Surprise 1998.2.23 Sunny Sunday morning

I was pleasantly surprised when the doctor told me the results of the pregnancy test. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info I'm pregnant with a baby, it's true! Can't wait to tell your dad, grandpa, grandma and aunt about the results, they couldn't be happier. Your father's first words were, "It's over!" The second sentence is: "Isn't it a fool?" He was immediately scolded by his grandmother. I thought these words were funny at the time, but I later realized that they had become prophecies.

I had your name in mind a few months ago: An An. One is that I don't know if you're male or female right now, and this name is suitable for both men and women. The second reason is that "An" is the word in your father's next generation. The third is to hope that you will be born and grow up peacefully and smoothly. I am terrified when I think of your uncle's beautiful and lovely daughter, who died for unknown reasons shortly after birth because she did not have a prenatal check-up before she was born. I don't ask you to be promoted and rich, I don't want you to be famous, I just ask you to be safe and sound, promise me, okay?

Your dad didn't want you at first, but when he heard that I was pregnant, he called me four times, and each time he couldn't hide his excitement and told his mom to pay attention to his body, in fact, he loved you in his heart.

There is another secret: my mother used to raise a Beijing purebred pug Xinxin, which has a pair of big black eyes and a short black nose, which is very cute. It catches mice and watches the house at his grandmother's house, and is deeply loved by the family. It's a pity that during the Spring Festival, your aunt took her out to play and contracted pneumonia and died. That night, when my mother prayed for her heart, she hoped that being pregnant with a child would comfort her grief of losing her heart. My prayer has come true, and with you, I have hope. I hope you can grow up safely. An An - Xinxin, maybe Xinxin has been reincarnated as you to receive our love, maybe the spirit of the heart in heaven has blessed you.

Our last menstrual period was January 16, 1998, so you should have been born on October 23rd. How I want to see you as soon as possible and kiss your face. From today onwards, you will be given prenatal education. I will read three poems, sing a song, and tell you a story every day. I have also selected some music suitable for prenatal education for you to listen to, including the saxophone song "Homecoming", Schubert's "Serenade", "Ave Maria", "Friendship Lasts Forever", there is the piano piece "Dedicated to Alice", there is "Christmas Eve", there is "Happy Birthday", and the pan flute "Moon", which one do you like? Will you hear me? Will you feel your mother's love?

Kiss you, my darling.

Pregnancy Reaction 1998.3.16 Sunny Monday

It's been two months since I was pregnant. Recently, my appetite has decreased, I don't want to eat anything, I want to vomit and nauseate when I see greasy food, and I want to vomit when I see green vegetables such as lettuce and green onions. At this time, Fang felt that any flowery words to praise his mother were not too much, and a feeling of regret suddenly surged in his heart, and he could not repay his parents, especially his mother, in this life and this life. I am about to become a mother before I truly realize the depth of maternal love, and the birth of life is really not easy. This feeling of sweetness and pain will never have a second time.

Tomorrow is Ah Zhao's 29th birthday, and I forgot his lunar birthday (January 29) because of the joy of pregnancy, and he was angry. It's the first time in eight years of our marriage that I've forgotten his birthday, and I don't know how to apologize to him. Many people say that when a woman has a child, she neglects her love for her husband, and I didn't believe it before, but now it turns out to be true. I'll be sure to make up for a phone call tomorrow. The love of children does not represent the life of husband and wife, otherwise it will affect family harmony.

The next day, I called Ah Zhao and wished him a happy birthday. His tone on the phone was very calm, without a hint of joy. At the end, he said, "It's okay, I'm celebrating my birthday with my friends." After another minute or so, he whispered, "Did you do him?" We don't want this child, okay? ”

I thought I had misheard, so I asked him, "What did you say?" ”

"Let's just drain others."

"How is that possible? I've had another thoracic spine injury now, and I've had a few abortions for you before, and if I do it again, I may never be able to conceive a child again. "I was very angry and refused his request.

"I'm kidding." Finally, he comforted me like this.

I always feel that there is something wrong, am I too sensitive? Was he really joking?

In the past few days, I have had a very bad time, and I am in a terrible mood, which makes me sometimes feel hopeless in the face of the loneliness of a room. I almost don't want this child anymore, I don't know how much more courage I have to force a smile in front of everyone? Will my strength sustain me through this journey? It's so hard to live alone.

Maybe I've already regretted it?

Unspeakable Pain 1998.3.23 Sunny Monday

I really can't stand it anymore.

Although I have the love of my parents, I can't resist this wordless pain, and I would rather be injured in any part of my body. Nausea, vomiting, fatigue, drowsiness, and poor spirits almost all accounted for it. I especially wanted to eat cherries and strawberries, but my mother walked for more than two hours, and I couldn't find a single one in Rongchang Market. Pity her old man's good intentions, and her feet hurt. An An, you have to love your grandfather and grandmother very much in the future.

The thoracic vertebrae, which had been broken and fractured, also had a dull pain. In 1997, I was injured in an accident in Chongqing, and the best treatment time was missed because the doctor did not diagnose the fracture, resulting in a little misalignment of the thoracic vertebrae, and even the height was shortened by 2CM, and the waist would be particularly painful on rainy days. Later, the doctor advised the mother not to get pregnant, for fear of causing serious sequelae or even paralysis. But you came unknowingly, and I'd rather bear all the consequences. I prayed: But don't let Huai'an'an make your condition worse. God bless me, when I bring An An up, you can torture me as much as you want.

It's uncomfortable!

Fetal movement 1998.5.27 Wednesday fine

At around 8 p.m., I was sitting watching TV when I suddenly felt a slight tremor in my lower abdomen, which was fleeting. After a few minutes, it was the same again. I could scarcely believe it: this was the movement I had been waiting for. It is like a delicate little hand gently scratching your skin, looming, and the whole heart is touched by it, and the joy of the heart cannot be expressed in words. When my friends Shi Xiaoliu and Yu Hui told me: When they were more than 3 months pregnant, how could I not be in a hurry when I was more than 4 months pregnant? Always worry about your health in the womb and whether there is any malformation (because your father did not expect you to be pregnant when he was pregnant, and he smoked and drank heavily). Your fetal movement has relieved my mother's heart and worries, and although it is late, it makes me cry with joy. told his father, who had been anxious, that he was very happy in Chongqing.

An An, I hope that you and your mother will grow up healthy and happy together, and welcome the day you are born together.

Prenatal care

1998.7.6 Monday fine

An An, today you suddenly stopped the fetal movement, I was frightened, and I hurriedly went to the obstetrics and gynecology department for prenatal examination. Dr. Chen Hong said that everything is normal, but when you touch it, it feels like you are very big, and you may weigh 7 pounds when you are born. I went for a B-ultrasound to see if you were healthy. Dr. Hongmei said everything was fine, and said that you might be a boy. It doesn't matter if you're a man or a woman, as long as you're healthy, you're lucky. The doctor said that sometimes the fetal movement is not easy to detect, and it is a false alarm.

Second, 1998.8.21 Friday fine

Today I went for a routine check-up for more than 7 months before the birth. Dr. Luo Zhenrong measured the abdominal circumference, listened to the fetal heart sound, and then touched the fetal position in the abdomen with his hand. Suddenly, she said, "This fetus is a breech." "How is that possible?" I was stunned. I did a B-ultrasound, and it also showed the breech position. Oh my God, An'an, why haven't you turned your little head down yet? Do you have any grievances against your mother? Don't you want to come out? Do you know that breech is a difficult tocitocia, and it is very dangerous? The doctor told me to do knee-chest exercises for two weeks to see if I could turn around. If there is no effect, the only way to go is a caesarean section by the due date.

There are too many dangers of caesarean section, for An An, born without the squeezing of the mother's birth canal, it is easy to get respiratory tract and other diseases, and the physique is also weak, unhealthy, and not easy to bring well; For mothers, it is easy to get diseases such as intestinal adhesions, and wounds are not easy to heal (mothers have scar constitution). So, An'an, Mom prays for you, you must turn your little head downward, so that Mommy can give birth to you normally.

Let's do knee-chest exercises every day, shall we?

3. 1998.10.8Thursday fine

Today's inspection, the fetal position is normal, your head has been turned down, but a new problem has come: first, when it is time to enter the basin, you are only half-in the basin; The second is that the fetal head is larger than the body, and I am afraid that there are diseases such as hydrocephalus, and I am afraid of congenital dementia. Oh my God, this latter problem is worse than breech position. I'd rather all the suffering befall me than have a mentally retarded child! An An, you can not be beautiful, you can be naughty, you can not be a big deal, but you must not have congenital intellectual retardation. I will pray for you all the time, and I hope that you will be born in peace, health, and health, just like your name!