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The sky was as blue and clear as usual, but the second time I went to the rooftop, it gave me a completely different feeling, as if telling me to get out of this closed world sooner or later.

I walked to the edge of the railing of the roof and looked out at the sky with flowing clouds, and my mood was not as calm as it seemed.

"I'm so ashamed, I'm so ashamed, I'm ashamed to be alive." I muttered.

I don't know why I remembered this sentence, where did it come from? Oh, by the way, this is the opening sentence of a book called "Human Disqualification", which is the representative work of Japanese writer Osamu Dazai.

When I was in college, I stumbled upon this book in the literature section of the library, so I picked it up and read it.

The overall content can be summarized as the story of a rich kid who feels hopeless about life and wants to commit suicide three times and twice, and the protagonist keeps telling his feelings about the melancholy life, but I can't understand it at all. Why is the protagonist born in a rich family, he doesn't need to worry about his livelihood, his family, friends, and teachers like him very much, he is also very smart, very feminine, and even some girls are willing to accompany him to martyrdom. Why would such a person feel that he is so ashamed that he has no value for life? It was so strange that I couldn't figure it out, so I quickly forgot about it and didn't think about it.

Now that I think about it, I really don't understand...... Maybe it's because I'm not smart enough to understand the meaning.

The reason I'm ashamed now is because ...... Anyway, fortunately I stopped in time and nothing more embarrassing happened, but is this shame the same as in "Human Disqualification"? It should be different, then I really can't understand Osamu Dazai.

Anyway, why is Ayaka Totsuka in the target of the strategy?

"Hehe, Lord God, you want me to die, you definitely want me to die, right?"

“...... Isn't there a saying in human beings that anything can be done as long as it's cute? I thought you wouldn't mind. ”

No, the only one who doesn't care about this kind of thing is the black uncle in Guangzhou.

I smiled weakly.

"Well, I can only blame myself for taking this kind of thing for granted, and I can only blame myself for not observing enough...... Alas. ”

It's really embarrassing to look back on it now, is this the unique black history of adolescence? Luckily, no one else knows about it but the Lord God and me, otherwise I would have been ashamed to jump from here.

"But...... Sure enough, I'm so ashamed, I want to be like this! ”

"It's noisy!"

Huh? I turned my head in surprise and saw that Sahi Kawasaki was coming down the stairs from the top of the water tower, why was she here again? Could it be that she often does not see people at noon because she has been hiding in the water tower on the roof and looking out at the city? What, this superhero-like hobby.

She walked up to me and grabbed me by the collar in a rage.

"What, what's wrong?"

"Why do you come to the roof at such a time and say die, die!"

"Huh? Yes, if you want to ask why...... "Wait, is it important to ask why?" If you say it, you will be laughed to death, so it's better to apologize honestly.

"I'm sorry, Kawasaki-san, I'm sorry if I disturbed you, I'll leave." I said with a bitter smile.

"Wait!" Kawasaki's hand did not relax, but pulled it tighter. "Tell me why!"

Ha? Does this bad girl like to gossip about other people's privacy?

I got a little bored and said casually. "Didn't I do confession practice here before, I failed to confess, that's it."

"Really?"

"Ah~ah~ That's right."

“...... Want to die because of that? ”

"Ah~ I'm so sad that I'm dying."

"No kidding!" Kawasaki suddenly screamed, looking like he was about to cry, and his voice began to choke. "You guy, don't you know how heavy life really is!"

I was a little overwhelmed by the sudden development, "Even if you...... Say ...... me that. ”

"Love is not the whole of life, there will be a lot of shame in life! Even I was actually very afraid of ghosts, and when I went back alone in the middle of the night, I was so frightened that I stepped desperately for a few kilometers and didn't dare to turn back. Also, there are a lot of interesting things in this world! Finding out these things is one of the joys of life, isn't it? ”

Kawasaki blurted out these words, which made my eyes widen in surprise, I was actually lectured by a bad girl, no, did she really think I was going to cut myself off?

Although her words were incoherent, I couldn't argue with her like this.

Of course, I didn't think about killing myself, but would anyone in the world say such things to someone who wants to kill themselves?

But Kawasaki clearly meant it.

"You...... Do you know how many people are working hard, and the tiny ones are alive......, so don't just say that you want to die......"

...... I can't say it.,I didn't want to die at all.,But if you say it, you'll definitely be beaten by her.,I don't know what to do.,It's better to be silent at this moment.。

Kawasaki didn't say a word, just looked at me silently.

Unable to stand the silence, I spoke slowly. "That...... Is Kawasaki-san worried about me? ”

Kawasaki's face immediately turned red and he panicked.

"Huh? Why do you suddenly mention this, who cares about you stupid, disgusting. ”

"Haha," I laughed at her words, "thank you, I didn't expect Kawasaki to be afraid of ghosts, and my mood unexpectedly became much better." ”

"What are you talking about!"

I thought it would be okay to just learn the game and attack girls.,I didn't expect the task to be as simple as I imagined.,A man who is more than a woman.,A bad girl who thinks about others.,What kind of side will other people have?,I'm curious.。

The next morning.

"Yo, good morning, Kawasaki-san."

Sahi Kawasaki, who heard my greeting, paused for a moment, then walked directly past me and walked to his seat.

Hahaha...... Ignored...... It's embarrassing...... it.,Even if you want to attack it, you don't know where to start.,Should I say it's a bad girl......

That's it, my first raid on girls ended in failure, but my youth romantic comedy in this school has just begun...... Probably.......