Lu Yao couldn't say it, but he knew that Li Meng had changed, and it seemed to be overnight, and whenever he asked Li Meng what was going on, Li Meng always said that he was thinking too much. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 info used to walk home together every day after school, but now Li Meng began to avoid him, saying that he had something to do or had an appointment with someone else and didn't go home with him, and occasionally walked together to keep a long distance from him. Later, Lu Yao heard from a friend in the same class as Li Meng that Li Meng always carried disinfectant with her, and she would disinfect anything that a boy touched her at any time.

Since the last incident, Li Mengda felt that men were very dirty in his heart, so he stopped talking to boys, even if he got a little closer to boys, he would be afraid. She knew that Lu Yao was different from other boys, but she couldn't accept the fact that he was a man.

My father began to come home every day, and he often quarreled with his mother, but he still did not want to leave. Li Meng is no longer a child, she is no longer afraid of her parents' frequent disputes, but she is quite bored, and she began to quarrel with Li Yan, for this, Meng Ling also has a headache. The husband finally returned to the family with a change of heart, and the adolescent daughter seemed to be a natural enemy with her husband, and they quarreled if they disagreed.

It turned out that the main reason why Li Yan went home was because Zhao Man also gave birth to a daughter, and the reason why the boy was detected at that time was because Zhao Man found an acquaintance in the obstetrics and gynecology department to do it. Betrayal and reality made Li Yan see Zhao Man's true face clearly, and began to miss the empathetic Meng Ling. So he gave Zhao Man 200,000 yuan as compensation, let Zhao Man leave with the child, and he also listened to his parents' opinions and his own wishes and returned home. He didn't feel that he had done anything wrong, he had never felt sorry for Meng Ling or anything else, he only felt that he had made a right choice again. Selfish people, it seems, are like that, never see their own shortcomings. This is also what Li Meng hates about Li Yan the most.

Li Meng hated his father, because he never recognized his mistakes, never realized how much harm his wanton behavior would bring to others, and never cared about his own feelings. Li Yan also looks down on his mother, he can be easily forgiven for such a betrayal, and he can be compromised if he has no feelings, after Meng Ling and Li Yan quarreled, Meng Ling often said to Li Meng: "If it weren't for you, I would have divorced your father a long time ago." At that time, Li Meng shouted in his heart again and again: "You are leaving, I wish you had divorced him." It's as if I brought all your misfortunes to me, as if you consulted me about my birth, as if I were standing in your way to happiness. The shouts in his heart again and again will still stop at the last moment, because Li Meng really can't bear to hurt his mother, even if it is in words.

She couldn't bear to hurt others, but she chose to hurt herself. By the time she was in her second year of high school, the competition for studies began to become fierce, and she always felt bored and depressed at home, because of some rumors about her strange personality, and no girl wanted to be friends with her, and she herself alienated Lu Yao's concern. So it really became a person in life and a person in psychology. If a person holds back for a long time, he will definitely get sick, which is the best and most unforgettable lesson she has learned in those years.

No one told her what she was thinking, because once she couldn't open her mouth with Lu Yao, she became more and more indescribable. I can't say anything to my friends, let alone my parents, and I can't say to them, "I want you to divorce, I want my father to leave my life." She began to become lazy and distracted, looking at a letter in the book can stare at a class, sitting on her stomach and not moving will feel very tired, and it is very annoying to say a word to others, until one day she accidentally poked her hand when she used a pen, looking at the bleeding from the wound, Li Meng inexplicably felt very excited and stimulated, she realized that she seemed to be sick. However, she couldn't seem to control her crazy side, and she took the trouble to cut open the wound again and again, admiring the relief brought by the bright red, the wound grew bigger and deeper, and her ideas became more and more daring. She began to fantasize about whether it would be more exciting if she cut her wrists, especially when her parents quarreled, she always hoped that she would leave this world, and that she might not be so tired if she left completely. Her grades are getting worse and worse, and the teacher is gradually losing her attention, and Li Meng feels as if she really doesn't belong to this world. Finally one day, she went to the roof of the school, looking at the students coming and going downstairs with youthful laughter and noisy, she couldn't help but want to reach out and grab something, but when she leaned out her shoulders, a feeling of dizziness struck, and she sat on the ground with weak legs, Li Meng suddenly felt very funny, and covered her face and cried when she smiled, crying for a while and laughing for a while, if you don't know, you will definitely think that she is a madman.

"Li Meng, what are you doing?" Seeing Lu Yao panting in front of him, Li Meng was somehow very happy, and pointed behind him with a smile: "I, laugh at myself, hahahaha, I just wanted to try to jump, what would it feel like." At a critical time, because of the fear of heights, his legs suddenly softened, hahahaha, hahahaha. ”

"Don't laugh." Lu Yao squatted in front of Li Meng, looking at Li Meng who was smiling wildly, with a look of unbearability.

"Why don't you laugh, I'm going to die laughing at myself, hahaha."

"I said stop laughing!" Lu Yao roared at Li Meng, and then grabbed Li Meng's hand full of masochistic scars: "What's going on with this ******!" What have you been doing, what have you been thinking lately, I really don't understand what you're thinking about! Lu Yao never scolded, this was the first time he had exploded into foul language, but Li Meng felt very relieved and relieved at the moment because of the rampaging Lu Yao.

"When I was in sixth grade, I almost got a pimple-riddled boy QJ." Listening to Li Mengfeng say this lightly, Lu Yao's mind became blank at that time.

"Since then, I've become afraid of boys, and I'm afraid to talk."

"At first, I didn't understand it, until I bumped into my parents xx, and suddenly I understood. Hehe, I feel even more disgusting with men. ”

"I haven't cried in years, but after crying just now, I feel like I'm okay. I'm holding back my illness, and I'll be fine after venting. ”

"Heh, it's that simple."

Li Meng smiled, as if the things he talked about had nothing to do with him, which made Lu Yao feel sad and heartbroken.

"I've asked you so many times—"

"Hey, who can say what this happened? Don't look at me like that, I've said I've cried, then it's okay. Hurry up and go to class, or the teacher will be in a hurry. Go, go. ”

"What about you?"

"I'll sit down for a while, anyway, I don't have a sense of existence in the class at all now, and the teacher won't necessarily know if I don't see him for a day."

"Then I'll be with you, I haven't skipped class yet. How can such an interesting thing not bring me, thanks to our friendship for so many years. Lu Yao was still worried about Li Meng and didn't dare to leave, so he deliberately relaxed his tone.

"Okay."

After smiling at each other, the two sat against the wall, basking in the sun and blowing the wind, no longer talking, but both believing that their friendship could last for a whole century.