Every prodigal son needs to find a reason to turn back, my reason is not because it is gradually replaced by garlic, but because of "Xiaoxiao's birth", since having a daughter, Xia Li is reluctant to go to her 9-to-5 class in the name of taking care of her daughter, right! She was too tired and annoying to go to work, so she wanted to be a full-time wife. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info But I didn't agree, firstly, because I couldn't support it at all with my income alone, and secondly, because Xia Li didn't care about anything at all during the months when she was idle at home, and she was confused about housework, and I was the one who made milk powder for Xiaoxiao in the middle of the night, and I was the one who took Xiaoxiao out to let off steam, and I was the one who told stories, changed diapers, and was ridden as a horse. Xia Li often doesn't cook, so sometimes I have to take Xiaoxiao to Brother Dong's house to eat. Because of these little things, we quarreled a lot, and even turned into a fight once. That time was because of the violence caused by Xia Li and a woman named "Jiaojiao" downstairs, the delicate husband works in the government department, and there are often some purposeful people who carry her husband behind her back to send some small favors and small bribes to Jiaojiao, Jiaojiao is the kind of woman who loves to show off, sometimes playing mahjong with Xia Li at a table will inevitably show off, every time Xia Li comes home after listening to Jiaojiao's show-off, she will inevitably ask me for such and such things, at first it was just a short skirt! Bracelets! Earrings and other small things, but once I was very angry that Xia Li secretly stole my credit card of 30,000 yuan, just to buy a certain brand-name bag that is better than Jiaojiao, I know that it is very popular, I just want to top her lungs, what bag to buy costs 30,000 yuan, isn't the shopping bag the same to use? So I said a few nasty things to her, and of course, I admit that the tone was a bit heavy. However, Xia Li's sentence "Other people's men are better than you, they are all richer than you, and it is really a nest to follow a man like you." At that time, I was narrow-minded, and the most inaudible thing was that someone compared me with other successful men, and I couldn't hear this kind of words coming out of my wife's mouth, what was it like to hurt my self-esteem by my wife? It was more serious than stealing a credit card or spending 30,000 yuan to buy a bag, so that very hurtful sentence directly became the fuse of the violent incident. I hit Xia Li for the first time, and she was hospitalized, and when I beat her, I was angry and told her to get out, but she remembered my angry words, and one day in the future, when Xiaoxiao was just in the first grade of primary school, Xia Li quietly eloped with a rich old man, and there has been no news since. In the letter sent to Tian Sisi by Xia Li after many years, she claimed that she and the old man who was older than her father were true love, but I knew that she was just trying to live a luxurious life, because a person who could abandon even her own children was not qualified to talk about true love. Maybe even Xiaoxiao can feel the same way, because by chance when I looked through her childlike diary, I found that she recorded an incompetent mother, and of course, I was not a qualified father in Xiaowan's diary, which is an important reason why I will stop at the precipice and embark on the right path in the future.

Xiaoxiao's diary reads:

"December 5th, fine. Today is my sixth birthday, my father is not at home, I went out to drink, I came back in the middle of the night, my mother said that downstairs to play mahjong three missing one, let me watch TV at home alone, no one has accompanied me, and there is no cake. ”

"February 14th, eye, today is Valentine's Day, many people buy flowers to give to their lovers, I heard that my daughter is my father's lover in my last life, I don't know what it is called in my last life, I just drew a rose and wanted to give it to my father, but unfortunately I fell asleep and my father didn't come back.

"June 1st, cloudy, today is Children's Day, the children outside have their parents holding their hands to the cinema to watch a movie, I also want to go to watch, but my mother is playing mahjong again, and my father is sleeping at home."

"On July 8th, I saw through the window that the classroom was full of parents, only my desk was empty. When I got home, I found out that my dad was out doing something bad and his head was broken. ”

"On December 3rd, two days before my seventh birthday, my mother left a note saying that she was gone, and some time ago my parents were fighting, and my mother said she was leaving, but she stayed later, so this time I thought she was joking with me, and then my father came home and said that my mother ran away, and I believed it."

"On December 4th, Mom ran away, why didn't Dad run? I wish there was a new dad, and he was too bad, if he could. ”

Most of the words in Xiaoxiao's diary were replaced by pinyin, and when I spent a long time spelling them out word by word, I felt an unprecedented sourness.

I looked at the ceiling and fell into a long contemplation, has this been the life I want for more than ten years? I took Xiaoxiao's diary and walked to the window, rolled up the plastic curtains, and a ray of dazzling sunlight came into front of me so that I couldn't open my eyes, and I suddenly woke up, it turns out that in addition to the darkness in the world, there has always been an eye for the sky, only when will you remember to open the window.