Chapter 39: Escalation of Contradictions
In the monthly test in October, Zhao Shuangwei squeezed into the top 300 in the grade. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info she held the report card, and for the first time she was moved to cry because of her good grades. Zhao's father and Zhao's mother are not to mention how happy they are, their daughter's daily efforts, they all see it, and now they have finally reaped a small reward. Zhao Shuangwei, who is full of enthusiasm, insists on independent learning every day, making papers, memorizing formulas, and practicing by drawing inferences, and never gets tired of it. She has already started to enjoy the joy that learning brings her.
After Li Zhijun learned the news, he was not surprised at all, Zhao Shuangwei insisted that he saw that it was a matter of time before his grades improved.
There is no need for Zhao Shuangwei to specifically inform Yang Sang, he has already seen it on the grade list. Yang Sang came to the door of Zhao Shuangwei's classroom and made a special trip to bless her: "Xiaowei, congratulations, you did really well in the exam this time." Keep it up like this, and you'll definitely be able to get into one next year. ”
Zhao Shuangwei couldn't help but tell him: "My goal is not a book, but the focus." I want to go to the provincial university, and now there is still some way to go. ”
"It's kind of hard, isn't it? Provincial universities have high scores every year, in fact, a book is not bad, I try hard, we may be able to get into a university. ”
What is the saddest thing? It's the snail that knows that it climbs slowly, but it doesn't want the stupid bird to fly first. Zhao Shuangwei looked at Yang Sang, only feeling that the distance between him and himself was widening little by little. She thought to herself: Exam-oriented education is really good, I can screen out these people who are not very talented and unwilling to work hard, I must work harder, and not give myself any chance to regret it.
Yang Sang also noticed that Zhao Shuangwei said that she wanted to be admitted to the key point, and it was not a joke. He was a little scared in his heart, he was afraid that Zhao Shuangwei would run too fast and he would not be able to catch up anymore. "Xiaowei, I didn't think you were so ambitious before. What's wrong with you lately, don't you want to go to college with me and see me every day? ”
Zhao Shuangwei gave the answer without hesitation in her heart: I don't want to.
This has nothing to do with ambition, she remembered what Zhao's father said, many people didn't even dare to think about it from the beginning, and it was really good. If Yang Sang's goal is only one book or lower, then she really doesn't want to be in the same school with him, what's the use of meeting him every day? She doesn't want her life to be only about falling in love with Yang Sang.
Obviously, Yang Sang will not understand all this. Zhao Shuang didn't bother to explain, she returned to the classroom, calmed down and continued to read. She marked all the knowledge points that she didn't understand thoroughly, and planned to ask the teacher for advice later.
When school was over, Zhao Shuangwei sent a text message to Yang Sang:
"I have a question to ask the teacher, it won't be over for a while, you don't have to wait for me, go home first."
Yang Sang did not follow, and insisted on waiting for her at the stairs at the door of the teacher's office with her schoolbag on her back. Zhao Shuangwei felt upset, so she had to stay in the office and keep asking the teacher questions. By the time she came out, it was already dark, and the evening self-study time for the boarding students was about to start.
Yang Sang saw Zhao Shuangwei and couldn't help but blame her: "Xiaowei, why have you asked for so long, I've been waiting for you for a long time, and my family called me a few times." ”
"Then you go home first, didn't you say you don't have to wait for me." Zhao Shuangwei, who was extremely excited because she finally understood a difficult point, was immediately annoyed when she saw Yang Sang.
"You know I'm waiting for you outside, can't you ask a few less questions?" Yang Sang was still complaining.
Zhao Shuangwei couldn't bear it anymore, and got angry at him for the first time: "I'm not like you, I always have to get by, I want to study hard, I want to be admitted to university." If you can't even understand me, you can't even say you like me, it's ridiculous. ”
Yang Sang was frightened by the sudden outburst, and he asked puzzledly, "Xiaowei, what's wrong with you?" Is it so important to study, you weren't like this before, have you gone crazy? ”
"Yes, learning is the most important thing for me at the moment. Yang Sang, you have no ambitions, I don't want to waste words with you. We're not all the way, so don't come to me again. The words that have been suppressed in my heart for a long time finally burst out at this moment. Zhao Shuangwei unloaded a big stone, she no longer looked at his expression, turned around and left without hesitation.
Yang Sang stayed where he was, unable to calm down for a long time. His favorite Zhao Shuangwei actually said such hurtful words, he couldn't accept it, and he didn't want to believe it. My dedication and efforts for so long are just like a big joke at this moment. Yang Sang's heart was full of humiliation, and tears of resentment were almost pouring out.
It turns out that between them, it is so unbearable.
After getting off the bus, Zhao Shuangwei, who ran home in one go, saw Li Zhijun again at the gate of the community.
"Weiwei, why is it so late after school today?" At night, Li Zhijun stood straight, and the orange street lamp shone above his head, as if he had been plated with a layer of tenderness.
Zhao Shuangwei slowed down his pace, looked at him, and didn't say a word. Time passed "tick-tock", and the anger in her heart was swallowed up by his gentleness little by little. She stepped forward, reached out to hug him, and buried her head deep in his sweater. The smell of soaphorn on Li Zhijun's body diffused, she took a deep breath, and suddenly felt a lot calmer.
"I went to ask the teacher questions after class, and I'm a little tired now." Zhao Shuang said softly.
Li Zhijun touched her head and only said, "Come home and eat, your parents should be in a hurry." ”
Zhao Shuang reluctantly walked to the staircase, turned around to see, Li Zhijun was still at the gate of the community, and when she saw her turn back, she waved her hand and signaled her to go home quickly.
They are so different. Li Zhijun and Yang Sang are also two people who like her, but they seem to be worlds apart. Zhao Shuangwei made up her mind and gave herself a deadline: she must explain this matter to Yang Sang before the end of this semester.
She didn't want to drag it on both sides in a vague way, which was too unfair to Li Zhijun.
When Yang Sang returned home, he couldn't figure out where he had no ambitions? At the dinner table, he couldn't help but ask Yang's father and Yang's mother: "Dad, Mom, if I say that I want to start working hard now and get into a good university, do you think it's possible?" ”
"Where do you want to go?" Father Yang drank all the soup in the bowl and motioned for Mother Yang to serve him rice.
"For example... Provincial University? Yang Sang asked tentatively.
"Son, you're not stimulated, are you?" Father Yang smiled "haha" and said incredulously: "You don't look at who are admitted to the provincial university, you don't know what the situation in our family is?" We are just ordinary people, thinking about what we do with so much. Don't talk about those vain, no matter what university, as long as you can get in, Dad won't support you in vain. ”
Mother Yang, who finished the meal, came out of the kitchen and nodded her head frequently.
Yang Sang thought to himself: Sure enough, it's not my problem, it's Zhao Shuangwei who is too self-conscious.