In fact, she had seen this sentence long before this, of course, in English, because it was said by the American poet Morley. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

But I don't know if it's because of the language, or something else, when I saw this sentence for the first time, Xiao Yating didn't feel much.

But when she saw this sentence again from the bestseller she bought casually, it was as if she had been hit by five thunderbolts, and her whole person was shaken from the inside out.

It is also because of this sentence that after she arrived at Harvard, she began to 'not do her job', frequently appearing in philosophy, poetry and other courses.

And this book also escaped the fate of being thrown away, and has been with Xiao Yating to this day.

At this moment, she opened the book again, turned to the last page, looked at the sentence, and couldn't help laughing at herself: "Do you spend your life in your own way, it's easier said than done, the so-called destiny...... And what is it? ”

Xiao Yating closed the book and opened the notebook next to her, not a laptop, but a real notebook, the paper kind, covered with a small black sheepskin, looking like a Bible in the priest's hand.

This is an old thing, Xiao Yating's diary when she was studying in No. 1 Middle School, which records all the memories of the girl in that period of 'escape time'.

She casually flipped through a page, and what caught her eye was a line of small words with clear eyebrows, as if it still had the taste of summer.

"In the middle of summer, the cicadas are chirping, everything is so boring, just like our life."

Xiao Yating looked at this sentence, and seemed to have returned to that remote small county, was she happy there?

The answer is yes – unhappy.

It seems that since I can remember, I have rarely felt 'happy', but my father and mother seem to be separated, but they have to continue this marriage for the benefit of each other's families.

There are no quarrels, no communication, nothing but depression and dead silence, and what is left for me is always busyness and socializing.

Xiao Yating grew up in this atmosphere, and later, by chance, she won the opportunity to escape for a short time, that is, to study in Qingjiang County.

In fact, at first, this matter was only because her father was involved in a whirlpool of struggle, and she was in danger, so he had to send her out as a last resort, so that she could stay away from the rights and wrongs in the capital, and it could be regarded as a free worry.

And now, Xiao Yating is flipping through the pages of the diary, and those boring lives in the past are like movies, playing back in front of her eyes.

Although those days were not happy, I was far away from my parents and the capital, and I still felt a little free illusion, at least I was not unhappy.

"For me, happiness may be just a luxury, if I can not be unhappy, I am already happy."

It was a new page again, and this line of small words appeared in front of Xiao Yating's eyes, and she couldn't help but smile bitterly, because this sentence was a portrayal of her life.

Whether it was in the past or now, whether at home or abroad, I have always been such a pessimistic and even desperate person.

"Sometimes I also think, why not let go of the wreckage, why not get drunk and dream of death, why not get drunk on gold, why not surrender to fate? If you can't fight, why bother yourself? ”

Another page, full of the girl's confusion, but Xiao Yating bit her lip, suddenly lifted the pen, took a deep breath, and wrote new handwriting underneath.

"Maybe one day, I will give in, I will fall, I will say goodbye to the so-called childishness and become an adult who can no longer feel pain, but ......"

Xiao Yating suddenly felt suffocated, I don't know why, the tears burst instantly, and they couldn't stop flowing, but they didn't have any urge to cry, just let the tears rag quietly.

Smack!

A tear fell on the paper, and the girl seemed to be awakened, she wiped away her tears, continued to finish the rest of the words, and then smiled like a flower in an instant.

"It won't be now, it won't be today, never!"

……

On the other side of the world, Yang Hao finally lulled little Lori to sleep, tucked the quilt corners for her, and tiptoed out of the room.

"Huh, I've finally dealt with today, but it's not a matter if it goes on like this, sooner or later there will be a big problem, so we still have to think of a way to prevent it from happening."

Yang Hao let out a long breath, feeling extremely troubled, and his head was big.

It turned out that Xiao Lori had to sleep with Yang Hao just now, how could this work, even if Yang Hao knew that he had no blood relationship with her.

But as a gentleman, he can't kill him with this kind of beast, at least he has to wait a few more years......

cough cough cough, okay, anyway, today Yang Hao stuck to the bottom line and resisted the temptation, as for what will happen tomorrow, only God knows. ╮(╯▽╰)╭

"Do you want her to live on campus? …… No, no, I heard that the current high school boys are all gentlemen, if Xiaohuan is allowed to live in the school, wouldn't it be a sheep into the tiger's mouth? It's safer to stay with me. ”

"Or rent another house? …… No, Xiaohuan will definitely have to move over at that time, alas, it seems that I am the only one who will go to the dormitory to live for a few days and see the situation. ”

Yang Hao thought about it, and only the dormitory could temporarily resist his sister's harassment, after all, with Cheng Yaodong and Liu Lan here, it was impossible for Xiao Lori to follow her to live in the bedroom, right?

"Alas, it's really a premature life, being forced to this by my sister, and there is really no one left, hurry up and take a cold shower, let's go to the fire first."

Yang Hao sighed, entered the bathroom, and had to lock the door, which was not as casual and relaxed as when he lived alone before.

……

……

Early on Monday morning, Yang Xiaohuan went to William International School for the first day, Yang Hao was not at ease, personally drove her to the school gate, and repeatedly told her to pay attention to safety and call herself as soon as possible if there was any situation.

Little Lori couldn't help but roll her cute eyes: "Okay, okay, brother, how old are you, don't be as good as a rambling Ojisan, I'm in, I'm not a bully." ”

When she entered the campus, Yang Hao told the bodyguard quartet to come on time to pick up Little Lori from school, and it was best to wait at the school gate in advance.

In fact, it's really not that Yang Hao has paranoia about being killed, but that if the Pure Land Sect of Bliss doesn't get rid of it for a day, he can't be cautious, and it's not a big mistake to be careful.

But the bodyguards didn't know these inside information, so they couldn't wait to scold him for being a verbose Ou Jisan, but who called Yang Hao a wealthy financier, no matter how big the four of them were in their hearts, they could only nod respectfully, promising to pick up Yang Xiaohuan from school at least half an hour in advance.

Yang Hao was a little relieved at this time, and drove to Tunghai University, President Zhang called yesterday to 'apologize' to inform him, saying that today, the big man of the Sports Association came to 'condole' Yang Hao, and asked him to give face to come. (To be continued.) )