In the ridicule of the boss, my cousin and I bought two blankets and went back, which were inferior blankets that only cost a few dozen yuan in total. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

When I went back, I didn't hold my cousin's hand, and after the boss told me that I looked like his sister, I didn't want to hold his hand again.

But because I couldn't look at others if I walked in front of my cousin, it made me completely insecure, so I followed my cousin closely and stared at his back.

I still felt that something was watching me in the dark corners behind me, and this feeling gave me goosebumps, and I followed my cousin closely, and even close to his back.

This made my cousin walk very uncomfortable, and from time to time I accidentally stepped on his heel.

Back at the rental house, the bed in the bedroom was a large double bed, lying sideways, covered with a blanket, and then covered with a coat that had been taken off, because the heating was on, even in the coldest time of February, I couldn't feel the cold.

Because the blanket was so small that it could only cover the body up to the knees, he simply curled up sideways in front of his cousin, so that all his body could be covered.

It's just that my cousin is in trouble, he is too tall, although he is thin, but the blanket can only cover half of his body, and his thighs can't be covered, and it is estimated that he will be frozen and cold at night.

The sequelae of drunkenness have not subsided, which makes me want to sleep again even if I have only been awake for a long time, and my brain starts to become dizzy when I lie down, and I guess I can fall asleep in just a few minutes.

"Brother."

"What's wrong?"

I opened my eyes and gave up on sleeping for the time being.

"Why do you have to take medicine......

"Because...... Because I want to be a woman...... of course, I can't tell him that I was passively like this, so I had to make up the reason, "I didn't think about it so much before I ate it." ”

To be honest, before I became a woman, I only knew the name of Yao Niang, but if I had known the meaning of the word Yao Niang a few years earlier, I might have really become a Yao Niang.

After all, it was impossible to think so much when I was young, and I was suppressed by my father every day, and when I was rebellious in junior high school, it was very likely that I would take medicine as soon as I got up.

"Do you regret it now?"

My cousin asked again, and I nodded subconsciously.

"Regret."

I regret dying, if I tied up the orange at that time, then I guess there won't be so many things now, and I have long since become a man, then I won't be scolded by my father, and I won't have any burden in my heart.

I wasn't as sentimental as I am now, and I didn't cry as often.

After becoming a woman, it may be because of the female body, or it may be that the female heart that has been suppressed has completely exploded, so I have become more and more weak.

It's even weaker than the average girl.

"Why don't you turn back?"

I always felt that my cousin's tone was strange, and I didn't know what he kept asking for.

"There's no turning back......

Of course, there is no turning back, the only opportunity I missed was that I may never have a chance to become a man again...... Of course, if my dad could accept me as I looked, I would still prefer who I am now.

The cousin suddenly fell silent and lay flat.

In the dark, I could only see a little outline of him, looming, very unrealistic.

I moved myself closer to him, and finally I felt that he was actually lying next to me.

When I closed my eyes, I felt the orange crawl on top of me again, and I was almost out of breath when it was pressed against my chest, so I had to grab its tail and pull it to the side.

In the darkness, only the heavy breathing of my cousin could be heard, and the occasional movement of oranges on the bed.

"If you say ......"

I remembered the dream I had when I had just fallen asleep, the dream that everyone had abandoned and I was alone in the dark.

"What do you think of me......"

I'm afraid that my cousin will say that he hates my character, or that he hates my appearance of being neither male nor female...... His previous inquiries to me always made me feel very strange, as if he wanted to say something but did not dare to say it, so after asking, I closed my mouth tightly and waited nervously for his answer.

He was silent at first, and then I heard him swallow saliva.

"It's distressing."

"Why?"

"Poor."

I don't think there's anything distressing about me, let alone pity, although there is a lot of pressure from my father, but I feel that even if he hates me, I can go out and live alone.

Besides, there are too many people who are more pitiful than me and worthy of my cousin's distress.

"I don't think so, anything else?"

"If I wasn't your cousin......"

"Huh?"

My cousin suddenly paused, and I wondered what the second half of what he was trying to say was.

"It's nothing, do you like men?"

"I don't know much about ...... either"

When I was in junior high school, I also fell in love with a girl, although I didn't do anything except hold hands, and later I fell in love with Mengqi, but after becoming a woman, I liked Lin Hao, so I didn't feel for Mengqi anymore......

"Bisexual, huh?"

I came to this conclusion for myself.

"Do you have a boyfriend?"

"Nope!"

I reflexively replied to him that I had never wanted others to know about my relationship with Lin Hao, even though my cousin already knew a lot about me.

"Think about me?"

"What?!"

As soon as I was excited, I told all my online fetishes.

"Anyway, I don't like you, but I'm very protective of you...... If you don't have a boyfriend, I can play the role of a boyfriend, and when you have someone you like, I'll leave. ”

"Not interested." I immediately became indifferent to my cousin, and I always felt that he was beating my attention, not to mention! He's cousin and I!

Did he suddenly get into the water in his head to say such a thing!

"Sleep."

Just now I thought he made me feel quite safe, and I kept leaning on him, but now I was completely on guard, and I quickly moved myself far away, and almost accidentally rolled out of bed.

"Brother."

"What."

But my cousin still wouldn't let me go, turned sideways and looked at me.

"Otherwise, I'll call you sister in private in the future."

"Why?"

I always felt that he had bad intentions towards me, and what he just said to me could be regarded as a confession!

"Looking at your face, it's a little weird to call your brother."

"Whatever you want."

I began to be silent, not knowing how to face him, let alone how to treat him in the future.

"When I was a kid, I thought you should be my sister...... You looked so cute at that time...... At that time, I always called you sister. ”

"Later, when I was in junior high school, I finally looked like a boy, and I started calling you brother."

“……”

Listening to his words, my hand rubbed the ear of the orange.

"When I first saw you the other day, I thought you had become strange, and you didn't look like a boy at all."

"Later, I found out that you became a medicine lady......

"It's unfair...... I'm obviously very beautiful, and I've been a girl since I was a child, both in personality and appearance, but you were born as a boy, and you met a father like that......"

“……”

"Say no more, sleep."

Childhood...... I never complained about why I gave birth to a boy.

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The recent recommendation votes are miserable, and I myself foresaw the appearance of SB on the 14th.

I'm a freshman now, I'm very busy, I used to write books and I like to make a draft of what I want to write the next day in my mind before I go to bed every day, but now I can only think about temporary code words before going to bed every day, and then fall asleep.

So the plot, chapters, writing and the like have dropped a lot, and I can't help it, yesterday there were ten classes and ten hours, and it was close to nine o'clock in the evening when class ended, and I was already sleepy after taking a shower, but I squeezed a little time code word...... Of course, it won't be good to write something like this, but I don't have a solution at all.

I kind of want to give up on the shelves.,In that case, I just need to write roughly.,Then it's estimated that it will be over soon.,Writing and writing to the present situation.,There's already a feeling of torment.,And I can't see the results at all.。