Every night around 6 p.m., I locked the door and went for a walk around Wanlv Park, which was the largest open tropical seaside ecological garden in HK at that time, and the whole garden was in the development stage, with only lawns and beaches in the garden. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 info It was about 15-20 minutes away from our rented house, I went around and came back and it was a bit dark.

At night, Guomao Avenue and Longkun South Road are noisy, and when night falls, the entire Guomao Avenue is brightly lit. The city is alive with a steady stream of vehicles and bustling crowds, and on both sides of the road are tall and straight coconut trees, whose leaves are like long feathers, and the shadows of the trees are swaying when there is wind, and they are elegant and beautiful when there is no wind, and the trees are extremely mysterious and unpredictable under the interplay of moonlight, starlight, and neon lights. Looking at the crowds of people rushing on the streets, the cars coming and going, the tourists leaning on the roadside benches, the hawkers on the roadside, the frolicking couples, I felt that they were the ones who were lively, but I had nothing. I seem to be very lonely, and I think that if I am so old in my hometown, I will get married and have children early? When I was working in my hometown, there were a lot of people who came to kiss me, and I was very annoyed at that time, but now I want someone to arrange a marriage for me, if not for anything else, just chat with me.

I forgot where I saw a sentence: loneliness is indeed different from loneliness, loneliness only means that there is no one else around, but loneliness is a state of mind in which you cannot communicate or share your feelings with others. And the real loneliness should be the feeling that even you have forgotten to like someone.

This sentence was very much in line with my mindset at the time. I feel like I need to fall in love, and I just want someone to communicate and share with. But in reality, I don't look down on any of the friends my brother introduced to me, either because of the wrong age, or because I don't have a common language, I am a person who is not good at expressing myself in reality, two people sit opposite each other, I don't speak, he doesn't speak, can I live like this? They said to their brother, "Your sister is too haughty." The arrogance of the fart, I thought to myself. I want to find someone to talk to me, but as soon as we meet, you wait for me to talk to you, and I feel that I am here to find an audience?

"It doesn't matter if you're ugly, it's okay to be poor, you must be a little self-confident and a little pursuing." I told my brother about my standards.

"It's hard to find, my friend is not confident when he sees you." The elder brother replied.

My brother was too straightforward, and I hit him angrily and said, "Forget it, you don't need to look for it, the one you found yourself doesn't have a common language, and your vision is like this." "And don't tell my sister-in-law that I'm looking for a boyfriend."

"Why?" My brother asked.

"I want to go to the mainland, and I don't want to look for it for the time being." I replied

In fact, when I opened a shop at my sister-in-law's house, an old professor in their college took a fancy to me and wanted to introduce me to his son, who worked in the school library, was tall and thin with glasses. It's okay, but I don't like to talk much. I think he's too dull. The old professor repeatedly invited me to play at their house, but his son stood behind his father with a red face and did not speak. My sister-in-law thought it was good and repeatedly matched us. I didn't agree. Now, if she knows that she can arrange an arranged marriage for me, she may not be able to find me what kind of marriage she can find.

I don't like the boys of HN.,I'm not looking for it for the time being.,You can chat online to relieve loneliness.。 You don't have to be in love.

My brother assembled a computer for me, it seemed to be 486 or 586 at that time, very basic, an old-fashioned desktop monitor, which was collected for others to repair, an old motherboard, an old hard drive, a few old memory, not even a chassis. The motherboard is placed on a hollow box for heat dissipation. As if building blocks, my brother assembled a computer for me.

"It's okay, let's play online, don't be like a resentful woman." After speaking, my brother hurried to the securities company.

"Does such a brother care about me, or does he treat me as a burden? The attitude is not good. I muttered to myself.

"But it's good to have a computer, people can't be too thick-skinned, can't be too thin-skinned, can't think too much." I consoled myself with myself. Just take it as if he meant well.

I used to spend money to learn C before I went to HN, but when I got to HN, I found that everyone used Windows. It's useless to learn that C language without being a programmer. I've seen my brother repair computers, and I don't have that kind of lofty feeling about computers anymore. I thought it would be okay if it was broken, my brother would fix it anyway. My brother didn't teach me how to use it, so I figured it out by myself to turn it on and surf the Internet. I didn't think I'd do it.

Go online first,Go around in various forums,Download a QQ,At that time, when you register QQ,As long as you indicate the gender of the female,There will continue to be boys applying to add you to be a good friend。 Now I'm not lonely anymore, there are people who are idle anytime and anywhere, chatting with me. At that time, there was no video, and no one knew it on the Internet anyway, even if there was a dog chatting with someone on the other side, no one knew. So everyone is very open, and they are talking nonsense. I'm not just a listener anymore. You can say whatever you want, and you don't need to be responsible for what you say anyway.

At that time, there was a netizen from HN, who chatted with me very well, he was always on the line at any time, when I was sad, he could hear it when I was chatting, and when he was happy, he could feel it. At that time, I always wondered if he was not HN, and if he didn't live near me. In line with the principle of telling more lies and less truth on the Internet. I resolutely didn't trust them, I only talked to them, I didn't give them a phone.

After a few months of chatting like this, my vigilance began to decrease. One night it was very boring. People who are too familiar have basically asked about the eight generations of their ancestors (although they don't know whether it's true or not), and they don't want to chat with them, so they find a person who has existed on QQ for a long time and hasn't chatted much to brag. Blowing and blowing, he suddenly asked me for my phone number, I think he is not local anyway, and there is no problem in giving it. What else can he call me? I sent the number. He really didn't call me, but more than 10 minutes after the number was sent, one of my brother's former colleagues called my brother and said that he wanted to come to our villa to play. It's been almost a year since we moved to the villa, and he didn't come to our house to take a look, and now he suddenly wants to come, I don't feel good, is he my netizen. My little heart. I regret this, I think I'm playing big hair now, if he is really my netizen, he won't expose my bragging cowhide to my brother.