(I attended a very important party today, which can be regarded as a pre-graduation meal, and the baby who has not saved the manuscript is destined to be sad.) Pen ~ Fun ~ Pavilion www.biquge.info But although there is no chapter today, but in order to make up for the great readers, I would like to share an article of my own, I hope you can like it. ）

The topic is, a rain fell on youth.

Youth is a rainy season without an agreed flowering period, and each of us is a child without an umbrella, running in the rain.

—Epigraph

(1)

December 20, 2016, weather, cloudy.

In the evening, the sky was drizzling.

The rain of this season, with a little chill, if you don't pay attention to it, it quietly burrows into the neck along the neckline of the sweater, and a fierce spirit can't wait to curl up all over your body.

I wandered the path between the lab and the dormitory, the dusty path now damp and muddy, and the bushes on both sides were drenched in water, dripping down.

I mustered up enough courage to finally not drop my feet, I don't know whether I was afraid that the muddy path would stain my white sneakers, or I was afraid that the water droplets from the bushes would drop on the light-colored and windy Mao Ni coat, I wrapped some loose and ill-fitting clothes, put my hands in my pockets, and slipped out of the path with a cigarette.

At this moment, I was like a thief in the night, extremely weak and worried. And in the back, the high-rise building flashing with three colorful neon characters in the experimental building, under the shallow and dreamy light, a figure wearing a light purple scarf is looking up from time to time.

(2)

I didn't go to the laboratory building, and I didn't go back to the dormitory after all, but walked alone in the downtown not far from the school.

It was supposed to be the most prosperous street market, a symbol of the city's prestige, and a gathering place for successful people in high society.

However, the north wind is howling and the rain is dripping, making the originally lively street market a little depressed, and some cafes have to close early, and the handsome little boss holds the hand of the beautiful proprietress with a happy smile on his face.

However, the smile was ironic in my eyes.

People are like this sometimes, and the more depressed they are, the more they feel like everyone is laughing at themselves.

It's like taking a pair of colored glasses to look at others, and I always feel that the eyes of others looking at me also bring a different color.

Suddenly, a cold wind blew, and some glass doors stabbed, and I wrapped my furry coat again. However, at this moment, this soft fluff is like a cold and condensed ice thorn, stabbing on the face, burning and painful.

It was cold, and the bleak street market seemed to have a pair of ruthless eyes looking at everyone passing by, cold and expressionless.

"What the hell is the weather."

With a hard breath of heat, I kicked a can from my feet in hunger and distraction.

Crackling, the cans made a crisp crash in the silent night, and finally fell into the shadow of a light.

I subconsciously raised my head sharply, and at the same time, my body suddenly shrank, like a thief who had done something bad and was afraid of encountering the police, ready to flee at any time.

However, I thought too much, and no one came out of the quiet shop, and the light cast by the fluorescent lamp shone obliquely on the ground outside the storefront, and the wet bluestone slabs scattered hazy light and shadow, with a shallow warmth in the cold wind.

Such a deserted store that has not yet closed its door, if not one in ten thousand, is at least quite rare.

I couldn't help but walk towards the café, which was still open, and when I passed by the door, I picked up the half-deflated can and threw it into a paper basket with a pink girl's heart kitty painted on the side.

"Hello, welcome~Please wait~" A pleasant female voice came from the cash register, and a girl in a pink apron was looking down to count the accounts, and heard someone come in without raising her head.

The girl is so bold now, it's so late, she looks at the huge store alone, if a bad guy comes, she can't hide even if she is afraid.

I smiled wryly twice, then walked straight to a round table for two.

The store is not big, but the decoration is quite careful, the pink bottom wall hangs a picture frame bound landscape paintings, and below is an endless blue wallpaper, the sea and the sky, bringing people the enjoyment of the sea.

Suddenly, a picture frame caught my attention, it was two girls, one big and one small, under the clear sun, two people were holding hands on the beach treading water.

Just as I was about to stand up and look at the picture, the pleasant female voice I had heard when I entered the door rang in my ears this time.

"Hello, sir, what do you want to do?"

(3)

If I could do it all over again, I'd rather have a bunch of black-suited security guards come out of the café and beat me up than be embarrassed to touch all the places where I could hide.

But I was soon disappointed, and my face was wrinkled like a bitter melon.

Yes, I didn't bring any money.

I didn't dare to look at the beautiful young girl who walked out of the painting, and I really wanted to find a crack in the ground and shove myself into it.

"That...... I...... I'm in the wrong place, I'm going to..."

Subconsciously, I almost immediately wanted to jump out of my chair and rush out the door. However, when he raised his head to see the girl's face clearly, he was stunned, and even the voice in his mouth stopped abruptly.

Like, really like.

Although I have only seen the girl in the photo, the female clerk in front of me is very similar to her, and the two of them are as if they were carved out of a mold.

I knew, however, that she could not be her, the girl, who should have waited quietly where I had agreed with her.

The female clerk seemed to be frightened, her white hands shook, and the fruit plate she was holding was crumbling, but fortunately, I was quick and held the fruit plate in time.

When the two hands touched each other, the soft skin made the two people shake at the same time.

"Sorry......" I turned and walked away.

"Hey! Wait a minute! ”

Just as I was about to walk out of the café door, the rain suddenly became heavy, like a basin of water being splashed from the roof of a house.

I touched my fluffy tweed coat, the pale gray fur was extremely pleasant to the touch.

For the first time, I was afraid to go into the rain, not because I was afraid that I would get wet, but because I was afraid that the clothes would get wet. I borrowed it from a fancy clothing store just to wear it and meet the girl.

This is the first time I feel that sometimes, people are not as expensive as a piece of clothing.

At this moment, the beautiful clerk finally reacted, she walked towards me with an arrow step, grabbed my arm, and looked a little panicked.

"You! You can't go! ”

My heart jumped suddenly, and just when I thought I had committed something, the beautiful clerk seemed to realize that there was something wrong with her tone, and hurriedly calmed down.

After a while, she showed a professional smile and stood up straight, "Sorry, sir, you misunderstood, our store is doing a discount today, you are the fiftieth customer in our store, so you can spend free in the store and don't need to pay." ”

If pie suddenly falls from the sky, then don't think about it, it must be a conspiracy and a trap. At least that's what I've always thought.

However, just as I was about to say no, I suddenly met the eyes of the beautiful clerk. It was a pair of clear and transparent eyes, black pupils, like a pool of crystal clear water, rippling water, with bright waves.

I'll admit that this is the second pair of eyes I've ever seen that are so clear without the slightest stain.

I walked back to the store.

(4)

Holding a cup of warm coffee in my hand, my eyes were always on the dripping rain outside the storefront.

I don't know where to hear it, people's youth is like a rainy season without an appointment, and children without umbrellas can only run hard in the rain.

But I kept stopping in the rain, unwilling to run, whether it was because of the heat of the world, or because I didn't know how to run to escape this never-ending nightmare.

I don't know why I ordered a cup of coffee, maybe the bitterness of the tip of my tongue can temporarily blind my mixed thoughts.

A gust of wind blew in through the door, and I wrapped my somewhat expensive coat, but then it seemed to lose its warmth, so cold that even my heart could freeze.

"What's wrong? Seeing that you have been looking out the door, have something on your mind? Or, who are you waiting for? ”

Maybe it was because I was the only customer in the store, and the beautiful clerk finished packing up her things and naturally pulled the chair opposite me.

"Add a little sugar and it won't be so bitter." As soon as she reached out, a delicate spoon was placed on top of my cup, and two milky sugar cubes fell into the cup, which was instantly swallowed up by the jet-black coffee.

Then I realized that she had a whole box of sugar cubes in her hand.

After hesitating for a long time, I hesitated, "No, I don't have any worries." Thank you, thank you. ”

She seemed to understand what I was thanking me for, and she covered her mouth and laughed softly. She had a beautiful smile, her jet-black hair sliding down her shoulders and hanging naturally on the spotless table top.

I was a little afraid to look at her, compared to her beauty, I was like a clown in the night, afraid of encountering a little light, ruthlessly tearing away all my masks.

We fell silent.

The rain outside the window was dripping down, getting bigger and bigger, knocking on the bluestone slab and making a crackling sound, complicated and disorderly, just like my heart at this time, under the silence on the surface, it was already in chaos.

The beautiful clerk seemed to feel a little bored, and was the first to break the silence, "You're a student, right?" ”

I didn't look up, and subconsciously replied, "Hmm." ”

"It's great, my biggest dream was to go to college, but unfortunately, when I was a child, my family was deep in the mountains, so I didn't have that opportunity."

I quietly looked up and saw a look of regret in her eyes, which was not faked in the slightest, and I could see that she had a deep attachment to the university.

I was silent, but in my heart I didn't think so, oh, university.

Once upon a time, I also regarded going to college as my goal in life, but now, I can't say that I regret it, but I feel a little sad.

She seemed to see the sadness in my heart, and smiled, "I'll tell you a story." ”

Looking at her clear eyes, with a faint excitement, I seemed to see my past self, and finally, I nodded.

"Once upon a time, in a remote mountain village, there were a pair of sisters who longed for life in the outside world and always longed to be able to go to the big city."

"Later, my sister met a man on the Internet, and she was young and ignorant, she believed the other party's sweet words, and secretly ran out of the house and came to this big city."

And then what?

My heart suddenly tightened, and for some reason, I was inexplicably nervous.

"And then ah......"

The beautiful clerk suddenly looked up at the non-stop rain outside the window, and the smile in her eyes gradually disappeared.

Yes, whose youth is not a rain, one after another, never-ending bad news.

That's right, she was deceived, and after coming to this big city, the other party immediately tore off the mask of disguise and turned into a demon.

Not only did they violently assault her, but they even tried to control her and use her as a tool. It was the darkest time of her life, and she couldn't see the slightest light.

She lived in humiliation in the dark, suffering in all kinds of torture, and in those days, she even thought of death for a time, and perhaps death was the best relief.

But she thought of her parents who were thousands of miles away, thought of her sister at home, and thought of the beautiful youth she had not yet experienced, and an endless power poured out from the bottom of her heart, and finally, she escaped.

She didn't choose to hide in her home and lick her wounds alone, but buried all the pain and sorrow in her heart and started over.

She wiped away her tears and survived in this cruel city with a weakest body and stubborn soul.

A crackling sound sounded from the windowsill, a gust of wind blew, the unclosed glass windows were pushed open, and the wind chimes hanging in the café made a chaotic sound, just like my current thoughts.

(5)

In the silent café, the beautiful clerk and I sat staring at each other, no one spoke again, a cup of coffee emitted a curling steam, and the eyes that were originally clear became blurred and hazy.

"And in the end?"

I sighed softly and looked into those eyes through the hazy mist.

The mixed memories are like dusty pearls, rising and falling in the pool that could have been crystal clear. At this moment, I suddenly had an enlightenment.

It turns out that all the simplicity and kindness, gentleness and understanding, under the tragic tempering, after the ravages of pain, are even more precious.

Just like the crystal clear eyes, only when all the sediment is precipitated, can it always be as transparent as the sky, bright as a rainbow, and not stained with dust.

Not because they are clear themselves, but because they will precipitate all the difficulties and tribulations, and use the difficulties and tribulations as whetstones, peeling away their own impurities little by little.

"Haven't you already seen the final result?"

The beautiful clerk suddenly got up and took a round elegantly in the warm and clean café, her white dress fluttering around her ankles, intellectual and moving.

Her eyes sparkled with joy and contentment, like a girl who was eternally eighteen years old, full of hope and happiness.

yes, all this, I didn't guess it a long time ago.

"Dididi"

Suddenly, the mobile phone on the counter rang, and the female clerk glanced at it, and her eyes suddenly narrowed into crescent moons.

Instead of listening to their conversation, I turned my head and turned my eyes to the outside of the store, where the rain seemed to have no end under the sleepless street lamp.

(6)

I don't know if the female clerk is talking to her boyfriend on the phone, but when she sat down across from me again, the smile on her face still hadn't faded, and her slightly baby-fat white cheeks were dancing with two shallow dimples, looking extremely happy.

In a trance, I seemed to see another girl, who also had two shallow dimples when she smiled, and big bright eyes, as if she could speak.

"What about you? What's your story? You already know my story, and as soon as you enter the door, you are unhappy and worried, presumably, you are upset about something. ”

There was a sly glint in her eyes, and for some reason, I suddenly felt like I was being seen through.

I pretended to be calm, but my eyes kept wandering, "No, what can I worry about." ”

Yes, what can I do, a most mediocre college student, wasting his time every day. No money, no face, no ability, facing graduation, but I don't know where to go, I fell in love with a girl, it was easy to make an appointment, in order to dress better, I rented a set of clothes from the mall, but in the end, I still didn't dare to meet, and I ran to the street for a walk alone, like a fool.

She didn't speak, just glanced down at the coffee on the table.

After such a long time, the original boiling heat gradually subsided, like a peaceful life, without a trace of waves.

"You taste, just now, I added two sugar cubes for you~"

The beautiful clerk stroked the hair on her forehead with her hand, and her voice carried a long-planned meaning.

After a moment's hesitation, I gently picked up my cup, and as I moved, the otherwise calm coffee rippled in circles, and the fragile white foam lay quietly in it.

I took a gentle sip, but my body froze in place as if I had been electrocuted, and an unexplained mellow fragrance ran down my throat, into my blood, and flowed all over my body.

The initial bitterness disappeared, replaced by a precipitated mellowness, like a glass of old wine, a hundred turns and thousands of knots, lingering in the chest, lasting for a long time.

I gulped down the rest of the coffee, accompanied by a mellow aroma and a burst of tears, gushing out for no reason.

(7)

Life is not smooth sailing, the so-called youth, is just to let you wash under the storm, people who have not been drenched in the rain, will never run desperately in the rain, will never understand, in those most difficult years, to maintain an innocent heart, how commendable.

Knowing the world but not the world is the greatest gentleness. Youth is a process of winemaking, only if you continue to abandon the past and continue to work hard, the wine of life will become more mellow and more beautiful.

A tear dripped down her cheek and onto the already empty coffee cup, washing away the remaining coffee bean residue at the bottom of the cup.

How pure it is, how clear and pure, under the carving of the years, it is not stained with dust.

"Thank you."

I gently lowered the cup in my hand and wiped the tears that had somehow welled up with a napkin on the table.

At this moment, I suddenly felt a happy sound from the bottom of my heart, a kind of relaxation and confidence that I had never felt before, slowly gushing out from the bottom of my heart and overflowing on my face.

I laughed, with tears that hadn't been completely wiped away, a little weird, but pure.

She smiled too, and she seemed to be happier than I was, thinking that she had done the greatest work in the world.

Suddenly, a sly look flashed in her eyes, and she shook her phone at me, the screensaver of the phone was a photo, one big and one small, two girls were snuggling and smiling, bright big eyes, as if reflecting the clearest blue sky.

I was stunned for a moment, and the framed photo I had just seen on the wall when I walked into the store flashed through my mind, and at this moment, an incredible thought came to my mind and I stood up suddenly.

This time, I finally saw the photo, two very similar girls, one of them, was opposite me at this time, and the other ......

The beautiful clerk, no, it would be more appropriate to call it the beautiful store manager, she suddenly nodded at me and motioned for me to look outside.

I turned slowly.

(8)

On the empty street, the rain was pouring down, and the fine rain was reflected in the light like a thin line, one after another.

Not far away, a girl in a light purple scarf was standing in the rain, the rain sliding down her hair and clinging to her skin.

She stood quietly, looking at me.

At that moment, it was as if a knife had been plunged into my chest, and I suddenly rushed into the rain like crazy, not caring if the rain would stain this precious clothes, at this moment, I just wanted to hold her in my arms, forever and ever, guarding her.

"Why are you so stupid! I don't know how to hide from the rain! ”

When she ran in front of her, her body was trembling slightly, and the rain dripped down her soaked hair to her brow, causing her to squeeze her eyes hard.

Yes, it is such a pair of eyes, clear, transparent, without a trace of impurities.

"I... My sister called me... Say that's the only way to say ... Such...... to give you faith... I... I believe... You..... Certain... OK.... Woo."

Without waiting for her to finish, I put my arms around her slender waist and pressed hard towards her rain-stained lips.

......

Feed! You've got your expensive clothes wet! What to do?

What else can I do, if it's dirty, it's dirty, it's a big deal, I just work hard to earn money to buy it.

But what if it doesn't fit?

What to do, cold salad, I like it anyway, it can only belong to me.

That's really domineering, oh, you took away someone's first kiss, how to compensate.

In that case, let's use it for the rest of my life to compensate you......

Giggles, this is what you said~ You are mine in this life, we pull the hook, hang ourselves, for a hundred years, we are not allowed to change...

(9)

Youth is a rainy season without an agreed flowering period, and each of us is a child without an umbrella.

Run hard! Even if we get wet in the rain, even if we fall down in the rain, we should get up again, smile, and stride forward.

Always keep your original appearance, youth is a movie that will never end, you are here, I am here, each of us is here.

All your perseverance and hard work will bloom into the brightest smile in the rain of youth, and they will be intertwined and painted, and together they will form a part of your youth. And this is also the original face of youth, the purest appearance!

May youth never end, and we will not grow old.