Chapter 18: Thoughts

is very aggrieved, just like the only white rabbit that was robbed of the only one left that was reluctant to eat when I was a child, the difference is that when I was a child, I didn't have to hold back if I was wronged, I could cry, but now it's different, I am the focus of the entire crew and even the entertainment industry, even if it is a little subtle that I may not be aware of the small actions will be noticed and amplified.

In essence, Zhao Wei felt that she was not disgusted with Lu Yan, just like she said when she chatted with Xinru on the phone last night, he has many advantages, and he always leaves a good impression unconsciously, if it was a few years earlier, she was not even sure if she would have a good impression of him.

She didn't want to be estranged from Lu Yan, and she took the gossip she overheard as a deaf ear, which she really couldn't ignore and rotted in her heart, but the surrounding and always lingering messy sounds made her unable to find a quiet place to hide.

Since her debut, she has won honors that are difficult for her peers and even most of her predecessors to achieve and brilliant achievements that should be satisfied in the eyes of outsiders, and sometimes she herself feels that she is really lucky enough, before everything happens and becomes an established fact, she never dreamed that she would one day become so popular.

But really calm down, she is a little unwilling, her popularity is very high, Asian popular diva, popular superstar, the first phenomenal artist since the millennium, not only in the mainland, but also in Hong Kong and Taiwan, Japan and South Korea and even Southeast Asian countries have a huge fan base, but it is very embarrassing, and to this day, she has not won a real, can be won in the same industry awards.

The award is actually secondary, what she cares about is not the increase in salary after winning the award, what she really wants to see is recognition, the recognition of the audience, the recognition of insiders, she hopes that when others talk about her, it is not what brand endorsement she signed, how much endorsement fee she took or what trouble she caused, she wants to hear others praise her for the good looks of her play, this is enough, not a nightmare "box office poison".

But in fact, in addition to a "vote", the Golden Eagle Award, which is more entertaining than professional, she is still empty-handed to this day, which has always been one of her biggest knots, and the people chasing behind her are getting closer and closer, and the sense of urgency in her heart is getting stronger and stronger, which is also the main reason why she pushed so many film appointments and chose "Jinghua Yanyun".

When she knew that the outside world was almost clear of praise for Lu Yan's performance in "Blood Romance", after the initial surprise stage, she was still able to maintain a normal heart, she had experienced similar situations, and she might not be able to take it seriously.

What really kept her calm was the nominations for the Feitian Award and the Magnolia Award, hearing the news from her sister-in-law, she felt that her sister-in-law was making herself happy, it was ridiculous, that kind of lukewarm performance, can also pass the nomination for two awards?

However, the development of things is so unexpected, the silence of the jury and the noise of the outside world seem to confirm this fact that has not yet been confirmed, Lu Yan passed the nomination, or the double nomination of Magnolia and Feitian Awards.

These news made her subconsciously start to pay attention to Lu Yan again, the reason why it was again, because when she first started filming, some people said that Lu Yan acted well, and she kept a snack at that time, but after observing for a while, she found that it was nothing more than that, but she guessed in her heart that everyone should think that Lu Yan is Chen Baoguo's apprentice, and if you don't look at the face of the monk and look at the face of the Buddha, you can't drop a piece of meat if you say a word against your will.

She is not a stubborn person and can't listen to other people's views and opinions, but no matter how she observes, she still can't see that Lu Yan's performance is outstanding, coupled with Li Lifei's stalking posture, in this case, she can't help but start to get angry, and she herself doesn't know where this anger comes from, whether she is right or Lu Yan.

These careful things are naturally unknown to others, even if it is Chen Rong, she is not easy to say, because others have been nominated and she is not angry, how embarrassing it is to say it, so she can only hide her embarrassment with laughter, and try to make herself look natural.

Zhang Zien's sentence "Lu Yan's performance is good" is more like pouring boiling oil on a lit fire, although Zhang Zien was only unintentional, but because he had something in his heart, he was inevitably more sensitive.

Although she was aggrieved in her heart, she didn't sprinkle her resentment on Lu Yan, she felt that as long as she was 100% committed, she would definitely be able to give a hateful slap to everyone who said that she was "box office poison" behind her back, and because she was holding back, when she occasionally looked at Lu Yan, she felt inexplicably empty-hearted.

With such complex emotions, when filming, occasional mistakes are always involuntary.

"What's wrong with you, are you not feeling well?" After NG a few times, Lu Yan couldn't help but ask, he saw Zhang Zien frowning a few times, but he didn't speak, thinking that he also had the meaning of taking care of her feelings, but it was not a way to keep going like this, Zhao Wei didn't look at him when filming, in the play, he was the one who should be weak-hearted, but now he has changed one by one.

Zhao Wei's performance today is not at the usual level, it is not that he is not in a state, it feels like his spirit is too tight, so that he is a little too aggressive in reaction and expression.

Subconsciously, he guessed that she was worried about the lawsuit, no matter who was right and who was wrong about the beating, the trouble was like this, the media chased the report every day, biting like a mad dog, and wishing that it could be connected if she stumbled under her feet while walking.

Zhao Wei's popularity has plummeted unstoppably, and the only thing he can do is to minimize the loss, and he has to worry about anyone.

Another point is that the artist's income and popularity are directly linked, Zhao Wei has been in the limelight since returning the pearl, leading the four small flowers in the mainland, and at the same time creating one after another sky-high endorsement records, of course, there is no free lunch in this world, just like investing in financial products, the treasury bonds are stable but the yield is low, the stock is just the opposite, and if she chooses high returns, she will naturally have to bear a certain risk, if she has a smooth journey, fame and fortune will come naturally, but now people are being beaten and hold on, and it is reasonable for the merchant to propose to terminate the contract, Those who are still in the endorsement period may also have to pay liquidated damages.

"Ahh No.... Probably."

Zhao Wei raised her head, touched Lu Yan's gaze, felt hot, and unconsciously looked away, she was also annoyed by her previous performance in her heart, but she was thinking about things in her head, and she lost the old life when she spoke.

"Take a break, won't you?" Lu Yan said, nodding at Zhang Zien, he and Zhao Wei didn't have many scenes in the afternoon, there were still two left, but they saved several shows in the evening, and they were still in the current state, it was possible to stay up until one or two o'clock, and it was inevitable that the people in the back of the play would have opinions, rather than spending so hard, it was better to seek to let her calm down.

*************************

Before I knew it, it was almost two o'clock........ Ask for recommendations, ask for collections!