talk, no one can see the words here, only you.

Why? Why do people grow up, why do they have to face so much helplessness, why can't life be as I imagined, why do I always have to face so much pain and helplessness. I know very well in my heart what to do, what to do is the best for me, but I try my best, I still have no power to break free, with him, I am so happy, but this happiness is so vulnerable, my happiness will be defeated by his family, his children.

I asked myself, why do I have to live so lowly and humblely, why, why did I choose such a character, I don't want to pursue his past, I don't even feel angry, I don't know why, maybe it's because it's in the past, maybe it's because I sympathize with the woman who is as poor as me, whether she really loves him or not, she must have been hurt a lot, I admire her, because I don't have the courage of her, I don't have the dignity of her, I would rather distort my soul and let go of my self-esteem, Just to be with him. I, wrong, really wrong, my body was not injured, I did not use any sharp weapon to hurt myself, but an invisible dagger was inserted into my heart, pulled out, and I really died.

I was looking forward to marriage, but I couldn't, who could tell me, how I needed to muster up the courage to get out of it without any harm, and now I can't, I drag my soul and body deeper and deeper. How to be happy! Will happiness still belong to me?

I still miss that I used to be, happy and simple, but now, what I have done, even if he chooses to be with me, I will not be completely happy, what he cares about most is always his child, not me, nor the child we may be born, although, I love Wenwen very much, but I know that I am not capable of being a stepmother, my qualifications, my experience, my heart can't.

If there are more tears, there will be no more, then I must have shed all the tears of my life during this time, I am alone in a home that does not belong to me, I really miss my mother, if my mother knows, her poor daughter is like this, she will definitely be distressed and distressed, I don't want my mother to feel distressed, but what should I do, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die.

What is my husband doing at this time, I can imagine, I must chat with her, comfort her, don't worry about my condition, I will definitely talk about what is happening these days, the family is happy, I don't understand, what am I, I think I am wrong, I should bury the idea of loving him in the deepest part of my heart, even after a hundred years, at the end of my life, I will take this relationship as the deepest and deepest secret, but I didn't do it, I said, he also said, it turns out that we are actually in love, hidden for nearly four years.

I love him, I hate to meet him when he is not married, but fate is to love to play tricks on people, we are destined, but we can't be together in this life, I can't destroy his home, I can't destroy his home, why don't I meet and cherish each other earlier, but I can't, it's just a hypothesis. I know that I love him more than he loves me, and my heart turns a thousand times, a thousand times, thinking about him, and I can do many things for him that he once dared not do, did not want to do, and could not do. But so what? He, or him, is someone else's husband, someone else's father, but he won't be the father of my future child. I was tormented in pain, smiling every day, dimmering my wounded heart in salt water, and aching faintly.

I can't imagine how happy they are together, the kind of happiness I will never get, he always avoids my questions, but there is no doubt that he loves her, completely outweighs me, she is not hurt by him, and I am scarred. He and I don't have a home in common. Home is to have a loving husband, a lovely child, warm and warm lights, and the two of us really don't have a home. I'm tired, I'm tired, sadistic love.

I don't know if I'm emotionally destined to suffer in this life, the love I once loved abandoned me, I loved me but I didn't love it, and I loved it boldly. It's so uncomfortable, it's really uncomfortable. The poor man I love is no longer mine! It will never belong to me.

When my heart aches, he can't comfort me, I don't dare to look for him, I can't find him to comfort me, when I'm sick, he can't take care of me, I don't dare, I can't ask him to take care of me, who can sue me, is this my man? No, no, no, no, no, I'm just a little huā in the bush, I won't see the light of day, that's all.

Maybe there is too much bitterness in my heart, I want to vent, after writing these words, Ruhan has already burst into tears, and in the hazy eyes of tears, I saw a QQ image flashing, which is a temporary dialogue from the cast of Tianya Weekly......

♂ Tick → ♀

Sister Ruhan, are you there?

Sister Ruhan, I'm here, who are you, is it Feng Xue?

Ruhan saw the photo on the avatar and recognized that it was Zhao Gang's subordinate who was talking to her, Feng Xue of the Hulin Branch, and saw her chatting with herself, Ruhan was very curious, and then asked: "What's wrong, is there something wrong with me?" ”

No♂, →♀: "I don't have anything to do, I just suddenly want to ask you something, sister, do you have a boyfriend?" ”

Feng Xue's question made Ruhan not surprised, she was puzzled in her heart, she didn't know what the little girl was thinking in her heart, or what she had heard. After thinking about it, he replied on QQ: "I don't have a boyfriend yet." However, I had a boyfriend when I was your age. I thought that the topic could be terminated, but I didn't expect Feng Xue to continue to ask, and Ruhan had to talk to her: No♂, → ♀

Then why didn't they get together later, Ruhan's sister later, because of some things, they separated from No♂, → ♀

This way, how hurt, I'm scared, I can't afford to hurt! Sister, do you like bigger or smaller than you?

Sister Ruhan: I don't like my sister and brother to love No♂, and → Shu ♀

I don't like it either, it's better to be older, how old do you want to find a big one, Ruhan's sister is about five years old, and she can do it♂→ ♀

Oh okay, don't you say now that you should find someone in your 30s in your 20s, you're a decade older than yourself, and the man can almost raise a family, and it's not easy to get a divorce if it's not easy to coordinate.

After reading Feng Xue's words, Ruhan was a little frightened, this girl likes men who are ten years older than herself, and Zhao Gang is 34 years old, just one decade older than Feng Xue, Ruhan began to worry and felt that she had something to say. calmed down for a while, and then chatted with her: Sister Ruhan, how many men in their 30s are still single? You can't find it like this, not to mention that wouldn't it be nice for two people to struggle together?

No♂, → Lizard ♀

Therefore, there are many divorces, and it would be good if the marriage law was changed, and the man could have polygamy, and when he was young and struggling, he would marry one when he was enjoying himself.

Feng Xue's thoughts were very peculiar, and Ruhan seemed to hear the sound outside the strings.

Sister Ruhan, then you are willing to be a second room, a third room, haha, no♂ → ♀

Alas! The main house is good. But now there is not true love, it is possible that the first one is introduced by the family, which is not love just for the family to get married, and later meet someone who is in love, then you can't miss true love, what do you say?

Feng Xue's thoughts are becoming more and more obvious, long before this, Ruhan suspected that Feng Xue had thoughts about Zhao Gang, so she decided to continue chatting and find out, Ruhan's sister is not easy to do, but if the person you like meets her and marries her daughter-in-law, it can be said that she has no chance. I believe in fate, this has the right person to meet at the right time, and it is the true son of heaven →♂ ♀ Shu

Like I said doesn't count? It's just that the two of them are not married, and they look at each other, Ruhan's sister, well, No♂, → Shu ♀

No matter how good it is, it's not your own, that's right, so what do you say men think now? There is one in the family who doesn't want to divorce yet, and then goes outside to get sè.

Talking about this, Ruhan was suspicious, Feng Xue was a little contradictory in her words, one moment in favor of the divorce of a man who met true love, and another time she criticized a man who engaged in extramarital affairs, she didn't know what this girl was thinking, and she didn't bother to speculate. (To be continued.)