Chapter 164: Self-Selection
"When I used to be a soldier of the resource mining team, I went to various stars to carry out resource mining missions, in order to prevent me from coming into contact with this, which is completely harmless to humans and is not very common in the universe, but it will expose me to the original form of minerals, my mining objects have always been set by my superiors as liquid resources and gas resources. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info"
"After entering the combat unit, relying on the very tightly sealed combat uniform, even if there were occasional cases where I had to abandon my mecha in battle, in the face of the kind of mineral dust that is rare in space, I was completely isolated from it, as if I had never left the first nine years of life of the Hope, and there were no accidents."
"After the Human Interstellar Alliance began to modify the natural environment of Planet Six, I was occasionally given the right to take a vacation, and I traveled to the surface of Planet Six, but under the condition that the vacation time was strictly controlled, I was unable to change my own way, and arranged the travel location in a densely forested area, so as to avoid the dust on the ground to the greatest extent."
"That's why I, who have been receiving injections on time for so many years, and who have not been exposed to the dose of mineral dust that can affect my body, has never known that I am not a human at all, and I have lived to be 20 years old."
"Later, because considering that once the Human Interstellar Alliance settles on the sixth planet, I will inevitably be exposed to this mineral dust for a long time, and I will definitely turn into a monster that looms and converts matter and preys on humans, so I think it must be because the decision-making crew, including Captain Widner, all believe that even if they tell me the truth, it is impossible to avoid the impending tragedy, so they finally reached an agreement and decided to completely wipe me out in the final battle!"
"I don't know what will happen to the Crash King Regeneration project team after I'm eliminated. After all, until the day when Dior and I accidentally crossed the space-time wall, the problem of too many splices between base sequences leading to the premature death of synthetic life has never been solved. But I know that the reason why I can recall all these dusty past events for many years at this moment is also due to the failure of the injections and the attack that Jennifer launched against me. ”
"In the past half a year since I came to World B, I, who have never been injected by the project team, have unconsciously freed myself from the depression and shackles as a part of the adventitious worm, and then awakened little by little. And just when I was about to wake up as part of the indeterminate worm, the attack that Jennifer had launched against me ten days earlier, and the severe pain it had caused me, had allowed me to remember everything I had to remember during those ten days of slumber. ”
"At the moment, I feel the need to elaborate on the things that are so much for now. After listening to my self-report, if you two have anything to say, you can also open up and say it. With that, he looked at the peace of Aoba and Dior with encouraging eyes, and finally woke the two of them up from their stunned stiffness with a calm and indifferent smile.
Aoba and Dior, who looked at each other and then tacitly exchanged questions that were common to each other and their hearts, were surprised, and at the same time many emotions such as curiosity and worry emerged in their hearts.
"Ping'an, you're not joking with me, are you? You're an adventitious worm? How did you accept this shocking news that almost made me die of a myocardial infarction with a smile on your face? Don't you think that your identity is so appalling that you can't accept it? ”
"Also, you said that you have now awakened as the part of the indefinite worm, and all the memories that were once blocked have been recovered, so what about the future? Will you be the peace I knew, or the enemy I am bound to destroy, or both? ”
"If my true identity was told to me by someone else without my corresponding memory, then I believe I would not be able to be as comfortable as I am now. So, Captain Widner, they didn't choose to tell me the truth about this appalling fact, and I didn't understand it, because they didn't want to risk my slow recovery, and therefore didn't want to stop injecting me. ”
"After all, if someone had told me in World A that I was not a human at all but an adventitious worm, I would have thought that the person who said it was absolutely insane, or that he had fallen into a state of self-doubt and self-loathing in the face of unassailable evidence."
"It's just that now, all the things that have happened since the moment I became a human have come to my mind, so I can now remain calm, fully accept and recognize myself. As for whether I will be the same peace you know in the coming days, I think it should be. Because, I choose to continue to live in peace. ”
"I will not deny or escape the fact that I devoured a baby on the verge of death in my days as a larva of an adventitious worm. It's just that this incident didn't make me fall into the whirlpool of ethics and morality, which made it difficult for me to get along with myself. ”
"The fact that humans slaughtered livestock and poultry in order to survive, and that they used to eat their children during the famine years, are examples that make me think that the act of eating the baby that the Exogenous Research Institute and the project team provided to me as food, and not deliberately causing her pain in the process of devouring her, in order to derive pleasure from her death, is not a crime that should be punished by me."
"After all, killing to survive is fundamentally different from killing not to survive. So, I can freely admit and accept the fact that I have devoured humanity. And in the days that followed, I, who had lived as a human for twenty years, decided to continue to live according to the way a human behaps. ”
"How to live as a human being, how I will continue to live as a human being, as for snatching and transforming matter, devouring human beings, or giving up fighting against adventitious insects because the opponent is of the same kind, I will not do any of these things."