After Yin Sui's generous speech, Chu Yunxi kept silent. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info She changed a few more light topics and wanted to talk to her more. But Chu Yunxi was always lazy and didn't respond, or was stunned to think about his heart. She gradually felt bored, so she stopped, and the two sat opposite each other, waiting for the water and wine to bottom. Chu Yunxi got up to say goodbye, and Yinsui didn't keep it, just sat at the door and sighed looking at the empty courtyard.

At this time, the sun is scorching and the heat is in full swing. The streets were deserted, and many residents hid in their houses to escape the heat and take a nap. She was illuminated by the sun, and she felt dizzy when she landed. She hid in the shade of the tree and walked forward with a dry mouth, and the roar of the tree let go of her throat made her already chaotic head boil even more. The heat steam down and made her body sticky, and she endured the discomfort and walked home, the soles of her shoes burned from the ground. She couldn't wait to go in and take a shower, and the hot water brushed her with another layer of sweat. She sat in the tub and her face smoked like a ripe plum.

She lay on the edge of the basin and meditated for a while, feeling depressed in her heart and sighing. When the water temperature dropped, she wet the veil and rubbed it from her fingers along the jade arm. Her body resembled steamed half-cooked rice noodles, fine and smooth, exuding a ruddy and moving color. The silk handkerchief in his hand brushed his arms and gradually climbed up his shoulders, and the red plum on his right shoulder, which would not lose a trace of bright color no matter how he was washed, was even more blood-stained against the red skin, and the silk handkerchief stopped in front of his chest and flooded into the water.

Chu Yunxi stared blankly at his chest, and only after half a sound did he stroke a nail-sized scar on the top of his right breast with a trembling hand. At that time, when she was attacked at night, she was pierced by an enemy arrow. Her mind was filled with hatred, she had left all the trivial matters behind, and in the years when she had put life and death on the line, she completely ignored what might have happened to this wound while it was being treated. Then the scars that healed were buried in her heart along with all her painful experiences. The wound was gone, but the scar remained, finally sting her at this moment. She lost all her strength, buried herself heavily in the water, hugged her knees and drank silently, the water overflowed her mouth, not salty, but bitter.

In the bedroom, which was only separated by a wall, Biyin also cried profusely.

After venting, Biyin slammed backwards, and her limbs slumped into the bed. Chu Yunxi's crying is like a night fog condensing beads, pear blossoms bring rain, it is always the delicate cry of a beauty, but Biyin is different, crying must be earth-shattering, tears and rain.

Her crying not only alarmed Chu Yunxi next door, but also heard Lu Yan, who was standing outside the corridor teasing the parrot.

Chu Yunxi poked his head out of the water, listened quietly for a while, and then interrogated loudly through the wall. The crying next to her made her secretly feel bad, so she got up and dressed.

Lu Yan moved faster than her, and pushed the door in first, but was frightened by the scene in front of her, there were strips of rags scattered all over the ground, and a men's riding uniform that was almost finished was cut in a mess, with one sleeve in the east and a collar in the west. Biyin lay on the bed on all fours, sobbing in a low voice. A pair of scissors fell from his right foot hanging outside the bed.

Lu Yan picked up a few pieces of clothes, walked quickly to the bed, and asked eagerly and surprisedly, "Isn't this the clothes you made for Geng Gong, why are they all hanging." ”

Biyin seemed to be asleep, closed her eyes, turned her head sideways, but tears couldn't stop flowing.

Seeing her rare sadness, Lu Yan sat down beside her and whispered comfortingly, "Is it inappropriate to do something?" You have such a flirty temper, why don't you cut it, just say it and I'll help you change it, it's also worth the discomfort, hurry up. The master sent a lot of fruits in the house, in addition to the grapes that the master likes to eat, and the lychees that you love to eat. Eating a string of lychees will disappear, come and come. She smiled and tried to pull her up.

Biyin turned over, threw away her hand impatiently, and said in a dumb voice: "If you want to eat, don't bother." ”

Lu Yan's smile was pulled down, she got up and sat down in front of her, and asked, "What's wrong with you, if you can't do it well, I'll help you redo it, and it's not a big deal, why do you bother." ”

Bi Yin was angry, got up suddenly, glared at a pair of fierce eyes, and shouted loudly: "Okay, I'll give it to you." You go and wear it for Geng Gong, anyway, he treats you as a liver ache, and what I did will not be in vain. As he spoke, he struck her hard a few times.

Lu Yan was also annoyed and dodged her heavy punch, and said angrily, "What are you talking about." Crazy?! ”

Biyin was aggrieved and distressed, stomped her feet and patted the edge of the bed and cried loudly: "You all treat me as a monkey, especially you, I treat you as a sister, but you deliberately look at me ugly, you still don't want to be embarrassed." ”

Lu Yan stood up, trembling with anger, pointed at her and shouted, "You get up, explain the words to me." If you say these bastard things again, I'll cut you off. ”

Biyin grabbed the pillow on the bed and waved it at her, screaming: "One knife and two cuts, one cut and two cuts, Geng Gong obviously likes you, why don't you tell me." I'm stupid enough to tell you this, and I'm doing this, you see I'm being played very proudly, isn't it! ”

Lu Yan raised her arm to cover her face, and the two of them retreated and entered, and finally retreated to the door.

Chu Yunxi casually put on a dress, with wet hair, and knocked on the door in a hurry outside: "What's wrong?" What are you doing in there?"

For Chu Yunxi, Bi Yin did not forget the minimum respect when she was extremely angry, and when she heard her call for the door, she dropped the pillow, jumped a few steps and ran to the bed, and pulled out the thin quilt to cover her head.

Lu Yan rubbed her red arm, and opened the door under Chu Yunxi's constant urging, she looked inside, and was also surprised, when she wanted to interrogate, she was pulled out of the door by Lu Yan.

The two sat opposite each other on the railing of the cloister, and the red-billed parrot hanging high next to them was a rare lady who groomed her feathers and did not open her noisy mouth.

Lu Yan frowned, her heart was flustered, her cheeks were slightly crimson, she looked around, and made sure that no one was able to whisper: "Bi Yin is interested in Geng Gong." ”

Chu Yunxi was a little surprised at first, stunned, and then his face showed joy, and he said happily: "That's very good, although Geng Gong has been a thief before, it's good that he hasn't done anything too wrong." Now that he is with the right person again, it can be regarded as a change of righteousness, and the prodigal son has turned back. Biyin followed him, and I was relieved. This is a good thing, why are you crying and making trouble, is it because you can't bear us? She chuckled, revealing an innocent smile that she hadn't seen in a long time.

"But ......" Lu Yan lowered her eyes a little unspeakably, "Geng Gong has someone else in his heart."

"Oh" The joy turned into a bubble of disappointment in a moment, Chu Yunxi sighed and said melancholy: "Then it's just that." ”

She looked at the door of Biyin's room, her heart aching. Unexpectedly, the straightforward and honest Biyin also followed in the footsteps of Chen Siyu, love but not is one of the six sufferings of life, how many crazy men and women in the world are caught in this, love and hate entanglement, and there is no liberation. The fear in her heart grew thicker and thicker, like a black mist enveloping the blue sky in her heart.

After a while, she said weakly, "Persuade her." This kind of thing has no other way than to open up some of it. ”

Lu Yan didn't answer, pursed her lips and refused: "I can't persuade you." ”

Chu Yunxi asked again: "Do you recognize the woman Geng Gong likes?" ”

Lu Yan's face was more colorful, she let out a sigh, leaned against the pillar, raised her eyebrows and smiled bitterly: "I recognize, it's quite familiar." She pointed to herself, lips silent, "That's me!" ”

Chu Yunxi was stunned again, this series of surprises made her come back to her senses for a while: "How could it be you?" She suddenly realized, "It's strange that Biyin is so angry." ”

Seeing that Lu Yan was listless and depressed, she changed her way of thinking and comforted: "But if you succeed, it will be a good thing." The twisted melon is not sweet, you have been with Sister Biyin for many years, she will figure it out. ”

Lu Yan shook her head, the flush on her face receded, and she didn't have half a joy, and said coldly: "No, I thought about persuading Geng Gong to die." ”

Chu Yunxi misunderstood her intentions, and sighed: "Love and righteousness are difficult to achieve both, and you are in a dilemma between the two like when you were young." If that is the case, you will be wronged. ”

Lu Yan pouted and shrugged her shoulders indifferently: "I'm not all for her. I am different from Qingxu, I am ruthless to Geng Gong, how can I talk about grievances. ”

She then sat up straight again, stared at Chu Yunxi's eyes, and said with a straight face: "Until the master is stable, I will never think about my own private affairs." ”

How could she not know that since Bai Qiao's death, Lu Yan took on the responsibility of Bai Qiao's care of her daughter, defending her in everything and thinking about her all the time. In her heart, she was afraid that her weight had exceeded herself. She cares for her as deeply as the sea, don't you know that they are the same as her: "Your life is stable, and lifelong happiness is exactly what I am most concerned about." ”

Her gentle smile hung on her lips, and the wind lifted the ends of her half-dried hair, which was really like a hibiscus out of the water, clear and graceful: "When you settle down, I can leave with peace of mind." ”

"Where are you going?" Luyan asked in horror.

Chu Yunxi leaned on this pillar, sat on the railing with his knees crossed, looked at the sunset in the west, smelled the fragrance of flowers in the courtyard, listened to the melodious cranes that occasionally floated in the distance, and said with satisfaction: "Go back to Shunan." That's my home, it's not my home anymore. ”

"Then how can it be done, you still have to get married."

Chu Yunxi had a satisfied smile on his face, squinted at the sky that was randomly cut between his fingers according to his own mind, and said longingly: "Marry? Nope. The rest of my time is short, and I want to learn from the ancients and travel around. I was greedy and wanted to see the lonely smoke of the desert written in the poem, the lakes and mountains painted in the painting, and the wind and waning moon sung in the lyrics. When I'm done, I'll go back to Zhuangzi to write a travelogue, and maybe I'll be able to live forever. She giggled, as if she could resist the long loneliness that followed by her description of the future as desirable.

"If you do this, the old lady will be difficult to look at under the Nine Springs. I promise my wife that I will keep you safe and happy in this life. If you insist on doing so, I will probably not have the shame to go to Madame. She was anxious, and she didn't notice that she directly poked the sore spot that Chu Yunxi tried so hard to hide: "There is also a sad person like Shi Gongzi." ”

Chu Yunxi's face suddenly changed, he sat cross-legged, and said in a deep voice: "Lu Yan, you also follow them." I'm laughed at by the people in the house, and you make fun of it. That's why I'm leaving! ”

Lu Yan's blood surged, and for the first time, she asked in a questioning tone, "What are you afraid of?" How long are you going to hide? ”

Chu Yunxi's body was shocked, and he turned his head and pretended to be calm: "I didn't." ”

Lu Yan took her arm and asked, "Then why don't you dare to look me in the eye." ”

Chu Yunxi slowly looked at her sideways, the strength and calmness that she had barely pretended to be for many days were annihilated in an instant, she tightly wrapped her body with her weak limbs, buried her head deeply, and said weakly and helplessly: "Why are you all forcing me?" I'm so tired. Zen says that life is in the midst of thorns in the world, and if the heart does not move, people will not move, and if they do not move, they will not be hurt. If the heart moves, people move recklessly, they hurt their bodies and bones, and then they experience all kinds of pain in the world. ”

When she looked up, her eyes glistened with tears, and the pain wrapped around her heart like thorns on a vine, "Love only brings all kinds of pain." And I say that all the people around me, or like my natural mother, are like dead water after her husband's death; or like the eldest brother who lost his wife and went stupid and crazy; or grief and despair after thinking of rain and loss of love; Or like the love-hate dilemma after the wrong love; Or like Gu Chaomin, who became jealous and became a demon after being deeply trapped. All those who are emotional and tempted are all hurt by it, as if they were suffering a catastrophe. It's a pity that you can't see my heart, in fact, it has already been full of holes, like a boat in the waves is in danger of capsizing at any time, if you go through love again, I am afraid it will be difficult to be self-contained. I only want to be stable for the rest of my life, and I would rather give up the troubles of the red dust, accept my temperament calmly, and understand the quiet beauty of the world in peace. ”

Lu Yan stroked her hair distressedly and lamented: "It's just that if there is love in your heart, there is still hope despite the pain." If even this thought is gone, there is really no hope. ”

Chu Yunxi smiled and said: "But those high-ranking monks who have attained the Tao are not all loveless, throw away the red dust, and still purify all sentient beings. It can be seen that people are not unloved, and they cannot live. ”

Lu Yan didn't agree, and tried her best to persuade her to give up this idea, retorting: "That's a high monk is a monk, but we are mortals who try to eat whole grains." ”

The two still want to fight again. Suddenly, two people quietly came out of the courtyard.

The former person wore a purple tulle skirt, a loose lily bun, and a bowl of white camellia obliquely picked between the temples, and the camellia petals were layered like a delicate jade lamp. She shook a fan in her hand, a layer of fine sweat rose slightly between her cheeks and forehead, and her cheeks were shiny, plump and moisturized. Her complexion was slightly heavier than Chu Yunxi's, but she looked extremely healthy. The maid in the back followed behind with a large basket of fresh grapes on her wrist, pressing her to lean over.

Before she arrived, the laughter was heard first. Her laughter was like a reminder to the two of them, and Lu Yan was clever and busy pulling Chu Yunxi up.