Chapter 228: Only when you go can you feel at ease
Bei Xiaorou didn't expect him to suddenly mention this matter again, and after being slightly stunned, a little overwhelmed in her clear watery eyes. She bit her lip lightly and looked at him with some guilt, but when she saw the look of careful and serious waiting in his eyes, her heart was slightly settled, and she nodded gently but firmly, thinking of the man she loved, a little sweetness appeared in her eyes, "Yes." ”
The two simple words made Zhuo Yuanhang's eyes rise a little gloomy again, he lowered his head, and the corners of his lips slowly raised a self-deprecating smile, as if he was sarcastic about himself, he already knew the facts, why did he have to ask again.
His face lowered so that people couldn't see his expression clearly, but Bei Xiaorou still suddenly turned from his body to a dull aura, perceiving his low mood, her heart hurt slightly, and her eyes floated with guilt again, she bit her lower lip lightly, and the soft noise was full of guilt and self-blame, "Brother Zhuo, ...... right"
Before the remaining apologetic words were finished, Zhuo Yuanhang suddenly stretched out his finger to her lips, and then slowly raised his head, a soothing smile appeared on his handsome face, his eyes looked at her intently, and he whispered: "Fool, you don't need to apologize to me, I know that the matter of feelings is reluctant." ”
There was a hint of melancholy in his smile, he exhaled a deep breath, and then showed a faint smile of relief, "That's okay, I can be considered to be completely dead, and I can walk with peace of mind." ”
The word "go" made Bei Xiaorou stunned for a moment, she looked at his gentle face in a daze, and it took a long time to react to the meaning of his last sentence, and some tears suddenly rose in her eyes. She hurriedly stood up, grabbed the hem of his clothes tightly with one hand, and her eyes were full of eagerness and worry, "You want to leave too?" Where are you going? ”
It's no wonder that her reaction is so big, because Song Weize also left without warning, but went to that extremely dangerous place, although because of Lei Ziqian's help, he often contacted him, but as long as he didn't come back for a day, she always couldn't let go of it.
And now, Zhuo Yuanhang actually said that he was leaving, which made Pei Xiaorou's heart suddenly lift, for fear that he would also go to some dangerous place.
Seeing her worries, and only later did he know about Song Weize, Zhuo Yuanhang could naturally guess what her worries were at the moment, and immediately reached out to cover her hand that was holding the hem of her clothes, and softly comforted her nervousness, "Don't worry, I won't go to any dangerous places, I just want to walk around and relax." ”
The three words of scattered heart made Bei Xiaorou's heart that she had just put down suddenly mentioned it again, she bit her lip lightly, and her clear eyes were full of regret and self-blame, "It's me, it's because of me, right?" ”
Zhuo Yuanhang's eyes darkened slightly, his other hand was raised, and he gently pressed it on the top of her head, feeling the silky feeling under the palm of his hand, and a slight astringency floated under his heart, and then met her eyes full of guilt, his heart tightened slightly, and the slight tears floating in her eyes made him feel a slight pain in his heart, and he couldn't bear to see her so sad.
The corners of his lips were lightly raised, and the big hand on the top of her head was pressed down, and her white and tender forehead was lightly buttoned, and her face was pale, and she pretended to be annoyed and said, "Am I such a stingy man in your heart?" ”
Bei Xiaorou's long eyelashes trembled slightly, but a pair of eyes were still looking at him with concern, obviously not letting go of his heart.
Sighing silently in his heart, Zhuo Yuanhang reached out to hug her shoulder, held her big hand on the hem of his clothes, and hugged her to his chest with a slight force, and then stroked her soft long hair draped behind her shoulders with one hand, her handsome face became bitter and lost where she couldn't see, but the noise from the outlet was still gentle comfort, "Don't blame yourself, it's not because of you." I made the decision to leave a long time ago, and I thought that if you could accept me, I would take you with me. It's just a pity, it seems that I am destined to embark on the journey alone. ”
In the last sentence, he said a little mockingly, which made Bei Xiaorou's heart feel a little painful, she opened her mouth, wanting to say something, but in the end she found that all she could say was those three words, "I'm sorry!" ”
Zhuo Yuanhang's pupils shrank slightly, a trace of abrupt pain floated on his handsome face, he suddenly tightened his arms, hugged the woman on his chest tightly into his arms, lowered his head, closed his eyes and sniffed the fragrance of her hair deeply. After a while, Huo Ran raised his head, opened his eyes, his eyes were difficult, he pursed his lips, and suddenly let go of his hand and let go of the woman in his arms.
Bei Xiaorou raised her eyes, her delicate little face was full of apology and a little confused, she looked up at him lightly, the man's handsome face was full, his eyes were staring at her intently, the noise was low and dull, "Never say those three words to me again, you have never been wrong, it's just blame, we don't have enough fate." ”
Speaking of this, he pulled his lips lightly, and there was a faint self-deprecation in his eyes, Bei Xiaorou only felt a slight pain in her heart, and some tears appeared in her eyes.
Raising his eyes to see her like this, a trace of pain flashed in Zhuo Yuanhang's eyes, the hands hanging by his side tightened slightly, he suddenly reached out to hold her shoulders, lowered his eyes, and looked at her cautiously and firmly, "I respect your choice, but if one day, Lei Ziqian hurts you and makes you sad, then I will no longer care about your choice, and I will definitely come back and take you away!" ”
This sentence announced his final determination, and it also represented the extent to which he could retreat, which made Pei Xiaorou feel that her heart was as hot as fire, and the guilt was a little deeper.
His affection, she finally lived up to it.
A teardrop slipped down from the corner of her eye, and she gently grabbed the hem of his clothes with her trembling hands, trembling noise, looking at him through the misty tears, with a reluctant and reluctant concern, "Then you also want to let me know, you will always be fine, okay?!" ”
Looking at the pair of eyes in front of him that were washed by tears and became more and more transparent, Zhuo Yuanhang only felt a sudden throbbing pain in his heart, he pursed his lips, stretched out his hand again, and hugged the woman in front of him tightly into his arms, bowed his head, and said a deep and hoarse "good" from the woman's hair.
Bei Xiaorou grabbed the hem of his clothes, supple and supple to bear the pain caused by his tight embedding of his own strength, and she didn't cry out for pain, and she didn't notice that the man who buried his head next to her hair, a drop of male tears that gently slipped from the corner of his eyes, was so painful, but he had to let go of regret.
originally thought that Zhuo Yuanhang would not leave so soon, and he would definitely tell himself the day he was leaving, but unexpectedly, when she came to the ward with Lei Ziqian the next day, she didn't see his figure, and after asking, she learned that he had been discharged from the hospital ahead of schedule.
She suddenly felt extremely uneasy, she immediately dialed Zhuo Yuanhang's phone, as soon as she connected, before she could speak, the man on the other end had already spoken, "Xiaorou, I'll leave immediately, don't worry about me." Rest assured, I will send you gifts everywhere I go to let you know that I am fine. ”
Hearing this, Bei Xiaorou's heart shrank suddenly, and she said urgently: "Brother Zhuo, which airport are you in, I'll see you off." ”