About 500 meters near my house, there is a street where there are small vendors who set up barbecue and other late-night snacks every night, and there are probably only five or six of them. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

I chose this place because I was lazy to run far away, ordered some barbecue with my cousin, and found an empty seat to sit down.

I took out my mobile phone to play with nothing, I just wanted to finish eating early and go back early, although there was nothing to do at home, but at least I had a computer in my bedroom, because I didn't like Internet cafes, I didn't touch the computer for a few months during my study and I desperately wanted to play.

I looked up at my cousin, when he was in junior high school, he was only about 1.7 meters, just a few years, and now it looks like he is 1.8 meters, although he is thin like a bamboo pole and has men's medium and long hair, and there are a lot of acne marks on his face that make me feel like an otaku at a glance, but he doesn't seem to have the common problem of communication barriers like otaku, and he just chatted with the boss naturally when ordering food.

A normal person who looks like an otaku......

And I'm an otaku who looks like a woman......

Although I have been working part-time to exercise my social skills some time ago, I will not blush as before when chatting with people, but after work, I still like to stay quietly in the room alone and tease the cat to read a book or something.

I don't know why, my father's relatives seem to be taller than the other, my father is also close to 180 meters tall, my cousin's height is obviously more than 1.8 meters, and I am actually less than 1.7 meters tall.

"Ruoyan, why did you come to my house to sleep."

I suddenly remembered that my father had asked Ruoyan to sleep in my room when he went back to my room.

"My dad is on a business trip tomorrow, and my uncle will let me come over to play when he finds out."

My cousin was also playing with his phone, but even though he was sitting with his head slightly hunched down, I still had to look up to see his face.

"Oh, that's it......" I began to wonder how I could get him to be honest in the evening.

When I remembered that I was going to sleep with a man other than Lin Hao, I felt uncomfortable. Even though my bed was a double bed, the separation point made little difference.

I suddenly realized that I thought of Lin Hao again, and I was already regretting that I liked him, but no matter what, I still like him so much that I can't extricate myself.

shook his head vigorously and shook Lin Hao's figure out of his head.

"What's wrong?"

My cousin saw me shaking his head and asked.

"It's all right......," I paused, and asked tentatively, "Ruoyan, can you bunk the floor in the hall?" ”

"What's wrong?"

I organized the language and thought for a long time before I came up with a proper reason.

"I rented a house outside in high school and lived by myself, and I wouldn't be able to sleep if I suddenly slept with you."

"That's fine, I'll just sleep on the couch."

"My couch isn't that long."

gave him a blank look, and by the way, he disguised his dissatisfaction with his height by despising his height.

But my cousin suddenly froze, ignored my words, and changed the topic on his own.

"Brother, how are you ...... Becoming such a woman? ”

"Huh?"

I started playing dumb, saying I didn't understand him.

"When you roll your eyes, it makes me feel like a woman."

Pouting, I don't know what it looks like to roll my eyes.

"I don't know what's going on."

Continue to play dumb, I'm trying to fool around.

"Then how do you look like a girl, I remember that although you used to look like a girl, you can also see that you are a man."

My cousin's insistence on asking me made me a little angry, and now I hate it the most when people ask me about these things.

My tone was filled with anger and dissatisfaction: "I said I don't know, keep asking if it's annoying?" ”

Seeing that I was angry, my cousin immediately lost his voice and sat honestly in his chair playing with his phone, but I could notice that he was watching me with his eyes from time to time.

Annoyed ......

If it weren't for the accident, I would have become a man a long time ago, and I wouldn't have been so rejected by my father.

If I had locked the door of the house so that the orange had no way to run, then I would have been able to be a man in peace, obey the path my father had arranged for me, and bear him a grandson to inherit the incense......

Even though I've gotten used to a woman's body, even wearing women's clothes, and knowing that I would have preferred the way I look now, I still think about it from time to time.

The barbecue was ready and placed on the table, and I silently ate the skewers into my mouth, and I suddenly remembered that the last time I ate barbecue was the night I became a woman.

I began to remember my former self, although I was a long mother at that time, and my personality was soft and weak, but I was a man, I wouldn't have a big aunt, I wouldn't have long breasts, and I wouldn't inexplicably like my playmates from childhood to adulthood.

I was in a bit of a low mood, propping my cheek with one hand and looking down at the barbecue on my plate.

Suddenly there was no appetite.

I only ate a little, but I felt like I couldn't eat anymore.

"Brother, what's wrong?"

"It's okay, you can eat, I can't eat it."

Maybe my cousin sensed that I was in a bad mood, and he didn't ask me anymore, but just kept eating.

Turning his gaze to the street, cars drove slowly in the night, passers-by were talking and laughing, and occasionally the bikers flashed by in the roar.

The night was very lively, but I felt more and more that this city made me feel lonely, a strong sense of loneliness filled my chest, and a faint coldness gathered with my breath to my heart, making me a little breathless.

Obviously, this is the place where I was born and raised, but when I came back today, I found that this city was strange and seemed to be a foreign place.

Because Mom is gone......

I am quite calm on the surface about my parents' divorce, and I always tell myself in my heart that they will divorce if they love it, and I am an adult regardless of my business...... But deep down, I always think that the reason for their divorce is because of me.

I felt so guilty that I didn't dare to ask my dad about the situation.

But I still miss my mother, I miss her so much, without her at home, only my father's indifference is left, and I feel that I can't stand it anymore before I go home.

"Brother, go back."

My cousin's voice woke me up from my longing for my mother, wiped away tears from the corners of my eyes that didn't exist, and I pulled a standard smile at him.

"I'll go pay, I'll have a treat."

I hate my home now......

Standing up from his chair, he made a conclusion about his thoughts just now, and after counting the money under the gaze of his cousin, he straightened his waist and walked in front of him.

I don't want others to see my weakness, so I have to straighten my back, walk with a smile, and no matter how many times I cry in my heart, I don't want others, especially my cousin, to see my sad appearance.

In front of my cousin, who is younger than me, I definitely have to be strong.

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