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The provincial capital, where the four seasons are not distinct, has also quietly become cold, and when Zhao Shuangwei goes to school in the morning these days, Zhao's mother has to wrap a scarf around her.

"Mom, I'm not a child, I'll just take it myself." Before going out that day, Zhao's mother insisted on helping her tie the scarf with her own hands, and Zhao Shuangwei couldn't help pouting and complaining.

Mother Zhao looked at the well-behaved daughter in front of her, smiled with a smile on her face, and said gently: "Weiwei, no matter how old you are, you will always be a child in your mother's eyes." Mom and Dad are willing to take care of you as a child for the rest of your life. ”

Zhao Shuangwei was a little uncomfortable with this sudden maternal love, she whispered embarrassedly: "Mom, I know you are good to me, you have always been so good." ”

"Okay, it's not too early, you can go to school quickly. Be careful on the road. It wasn't until Zhao Shuangwei's small figure disappeared into the elevator that Zhao's mother reluctantly closed the door.

Zhao Shuangwei is already in her third year of high school, and in half a year, she will be admitted to university, leave home, and go out to live alone. Although Zhao's mother doesn't want to face it, she also knows that her daughter can't always be the child who needs her to hold in her arms, she always has to grow up, always be independent, and always have to face and accept this complex society alone.

Who in this world does not come and go alone? No matter how close a person is, he can only accompany him for a period of life, and no relationship is immortal.

Even though Zhao's mother kept comforting herself like this, she still couldn't pull out of her deep loss.

Zhao Shuangwei, who entered the elevator, was finally able to breathe a sigh of relief. Mother Zhao's concerned gaze was like a scorching light, stabbing her back with hot pain, and even in winter, she couldn't help but burst out layer after layer of fine sweat. Too much care, too much care, I don't know when it has become a heavy burden. She was afraid to look at Zhao's mother's expectant eyes, no matter how much she said without asking for anything in return, Zhao Shuangwei was still about to be crushed by this heavy love.

She was afraid that she would fail it all after all.

Walking out of the elevator, the temperature outside was indeed much lower, but Zhao Shuangwei felt that the heat was unbearable. She took off her scarf and threw it into her bag, then took out her phone and played games as she walked.

Addiction is hard to stop.

How long will it take for her to truly break away from this perfect virtual world? For now, at least, in the not-so-perfect real life, the game is still the only outlet she can see.

Zhao Shuangwei just wanted to escape from all this, even if it was short-lived, it was better than nothing.

All she could try was control. Forget it, all this needs to be a step-by-step process. There is no need to be anxious, there is no need to be anxious.

Life at school is the same, every day is step-by-step, there are no surprises and no changes. The atmosphere of the third year of high school was obviously tense, and the time for students to fight and chat gradually became less, and Zhao Shuangwei, who had no friends, felt that school life was extremely boring.

Sometimes, Zhao Shuangwei really can't understand why she has to live like this day after day. Her world is completely like a simple black and white painting, and with a few brushstrokes, it can be painted for a lifetime.

It's just that no matter how boring and boring it is, life still has to go on. Had to continue.

The date for the final exams has been set, and this year's Chinese New Year is particularly early, so the final exams are also relatively much earlier. Zhao Shuangwei, who didn't have any expectations, blindly flipped through the calendar and drew a circle with a red pen on the day of the exam.

Why can life be so hopeless? Zhao Shuang sighed slightly, barely cheering himself up.

On this day, the only little easter egg was that on the way out of school, she met Yang Sang.

At that time, they had not been in touch for a long time, and it was inevitable that they would feel strange when they met again. It wasn't until Zhao Shuangwei naturally greeted her that she clearly realized that she had never really liked Yang Sang. So his departure or fade out will not affect her mood at all, and when we meet again, she can also be calm, as if she is just a most ordinary old friend.

"Xiaowei, how are you doing? Are you sure about the final exam? Yang Sang has also changed, and before he knew it, he had become a pacesetter in learning, and he couldn't do without reading in three sentences.

Looking at Yang Sang's rapid progress, Zhao Shuangwei was not surprised at all, isn't this exactly the same as himself at the beginning? It's just that now she can no longer be so distracted and engrossed, her mind has already been divided into many pieces and scattered in different places.

"That's it, I'll try." Zhao Shuang replied lazily.

Obviously, there was a small talk on the way from school, but Yang Sang suddenly became serious: "You must be able to." As long as you want, you can. ”

Zhao Shuangwei looked at his firm eyes, and his heart was a little shaken. Can I really? She asked herself, but she couldn't give an answer.

As soon as she got home, Zhao Shuangwei entered her room. She sat on the bed, holding the plush bear that Han Zhun gave to Li Zhijun, thinking about something blankly. She really wanted to be the Zhao Shuangwei who made Zhao's father and Zhao's mother extremely proud, but when all the motives had a purpose, it became so difficult. She thought about it for a long time, and finally came up with a way to motivate herself. Zhao Shuangwei hugged Xiao Xiong and said to herself: "Xiao Xiong, if I can get into the top 100 in this final exam, I will call Han Zhun, do you say okay?" I really want to visit the male god's class, he should be super handsome in ancient costume. ”

"Weiwei, the meal is ready, let's eat." Hearing Zhao's mother calling her outside the door, Zhao Shuangwei hurriedly went out and sat down at the dining table.

Zhao's father and Zhao's mother sat on one side of the dining table, no one spoke, and they were all eating silently. Zhao Shuangwei looked at them and suddenly spoke: "The final exam is coming soon, I want to work hard." But first of all, if I get in the top 100, I want to take two days off. One day, I'm going to play games all day; One day, I want to watch Han Zhun all day. Can you say yes? ”

"Yes." Because he was afraid that things would deteriorate again, Zhao's father agreed to her request very happily this time. Mother Zhao also nodded in agreement.

Zhao Shuangwei was not surprised. I don't know when it started, she felt that Zhao's father and Zhao's mother's attitude towards her had changed a little, especially Zhao's father, who now didn't dare to put forward any hard requirements to Zhao Shuangwei.

On the other hand, this is not necessarily a bad outcome. Zhao Shuangwei comforted herself like this, and continued to bow her head to eat again. (To be continued.) )