"Xiaowei, what do you say is the meaning of human life?"

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"Xiaowei...... Xiaowei didn't think about this problem, but Xiaowei felt that being happy every day and being with her grandfather was the happiest thing. “

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"Luck...... Is it happy...... So what do you think happiness is? ”

"It's just to be happy every day, to be with grandpa, oh, by the way, and to meet more kind druids like adults, and every autumn, there are always some terrible customers coming to the store."

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"Happy, happy?"

On another summer afternoon with blue skies and mirrors, Lin Xu was lying on a chaise longue next to his small shop in Reims, with a book on the philosophy and path of spellcasters in his hand, tilting his head and casually asking the druid girl beside him some garbled questions.

Last time, after Xiao Wei and Lin Xu said hello, Lin Xu released a few more kindnesses to Xiao Wei in his spare time. Every time Xiaowei curiously ran to the courtyard of the strange thing shop across the road, Lin Xu would always give something away.

Or the biscuits, pastries, and candies made by the chefs in Lin Xu's territory, or the magic tricks that Lin Xu performed at will.

Lin Xu himself had no purpose for this small city, and in such a carefree state, a young man with a mental age of thirty years old and an uncle quickly became acquainted with this druid girl.

Lin Xu manipulated his mental power, moved a glass of water from the house, and then gently put it to his mouth and took a sip, although it was only a mouthful, but under the strong physiological quality, half a glass of water was sucked into his abdomen.

The druid girl had been playing with Lin Xu for a while this afternoon, and then she also said hello and ran back.

Lin Xu put back the water glass, couldn't help but look at the end of the stone road in the distance of Lance City, and fell into some thought.

During this period of time, the rest of his heart and body and mind made Lin Xu's original psychological pressure inexplicably bear, and gradually let go of a lot. also made Lin Xu gradually clear about his current state and future direction.

Of course, what Lin Xu wants to understand most is what he lives for in this life.

The happiness mentioned by Xiaowei is indeed something that should be pursued in life. Lin Xu has also thought more than once about the meaning of happiness in life. But unfortunately, Lin Xu, who has gone through thirty years of memory, can no longer achieve the perfect happiness that he once longed for when he was young.

In his previous life, he was an undergraduate student in the Department of Biology, and he was depraved and confused when he was in school, so he had no choice but to postpone his graduation for a year, and he went through several ups and downs in society, without a complete career plan, and he still achieved nothing at the age of Bensan. The most important thing is that the first love he once had a crush on, his girlfriend in college, and everything he experienced in society eventually left him.

It's not that he's unlucky, Lin Xu blames it all on his own incompetence. And in this world, in just over a year of experience, Lin Xu has never been able to fully integrate into the background of the person he has traversed, everything he walks in this world, the feelings he has experienced, have not made him have the memory of the desperate impulse when he was young, coupled with a temporary objective obstacle, Lin Xu has given up some precious emotions.

At this time, Lin Xu, looking back on all his past, helpless, regretful, regretful, lost, calm, smiling, crying and sighing...... Many feelings are inexplicably sympathetic in my heart.

If you let yourself go back in time, you will definitely be able to handle it better.

Lin Xu said in his heart.

But time can't go back after all, although Lin Xuduo wants to have everything he has been looking forward to in his memory, but Lin Xu knows that he can't get it anymore, even if he gets it in form, he can't get back the mood he once had.

For a while, Lin Xu felt that he was a little old.

Is the meaning of life for happiness?

If so, isn't my life that meaningful?

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In the complicated thoughts, in this long period of calm time, Lin Xu's heart became more and more calm.

At this time, far away from his past, away from the small city that carries everything in this world, Lin Xu seems to have escaped from the whole world, and in this quiet and beautiful corner, he questioned his heart and his own pursuit.

"Life is not about happiness, or more than happiness."

In the end, Lin Xu could only answer himself like this.

He stood up, the clothes on his body were already a little warm under the halo of the summer afternoon, his body was like a monster, his eyes were facing the sun for a long time, and he was not so uncomfortable.

Lin Xu began to walk around the small courtyard behind the storefront, slowly looking at the ordinary and simple scenery in the small courtyard, those flowers and plants, those stones, those deliberately made fountains and sculptures, and those creative and space-saving furniture.

Lin Xu walked out of the small courtyard again, and walked through the bustling streets of Reims City at a strange speed.

He sometimes stopped at the gate of the adventurer's union in Reims, sometimes walked by the market in Reims with a smile, and after looking at this small city full of life for a while, he left Reims and walked to the more than a dozen quiet and beautiful lakes outside Reims.

More than a dozen lakes of different sizes are as blue as a mirror, and the mirror is so pure and beautiful in the halo of a summer afternoon.

"If I want to, I can stay in such a small town for the rest of my life, find an ordinary wife, live an ordinary life, and enjoy family happiness until I die......"

Lin Xu muttered to himself. "Even if I don't continue to work hard and stop getting involved in those unnecessary disputes, I can spend the rest of my life here in peace...... And ...... Happiness? “

Lin Xu looked at the surface of the lake in front of him that stretched into the distance, and his heart was stunned for a while.

"But I don't want to do it, my heart has long since been able to return to the warmth and sensitivity of my youth, but I still crave something; Although my heart can no longer perfectly fulfill the fantasy of perfect happiness of my youth, my heart is now iron and cold enough, and I don't care about those porcelain pleasures, those pleasures that are not far removed from drugs. “

"What do I want?"

Lin Xu took two steps forward, and at this time, the spiritual power of his whole body gushed out, completely standing on the surface of the lake in front of him, and his powerful spiritual power was completely able to control him to complete such extraordinary support.

"What I want now is transcendence. I can't tolerate a stagnant self. I can't tolerate living in a corner of the world far from my past. Decadent day by day. ”

"I need to move forward on my own, I can have moments of fun, I like moments of happiness, but that's not all I have in life, it's not the meaning of my life. For me, the total amount of happiness is meaningless, I can never make up for the regrets of the past, and I can't redeem those regrets, I can only return to the most beautiful, the most divine, the most transcendent self in the depths of my soul, I hope to release my divinity, or my demonic nature. Until the end of the world, or my destruction, I do not ask for anything, I can only hope that I can recognize myself calmly: I am a little stronger in soul than when I first came into this world. ”

"No matter where I am in the future, in which other world, this attitude is the meaning of my life."

Lin Xu felt that he had been entangled in the confusion of many, many years, and the shadow and depression that always lingered in his heart, and after thinking about all this, most of it suddenly disappeared. The whole person is much more relaxed after this moment.

Lin Xu knew that he had clarified the main line of his outlook on life, which was a major breakthrough in his will.

But this relaxation at this time does not indicate that he has changed anything, it is just a natural psychophysiological reaction.

"There is still a long way to go. I will not live forever, but I will last a long time in this world. ”

Lin Xu's whole person moved to the center of the lake where he was at this time, and then wantonly opened his "Blood Moon Deep Pupil", the space around the whole person began to become distorted, and the smell of blood was wanton, and then Lin Xu's hair and the faint smell of the whole person began to become a little dark, this darkness was like a bottomless night sky, deep and pure.

"Whew-"

At this time, on the shores of this lake, there are many passers-by or tourists, all of whom have seen Lin Xu stepping on the surface of the lake. People who can tread water and have this kind of aura must not be ordinary powerhouses, although there are many powerful mercenaries and adventurers in Lance City every year, but it is very rare to reach such a level.

At this time, many people on the shore let out an exclamation to the people in the middle of the lake.

There were painters who were painting on the grass on the shore, and at this time they also hurriedly changed the goal of painting, and looked at Lin Xu's aura and demeanor for a while, and quickly spread out the new paper and started painting.

Sigh!

Lin Xu raised his head and exhaled.

Bang!

As Lin Xu's exhalation came out, the water surface around Lin Xu's circle burst out at this time, wave after wave of water columns more than ten meters high erupted.

Boom.

The water area with a radius of tens of meters provoked an explosion of splashes, stirring up the surrounding air into a gale force.

The gale swept out of the center of the lake and blew quickly, blowing up the paper of the painter who was quickly painting on the shore, so that the painter could not help but quickly cover his face with his hands.

The wind passed without a trace, and the water splashed and rippled slightly.

At this time, the painter and the visitors on the shore looked into the center of the lake, and the surface of the lake was empty.