Damn, don't they know that my father is a dignified auxiliary general?

It wasn't until the moment I was also locked up in prison that I realized that I had lost my father and left the protection of the Patriotic Mansion, then I would be nothing!

Like all the masters of the Patriotic Mansion, I was escorted to the dungeon of the Criminal Department overnight, and stayed in the dungeon where I did not see the light of day all the year round, and I thought a lot. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

I thought about the loss of all the belongings my father left me, I thought about whether my father's old ministry would come to save me after knowing the news, and I even thought that if someone came to save me, I must find a way to get out of that man, and I wanted him to know that I was the most useful and loved him at the critical moment.

Unfortunately, no matter how much I thought about it, everything I had hoped for did not happen.

Staying in the dungeon as time passed, I began to be extremely irritable, I hated the crying of Shen Xingxi's son, I hated the sarcasm of Jia Slut in front of me, and I even hated that my own son looked at me with that strange eye.

It was cold in the dungeon and the food was terrible, but I endured it in order to survive, and I learned to eat things that dogs wouldn't normally want to eat.

A few damned jailers came to the women's prison that day to have fun, and I was pushed out by the slut to block the arrows, but who am I, I am the daughter of a dignified auxiliary general, how can I allow such a miscellaneous insult to myself? If my reputation is damaged, what else do I deserve to be liked by him?

I am Bing Qing Yujie, and my body can only be touched by Shen Lang!

With my own strength, I resisted to the death, I threatened, I told them that my father was Li Jingde, and in the end I was lucky to be rescued by the female jailer who came, but the female jailer looked at me very strangely when she left.

I didn't realize it at the time, I was just cursing and swearing that if I could get out, I would make these dogs look good.

Until the day came when the holy decree appeared again and all the troops of the Patriotic Mansion were sent to the Far North, I never waited for my father's subordinates to come to my rescue.

I walked northward with great resentment and blame, and I have to say that my son was well taken care of by his grandmother all the way, although he did not kiss me at all, and he never even called me a mother.

Along the way, I went from disdainful of eating those vulgar foods to reluctantly accepting them later, to now wanting to share more even if I ask for something in a low voice, I have changed, I don't know myself anymore, but in order to live, in order to be liked by him, I don't care.

I carefully preserved the black-faced steamed buns that I asked for every day, and when I didn't eat at noon every day, I would secretly take out the treasure and give it to Shen Lang, how I was looking forward to him being able to eat what I gave, and smile at me!

When my own son's hungry eyes were glowing green, when I was hungry myself, I left him with the food I had so hard to get, and all I got was his merciless ridicule.

He mocked me, he mocked me! He said I don't have a heart! He said I was vicious! He said I was hard-hearted!

Why? Everybody can say that about me, but he can't, he can't! I'm doing it for him!

Later, my grandfather and grandmother couldn't stay up on the road, and before she died, my grandmother took me by the hand and handed my son back to me, and she told me that I should take care of my son, and she told me that my son is my root.

At that time, I didn't quite understand what she said, but in the entire Patriotic Mansion, the only person I respected in my heart was her, because of this, I was willing to call her a grandmother, so I dared to throw my son to her to raise without scrupulousness.

But now that the only one who doesn't care about me, the only one who won't laugh at me or scold me, is leaving, I suddenly feel at a loss.

But those who should come will always come, and those who should go will always go! Since then, I've been a mother who never been.

I took my son's hand all the way north, I didn't take a child, I can't take a child, the only thing I can do is to try to make him eat as much as possible every day, I really don't know what to do, I don't understand, I won't, I really won't!

Later, my nightmare came.

I remember it was a snowy day, and we had just crossed the Yellow River when my son fell, and he never got back up.

I hugged his stiffening little body, and my tears flowed uncontrollably. It turns out that I don't like him, it turns out that I don't care about him!

I just can't express it, I just thought maybe he would be better off without me!

In the days when he came back to me, he would observe my every move with timid eyes, he would call my mother in a soft and glutinous tone, he would be very considerate to divide half of the food with me, he was a sensible child, he was my son! It's my only relative!

But I'm a bastard, I understood too late, too late!

I don't know how to be a mother, I don't deserve to be a mother, I really don't know how to take care of children, I didn't know that children could get sick too, I didn't know he had been sick for so long! I don't know......

Woooooooo Thief God, why are you so cruel, why are you doing this to me?

That hateful man, he blames me, he blames me! He said I killed my own son. Hahahaha, it's really ridiculous, it's ridiculous. Is my son not his son? Could it be that Brother An'er is not responsible for his death?

Hahaha, everything is fake, everything is fake! It's just that I'm too stupid, but I'm not reconciled, I'm not willing to give up like this.

If I give up, does that mean that all my insistence for so many years is a joke, or does it mean that my love is a joke?

I endured grief, humiliation, and heartache, and I buried my son, my only relative, my dignity, and all that I had.

I persevered without hesitation, I followed him to the far north, I followed him to eat chaff, I followed him to endure hardships, I watched the man I loved so much treat the Najia slut as a treasure, I watched him take care of the little cub carefully.

I endure their ridicule and ridicule every day, I endure his indifferent ridicule every day, I grit my teeth and insist, I don't want my whole life to be a joke, I want to wait until he turns back, I want him to know that in fact, the person who loves him the most in this world is me, it is me Li Yunbao!

I looked at myself as I grew older, I looked at myself with a withered face, I couldn't hold on, I was afraid, if I didn't even have the last proud look, how could he fall in love with me?

In the fifth year after arriving in the far north, I ended my life with a rope, I couldn't face him with an old and unbearable appearance, I couldn't let him remember only the old woman's self in the end, this was my last self-esteem!

I chose to end my life, before I died, I saw the past of my life, I just felt that my whole life was a joke, a big joke, and I might not be able to get relief until I died.

I think if I were given another chance, I would never meet him, and I would not meet him, the knot of my fate.