The pen %fun %Pavilion www.biquge.info looked at the scene in the house, looking at the starlight of the full moon, and fell silent, and there was a voice in the house at this moment, and the sound came from the house at this moment, and the startle wanted to dodge, but Zhongli had already walked out, he was also taken aback when he saw the startled Naka, but then he regained his calm, he looked at the Naka "Can't sleep?"

Shocker didn't know how to answer, and Zhongli looked at the dark night sky at this moment and said: Since you can't sleep, why don't you talk! Maybe it's going to be a good night......

Hearing the sigh and sadness in Zhongli's tone, Snaka also nodded, Zhongli walked in front, picked up a teapot, made a cup of tea, and walked to the backyard, where there were several rattan chairs in the backyard, Zhongli looked at it and sat down, and Snaka also sat on the side......

Zhongli picked up the teapot and poured two cups of tea, one cup was handed to Tunaka, and said: "I have worked hard for you this time, and I ask for your forgiveness for Brother Dino's actions......

Startling Ka nodded slightly, "It's okay, it's normal, after all, Senior Sister Karen ......"

Zhongli's eyes looked at Naka, his eyes hesitated, he seemed unmoved by his scolding and beating, thinking that it should be, but ......

"So what do you think is wrong, and how to do it......

Zhongli's sudden words made Snaka hesitate a little, and Snaka was silent for a long time...... Zhongli saw the entanglement of the look on the shocked card, "Take the card, you don't have to buy it to force yourself, some things are ......" Zhongli's face was a little stiff, "I want to fade away, and forcibly monopolizing it will make myself more heartbroken......"

For Zhong Li's words, he was surprised, Zhong Yang is his son, his own son, how can he be light, how can he break his family affection if his blood is thicker than water......

Zhongli saw the strange gaze of the starter, he took the brand in the hand of the starter, put it on the table, the light of the wick also lit up, and the words on the card were a little clearer......

Zhongli pointed to the words on the card and said: This crossed out word was written by Yang Er, and the following was written by me, you can take a look......

Looking at Zhongli lying on the rattan chair, as if he had fallen into a deep sleep, at this moment he seemed to be an old man, but his age ...... Shocking the card took the wooden card, the word "ordinary" written on it, but those two words have long been crossed out, the word "strong", the calligraphy is strong and powerful, and the power is revealed from the word, and the surprise card looked at the old man who seemed to be asleep on the side......

"What do you think?"

"I don't know ......"

Zhongli smiled, but when he heard that smile, he knew that there were too many emotions in it, and Zhongli sat up at this time, and he looked at him and said: Let me ask you, is Zhong Yang the same Zhong Yang......

"Zhong Yang?" Shocked Naka was also a little puzzled when he heard it, is there a second Zhong Yang in the world? Startled Naka's gaze looked at Zhongli, and Zhongli's gaze was so serious, wasn't it? Suddenly remembered something......

"That's right......" Zhongli let out a deep breath, "I sent him to Orr Academy back then, and he only came back twice, and never came back again, and my gray hair grew out at that time......"

Zhongli took a sip of tea, "At that time, there were already many legends about him, various versions, everyone came to ask if it was your Zhong Yang...... Guess how I answered?"

"Silence, denial ......"

Zhongli sighed, "I have thought a lot about the time he hasn't come back, whether I can accept that kind of Yang'er, and when Karen told me that he became the first person in the inner courtyard, I fell into a desperate fear, because once some things are bound to you, it means that there is death tied to these things, once a person becomes a leader, or a soul figure, then he can't fall, even if he dies, he has to stand...... Because he is not just him, but the goal of everyone, once he becomes such a person......"

"This in itself is a travesty, and it is nothing more than their delusion to portray others as they think they are perfect......"

Feeling the anger in Denaka's tone, Zhongli bowed his head and said, "Yes! But even so, you have to stand on it, because you are Zhong Yang, a Zhong Yang that everyone admires and envies, and this has firmly enslaved you......

"Is it really that important to be at height?"

Zhongli cried and laughed, he looked at Starta and asked, "What kind of height is the height...... What kind of achievement is the best in the world and admired by everyone, such a standard can only be given by one person...... That's me......

Zhongli's smile was so bitter, he looked at Startaka with a gloomy look in his eyes, "I understood this from the time he reached that standard, tears...... Tears have long flowed in worry, but seeing that moment of calm is nothing but self-numbness......"

Zhongli took a sip of tea, and he looked at Starta and asked, "What about you?" Why don't you want to go higher?

"I have no parents since I was a child, my uncle is very busy all day, and I am also idle and bored, so naturally I don't think about these boring things......" Denaka's tone was cold, and he spoke quickly, as if he was talking about an ordinary thing......

Zhong Lidao: He has been obsessed with his own world since he was a child, I don't allow him to do this, but it turns out that he can always find time to do his own thing? What we do is what he does......

Zhongli patted the rattan chair and continued: At that time, his grades in admission were inferior, so I hope that he can work hard and become a strong man on the powerful side, and the inner courtyard is the only criterion for verification, now speaking, it should actually be a regret in my heart at that time, I have always wanted to enter the inner courtyard, but for some reason...... So this has always been an unresolved regret in my heart, and Yang Er made me see hope...... The regrets left by parents back then always hope that their children can complete it instead, which can be regarded as a change of direction, and I have the same idea, so I will force him to cultivate......

Zhongli took a sip of tea and continued: "However, the inner courtyard, how to say it? You hope that he can go in, but you don't want him to go in your heart, just like you tell him every day, be righteous, but you don't want him to be too upright, because I'm afraid, I'm afraid of the sudden death, because for parents, no matter how great things are, they can't compare to their son's life, but the moment you send him out, some endings are already doomed......

Shocker looked at Zhongli, and Zhongli looked at Shocker and said: To be honest, I regret it, I even hate myself, but after a few years of thinking, I understand, but what is the use of understanding, the destruction of death...... What could be more painful than that...... Nothing compares to ......

Shocka looked at Zhong Li and asked suspiciously: I don't understand, you are kind to everyone else, why can't you be kind to Brother Zhong, if you can......

Zhongli lowered his eyes when he heard this, "We can always express our understanding for outsiders, but for the people we love, we do ...... The depth of love, the depth of hate? There is a strange thing, the people we can bully can only be our own people, because they are the only ones who can tolerate our willfulness, because we always like to pretend to be good people to others, pretend to be gentle, and treat others politely, but the real us are ......"

Shocker looked at Zhongli, his eyes were so indifferent, and Zhongli looked at a chill in Shockaka's eyes, "I know you want to scold me, but this is me, I know it's hypocritical, because it is the person we love the most, and it is the most hypocritical us who are satisfied, but I don't regret it, because I at least understand and know what I am doing ...... purpose"

"A person who tries to satisfy his own interests by squeezing the people he loves the most ......"

"You're wrong, take the card, if you look at everything too clearly, you won't get anything, if I don't guess wrong, Yang Er's death has a lot to do with you! Or in other words, in your heart, you at least think that you are inseparable from yourself......"

Looking at the change in Snaka's face, Zhongli also understood that his guess was right, "I know you have a lot of dissatisfaction in your heart, but what you have to understand is why you are doing this, what is your purpose in doing this, I don't understand what Yang Er did, but one thing is clear, that is, he believes in you......"

"Believe, what is one of his beliefs to me? Does he know? Did he consider my thoughts? Does he know what I'm going to become? One of his beliefs was unbearable pain for me...... That feeling of powerlessness, I really feel scared, it gradually erodes me, the passage of death, it is so powerless, and that despair, I am really afraid, I am really afraid, I am afraid of ......"

Shocking Naka covered his face, crying in pain, his hidden emotions exploded at this moment, he cried so sadly, Zhongli looked at him, patted him lightly on the shoulder, and stood up "He will definitely consider your feelings, and it is because he has thought about it that he will believe ......"

Hearing Zhongli's words, he raised his head, his eyes were full of tears, and Zhongli said: Yang'er, he ...... If he doesn't know why he wants to do something, he will never do it, he has his own clear goal to do something, and he will stick to his pursuit even if he encounters more things......

Looking at the blankness on the face of Denaka, Zhong Li said: Looking at the things sitting under you, you can understand that for pain, our pain is powerless anger, but it is precisely because of pain that we can understand more, pain brings us not only powerlessness, for the passage of life, that powerlessness we may hate, scold, but don't forget, it is because of these pains that we understand their importance to us, if we give up the future because of pain, it is a blasphemy against that person......

Zhongli looked at the silent Starter and stood up, "Yang Er's body should be brought back to the inner courtyard!" Although I was very sad, but I was also very happy, he was admitted to the inner courtyard itself a little bit of a sense of being arranged by me, but he came out of the circle I circled for him, obtained his own true meaning, had his own way of thinking and acting, and had his own pursuit, until the last moment he left with a smile, which is enough......"

"The white-haired man sent the black-haired man a little sad in itself, he completed his own concept, but he did not fulfill his filial piety, but he did not live a wonderful life by himself, because he knew why he did this, he died very clearly, very clearly...... So ......"

Zhongli looked back, his old face was covered with tears, and tears crossed Zhongli's face, "Also, thank you for talking nonsense for so long with this old man of mine......"

The night sky, Startle was stuck in the corridor, he didn't fall asleep, he looked at the starlight in the sky, fell into contemplation, the moonlight rose and fell little by little, the boy leaned against the pillar, his eyes were a little confused, confused, uneasy, Starta stood up, sat down, stood up again, he seemed to be anxious, also a little confused, he asked himself for what? But he gave up again, because he knew what the answer of the heart was?

Startling Naka was lying on the ground, looking at the starry sky, so what was the trust in Brother Zhong's eyes before he died? If that's an introduction? So what was the purpose of coming to the inner courtyard in the first place? Does that purpose still exist? Why do you do this, and what do you tolerate? For the sake of clear snow? Startling Naka scoffed, if the direction at the beginning was the opposite, then what did he want? Or is there anything else in this that I dare not peep into, except for the feeling of powerlessness and the pain of the past?

If it was a mistake at the beginning, then whether the result was correct and what kind of person are you now? Shocking Naka kept reminiscing, kept thinking, he looked at the starry sky and stood up, if there is something he is missing, then what do he need?

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