How did I come back to this room again?

I was shocked. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

The horrible noises and scenes that had taken place in this room before still terrorize my fragile little heart, stemming from a somewhat primal fear. This fear often occurs in children in families where the parents are not married and there is domestic violence. Hearing the sound of falling objects in the house, the sound of broken glassware, the sound of parents beating together and falling to the ground, and the miserable screams without any dignity, I was filled with fear in my heart.

Because my mother cheated on me in junior high school, there are often such voices in the family. It's really hard to cover your ears at night, sleep badly all night, and go to school the next day in good spirits. Fortunately, there was Youyou by her side at that time, and when she was sad, she hid her to sleep, talked about her thoughts, cried together, and avoided those who didn't want to face. It's just that for my family of origin, I can't afford anything anymore.

Thinking of this, before thinking of Xishan, I went back to my hometown to find seclusion, and I didn't think of going back to my own home to see, probably because Ah Zhe knew about my avoidance and deliberately erased this kind of consciousness setting.

I walked over to the wall, reached over the holes in the wall, and looked closely, wondering where they came from.

"It was my mother who pierced it with a screwdriver, and she said she could always see people coming in and out of the wall."

Suddenly a cold and low voice came from behind me, I was startled, and turned around, it was Yuri, an adult Yuri.

"It's ...... Your home? "I knew he could come and go in the game as he pleased, and I wasn't surprised anymore, and when I looked back, I couldn't help but look at the holes in the wall again, which looked mottled and hideous.

"At that time, I didn't understand, I thought that she deliberately threatened my father with a crazy appearance, but when I grew up, I realized that in her eyes, those figures passing through the wall were real, and no matter how scared she was, she couldn't erase them from her vision."

"Your mother, she has ......"

"yes, she has depression and schizophrenia."

"Yes, I know, it's just that it's so serious......" I stammered, standing in front of someone else's scar, and I was a little overwhelmed.

Suddenly, Yuri grabbed my arm, gently straightened me over, and looked down at me.

"I can see that too, you know? The small ones were pierced by my mother, and the big ones were pierced by me with a knife. ”

I took two steps back, and a hint of fear rose in my heart. Those days when I suspected that I had schizophrenia, I checked some information and learned about it, it is said that schizophrenia is hereditary.

Yuri's eyes clearly skipped a hint of injury, he lowered his dangling arm, and whispered, "You don't have to be afraid, I can distinguish between illusion and reality, and I won't hurt you." ”

Yes, some patients with tenacity of will—in fact, I can't tell if it's tenaciousness, or what's the other reason—they rationally know that those strange images and unprovoked sounds are hallucinating themselves, and they also understand that there is something wrong with their own brains, but they can't control the hallucinations, and they wander around the distinction between reality and illusion all day long, exhausted until they give up or are healed.

"When did you start?" I lowered my head, not daring to look into his gaze.

"Since you committed suicide." Yuri said in a deep voice.

I sighed, my heart mixed up, "So, I stimulated you." ”

"I'm to blame."

"Then your father ......" The atmosphere was a little depressing, and I wanted to divert the topic, but I still asked back to his father. It should have been his father who was smashing things in this room with strange words before. Poor Yuri, with both mentally ill parents, really ...... It's pathetic.

"Well, his logic is rather confusing."

Yuri said as he turned and walked over to the couch and sat down, then patted the cushion and motioned for me to sit too.

I walked over awkwardly and sat down awkwardly, but I didn't know what to say.

"Twenty years have passed, in fact, ten years ago, I have stopped being angry. Overcoming the torment of the disease, and the side effects of the medication, had exhausted me. ”

I couldn't help biting my lip, suppressed the sadness that was about to come out, and pretended to be light: "Then you are on the bridge, and you still look arrogant, you want me to look good." ”

Yuri scoffed, "It's just a plot arrangement. ”

"Plot?" I almost jumped up, "What the hell are you guys doing?" When did you and Ah Zhe get together? ”

Yuri drooped.

"When I became ill, the company gradually went into decline, and it was at that time that Ah Zhe rose. He found the sponsorship of one of our company's former shareholders, set up his own portal, and later relied on his own strength to grow bigger and bigger, and now he has become an unrivaled empire in the game industry. ”

"And I, because of the onset of illness, also divorced, and the money was taken away by her, when I was poor, Ah Zhe suddenly found me and asked me if I would like to go to him to be the president of the marketing department."

"You refused?" I asked curiously.

"Why did I refuse?" Yuri snorted.

"I thought you were that tall guy." When he was young, he was always cold and cold, and his eyes were empty and no one looked down on him. It wasn't until I saw him again later, and he turned into a businessman with a bright tongue, and I didn't realize that he was the same Yuri he used to be.

"Yuri as a young man is long dead. From the miserable death of one in the hospital and the other at home, I died. My relatives and elders all looked at me with sympathy and told me to treat myself well and not to be too bitter, but no one really did anything to me. I knew they thought I would eventually follow in my parents' footsteps, and there was nothing they could do but sympathize. I am not willing to live like this, I am not willing to be judged before I have even started, and I am not willing to be a neurotic son! ”

"So then you ......"

"Yes......" Yuri smiled wryly, "but sadly, in the end, he still can't escape his fate." ”

I couldn't help but look sideways at him, his side face was so handsome, and it still exuded the coldness of his youth. I couldn't help but hold his hand, just like Yuyou once did. How many times have I wanted to hold him like this, but I didn't.

"Uncle and aunt, yes...... When did you leave? I asked cautiously.

"Two months after the college entrance examination." Yuri lowered his head, held up my hand with his other hand, rubbed it in his palm, and gently, kneading it back and forth.

His hands were unusually cold, not like Ah Zhe's, which were always big and warm.

A chill swelled in my heart, and I coughed lightly, as if inadvertently withdrawing my arm.

"You haven't told me why you're in this 'virtual community'?" From the moment I knew I was in a game, I struggled with what kind of game it was, with no upgrades to fight monsters, no obvious tasks, just life, work, and weird and scary experiences. After thinking about it for a long time, it dawned on me that this should be a combination of 'The Sims' management and development plus escape games. So, the environment I'm in is basically a "virtual community".

Yuri smiled relievedly, "It's your Ah Zhe's idea, he thinks he shouldn't take it upon himself to take away the interpersonal connections that belong to you and destroy your perception of your original life, but he probably still doesn't worry about our 'past', so he only arranges me as your 'acquaintance' in the rest of your life." And, at the end of the day, I'm still a 'bad boss'. Hehe......"

It dawned on me that Yuri's few words contained a lot of information that I hadn't expected, and I thought I needed time to digest it. But even so, there are still some things I don't understand.

"I woke up in the hospital for a while, and I heard someone report to Ah Zhe that he had been attacked? ......" I asked.

"I did it." When he said this, Yuri's face suddenly had a hint of inexplicable pride, "I can't let him get his wish, so I found a henchman to tamper with a procedure to bring you here to meet me and listen to me tell all the truth." ”

It dawned on me that it was no wonder that there would be a young Yuri, no wonder there were memories of school, it turned out that Yuri did it.

I couldn't help but laugh out loud.

"You two are really naïve ghosts!"

Yuri smiled noncommittally.

"And how are you doing now?" After my thoughts were opened, I couldn't help but feel more caring.

"At that time, I thought that I had killed you, and my depression was knotted, and I couldn't be healed naturally. It wasn't until 10 years ago that Ah Zhe came to me and told me that you were actually alive and living in his game, that I had more hope. What do you think I'm really going back to be his marketing president? I just think it's closer to you that way. ”

Yuri's sudden affection made me move backwards in shock.

He looked at me fixedly for a moment, and the misty eyes made me afraid to look at him.

"You...... Here we go again......" I couldn't resist being stared at like this, and stammered back.

Yuri listened, and finally withdrew his gaze from my face.

"Later, Ah Zhe also sent me to treatment and paid for my treatment. He repays his grievances with virtue, and I have nothing to say. ”

"Oh, it turns out that you're better now, and I said earlier that I can distinguish between illusion and reality, I thought you were really so powerful." I pouted, feeling cheated.

Yuri looked funny, "People in their 40s are almost 50, and they still have girlish feelings." ”

"Please, I don't know what the other one is, I'm in my 20s now!" I argued, but there was a panic in my heart. Yes, when I woke up, I was in my 40s, and I had passed 20 years in vain...... What does this mean? In fact, I can't imagine or understand what my 40-somethings will be like.

"Don't be afraid, you still have a long life ahead of you, and you have the people you love the most with you. Wake up early. Yuri took my hand.

"I ......" I was about to speak, when suddenly, Yuri disappeared from my eyes! So suddenly!

"Yuri!" I stood up and shouted, and the walls and furnishings around me suddenly began to move, even faster, and suddenly became a shadow.

In a few breaths, the surroundings calmed down, and the moving things stabilized, but the scene changed. I'm back in the secluded house!

"Oops, it's comfortable to take a shower, go ahead, look at your dirty appearance!" Dressed in a watery nightdress, wearing a silk suspender nightdress, he walked out of the bathroom.