Halfway through the meal, there are still new dishes on the table. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 During the info banquet, there were three palace maids interspersed with food serving, all three of them wore red waist-length skirts and wore new daisies in August. As a palace maid, she should have a respectful face and not show sadness and joy, but there is one of them, and there is a trace of sorrow on her pretty face.

The two of them ate very little, and Li Tan only ate a bowl of small lean porridge, a spoonful of crab roe, and a few spoonfuls of corn. Lin Yueyuan Nahan: After all, he is also a young man in his twenties, but his appetite is less than half of hers. The bones of the Dare Immortal Wind Dao are all hungry.

Li Min is even more grinding, she can treat the fragrant soft and perishable rice as a very tough cow's hoof tendon and chew it over and over again. is also eating slowly, Chu Yunxi can eat very elegantly, but she eats very hard, it can be seen that chewing slowly does not depend on speed but on demeanor.

In order to make room for new dishes, Lin Yueyuan watched the two palace maids remove a few slightly moving cold dishes, and sighed in her heart, such a life of fine clothes and jade food, golden soup and jade grains is very different from the poor scene of hungry people eating tree bark.

The two maidens stepped down from the left and right sides with plates and plates, and the maids who served the dishes later entered the table from the right. When the two met, the maid looked at each other in disgust, took a step to the side, and got out of the way. As if he didn't see it, the other party also followed her and gave in a step, and the two faced each other again. She couldn't just let it go, and the other party still confronted her. After doing this four times, she was so indignant that she slammed her head, and the tray in her hand fell down, and the two of them retreated in fright, and the dishes fell to the ground like petals with white porcelain shards.

The three people at the table turned their heads in unison and looked at the perpetrator.

The palace maid cried without tears, trotted in front of Li Tan, knelt down straight, and said loudly and stubbornly and resolutely: "Please give the star a death." ”

Lin Yueyuan was incredulous and wondered: "It's just a plate, and you have to die?" "This palace rule is really cannibalistic and doesn't spit out bones!

The other two palace maids quickly gathered together, put the empty saucer at their feet, and knelt down.

Hearing that someone was begging for death, Li Tan was also shocked: "There is going to be death there, be careful next time." There is no need for corporal punishment, just convert the broken dishes into silver and deduct them from the monthly bill. ”

Before the three of them could wake up from the shock, the star came up with another shocking sentence: "It's that I don't want to live anymore, please ask His Highness to give the star a break." ”

Such a request that goes against common sense, Li Tan is puzzled, and he must order her to make it clear.

Zhu Xing kowtowed: "The little girl was originally the daughter of the prefect of Zhenjiang. My father sent me to the palace to participate in the draft, and the girl had high hopes for the little girl. The little girl has been loved by her parents in every way since she was a child, and she doesn't know the hardships and dangers in the palace, and she has no heart to defend against others. A few days after entering the palace, she was framed and dismissed, and in addition to the qualification of a show girl, she was also demoted to a palace maid. The little girl was disheartened at that time, and she lost her heart for a while. ”

She raised her head outwards so that she could not see the pity and surprise in the eyes of others. Tears slowly flowed from her eyes, and even though the tears splashed her dress wantonly, she stubbornly refused to cry. "But the little girl has been educated in poetry and books, and she thinks she is a little arrogant, these days she feels more and more that the world is hot and cold, people's hearts are unpredictable, and she can't stand the cold eyes and ridicule of others, and she will either get ahead in this palace or do nothing in her life. The little girl's mother taught the little girl since she was a child, 'If a woman has a strong nature, she will die, and how can she be fierce to seek success'. [Hu Lancheng's "This Life and This World"] Instead of being a white-headed palace maid, it is better to learn from Wang Yan and die a lot. Her tenacious and resolute expression was like a grass fighting alone in the wind, and all she wanted to save was her pitiful dignity!

At this point, she made up her mind, and she proudly pointed to the other two kneeling on the ground like a victor and said fiercely: "Even if I die, I must not be underestimated." The two men were stunned by her words, and lowered their heads as if they had heard their master's reprimand. For a while, they forgot that they were both low-status slaves and maids, and neither of them had the right to reprimand the other.

She resolutely awaited the final verdict.

Li Min was extremely sad, like a dying bird. She knew the sad fate of the women in the palace, and looked at her with sympathy but helplessness.

Lin Yueyuan is very excited, she has always admired people who have backbone and are not afraid of death, and she has appreciated the generous statement of Xing Xing who dared to fight. She has never had those hierarchical prejudices, what if she is a lowly slave, as long as she has a noble soul, she is worthy of applause.

Only Li Tan saw that although her eyes were resolute, her body trembled slightly, like a dead branch and leaf shaken off in the autumn wind, unable to control her own destiny. How pitiful these women are, from birth to marriage, they have been taken by others all their lives, and the humble ones are not as good as the grass, and only by death can they win the temporary stop and memory of the rulers of the palace.

Li Tan sighed, shook his head with the same firm and benevolent expression, and said, "Don't dispose of your life so cheaply. Although I have never been a parent, I have personally cultivated every plant and tree in this epiphany, and I have witnessed with my own eyes how difficult it is for a seed to go from germination to flourishing to blossoming everywhere. People are different from flowers and trees, but life is the same, and it is not easy to do so. Take back your rude words, and I'll act as if I didn't hear anything. ”

Snapping the stars closed their eyes in grief, a teardrop as bright as a pearl oozed from her thick eyelashes. She bowed her head deeply, her face pressed against the earth, which had given birth to countless lives, and felt the temperature of the surface for the last time, as if she wanted to say goodbye to this world.

Lin Yueyuan suddenly felt that something was wrong, pulled out the stool and stood up.

Looking back in despair, as if to say goodbye, she stood up suddenly, and hit the wall of her avatar, and she was about to splatter blood on the spot. She didn't care about the politeness, jumped over the dinner table, hugged her waist and shouted, "You really bumped!" ”

She struggled frantically a few times. Lin Yueyuan slammed her to the ground in a hurry, the pain in her back as if she was tearing away her strength to beg for death, she seemed to have been writhed a few times by a bloodied chicken, and she was paralyzed and motionless.

Li Min was so frightened that he didn't even have the strength to scream, like a fish out of water, lying on the table and panting.

For a person from a medical family, the most unbearable thing is for a healthy and normal person to be so indifferent to his hard-won life. At this moment, even if Lin Yueyuan admired her courage to resist, she also felt a trace of resentment at her wanton ending her life.

She angrily grabbed her by the collar and slapped her in the face, and cried out angrily, "I should have thrown you into the farms where people starved to death because of the flooding of the Yellow River, so that you could know what it means to be really miserable!" At least you still have something to eat. I think you're living too comfortably, and you're too bored to be idle, so you're looking for excitement. Isn't it? ”

As soon as Lin Yueyuan let go, the star was like a corpse that had lost its soul, lying on its side on the ground, and the light in his eyes was like a firefly united in the night, and suddenly dispersed.

The heavy sadness like the musty humidity of the rainy season seriously irritated Li Tan's nasal passages, and he coughed, and his breath fluctuated violently, causing the corners of his eyes to be foggy. Li Min touched his weak back and patted him gently, he suddenly felt that his back was cold, it was her tears that penetrated his clothes, and slowly he felt his heart cold.

When the coughing gradually stopped, Li Tan looked down at the half-dead star on the ground with compassion, and then turned his gaze, and his empty eyes seemed to look into the distance, as if her body was transparent, and through her, she could see the sentient beings who were struggling in the sea of desire: "Your father sent you to the palace in the hope that you could marry the Son of Heaven." I have wronged you by letting you serve us. You think that only identity and status are symbols of dignity. But what does it mean to get ahead, and how can you make others look up to it? If you marry your father and become a Zhaoyi Zhaorong, there are still concubines above, and there is a queen above the concubine, and there can be a supreme son of heaven above the queen! Lust is never-ending. Even if I am a prince, should everyone who is prostrate at my feet be truly convinced? I'm afraid it's hard to keep it clean, and there are not a few people who want to scold me for being lame and waste in private. ”

These words seemed to mean something, and the two palace maids kneeling on the ground immediately kowtowed loyally and said, "Don't dare." ”

The bitterness on his face was fleeting, and then he smiled detachedly: "It can be seen that a truly self-respecting person does not need the dignity of outsiders. And he who does not respect life does not deserve pride. You look at the epiphany outside the window, the flowering period is only one night, but it generously leaves the most beautiful fragrance in the world. If you die today, what will you leave but untold pain for your loved ones? ”

His words were gentle but not intense, indifferent and soft, like a crisp drink, with a long aftertaste. The crowd was silent. Even Lin Yueyuan, who likes to make noise, fell into deep contemplation.

Picking up the stars slowly got up from the cold floor tiles, her eyes were shining again, her mind was thinking again, and she came to life again.

She figured out one thing that puzzled her for more than ten years, it turned out that arrogance is one thing, suicide is another thing, dying for worthy people and things is called sacrifice, and sacrifice is the manifestation of true arrogance.

She suddenly smiled, with tears in her laughter, but the truest smile was like the sky after the rain.

Li Tan started the wheelchair, and the wheelchair slowly moved out of the seat. He took off the Bodhi seed on his wrist, hung it in the palm of his hand, folded his hands, and gave a Buddhist salute to the star like a Buddhist disciple: "I don't know if I misinterpreted your words, but if my words can relieve your troubles for a while, it will be a great merit." Amitabha! ”

A kind smile appeared on his face, as if he was no longer a mortal man, and the sunlight outside the door shone on his white clothes, shining with holy brilliance. The wheelchair slowly drove towards the bright sunlight, and the white figure quickly merged with the white daylight.

Zhu Xing stared intently at the direction where Li Tan had disappeared, and the sun of charity shot behind him, and it was the nectar in Guanyin's net bottle bathing her parched heart.

Heaven was finally willing to be merciful to her once, and she should cherish it. Maybe that's why she's alive, she thought.