"I'm not asking you this. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info" Li Yiming said angrily, obviously not satisfied with Yu Dingyan's tact.

The other party shrugged his shoulders and spread his hands and said, "I don't really like the way you speak now." ”

This made Li Yiming stunned, "How is the way I speak now?" ”

"Rounding around the bush, it's not at all like the same you when I first met." Yu Dingyan shook his head slowly at him and said.

"Hey... That's different. Li Yiming subconsciously retorted: "I was drunk at that time." ”

Yu Dingyan held up the "green grasshopper", and the tall cocktail glass collided with the ordinary large glass glass. This time she drank it all and learned that Li Yiming used her other hand to block the other party slightly, which made Li Yiming stunned.

He smiled and honestly put the whiskey he had only taken a sip back on the table.

Yu Dingyan said again: "Who said that only when you are drunk can you say what you want to say in your heart?" ”

She winked at Li Yiming, and her palm-sized little face naturally had crimson on her cheeks because she had dried up the remaining "green grasshoppers" in one bite.

"Be direct, say whatever you want, it's not the first time."

Li Yiming pursed his lips to hide his embarrassment, and his face was flushed, and he didn't know if it was because he drank too much wine or was embarrassed because of Yu Dingyan's words.

He looked at the other person, "Then what do I say?" ”

Yu Dingyan propped his hand on the bar and made a "please" motion.

Li Yiming seemed to be mentally preparing, took a deep breath, and spit it out heavily, although Yu Dingyan had already frowned and squinted at him, he still took the whiskey in his hand and drank it.

The whole person is a lot warmer, and the embarrassment that inevitably arises in my heart is more or less washed away.

After a while, he said, "I'm a coward. ”

Looking straight ahead, those who didn't know thought he was talking to the bartender.

He only spit out these few words, but in order to say these few words, as if the whole person had spent a lot of energy, after speaking, the whole person became listless.

The words thrown out are not only words, but also the perfect disguise that he has always been careful, with a sense of guilt and escapism.

In the past, he was arrogant and cold, and he was calm and confident in the face of everything, and he always smiled confidently, but it turned out to be just a disguise.

Yu Dingyan has never seen Li Yiming like that, but he appears on TV, news, and NBA promotional videos, and he is like that.

That kind of person is Li Yiming, so who is this person who is leaning on the bar, holding an empty wine glass tightly in his hand, holding a glass tightly, even if he gritted his teeth strongly, his eyes are like a puddle of stagnant water, who is it?

Who is it?

Yu Dingyan was still thinking about it, and Li Yiming beside him slowly repeated:

"I'm a coward."

When the conversation box is opened, there is no need for guidance.

Li Yiming's mood was like a flood that burst the embankment, his face was red but he was in a cold sweat, and he had drunk a lot of wine, but his lips were dry and cracked.

"I will only escape, never dare to face the facts, even if the difficulties are in front of me, the first thought is just a coward who runs away.

A coward who doesn't dare to take responsibility, can't make any promises, but still promises.

will only live in imagination, refuse to recognize reality, and paralyze his cowards with false busyness.

A coward who only liars to himself that tomorrow will be better, but never does anything.

A coward who thinks he is great, thinks he has taken on a lot and carried a lot, but in fact he can only deceive himself.

Jingwan..."

Li Yiming's eyes were cloudy, and his emotions were so turbulent that he forgot Yu Jingwan's new name.

"Jingwan, I'...... What a coward. ”

I said everything I wanted to say, but Li Yiming couldn't relax at all.

Because he still hasn't changed anything, and the bad situation is still bad, and he only complains, whether it's about everything around him or about himself, it won't change in the slightest.

And the darkness is still the darkness, and the difficulties are still blocked in front of us.

For now, at least, the only thing that has changed is the cruel time that keeps moving forward and never shows mercy to anyone.

So I was still depressed in my heart.

Li Yiming has said more than once that wine is a good thing.

For him, alcohol can diverge his mind, whether it is reminiscing about the past or thinking about the present, and the extended thought can at least not focus on one thing.

As much as I don't want to admit it, it's really an escape in disguise. Like doing other things to divert attention, this method is still a means for Li Yiming to escape.

He can go back to the first time he touched the basketball as a child, and once again feel the wonderful touch of the basketball rubbing against the palm of his hand.

You can go back to the joy of finally throwing the ball into the basket every time you tried to play at the beginning.

It can be traced back to the moment when I met Jerry on the court, looked at each other unpleasantly but cherished each other, and finally became friends and shook hands.

You can return to the moment when he was the ace of high school, threw the killer ball at the last minute, everyone cheered for him, and was thrown into the air by his teammates.

…

You can relive the incredible standing on the NBA court, feel the joy of holding the "Rookie of the Year" trophy, and relive the experience of Derrick. Rose's spirits as they lifted the O'Brien Cup high.

You can taste it again, when you are hugged by Kim So-hyun, you feel the warmth from the heart, and when Jung so-kyung says "Of course not", the whole heart throbs...

Of course, when drunk, there will be times when you wake up, and your thoughts will eventually come back, and your memories are limited, and there will definitely be an end. After the paralysis of the self, the reality is still in front of us, and the future is still pitch black.

Li Yiming came back to his senses and glanced at Yu Dingyan, who had been looking at him.

At a loss, but still showing a wry smile.

The whiskey seemed to have lost its effect, his body became cold and stiff again, and his blood seemed to be about to coagulate, which made Li Yiming shiver.

He was covered in cold sweat and trembled: "Excuse me, have another drink." ”

All this was seen by Yu Dingyan.

His fear, his helplessness, his trembling.

The gloom in his eyes and the blankness in his eyes, clenching his teeth but to no avail, cold to the heart, from the depths of the essence of powerlessness.

Yu Dingyan saw it, saw it all, her slightly trembling pupils showed the emotion in her heart, she looked at Li Yiming's eyes not like looking at anything else, but more like looking at a mirror, through the mirror, she saw herself in the same situation.

He's so, himself, isn't he?

Seeing Li Yiming looking up and having another glass of spirits in his stomach, but still trembling without improvement, Yu Ding hesitated for a moment and stretched out his hand.

Slowly take his wrists, then pull them into the palms of his hands.

Li Yiming was stunned, hesitated but did not break free.

The coldness of the tentacles made her tremble, Yu Dingyan's two hands rubbed gently, only feeling that Li Yiming's palms were very rough, and there were many calluses in some parts because of long-term contact with various fitness equipment.

It must be hard, right?

For no reason, she thought of the sad and inspirational stories about Li Yiming that she saw on the Internet.

How much pain and suffering did he go through to get to where he is today? Asking himself, Yu Dingyan felt that he was just in small South Korea, and he had spent his entire youth in order to become an idol, and even now he has no hope of debuting.

And what about him? Step by step, from scratch to the present, there is no recognition and no encouragement, relying on his own unwilling heart.

What did you endure and compromise to finally reap such a glory?

When Yu Dingyan thought of this, he suddenly felt a sense of honor.

She poked Li Yiming's shoulder, and waited until he raised his head and met her gaze, and then said:

"Pabo... You're a coward, so what am I? ”

These words made Li Yiming stunned, he raised his eyebrows, and his voice was so low that he didn't speak, "What? ”

Yu Dingyan clenched his fist and punched him weakly in the chest.

"Giggle...... It's nothing. ”

She showed her white teeth again, and learned from Li Yiming to raise her hand over her shoulder, "Excuse me, have another drink." ”

"Another glass of whiskey?" The bartender smiled at her, and Li Yiming, who heard the words, also pulled the corners of his mouth.

"It's not!" Yu Dingyan hurriedly said, "'Green Grasshopper'! ”

Only then did she turn to Li Yiming and said, "No one is yourself, so you empathize with it or something... It's just a lie. ”

"However, I am at the most important turning point in my life, just like you, so I can more or less understand your feelings." Her words were very sincere, so Li Yiming couldn't help but raise his head.

Her eyes weren't huge, but they were very divine, and there was always a sparkle flowing in them. At this moment, the four eyes are facing each other, and they feel that their eyes are like torches.

"There are too many difficulties in this world, and of course not everything can be controlled by us alone."

Li Yiming was talking to him, and he was about to speak, but she noticed it.

"If you don't really do your best, do it first." She grabbed his mouth first, realizing that she was too intimate but too late.

Her face was a little hot, and she forced herself not to touch it.

It's normal to have a blush after drinking a little wine, isn't it... She said to herself, so in order to hide her embarrassment, she immediately said: "Everything that needs to be done is done, just leave everything to 'him'." ”

She gestured in the direction of the sky.

Li Yiming still wanted to speak, but her mind was all penetrated, so she took the first step to block it.

"That's all there is to it."

Yu Dingyan tilted his head, and his shallow smile was extremely clear.

"A chirp." She called Li Yiming.

"We are all ordinary people, and so am I, and so are you."