Chapter 012: Despair
On the way home, Luoyang's heart was not calm, although he only had the mature appearance of a twenty-eight-year-old, but this did not mean that he could just treat everything as if it did not exist, he knew that he owed Jiang Yue a lot.
This made him very distressed, the more he owed Jiang Yue, the more he felt inferior when he saw her in the future, but whether it was before or later, he knew that he would only owe Jiang Yue more and more.
What are you? In the past, in school, his grades were good, his family was rich, and he was good-looking, so he was naturally a proud son, but now his parents don't recognize him, and the so-called grades in school don't work in society.
What's more, I still have a daughter to raise.
He knew that if he continued like this, he would only get farther and farther away from Jiang Yue, even if he embarked on a new life in the future, the emotion in his heart that was full of indebtedness would only make his simple love for Jiang Yue more complicated, which was not what he wanted.
He just wants a simple love, not the kind of love concept that you can watch with colored glasses.
Although he thought so, he was still powerless, he was weak, he could only let fate push him little by little into the trajectory of life he didn't want to go, and at the age of eighteen, he began to panic.
When he found that the future was not what he wanted, he thought about changing, but after doing his best, the change was still not what he wanted, and he knew that his greatest ability was only so much.
But life has to go on, he wants to live on his own, but these days of life let him see himself clearly, he is useless at all, at this time, if he still stubbornly thinks about his dignity, he will only take the already difficult road more and more narrow, so that he comes to a desperate situation.
For a moment, Luoyang really wanted to escape.
A long time ago, this kind of thought took root in his heart and began to take root, and today, Jiang Yue's tears, the sudden distance of approaching and fartgeting, as well as Jiang Yue's kind help, Lin Wu's insult, the failure to find a job, and the guilt of not daring to see his mother, are all like the most powerful nourishment, so that the idea of escaping in Luoyang's heart completely became a towering tree!
That's right, let's talk about the child, the child is his own ten years later, and the relationship between himself and Luo Luo is just his own sense of responsibility, and it has nothing to do with him.
It was a world that didn't fit in with him, and the bustling city gave him a sense of incompatibility.
He suddenly found himself an outlier, and with his own ability, he had no way to open up any situation.
The burden of reality finally overwhelmed Luoyang, making him want to escape.
No matter what you do, under such a cage, you will only be locked tighter and tighter, and now you already feel suffocated.
This state of affairs in Luoyang lasted for a long time.
In the next few days, although he worked equally seriously, his mental state was still extremely confused, so that in order to please Lin Wu, the management of Lao Zhang, who kept targeting Luoyang, also stopped a lot.
Even Lin Wu has been thinking about whether he has gone too far for the past two days, it is undeniable that Luoyang's strength is indeed very strong, and it is indeed a little unkind to insult him like this.
Jiang Yue saw some problems, but he didn't ask too much, after all, the current Luoyang is much better than the extremely decadent Luoyang at that time.
A woman's heart is very careful and can experience a lot of things, but when it comes to the subtlety, the little self-esteem that only belongs to a man, she still can't see it.
Just like it was back then.
It is said that children are the most sensitive, in fact, it is true, for Luoyang's state these days, the biggest influence is Luoluo's, she has been silent these days, and the liveliness that had recovered a little bit is gone again.
Once, when Luoyang was bathing Luo Luo, Luo Luo suddenly opened his big black eyes, and asked with an aggrieved face, "Dad, don't you want Luo Luo anymore!" ”
Luo Yang smiled bitterly, put some foam in his hand to wash Luo Luo's hair, and said, "How come?" Dad doesn't want no one, no one wants Luo Luo! ”
The young Luo Luo regained her vitality again, but where could she see when she was young, where Luoyang was laughing at the moment, it was more ugly than crying.
Rely on other people's relief, rely on other people's charity, rely on other people's insults, rely on other people's exclusion to live.
This huge pressure is like a tense rubber band, and if you are not careful, Luoyang will collapse directly.
A week passed in the blink of an eye, on Friday, still at work, Jiang Yue and Luoyang said that her friend had agreed to rent a house, she was already in the house, and after giving Luoyang an address, let Luoyang pick up Luoluo to look at the house.
Luoyang responded a little suddenly, it happened that he got off work early this day, he cleaned it roughly, and hurried to the kindergarten.
But when he arrived at the kindergarten, his heart suddenly became blank, and a piece of news made Luoyang's fingers directly drip sweat even on a hot day.
Luo Luo was picked up as early as noon during the lunch break, and the person who came to pick up Luo Luo claimed to be Luo Luo's grandmother, and there was something at home today, so Luo Luo had to go home early.
Because she could depict Luo Luo's appearance and name in detail, Luo Luo didn't have any resistance to the old man, so the teacher directly asked someone to pick him up.
At this moment, the first thought that came to me was, trafficking!
That's right, it's human trafficking!
Luoyang panicked, even in this bustling city, he had never been so helpless and desperate.
I have nothing left, will I even have to be taken away from what I have in the end?
But soon, he comforted himself again, maybe it was really his mother who came to pick him up? But after thinking about it, it's a little unlikely, after all, my father doesn't recognize me, and I don't know where my mother lives now, so how can I know the kindergarten where Luo Luo is located?
What's more, there is no reason for the mother to secretly pick up Luo Luo without telling herself!
In other words, the answer is only the first possibility, although he has repeatedly denied the bad news in his heart, but he knows that it is the most likely!
The teacher also realized that something was not quite right, and while asking the security guard to call up the surveillance video, he comforted Luoyang, who had obviously lost his square inch.
This is not the time to blame the teacher, after all, for so many days, the person who picked up Luo Luo has always been a person who calls himself Aunt Luo Luo, and the teacher has never even seen Luoyang except for the first time he sent Luo Luo over, and this is a person who calls himself Luo Luo's grandmother, of course, there will be no suspicions.
Blame yourself alone!
If you usually care more about Luo Luo, then the teacher will have her own phone number, and when Luo Luo is picked up, he will at least call to ask.
At this time, all the evasions and messy ideas were left behind by Luoyang.
All he knew was that he wanted to get Lolo back!
The panic in his heart was like a dark cloud that quickly confused the sky of Luoyang, and under the scorching sun, Luoyang was like entering an ice cave.
is already in a desperate situation, why does God still treat himself like this.
But listening to what the teacher said, the old lady obviously knew Luo Luo, and looking at Luo Luo's appearance, it seemed that she also knew the old lady, so it means that Luo Luo was picked up by an acquaintance.
Could it be the enemy or partner who has turned against him in the past ten years?
Because she was bankrupt, she lost money.
Revenge on yourself?
At this time, the phone rang, Luoyang seemed to have picked up a life-saving straw, quickly picked up the phone, and Jiang Yue's voice came from the other end of the phone, "Luoyang?" Why haven't you come yet? ”
"Luo Luo, Luo Luo, she, is gone, ...... is gone", Luoyang's voice was full of tears.
The tight rubber band finally broke at this moment, and with a snapping sound, it hit Luoyang's heart, shattered and shattered, and sprinkled despair and sadness.