Later, I was afraid that there would be no rental when the snow was heavy, so we quickly stopped the car, and just finished talking to the driver about the address, Li Jiayu's mobile phone suddenly rang, she took it out and saw that it was my mother's phone, probably worried about me when she saw the snow. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

Li Jiayu handed me the phone, and I just took the phone and said, "Mom, I'm walking home." But I suddenly heard my mother's sobbing voice, and a bad premonition came to my heart, and I quickly asked, "Mom?" What's wrong? What's the matter? ”

My mom paused and asked, "Why are you coming back now?" ”

I said, "Yes." ”

My mother said, "Then come to the hospital, your grandfather is no longer good, and he said he wants to see you." ”

It's like five thunderbolts, I'm stunned!

What's going on? Why did my grandfather say no, he wouldn't work? Although I know that he has been hospitalized for most of the past six months, does it mean that he will be able to go home after the operation? Why did you suddenly tell me that my grandfather was no good?

I closed my phone and shouted to the driver, "Master, take me to the central hospital!" Please! Come on! ”

Li Jiayu hurriedly asked, "Hospital?" Why go to the hospital? Is your mom sick? ”

I turned my head to tell her, but I was already in tears, choked up and unable to speak, I only felt that my heart was hurting more and more, breathing was getting harder and harder, and I clung to the cushion on the seat as if it could tear it.

Li Jiayu shook my shoulder and asked loudly what happened, but I couldn't say a complete sentence, grandpa's kind smiling face filled my mind, as if it was still alive in front of my eyes.

I patted the driver's shoulder and squeezed a word out between my teeth: "Quick." ”

I forgot how I ran to the ward crying, anyway, when I got to the ward, my grandfather's face was already covered with a white cloth, and I watched in a daze as the doctor pushed my grandfather out, and watched him lie quietly on it, without breath.

At that time, I didn't want to cry much, and the tears gradually dried on my face. The next day, I didn't attend the holiday ceremony, but went straight home with the car.

Because of our custom there is not cremation, my uncle drove my grandfather home directly in his van.

Grandpa's coffin stopped in the living room of my uncle's house, the coffin lid of the coffin was transparent, and Grandpa lay quietly in it with his favorite pillow before his death, covered with the quilt that he always covered before his death, and his face was still kind, as if he had not left.

I helped my grandmother, who was crying and her eyes were swollen, to stack ingots and cut copper coins together.

On the day of the funeral, I sat on my grandfather's hearse to 'warm the coffin', next to the coffin there were my eldest aunt, second aunt and a group of female relatives, all the way crying, and crying very loudly, I leaned on the coffin and looked at them blankly, but I couldn't cry, I asked myself, don't you feel sadness?

It seems to be sad, but it doesn't seem to be sad, I don't know, I just can't cry anyway.

During this time, I was very impressed by my second aunt, she glanced at me when she was crying, and saw where I was sitting without any movement, so she hurriedly said to me anxiously: "Girl, why don't you cry?" Cry, on the road, everyone else is watching. ”

I wondered, why do I have to cry? And when others watch, is it necessary to cry on the road?

After all, I didn't cry when my grandfather was buried, but I was relieved.

My mother was hoarse from crying, but after a long time she told me that she did not feel too sad about my grandfather's death at that time, but was relieved that my grandfather had finally escaped from my grandmother's control.

I said that you are still crying, and your crying voice is hoarse.

My mom's eyes turned red again, and she said, "Because I don't have a dad anymore." ”

Later, because at the end of the year, the atmosphere at home recovered quickly, and the shadow of my grandfather's sudden death also disappeared in my house, and it was deeply buried in my heart.

But I never cried, but it became a joke in the family, because my grandfather's favorite grandchild was me, I was his only granddaughter, he loved me very much when he was alive, I can eat so fat, my grandfather can be said to be indispensable.

When he left, I didn't cry when I should have cried, which became a topic of conversation after tea and dinner in my grandmother's family, and my mother said for me that I was still a child after all, and I didn't understand anything, and I didn't refute it, pretending to be innocent.

At that time, Chenxi often came to play with me, and told me that her grandfather taught her to open her yin eyes, and she taught me, maybe I could see my grandfather again, but Chen Xi was not good enough, and the talismans he drew could not be used, and he didn't teach me how to open yin eyes.

A strange thing happened when I was twenty-nine, that day my sister Jing took her daughter who had just turned two years old to meet relatives, my sister Jing was the eldest daughter of my uncle's family, married to Lujiahe Village in our county, and my brother-in-law bought a house in the county seat, which was not far away, so my sister Jing often went back to her parents' house when she had nothing to do.

On the twenty-ninth day, my uncle's family and my grandmother were eating at the dinner table, and my sister's daughter suddenly grabbed a piece of meat and said milkily to the air behind her: "Old man, old man, eat, eat, meat." ”

At first, everyone didn't take it seriously, and because of the lively atmosphere, most people didn't hear what she said, but my sister Jing looked behind her suspiciously, but found that there was no one, so she hugged her daughter right again and started eating.

But after a while, her daughter grabbed a chicken leg and turned around and said in a milky voice: "Old man, old man, eat, eat, meat." ”

My sister Jing was startled and turned around sharply, only to find that there was still nothing.

My sister Jing was in a hurry, so she hurriedly turned her daughter around and reprimanded: "There is no one you are shouting nonsense!" ”

Maybe it was my sister Jing's reprimand that the little guy was crying all of a sudden.

My uncle didn't know what was going on, so he hurriedly hugged his granddaughter over and coaxed her: "Obedient, don't cry, what do you want to eat, grandpa will copy it for you." ”

But the little guy still stubbornly held the chicken leg and pointed behind everyone and said, "Old man." Sir, eat, meat. ”

Suddenly, the whole room was silent.

My grandmother's initial surprise quickly turned to excitement, and she excitedly asked the little one, "Who do you see?" Tell the old grandma! ”

The little guy looked at my grandmother as if he didn't understand, and then turned around and said again in a milky voice: "Old man, old man, eat meat." ”

No one was talking, everyone looked in that direction tremblingly, and my grandmother slowly stood up with a little excitement, but at this moment, my uncle's daughter-in-law, who had just passed through the door, suddenly screamed in horror, making everyone break out in a cold sweat.

She quickly stepped back and shouted, "There are ghosts! There are ghosts! ”

At the same time, the little guy was able to shout into the air: "Old man, old man, don't go, don't go." ”

When my grandmother heard this, she hurriedly rushed forward, slapped the air with both hands, and asked tremblingly, "Are you back?" ”

But how could my grandmother hear any response, her ears were still filled with my sister-in-law's frightened shouts, my grandmother grabbed my sister-in-law's daughter by the shoulder, gritted her teeth and asked, "Look, is the old man gone?" ”

The little guy nodded ignorantly, pointed to the door and said, "Let's go." ”

My grandma stood up all of a sudden, looked at the curtain that was blown by the wind from time to time, and her heart was extremely chaotic, but when my grandma was in turmoil, my sister-in-law who was not long-eyed was still yelling, and my grandma's anger rushed up all of a sudden, she grabbed the bowl on the table and threw it at my sister-in-law, and immediately my sister-in-law fell to the ground, and a blood mark also flowed out of her sideburns, my aunt was startled, and hurriedly came over to help my sister-in-law, just wanted to say something, my uncle hurriedly held down my aunt, And make her look away from talking.

My grandmother shouted angrily: "What are you shouting for this unspeakable! What to shout! Neuropathy! ”

My sister-in-law has always been timid and cowardly, covering her wounds and looking at my grandmother in horror, but she no longer dares to speak.

My grandmother asked the little guy again, "Will you see if the old man is really gone?" ”

After finally getting the confirmation of the little one, my grandmother didn't say anything, but turned around and walked out of the room, silently looked at the sky for a long time, and finally returned to her room and slept until dark.

My uncle was worried about my grandmother, but my grandmother didn't talk to anyone, so he could only call my second uncle to discuss with my mother, but when the three of them entered my grandmother's house together, my grandmother began to talk and laugh like no one else.

My mother and my second uncle were confused, blaming my uncle for making a fuss, and my uncle was also confused, but seeing that my grandmother had returned to normal, he didn't say anything more.

But since then, my grandmother has often been in a daze at the sky, sitting in the yard for an hour or two, and when my mother took me back to visit relatives on the second day of the Lunar New Year, she also saw my grandma sitting in the cold wind in the yard in the afternoon, very distressed, but usually talking and laughing, hiding sadness.

After that, in order to appease grandma's emotions and let her get out of the shadows as soon as possible, after school started, I let grandma live with us in Zhaodu, and I always heard my mother get up excitedly in the morning and say that she dreamed of grandpa, but she forgot what grandpa said.

Grandma was strange, but she had never dreamed of grandpa. Me neither.

Every day is still a day of two o'clock and one line, school, home.

In addition, even if he made trouble with Li Jiayu, he had nothing else to do.

I just felt that my body was getting weaker and weaker, and at the end of the spring, when I was already fourteen years old, I had just come to my aunt for the first time in my life.

I guess it also has something to do with my body, which has suddenly fallen since my grandfather's death, since I came to my aunt, I was completely paralyzed in bed for two days and couldn't move, my face was pale, my fingertips were blue, and my steps were soft.

The next morning my mother saw that I had not gone out to eat when I was supposed to go to school, so she came in and called me, but when she saw that I was like a puddle of jelly on the bed, she was startled, touched my head but I did not have a fever, and asked me if I had a stomachache, and I shook my head.

My mom was so scared that she called 120, but after a messy examination, the doctor only said that it was probably due to too much study pressure and recent malnutrition, low blood sugar.

My mother took me home suspiciously, took me off from school for a few days, and began to give me sugar water and cook my favorite meal, but my condition did not improve until my aunt came, and I seemed to have completely collapsed, and fell asleep.