Chapter 116: Miscellaneous
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He never thought that he was a man who could resist much temptation, but in the face of Elizabeth's initiative, although he was tempted and sudden for a moment, Li Yiming still did not take that step after all.
Li Yiming has never felt that he is a very determined person, but it is amazing that in the face of such a deep love for Elizabeth, he really controlled his desire and greed this time.
Maybe it's really someone who occupies too much position in his heart, so that he doesn't even take actual action, even if it's just a thought of wanting to be bred in his heart, Li Yiming will keep condemning himself for having no conscience.
"Lizzie." Li Yiming glanced at Elizabeth deeply, hesitated slightly, and still called her nickname, "Don't be like this." ”
He said no to the girl he had been haunted by with a firm look.
There was no wind in the room at the moment, but the blonde's long eyelashes still trembled, and she lowered her eyelids, and her light blue eyes, which were like sunny summer, seemed to be covered with a layer of frosted glass.
She didn't rush to answer, but took a few steps forward gently, and soon reached the point where she was about to touch Li Yiming's toes, and then she slowly raised her head, and there was actually no too sad expression on her face, but her slightly raised eyebrows alone were so cute.
The pair of jewel-like eyes looked at Li Yiming, and Li Yiming realized that Elizabeth and his sister Kim Sohyun were of similar height, but the two showed completely different styles and charms, which had nothing to do with skin color or appearance, but more depending on the precipitation of age and the environment in which they lived since childhood.
"I regret it now." Elizabeth stared at Li Yiming for a long time before she said slowly.
Li Yiming didn't know what she meant by saying this suddenly, so he had to ask, "What do you regret?" ”
"I regret saying that I won't give up unless you find a girlfriend."
Li Yiming was silent for a long time, thinking about how to reply.
After a while, he held back a sentence, "Then you have to be a person who keeps your promises." ”
Lizzie, Elizabeth Olsen, the woman who brought Li Yiming too many firsts, shook her head, but only spoke before his heart tightened: "But I'm more afraid of losing the opportunity to meet you, even as a friend." ”
Li Yiming breathed a sigh of relief in his heart, although he had indulged in such warmth to the point of being unable to extricate himself before, but now, Elizabeth's perseverance and affection brought him more trouble, especially after he decided to be with Zheng Xiujing.
I don't want to be the kind of man who "eats in the bowl and looks at the pot", but Li Yiming is really afraid that he will not be able to bear it one day, after all, he is also a person with seven emotions and six desires, not a saint, so it is naturally impossible to be indifferent in the face of great temptation.
"Lizzie, didn't I say before, I have a girlfriend." Li Yiming tried to express his thoughts little by little, "Once I cross the line, I really don't know how to face her, I like her very much, I like her very much." ”
Li Yiming looked at Elizabeth, "How much I liked you before, how much I like her now." ”
"Really?" Hearing this, Elizabeth seemed to remember something, and her eyes became distant, as if she was recalling a sweet and warm happy time, "It was indeed to the extent that I liked it very much." ”
Li Yiming nodded, "So, I know you may still have some good feelings for me now, but..."
"It's not some, it's a lot." Li Yiming's words were interrupted, which made him smile a little embarrassed.
"Well, a lot of favoritism." Seeing that the other party nodded in satisfaction, he continued: "But I don't think you like that kind of man who pedals two boats, right?" And I don't like it, it would make my conscience uneasy.
"However, I'm not a person with much self-control, so I'm really afraid that one day, I can't resist the temptation and hold the idea of 'it's good once' to be with you, which is irresponsible to you, and irresponsible to her, and it will also make me feel ridiculous about my love that can't stand the test."
"So don't do it again, okay?" Li Yiming looked at her sincerely, "Please." ”
Elizabeth looked at him intently, not knowing what she wanted to see on the other party's face. And Li Yiming did not stagger his gaze this time, his eyes were very calm, and his pupils were like ink, which were clearly separated from the whites of his eyes, interpreting another kind of clarity.
It was a long time before Elizabeth spoke.
"I thought you were so hard-hearted that you weren't moved at all." She pulled her long hair back to the back of her neck, "I almost thought I didn't have any charm." ”
"I'm a normal man." Li Yiming looked at her, "How can you be indifferent to your soul-stirring beauty." ”
"Then I'm... Can't tease enough? Elizabeth raised her head, her innocent look and her words were completely polarized.
Li Yiming leaned on his head angrily, put his forehead on her forehead, and put his hands on the other party's shoulders, "In a sense, it can be said."
"But if that's the way, it's not Li Yiming who will be provoked, but a beast dominated by lust."
The two were too close to each other, so Li Yiming could feel Elizabeth's breathing, it was very subtle at first, and it was difficult to hear if there was nothing, but it slowly became heavy, Li Yiming listened to it for a while, and his heartbeat was actually in the same rhythm.
"I love beasts." She said, biting her lower lip gently, as if remembering the charm of the past.
"Then do you like beasts that only like your body?" Li Yiming tilted his head back, relying on the little clarity left in his mind, trying to expel all other thoughts.
After Li Yiming said this, Elizabeth's eyes darkened significantly.
"One... Naruto, do you really dislike me? ”
Li Yiming was just silent, and didn't speak for a long time, just held Elizabeth's shoulders and asked her to sit on the sofa, while he sat on the other one.
The silence is because he doesn't know whether to say what he really thinks in his mind, and that is likely to lead the other party to think that there is a chance to turn the situation around, Li Yiming doesn't want the other party to move forward, but he doesn't want to lie, because that not only means deceiving the other party, but also means deceiving himself - he can't even say the truth calmly, what is it if he is not self-deception.
Li Yiming began to be annoyed why he didn't smoke, because that would at least make him less embarrassed at the moment, and when he said his inner words, he could put the cigarette in front of him, and deliberately smoke the smoke to his eyes, making the reddened eye sockets more natural.
In the twilight, he suddenly remembered the determination he had made, and remembered the promise he had made that he would "never run away again".
"I still like you, Lizzie." He said, "I just don't love you anymore." ”
Elizabeth was stunned at first, and when she realized that she had heard correctly, tears flowed down without warning, as if she had accumulated emotions for too long, and when she heard this "like" today, she finally vented her mind.
"And how do you fall in love with me again?" Elizabeth wiped her tears, even if she couldn't control her crying, she couldn't help but said, "I've always loved you."
"Yiming, Li Yiming, I have always loved you, I have never interrupted, from before to now, even if I accepted your proposal to break up, I never stopped.
"I also want to let myself be a little more free, I want to let myself think a little more about you, I want to get myself out of that cold state.
"But I can't do it, I really can't do it, you know that feeling, the feeling of an empty chest?" Elizabeth poked her chest, "An empty piece, an empty feeling that can't be filled by drinking water, eating, or even sucking big."
"It's a terrible feeling, but after losing you, I'm in this feeling all the time, living like the walking dead, and even when filming, I have to stay up all night reciting scripts to get into the state.
"I'm beginning to understand that the reason why my whole heart and chest feel empty is because of you, because of you, my whole life is incomplete.
"What about you? You also admit it.,You still like me.,Although you say to put it down, you can't really give it up completely.,Since you're still liking me.,Why can't you fall in love with me again?
"What is it going to take for you to fall in love with me again?"
"It's impossible, it's really impossible." Li Yiming looked at her, looked at Lizzie who was at a loss, and looked at Elizabeth, whose tears couldn't stop falling, although she couldn't bear it, she still shook her head slowly after all, "I already have someone else." ”
"Possibly, we're still in time." The beautiful woman with long blond hair hurriedly waved her hands, as if this way could negate an established fact, "You and her have only been together for a short time, and it has not yet reached the point where she must go to the end together, we still have the possibility, and we still have a chance!" I can wait for you until you get tired and give up, and I will wait until you fall in love with me again! ”
"I ......"
Li Yiming couldn't find the excuse to refuse for a while.
Saying that he can't stand the other party's eyebrows and even burning lust on the big screen as an actor and many partners? But that was his previous thoughts, after coming to South Korea, Li Yiming's thoughts have begun to change little by little, and the relationship with Zheng Xiujing has become an opportunity, when he just broke up with Elizabeth, he made up his mind that the person he liked in the future could no longer be a public figure, hoping to live a plain and warm life with his partner that did not attract the public's attention.
But when he really fell in love, in the face of Zheng Xiujing, who was not only an idol but also an actor, he also began to try to change little by little, and began to no longer resist Zheng Xiujing's great enthusiasm for the actor's career, even if it was only in his heart and never showed it.
It was then that he began to understand Elizabeth, the girl's passion for her career, and her courageous sacrifice in the face of the demands of the script, even if it was a precious body as a woman.
So apart from this, what other reason does he have for refusal?
Said he couldn't bear the pressure and didn't want to be criticized? Say he doesn't want to endure a life of less gathering and more separation? Say that he doesn't like each other as much as he imagined?
But how can these reasons be said again in front of Elizabeth, who is now willing to wait for him to break up to renew the relationship?
Li Yiming could only be speechless.
But wordlessness was the most decisive refusal, and Elizabeth, who had not received a response for a long time, cried even more choked.
Li Yiming is not a person who can remain unmoved in the face of such a situation, he sat in place for a long time, but after all, he still couldn't hold back, walked in front of the other party, and gently pulled the other party into his arms.
The familiar scent is back, it's Lizzie's usual lavender-scented perfume. He only felt that the other party hugged his hands very hard, tightly wrapping his waist, as if he was afraid that he would disappear in front of him in the next moment.
The sobbing slowly stopped, and Li Yiming actually began to feel a brief peace.
"Stop crying?"
"Hmmm......"
After a while, the blonde beauty raised her head again and met Li Yiming's gaze with great difficulty.
"Didn't you say you didn't love me? Why do you still hug me? ”
"It's out of a friendship concern."
"Cut ......"