Chapter 35: Always Accompanied by the Bright Moon (2)
Everyone dispersed, and Li Min only felt that his whole body was about to disperse. Pen~Fun~Pavilion www.biquge.info she moved to the side of the stone platform and muttered: "Sister Yueyuan, this is good, I will definitely lose face and die." She looked down, her face first dull, like a person who was about to jump off a cliff and commit suicide.
Lin Yueyuan pulled her back, and when she thought of the way she was bullied just now, she was furious, and shouted, "You think you didn't lose face enough before." ”
Li Min looked at her with tears in his eyes, his lonely and helpless expression, pitiful and angry.
Lin Yueyuan sighed, and then encouraged softly: "This is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to turn over. Study hard, sister, I believe in you. Be a man with your head held high and your chest high, and don't be looked down upon. I'm afraid of what they do, isn't it just to compose poems and memorize articles, what's so difficult, don't be afraid! ”
She sobbed and shook her head.
Lin Yueyuan stumbled and said: "I can't see you so deflated, winning or losing is inevitable, but you have the backbone to lose, and you have the courage to break the cauldron and fight with them!" ”
In order to save Li Min's face, Lin Yueyuan made a strict study plan for her, and personally supervised the battle, reciting and practicing non-stop in the morning, noon and evening.
After eating, Li Tan and Li Can knew about it at the same time, but their attitudes were diametrically opposed. Li Tan expressed his support for Lin Yueyuan's plan and Li Min's efforts, and firmly believed in the abilities of the two.
But Li Can sneered and asserted that the efforts of the two would be in vain. Lin Yueyuan was not convinced, leaned her neck and argued with him, and finally broke up unhappily, this was the first time the two had quarreled since the night talk on the rooftop.
Lin Yueyuan was so angry that she swore that she must fight for a breath. So every ** Li Min studied hard day and night, but this high-pressure policy backfired, Li Min's hard work day and night not only did not make her progress, but made her due to excessive tension, her fear swelled more and more, and she read with fear every day, and the more she read, the worse she became. The essay I had memorized the previous hour was completely forgotten the next hour, as if I had never read it, and my mind was blank.
The first few times Lin Yueyuan could teach patiently, but the three times and twice such a strange situation finally made her angry and furious.
But a person's patience is limited after all, and the insults he can bear are also limited, and there will be a moment when he will explode. But Li Min seems to be an exception. No matter how much you blame her, or even insult her, she just apologizes to you and asks for your forgiveness.
After a few times, Lin Yueyuan was made angry by her, but the situation in front of her did not allow her to be calm. She is such a person who never gives up easily, will she really lose to Li Min this time?
She was really a little discouraged, so she poured out her distress to Li Tan.
Li Tan was speechless after hearing this, and said in a half-loud voice: "Do you also think that Ah Min is stupid? ”
Lin Yueyuan was silent, as if acquiescing.
Li Tan smiled softly, pushed the wheelchair, and came to the window. He pushed open the window, looked at the ephemeral flowers in the distance that had not yet budded and were just patches of green leaves, and said softly in a voice like the wind: "Yueyuan, do you know that not every flower is suitable for blooming in bright daylight, and is used to being watched and praised by others. Some flowers can only bloom silently in the middle of the night when no one knows, and they bloom quietly in the quiet night, no one disturbs or pays attention. Because no one violates it, it is not afraid, so the fragrance is better and the flowers are more beautiful. Because it is a plum blossom, it can withstand the wind, frost, snow and rain, and because it is an orchid, it is difficult to live squeamishly. If it is inserted into the soil in the moon, it can bloom, and if it is a camellia, it must be carefully cultivated and not allowed to be sloppy. Flowers are like this, let alone people? ”
Lin Yueyuan thought for a moment and said, "I understand what you mean, it's just that Ah Min is inevitably not angry, and he is too squeamish." ”
Li Tan smiled and shook his head: "No, you still don't understand." ”
He ordered Xingxing to invite Li Min and asked Lin Yueyuan to hide and not show up.
During this time, Li Min was tortured and haggard and tired, and when he saw Li Tan, he was also cowering, not as close as before.
Li Tan invited her to sit down, handed over a cup of freshly brewed jasmine tea, and never mentioned anything about her homework, but cared about her body and health, and his soft voice of concern instantly relaxed her tense nerves. is different from Lin Yueyuan's direct and rough concern for her, Li Tan's care like spring breeze and rain is delicate and friendly, and it is moisturizing and silent.
Her sad tears fell into the cup one by one, Li Tan neither asked her the reason, nor did he abruptly stop her tears, just quietly waited for her to cry and waited for her to calm down. He took her hands and begged, "Ah Min, you see that the flowers are blooming outside, you can push me out and have a look." ”
Li Min wiped away his tears, nodded quietly, pushed his wheelchair, and walked slowly, and when he went out, he glanced back. Lin Yueyuan shuddered and signaled that she had received his hint.
The two walked slowly in the flower forest. She followed quietly behind, and she didn't understand what the hell Li Tan was doing.
Li Tan traveled all the way, introducing all kinds of rare and exotic plants in the flower forest to Li Min all the way, and chatting about various allusions about these flowers and trees. He also recited poems about these grass and flowers, and sometimes halfway through the recitation, he deliberately pretended to be unable to think of the next sentence.
Li Min, who had been unhappy, continued for him completely without thinking when he forgot the words for the third time. Li Tan praised her happily, and her gloomy eyes suddenly flashed with a hint of brilliance.
Then all the way, Li Tan kept guiding Li Min to recite all kinds of poems, to Lin Yueyuan's surprise, Li Min recited effortlessly, and he continued to extend a topic about flowers and plants, citing classics and classics, poems and songs, Li Min talked with him effortlessly, and even said many obscure words.
In the end, the two stopped in front of a piece of herbs by the lake and recited Qu Yuan's "Lisao" in unison.
Lin Yueyuan was stunned, a few days ago when she held a book and watched her recite "Lisao", she was still half-baked and lost. Today, the beautiful poems of "Lisao" flowed out of her mouth like flowing water, as if she had been completely reborn.
She couldn't believe it at all, so at night she asked Li Min to memorize the book again, and the strange thing was that she memorized it again.
Lin Yueyuan was puzzled, could it be that Li Tan had some magic power that could make Li Min, who had no ink on his chest, instantly become a mouthful.
In the next few days, every time Li Tan chatted with Li Min, she would listen and observe incognito. She found that every time the two of them chatted alone, Li Min seemed to be a different person, very talkative, especially when talking about poetry and articles, and the knowledge in her womb was enough to make all the princesses she knew in this palace ashamed. But every time she recited those articles dryly in the way of school homework, she would instantly degenerate into a "stupid person" who couldn't even memorize the "Thousand Character Essay".
After these days of observation and thinking, Lin Yueyuan suddenly discovered that Li Min's inferiority complex had long been deeply rooted, and it was from the heart, not from the outside world. Too much stress and stimulation will not make her fight, but will cause her to have a nervous breakdown. But as long as the other party can give her encouragement and comfort, once she finds her confidence, the talent hidden in the depths of her soul will burst out. Nervousness, pressure and low self-esteem wrapped her heart like a thick barrier, she was not lazy, not stupid, on the contrary, she was born with a sensitive and detailed feeling and comprehension of words, those things have long been imprinted in her heart, but they are forcibly blocked by their own mental burden.
Lin Yueyuan decided to enlighten her inferiority complex in another way.
After dinner, Li Min hung his head and took the book dejectedly, and ran to Shifeng Pavilion to find Lin Yueyuan to complete today's homework. But she looked anxious as usual, and after she sat down, she sat opposite her and stared at her stunned for a long time, and she felt furious when she saw it, and asked in a panic: "Sister Yueyuan, did I do something wrong again to make you angry?" ”
Lin Yueyuan closed the book in his hand, put it on the table, clasped his hands around, frowned, and asked puzzledly: "Ah Min, why do you take the fault on yourself every time, do you feel that you are inferior to others everywhere?" ”
Li Min felt that her tone was very strange today, and said softly with some humility: "Of course." ”
Lin Yueyuan continued to ask: "Then do you think you are inferior to others in those places?" ”
Li Min was stunned for a moment, and then began to think about it and replied seriously: "I come from a humble background, and my sisters often laugh at me for my mother's orchid identity. ”
Her words were sincere and sad, Lin Yueyuan comforted her: "But you are a princess, no matter how humble your background is, you are much more noble than the common people and the maids in the palace." ”
Li Min said frankly and helplessly: "But no one will compare me with ordinary people and palace maids. I was compared to the princesses and princesses of noble births, as well as the nobles of the official families. ”
Hearing those vain and hypocritical women, Lin Yueyuan was disgusted, she waved her hand, hesitated for a while and chose a suitable angle to continue to ask: "Okay, don't talk about them, just say, only talk about me, do you think you are not as good as me?" ”
Li Min's eyes lit up, and he reached out to count her advantages with a look of adoration: "Of course." I'm not as good as you can do martial arts, I can do chivalrous righteousness, and I can't go through the rivers and lakes, I'm not as good as you, I'm not as good as you, I'm not as good as you, I'm not as beautiful as you. ”
Lin Yueyuan stared at the boss in surprise, it was the first time she knew that she had so many advantages, but when she thought about it, Li Min's praise for her didn't seem to be too deserved: "I don't think so." The little marquis dislikes my rude behavior. As for the characters, in addition to cursive writing, I can also get into the eye, but my regular script was reprimanded by the teacher as 'unruly and casual'. If you read a lot, it depends on the type, if you talk about medical classics, I naturally read more than you, if you talk about poetry, then I definitely don't read as much as you. I never paid attention to my appearance, you said I was prettier than you, why? ”
Li Min rushed out: "You have white skin." ”
Lin Yueyuan sneered and said, "What kind of reason is this, you are also white." ”
Li Min's eyes rolled and said innocently: "You have big eyes." ”
Lin Yueyuan retorted disdainfully: "The eyes are big and godless. ”
Li Min straightened his shoulders and said embarrassedly, "You stand up straight." ”
Lin Yueyuan rubbed his chin and wondered, "What does standing straight have to do with not being beautiful." It's as dull as a tree, and it's just beautiful. ”
Li Min was a little anxious by her refutation, and said with a red face: "The ancients called beautiful women slim and elegant. You...... You're just pretty anyway. ”
Lin Yueyuan saw that she was short of words, and said with a smile: "Anyway, you just think you are ugly, in your eyes, everyone else is perfect, only you are full of shortcomings." ”
She suddenly smiled and beckoned Li Min to step forward, she reached out and touched the back of her head, the tentacles were full and the arc was beautiful. She smiled mysteriously and dragged her hand to the back of her head: "Come, you touch the back of my head, touch it carefully." ”
Li Min was confused at first, but when her right hand touched the back of her head, she couldn't help but say, "Huh? Then Lin Yueyuan put her hand on the back of her head. She rubbed it over and over again, discovering something strange.
Lin Yueyuan didn't care, and took his own body as an example and said carefully: "I found out, my left head is more deflated than the right one, it was when I was a child when I pillowed my pillow, and my head was not straightened." So when I grew up, my head was crooked, but my hair covered it more. And your head is very upright. Aren't you better than me? It can be seen that everyone is not perfect, there are always some flaws, but some people are obvious and some people are not obvious, I have never cared about the so-called beauty and ugliness of appearance, if you look at everything with a beautiful heart, then everything is beautiful, and vice versa. If you take off your shell and look directly at people's hearts, it seems to me that ugliness can be beautiful, and beauty can also be ugly. The slight difference in beauty lies not in the eyes, ears, mouth, nose and body, but in the temperament: some people are gentle, some people are kind, some people are straightforward, some people are cheerful, for example, you are beautiful in simple kindness, sincere and enthusiastic. A person's mind should be as open as the sea, and these subsections should not be taken to heart. If everything is beautiful in your eyes, why can't you see your own beauty? ”
Even though Li Min couldn't fully accept these truths at this moment, that warm current flowed into her heart, and she shook her head frequently in tears and said in annoyance: "No, Sister Yueyuan." I'm really bad, I know. ”
Lin Yueyuan smiled warmly: "I only know that you work hard.
Li Min finally couldn't stand it anymore, threw herself into her arms and cried.
Lin Yueyuan's nose was sour, and she also felt very sad, the humility born from the heart turned out to be so terrible, it could destroy a person's will, fun, talent, and even hope for survival, completely deny his own value, and seal all the dazzling brilliance on his body in the box of inferiority, and bury it deep in the soil.
She remembered Li Tan's words again, he believes that people and flowers are similar, and people with different temperaments are the same as different varieties of flowers, adapting to different living environments. Epiphyllum can only bloom at night, and when it sees the sun, it will inevitably fall.
But Li Min is not an epiphany after all, she is not a lonely flower destined to bloom in the dark night, she also needs sunshine, she also needs friends, she needs praise even more, that is her nature, she must be able to walk in the sun with her head upright and upright in order to survive. Otherwise, hiding in the closed world of her own making, she will only wither faster. Her fragility and helplessness come from fear, and only by overcoming fear can we usher in a new life, and that Qixi poetry meeting is the best opportunity.
This poetry will be a matter of life and death for Li Min, only by gaining the affirmation of those who have belittled her in the past can she gain self-confidence, re-examine her life value, and regain the motivation and hope of life!
For this reason, Lin Yueyuan changed her original forced cramming teaching method to guide and encourage. Every day, she took Li Min to watch flowers and birds, relax and delight her mood, and Huixin's poor child also took the initiative to apply to study with Li Min, giving her confidence with her own dullness and companionship.
She even brought in Chu Yunxi to help.
The delicate Chu Yunxi's understanding and tolerance of human emotions are far above Lin Yueyuan, and her gentleness and amiability, kindness and closeness make Li Min feel the warmth of a mother that she has not seen for a long time. Under the joint encouragement of the three of them, she wrote a poem in her life.
Lin Yueyuan excitedly took Li Min to Li Tan for a review. Li Min was a little shy at first, but Li Tan's praise made her overjoyed. To Lin Yueyuan's surprise, Li Can's sudden arrival disturbed her plans, and she was afraid that his unintentional cold words would make her hard work for this period of time go to waste. She was about to hide the piece of paper, but Li Can snatched it away first.
She was ready to fight with Li Can, but Li Can's next words made her stunned on the spot: "Ah Min has some talent, it seems that he is really attentive." ”
Maybe it really responded to the sentence "sincerity, gold and stone are open", Lin Yueyuan said in his heart. Li Min's sincerity warmed Li Can's cold heart, and his stubborn stone also had the day when he was moved.
Li Min was so excited about Li Can's words that he almost stayed up all night. Lin Yueyuan was also grateful, and when she met Li Can on the second day, she whispered to him: "Thank you." ”