It was already nine o'clock at night, and the unlit room was almost pitch black, and the dim street lights reflected on the ground through the curtains. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

It's like, my voice is starting to become more feminine, and yes, it's slowly becoming more and more feminine.

I leaned on the head of the bed with my knees crossed, looking at the quilt on the bed, feeling a little bad.

The chest was also seen by the squad leader, even if he said it was a joke, but I always felt that he would glance at my chest from time to time today.

It's really being seen.

Keep your head in your arms and your eyes closed.

Why is this happening to me? Obviously, I just want to be like an ordinary person, after graduating from college, working, getting married, and having children...... It's good to be like a normal person.

I've always hated myself, I hate this face, I hate my introverted personality, and now I hate this woman's body even more.

When my voice completely changed to a female voice, I couldn't hide my breasts anymore, and when my body began to develop towards a woman...... So what should I do? No one would identify with me like that, would they? My classmates would only look at me with monster eyes, my dad would kick me out of the house, and my mom would think I was a pervert.

Obviously, I just want a normal life.

I couldn't fit in with the group because of this face, but now I finally get the class to identify with me, and I have become a woman again.

It's like hiding, hiding in a corner where no one is around, and fending for yourself.

Tears began to fall on my knees one by one, and I tried to stop them, but the tears became more and more turbulent.

There was a whining sound in my throat, and a cold air gathered in my heart along my breath, and I shrunk myself tighter, but my heart seemed to be frozen, emitting a chill that made me shiver.

It's like dead......

Intense sorrow enveloped me, and my unconscious choking turned into bitter tears.

"I really want to be a normal person, I really want to be a man who stands up to the sky."

I cried as I spoke, my hands clutching the flesh of my thighs, my nails sinking into the flesh.

But it's impossible, and what is easy for others is something that I can only get in my dreams.

The phone that I had thrown aside suddenly began to vibrate, and I opened my teary eyes to see only a blur.

wiped away his tears and took the phone, only to find out that it was his mother's phone.

The sliding screen was turned on, and there was a "rustling" sound in my ears, I wanted to speak, but I was afraid that my female voice would be heard by my mother, and I was afraid that I would be questioned by my mother when I was still choking.

"Hello? Why don't you speak? ”

"Hello? Rachel? ”

Mom's gentle voice came from the phone, her nose was sore, and the tears that had just stopped flowed again.

"Mom." My voice was shaky and hoarse.

"What's wrong with your voice? You can't be crying, are you? What's wrong? ”

I wiped my tears vigorously but couldn't wipe them clean: "No, I'm fine." ”

"So be it." The tears flowed more and more, and my voice began to choke more and more, "I'm going to have supper with Lin Hao." ”

"I often go home on weekends, discuss with Lin Hao if something happens, don't cry alone, be good."

I squeezed out a "hmm" in my nasal voice, and my mother's comfort made me more and more emotional, and I hung up the phone in a hurry, for fear that I would cry in front of my mother.

Curled up on the bed, whimpering and crying, slowly, snot and tears on his face, he wiped it with a tissue on the small table next to him, and the tears slowly stopped.

"Rachel." Lin Hao suddenly called me outside the door, "I'm going out for supper." ”

"I don't want to go."

"Let's go."

When Lin Hao asked again and again, I took the opportunity to wash my face, and after washing the dirt on my face, I agreed and walked out of the bedroom door.

Lin Hao is wearing a white shirt and black slacks today, looking like a white-collar worker who has entered the society, I remember that his outfit was recommended by me when I went shopping with him last summer, he has always felt that this outfit is too mature to be suitable for school, so he will only wear it occasionally during the holidays.

I like this type of clothing very much, and I have a slim fit, but I wear it even less, because slim fit, worn on other people's bodies to show muscles, but on me it looks like women's clothing.

"Why do you change clothes at night?" I just glanced at it, and then lowered my head, lest he notice my red eyes.

"I just changed it after taking a shower." Lin Hao walked to the mirror in the toilet, "How is it?" Is it handsome? ”

I also walked over together, stood beside him, looked at the two people in the mirror, I was more than six meters tall and stood next to him like a little couple, this discovery made me a little unhappy, just said lightly: "It's okay"

"Let's go, eat finger cakes?"

Lin Hao naturally grabbed my wrist, and this action, which we had long been accustomed to, made me freeze all of a sudden.

"What's wrong?"

Seeing that I was not moving, he looked down at me.

"It's nothing, don't pull me."

Breaking free of Lin Hao's hand, I felt a little embarrassed by such a refusal, so I squatted down and barked at the lemon that seemed to be sleeping not far away, and the cat stood up instantly, ran towards me in a hurry, and jumped into my arms.

"Let's go."

Lin Hao walked in front in silence, I walked in his shadow with a lemon, there were not many pedestrians under the dim street lamp, only one or two mopeds drove by quickly.

The shadows were elongating, spinning, overlapping, and the small place, which was almost isolated from the rest of the world at night, became more and more silent, and when the car disappeared, all that was left was the distant dark shadow and the snapping sound of slippers walking.

The mood became calmer because of the night, and I, who was still crying just now, began to smile a little on my face, lowered my head and looked at the feet in front of me with my peripheral vision, and my hand kept teasing the lemon in my arms

"Actually, you...... Don't think about it that much. Lin Hao, who was walking in front, suddenly spoke, I looked up at him, his hands were still swinging unnaturally with his steps, "Your mother just called me and said let me comfort you, and your father was also next to me and asked me what was wrong with you." ”

Lin Hao stopped suddenly, and I bumped into his back absentmindedly, "They will accept you." ”

I didn't back down, my forehead resting on his broad back, and the topic made my heart heavy, and my voice was hoarse and heavy: "Maybe." ”

I heard him sigh, and when I saw him turn around, I quickly took a few steps back and looked up at his face.

"Even your family and friends won't accept you, at least me."

Lin Hao's face showed a smile, a smile that made me feel warm.

"yes, I see." I forced a grin, not knowing what to say at this point.

"It's going to be fine."

"Hmm."

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It's already a signing.,I've always wanted to sign a contract before.,Now I just want to write that the result of playing is inexplicably signed......