CHAPTER XIII

The ship of love had to run aground on the beach due to the damage of an important machine. Xiaoli reluctantly gave up contact and communication with Feng Gang www.biquge.info she knew that this might be another thrilling love ode, but she knew that she didn't have that qualification, and the ugly thing buried in her heart forced her to dispel the idea of moving, so she had to accompany the quietly passing time with pain and tears. At the end of May, Jiangnan is already very hot, but the morning and evening still show the slightest coolness, the situation in the hotel is still the same, Xiaoli is still shuttling back and forth between the hotel and accommodation, with the growth of time, at the same time, the good little sisters are becoming more and more sensitive to her personal problems, and even some people will make fun of her and Feng Gang from time to time, jokes, Xiaoli is speechless, but Feng Gang seems to acquiesce in this matter, and is waiting for Xiaoli to nod and agree, Aunt Wu Cuicui urged Xiaoli to make a clear statement every now and then, Xiaoli was worried that she would be displeased, so it was not good to agree, and it was not good not to agree, so she was completely passive and fell into a dilemma. Hong Fusheng couldn't sit still, as a father, he decided to talk to Xiaoli openly and honestly as a parent, so that afternoon, after finishing the Chinese food, he called Xiaoli to the office and asked his daughter straight to the point: "Jiali, what is the attitude of you and Feng Gang, whether you are willing to deal with other people, and then marry him as a daughter-in-law, you have to have a clear statement, your aunt and I have already talked to Feng Gang in front of the gong and the drum on the other side, and he resolutely showed that he doesn't care if you are a girl. This young man is well aware of the righteousness, and sincerely says that as long as the two of you treat each other sincerely, respect and love each other, and make progress together, nothing in the past is important. It's hard to find a young man like this with a lantern. If you agree, then we will find a time to invite Feng Gang's parents and bring your mother too, and our two families will have a face-to-face conversation in this restaurant, and then set up one or two tables of wine banquets, even if it is for you to get engaged, all the expenses will be borne by Dad, what do you think? ”

What a kind and affectionate word, what a father can do this, what else to say. However, Xiaoli sounded like thunder, her body trembled by the shock, she was speechless, she had to let the tears flow, and then she covered her face with her arms and lay on the desk in the office and cried loudly.

Hong Fusheng panicked, he didn't understand that it was that sentence that stung Xiaoli and made her so sad, he was very considerate and held his daughter's shoulder and asked, "What's the matter, Jiali, why are you crying so sadly?" It doesn't matter if you really don't want to, just if this matter hasn't been said at all, the world is vast, and there are many good young men, just look for it in the future, don't you need to be so sad. ”

Xiaoli lowered her crying slightly, raised her head, and said with tears in her eyes: "Dad, to tell you the truth, it's not that I can't like Feng Gang, but I can't, I can't accept this feeling, because I'm just a woman, not a real woman, if I get along with him and finally marry him, it will be a deception to him, I can only give him my body, but I can't give birth to children for him, inheritance, I have no fertility, my reproductive organs were damaged five years ago, I was only seventeen years old." ”

"Ah, I see, no wonder you are in a dilemma and refuse to speak, what is the reason for your loss of fertility, and who has caused you so much harm and left a lifelong regret."

Xiaoli cried and told her biological father what happened to her five years ago.

Hong Fusheng heard the itchy roots of his teeth, he closed his lips, couldn't speak for a long time, and paused for a long time before squeezing out a sentence from between his teeth: "This bastard thing, not as good as a beast, actually did such a shameless thing to a girl who was unarmed and raised by himself, it really deserves a thousand cuts." ”

"You are to blame for this, in a way, in the first place."

"Ah, blame me, blame me." Hong Fusheng was dumbfounded, staring straight at Xiaoli with his eyes, a little confused by the second monk.

"If you hadn't done that to my mother at the beginning, causing my mother to divorce you because she couldn't stand it, how could she have married that bastard, and I wouldn't have suffered that bad luck."

Hong Fusheng woke up, it turned out that I was the culprit, and he was very ashamed to say to his daughter: "Yes, blame me for being young and ignorant, debauched, and snubbing your mother, thus harming you, Dad is sorry for you, but this is already irreparable, and no matter how much I compensate you, it will be useless." ”

"If it weren't for this reason, I might have married my first love, and maybe I would have had children."

"Does that man know about this?"

"I know, I told him without concealment, he sympathizes with me, understands me, doesn't care about my past, doesn't care if he has children or not, he still loves me sincerely, and is ready to rent a house and marry me. But when his mother found out, she rushed over from the mountains thousands of miles away, and desperately objected, and he and his mother quarreled so much that his mother really sought death, and crashed into the corner of the wall in front of all the people present and fainted, and then he had to give in, and promised his mother to cut off from me, quit his job, and go back to his hometown with his mother. This matter let all the people at the construction site know, and the third uncle Yu Xianglong also accidentally died because he went to the eighth floor to save people with his heart, and the third aunt Lin Hong resented me because of this, and scolded me in public at the third uncle's funeral that I was a bad spirit, a dead star, and killed her husband. ”

"Oh, so you said you were desperate because of these, you are so pathetic, no wonder, no wonder."

Xiaoli's tears are still flowing, her eyes are like a huge reservoir, never finished.

"In this way, you and Feng Gang's affairs have to be done, but how can we explain it to him? What will you do in the future? You're still young, you can't just suffer all your life. ”

"Feng Gang's matter had no choice but to be resolved, so I said that I don't like him, don't make other explanations, and don't let him know, even Auntie, you'd better not talk about it, the fewer people who know about this kind of ugly thing, the better. As for what I will do in the future, let it be fate, and live one day at a time. ”

"Hey... Ay.... Hong Fusheng sighed repeatedly, he would never have thought that the original indulgence and cynicism would cause today's evil consequences, he was full of remorse, looking at his daughter's sad expression, his heart ached.

In the evening, when he returned home, Hong Fusheng, who was lying on the bed, was still silent with a heavy heart. His wife, Wu Cuicui, felt that her husband was a little abnormal today, so she asked with great concern: "What's wrong with you today, you look sullen, have you encountered something annoying?" ”

"No, it's just that I'm unhappy, maybe because I'm tired, so I don't want to talk."

"No, it's not painful to be tired, I've been married to you for almost ten years, and I haven't seen you look like this, what troubles are you encountering, say it and let me share it."

"Hey..." Hong Fusheng sighed and said: "I knew today, why bother at the beginning, this matter is too incredible, and you can't share it." ”

"Oh, what the hell is going on, tell me about it."

Hong Fusheng told his wife all about Xiaoli's experience and her first love like a bamboo tube pouring beans, Wu Cuicui got goosebumps all over her body after hearing it, she said very regretfully: "I didn't expect it to be like this, no wonder she refused to agree to Feng Gang's matter, it turns out that the problem is here, it's a pity, a stunning beauty, a big girl like a flower and jade was ruined prematurely, and lost her fertility, what should I do now?" Feng Gang is still waiting for my reply, how can I explain to him, can I talk to him about this kind of ugly thing? ”

"I can't say it, I can only say that one more person knows, he will never marry a beautiful woman regardless of this matter, and he won't make any explanation, just say that the beautiful woman doesn't look down on him, the more this kind of thing is stirred, the more stinky it is, if it spreads so that everyone knows, then does the beauty still have the face to stay in the restaurant? I can't hang it on my face, I just can't stop it, keep it as it is. ”

"What will happen to Belle in the future? You can't just die of old age. ”

"This is the reason why I am depressed, think about this thing in the final analysis is the first thing that is wrong, if I didn't study well, spend all day drinking, prostitution and gambling, and don't care about her mother and daughter, her mother will not divorce me, and it will be impossible for the beauty to pay this bad luck, and now I regret it is useless."

"If you don't get divorced, then where will I write this one?"

"That's right."

The couple fell silent at the same time with both grief and pity. However, their minds were not calm, and they were still thinking about Xiaoli's problem, and after the room was quiet for more than ten minutes, Wu Cuicui suddenly said to her husband as if she had found a life-saving straw: "Find a wife who has given birth to a child and died, or is divorced, even if an older man and a beautiful woman start a family, isn't it the best of both worlds?" ”

"The reason is good, but there is such a coincidence there, even if there is a good will?"

"It's one thing to have it, it's another thing to say yes or not, she's already like this, who would want her when she's young and hasn't given birth to a child, only then does she still have some value."

"That's right, but you can't rush it, you have to take your time."

The two unified their thoughts.

In the afternoon of the next day, Hong Fusheng and Wu Cuicui sat on the sofa in the office of the restaurant together, and Feng Gang, who was sitting opposite, explained Xiaoli's attitude to him. But what they didn't expect was that although Feng Gang was sad, he resolutely said that he would not marry except Xiaoli, as long as Xiaoli did not marry for a day, he would wait for a day until all hopes were shattered, and he asked the boss and his wife to rest assured that he would never affect his work because of this matter, and it was impossible to disturb Xiaoli, he would only wait silently and bury that emotion in his heart. Hong Fusheng seemed to be a little puzzled and asked him, "Why are you suffering?" In addition to the beauty, there are other good girls, such as the big red is good, although the appearance is not as good as the beauty, but the figure and character are also very good. ”

"Boss, I'm twenty-seven years old this year, it stands to reason that I should have started a family a long time ago, but over the years, none of the girls I have contacted and known have made me so attentive to Xiaoli, she has been here for more than a year, since I first saw her, I like her very, very much, this year, I have observed from all sides, she is the woman I want to get, her every move, a smile makes my heart move, all in all, I don't want to give up on her, although she doesn't fancy me now, But I'm sure she'll change her opinion of me, and I'm willing to wait until the Year of the Monkey without regrets. Feng Gang said his heart firmly.

"But she's already talked to someone, and she's had skin-to-skin relationships with others, so she's not a girl anymore, don't you care about that?" Wu Cuicui deliberately stimulated Feng Gang with words, just to make him retreat.

"I don't care, everybody has a past, if I've slept with other women, I mean, if not, would she care? So if men have a past to forgive, shouldn't women forgive? Now that society is so open, this kind of thing is inevitable, who cares about these things, isn't it too vulgar? Feng Gang said without changing his will.

"Okay, you just wait, according to what you said, you won't have any regrets until the Year of the Monkey, as long as you don't affect your work and don't disturb the normal life of the beauty. People have their own ambitions, you can't force them, your spirit is indeed good, and we can't interfere with it, but there is one thing I must remind you, Belle is my daughter, you can't hold a grudge against her and bully her because she has not agreed to be nice to you, if that is the case, I will not spare you. ”

"Boss, don't worry, if she gets married tomorrow, I will die tomorrow, and I will never destroy her good deeds, let alone bully and retaliate against her. You don't have to get someone to love someone, as long as you see her happy, you will be happy and satisfied. Although I have her in my heart, I am still a man who can afford to put it down. Feng Gang said very rationally.

"There's really nothing I can do with you, but I hope you succeed in the end. Although I'm the biological father of Jiali, I can't be her master in this matter, so you can do it yourself. Hong Fusheng was a little duplicitous when he said this.

This paragraph did not happen, but the emotional thing that planted love seeds in each other's hearts stopped at this time. After Xiaoli knew Feng Gang's attitude, she couldn't find a Chinese word that could be described in her heart, so she could only continue to do the work she did every day as if nothing happened.

Since the beginning of the summer, the Fuxing Hotel has been busy almost every day, with many guests, Xiaoli devotes herself to the complicated work every day, she and Ding Meiyun originally worked in shifts, but because they were too busy, it was difficult for one person to cope with so many things, so she had to be busy together, so she had no time to think about those things that cut off the unsorted and messy feelings. At one o'clock at noon on this day in June, Xiaoli was sitting intently in the bar to calculate and fill in the total price of the menu on each table, and suddenly there were three stout men full of alcohol, disheveled and walked to the bar, while slapping the bar, while smiling at Xiaoli lewdly and said, "Miss, come out to have a drink with my brother, my brother will give you a red envelope." ”

"I'm sorry, I'm working, please go away and don't affect me." Xiaoli replied.

"Everything in your restaurant is good, but you don't have a wine lady, it's really boring." Another man said.

"We don't drink here, we do legitimate business, there are no crooked things, I'm busy, please respect yourself, otherwise I'll call someone." Xiaoli said sternly.

"Hehe, why don't you understand any fun at all, a beautiful lady like you, only earning such a small salary is a waste of resources, it's better to go to the wine table to be happy with your brothers, your brothers won't treat you badly." Another man said to Xiaoli sluttly.

"Please don't talk nonsense, this girl is doing an upright job, earning the reward for hard work, the escort lady you want, the hotel does not have it now, and it will not have it in the future, I hope you will follow the rules, otherwise I will call the police." Xiaoli stood up and scolded them angrily.

"Ouch, I'm really angry, you're even more charming when you're angry, why don't you come to my brother's arms to enjoy the warmth, my brother will definitely pity the fragrance and cherish the jade, and won't let you be busy in vain, giving you a lot of money." The man took out a stack of bills and said unashamedly.

Ding Meiyun couldn't sit still at this time, he couldn't bear to slap the bar and stand up, straightened his waist and roared: "Let your mother's stinky fart, I want Miss to accompany you to find a chicken, what kind of lewd power is playing here, drink your sassy wine." ”

The screams attracted a lot of people, those who wanted to go but didn't go, who wanted to settle the bill and didn't settle the bill, they all stood still, they accused the three drunkards of being bold and reckless, daring to play hooligans in broad daylight, these three guys did not change their vices, but did not relent, but held the beer bottle around the people around the demonstration, one of the men actually danced the empty wine bottle in his hand to make a slashing posture, their obscenity really made many people afraid to avoid, because it is not their own business, so they all have the mentality that more is better than less. However, at this time, I only heard a loud roar: "Bold and fanatical, dare to molest a woman from a good family in public, and there is no royal law, if you have the ability, you will rush to me, Lao Tzu will teach you a lesson." At the critical moment again, Feng Gang stood up from the crowd and pointed at the three guys and yelled.

When Xiaoli saw Feng Gang standing up for herself again, the gratitude in her heart suddenly warmed up.

The three maniacs were stunned at first, and then found that the person in front of them was just a hairy boy who was not big and did not have his own strong figure, so he was even more bold, and one of the men also mocked at Feng Gang unscrupulously: "Ouch hey, I'm scared to death, what kind of woman broke her crotch and fell you out, is it possible that you still want to be a hero to save the beauty, okay, come to the uncle, uncle to see what you are capable of." ”

"Haha, I don't know how thick the sky is, is it quite heroic, dare to disturb the good things of the uncle, see how the uncle cleans you up today." The other man said rudely, and after speaking, he went up with the two guys to surround Feng Gang, Feng Gang fought back desperately, and several other cooks also rushed up to help Feng Gang fight with them, and the two sides immediately became a mess, and the scene suddenly fell into chaos. Hong Fusheng, who got the news, also arrived at the scene, but he had no way to control the situation, watching the situation get more and more serious, someone secretly called 110, but far water could not quench the thirst, the police did not know when to arrive, maybe when they arrived, a tragedy had happened, whether there would be deaths, it was unknown. At this critical moment, Xiao Li didn't know where to borrow the courage, she suddenly split through everyone, rushed behind a maniac, raised his hand and raised him above his head to smash Feng Gang's beer bottle and snatched it, and slammed it according to the dining table next to her, with a loud "bang", beer and glass shards spilled all over the ground, everyone stopped in shock in an instant, and all eyes were on Xiao Li. Xiaoli opened her bloody mouth like a tigress, pointed at the three madmen with the empty beer bottle that was only half left in her hand and exposed the glass tip, and said viciously: "Do you want to fight hard? Come to this girl, and we'll fight it out. Xiao Li's actions shocked the three fanatics, and they didn't know how to deal with it for a while, and the three pairs of eyes stared at Xiao Li's extremely fierce face. After a while, the three guys came back to their senses, and one of them said with a sneer: "I can't imagine that I will kill a trip to bite the gold halfway, this delicate sister still has such a big guts, come, follow the brother's stab, my brother is willing to die under the flowers today, and he is also a ghost." After speaking, he opened his shirt and exposed the upper body of the ****.

Xiaoli saw that this trick didn't work, so she made another move, she backhanded the glass spire of the beer bottle to her neck and said to them: "It seems that you have to see blood today, and you will not give up if you don't create a tragedy, then well, this girl will die for you." ”

This trick worked, and the three guys were frightened, and hurriedly stammered and shook their hands and said, "Don't, don't, we're served, put your hands down, let's leave." ”

"Go, where you go, take it all." Four uniformed policemen suddenly appeared in the parlor and handsomeled the three men before squatting.

Hong Fusheng greeted the police as soon as he saw it, and introduced himself, the police politely asked the ins and outs of the matter, Hong Fusheng called Ding Meiyun, and Ding Meiyun began to narrate to the police.

Xiaoli was relieved, she put down the beer bottle and walked to Feng Gang, Feng Gang had a blue nose and swollen face, and there was a hole on his shoulder, and blood was bubbling outside, Xiaoli saw this and quickly found a cleaning cloth to cover Feng Gang's wound, and then the two walked to Hong Fusheng and the police together, one of the police leaders saw the situation, and immediately ordered one of his subordinates to send Feng Gang to the hospital in a police car to bandage. Xiaoli asked to accompany her, and after Hong Fusheng and the boss agreed, the two of them got into a police car, and after arriving at a community health center three kilometers away, the police car returned to the restaurant. A female doctor quickly gave Feng Gang medicine, wrapped the wound, and the redness and swelling of his face were also treated, and after everything was done, Xiaoli and Feng Gang walked out of the health center side by side.

Since Xiaoli went to work in the restaurant, it was the first time for her to have such close contact with Feng Gang, through the last quarrel and today's events, Feng Gang came forward to help, Xiaoli was shocked in her heart and had a great impression of him, so she decided to take this opportunity to talk to Feng Gang heart-to-heart. They comforted each other as they walked, and before they knew it, they came to a small garden by the side of the road, where Xiaoli proposed to sit and rest, and Feng Gang happily agreed, so the two of them went to the steps surrounded by flowers by the wall and sat down.

"Xiaoli, I really didn't expect that you would dare to confront three big men face to face, which really makes me admire."

"I was in a hurry, I had to do it, I couldn't take care of it, and I was still very scared when I thought about it later, you are not ordinary, those three guys are all bigger than you, and you dare to do it with them, that momentum is very heroic."

"Hey, don't mention it, I can't see them bullying you, so I rushed out desperately." After Feng Gang finished speaking, he stared at Xiao Li's face with infinite affection for a long time, Xiao Li saw him like this, her face suddenly turned red, this red made Feng Gang even more excited, he grabbed Xiao Li's hand a little uncontrollably, and said a little excitedly: "Xiao Li, I like you, I like you since the first day you came to the restaurant, your beautiful smile is the woman I often miss in my dreams." I told my aunt about you a long time ago, that is, the proprietress Wu Cuicui, but I don't know why you don't look down on me, I feel very uncomfortable, but I feel uncomfortable, and my feelings for you have never changed. Today, I am considered a blessing in disguise, I can confess to you the words in my heart in person, what do you say I dislike you, I will change, I am determined to change it, and change it until you are satisfied. Xiaoli, give me a chance, I will definitely strive to be worthy of you and make you happy. ”

Xiaoli looked at Feng Gang's honest face, the passion in her heart surged like a spring tide, but she thought of the unspeakable scar, tears rolled in her eyes unconsciously, she tried to restrain herself from letting the tears flow out, her lips wanted to open and close, I don't know what language to tell him, silence, heart-wrenching silence, Xiaoli was silent to the point of almost suffocation, and then spit out from the bottom of her heart: "Feng Gang, it's not that I don't like you, your feelings for me are also deeply engraved in my heart, you have twice acted bravely for me, I am so seriously injured this time, I am grateful to you, you are a good person, a good man with affection and righteousness, if I lose you, it will be difficult to find a tasteful and bloody partner like you, how much I want to live with you, how much I want to be thrown into your arms. However, the sky is not satisfactory, I can't accept your feelings, to be precise, I am not qualified to get your love, I am not worthy of you, because although I am a woman, I am only a shell, not a real woman. “

"What do you mean by this, I'm a little confused, what do you mean by not a real woman?"

"Don't hide it...... Xiaoli couldn't hold back the tears that rolled out of her eyes one by one, and the beauty burst into tears, and it was on the street where people came and went. She told Feng Gang about that experience, her acquaintance and interaction with Wang Weibing, and the beginning and end of her first relationship.

This time it was Feng Gang's turn to be silent, although he was still holding Xiaoli's hand, but his heart was extremely sad with Xiaoli's every word, "Men don't flick when they have tears, just because it's not time to be sad" Feng Gang shed precious tears at this moment, and a scene of Xiaoli's misfortune appeared in front of his eyes. But what could he do? It's not a real woman, these words are too eye-catching and harsh, can Feng Gang accept Xiaoli without care? Of course he can't do it, if he doesn't care about these things and insists on marrying Xiaoli as his wife, but his parents and other family members can't promise this, isn't the result another Wang guard?

"I really didn't expect you to have such an encounter, you are too bitter."

"Now you should understand why I refuse to accept your feelings, I really don't have this blessing, but your kindness to me, I have all the affection for me in my heart, and I hope you look at this affection and help me keep it secret, because I still have to mix in the restaurant, and my father is also there, our father and daughter can't face the big guy without shame."

"You can rest assured that I am not the kind of person who likes to play with right and wrong, and I really like you, but this question is too unexpected, I don't care if you are a virgin, but not being able to have children is too serious, I am really hard to accept, because I am not alone, I still have to face my parents and family, my parents are not in good health, so I can't, I dare not stimulate them, please understand me, forgive me. I had to settle for the next best thing, and give up this affection for you. ”

"I understand, and fully understand your situation, you are not wrong, you can't forgive, the reason why I tell you this secret is that I know that your feelings for me are sincere, so I don't want you to have any illusions about me anymore, otherwise it will be too bitter for you."

"You have good intentions, I thank you, but what will you do in the future? You can't just live alone all the time, right? ”

"I don't bother to think about the future, when will it be, if I can meet a man who doesn't want children or has given birth to children who is willing to marry me, I will not hesitate to marry him."

"Such a man is hard to find, I'm afraid I meet a lot older than you, if it's a dead wife, it's a different matter, if it's divorced, there must be one or another problem, you have to have a few more eyes, don't be blindly impulsive, end up beaten by chickens and eggs, and ruin yourself."

"I know this, thank you for reminding me, I'll be careful, we've been out for a long time, it's time to go back." Xiaoli felt that there was no need to talk any further, so she offered to return.

"Okay, let's go back, but before we go, I have a reluctant request, can you let me kiss once?" Feng Gang sincerely put forward this seemingly excessive, but it is actually a reasonable request.

Xiaoli didn't answer, but stood up to face him, slowly closed his eyes, Feng Gang walked into Xiaoli with understanding, stretched out his arms and hugged her, his lips were attached to Xiaoli's mouth, at this moment, affectionate like a Haitian kiss, Xiaoli's heart was full of passion, but in addition to being uncomfortable or uncomfortable.

Time spun like a wheel, and more than three months passed unnoticed. On the first Saturday night in mid-October, Feng Gang and Da Hong held their wedding in the banquet hall on the first floor of the Fuxing Restaurant. The guests gathered, lively and extraordinary, the whole wedding scene was filled with joy and joy, but there was one person who was bitter and bitter in his heart, this person was Yu Xiaoli, she looked at the wedding banquet scene at this time without a trace of laughter, just drank vigorously by herself, she never drank alcohol today, she drank a lot for the first time today, and soon became drunk and unconscious, Ding Meiyun, Hu Qin and Xiaohong hurriedly helped her to the dormitory, Hu Qin left soon because her husband was still at the wedding scene, Ding Meiyun and Xiaohong have been waiting by Xiaoli's side.

CHAPTER XIV

Autumn is crisp, sunny, green grass, and flowers. In the northernmost part of the provincial capital, there is a majestic and magnificent, beautiful scenery of the swallow rock park, the entrance of the park is a large parking lot, there is a round door on the side of the parking lot, you can enter the park through the round door, and then go up the steps along the bluestone paved steps to the swallow rock head imperial stele pavilion, the pavilion is built on a hexagonal platform, there is a tall stone tablet erected in the pavilion, the front of the stele is engraved with three oil bright eye-catching big characters "swallow rock", these three big characters are the Qing Dynasty Qianlong Emperor six times down the Yangtze River, five swallow rocks, The third time to board the swallow rock when the imperial pen book, this stele pavilion magnificent, solemn, simple, elegant, has been more than 240 years. Passing around the Imperial Tablet Pavilion, it is to the edge of the cliff broken wall connected by the uneven, different shapes of the rocks, the railings that are connected together by the iron rings are installed on the stones, hold the railing and look around, there are 100 meters below is the surging Yangtze River, the cliffs here stand steeply, the danger is abnormal, it is said that there were many frustrated people who jumped the river here in the past and committed suicide, so the old name was "one upside one". Later, because the famous educator Mr. Tao Xingzhi heard about this when he was teaching at Xiaozhuang Normal School, he was very sad, and set up a stone tablet here, named "Advice Tablet", and wrote "Think about it, you can't die", this method really makes many people who want to commit suicide change their minds and dispel the idea of death. Because it is the late autumn season, the cold wind is blowing on the rock, so there are not many tourists in the park, but everyone who visits here is in high spirits and in a comfortable mood, but Yu Xiaoli, the protagonist of this article, is not so cheerful.

Early in the morning, after Xiaoli woke up, after washing, she casually ate and drank a few sips of breakfast that Ding Meiyun bought for her, and said to Ding Meiyun and Xiaohong: "I don't want to go to work in the restaurant today, can you please help me and the boss take a leave?" ”

"It's okay to ask for leave for you, but what are you doing at home alone? It's impossible to sleep all the time," Ding Meiyun asked.

"I'm not going to stay at home and sleep, I want to go out for a walk and relax." Xiaoli replied.

"Where are you going to relax?" Do you want us to stay with you? Xiaohong also asked.

"No, you go to work, the restaurant has been very busy lately, and we can't all leave, so my dad will be angry." Xiaoli said again.

"Alright then, you don't want to be too long, I'm too busy at the bar to be alone, you must come back early." Ding Meiyun reminded.

"Okay, I won't turn for long, you can rest assured." Xiaoli nodded and said.

In this way, Xiaoli walked out of the room after separating from them and came to the street, but where she went, she didn't think about it at all, she just walked aimlessly and kept moving forward, walked and walked to a bus stop, and a bus happened to be parked on the platform, Xiaoli stepped into the car without thinking, where the car went, Xiaoli didn't care, just sat down on an empty seat, what was Xiaoli thinking about at this time? She didn't know whether it was pain or joy that she didn't have the heart to tidy up, the trees and green leaves hurrying by outside the car window, and the downtown scene she didn't have the mood to watch, so she slipped along the bus station by stop. Soon arrived at the terminal, Xiaoli had to get off the bus with all the passengers, but Xiaoli still didn't think about the destination, saw another bus coming, she stepped on it again, just like that all the way to take three buses, Xiaoli arrived at Yanziji, after getting off the bus, she listlessly walked along a small street to the front, not far away, she saw a few red characters in Yanziji Park, so she walked to the gate of the park, took out ten yuan to buy a ticket, Follow the direction of the park attendant's finger into a round door in front.

Xiaoli stood on the edge of the steep cliff, holding on to the railing, looking at the endless river under the cliff, and couldn't help but get excited, she thought of the shame imposed on her by her stepfather, which caused her to be frustrated again and again, and recalled the joy and excitement last night, which should have belonged to her own wedding, Xiaoli was extremely sad, and wanted to jump into the river and end this unbearable life. She looked around, when she saw the stone tablet inscribed by Mr. Tao Xingzhi himself, "Think about it, you can't die", she hesitated a little, familiar faces appeared in front of her eyes, when her mother Yu Xiulan's face flashed, Xiaoli's hesitant heart added unbearable, she couldn't bear to feel that her mother was extremely sad because of her death, maybe she was not interested in living, so she also chose to commit suicide. Xiaoli continued to meditate, she thought of her father Hong Fusheng, Xiaoli has love in her heart, and there is hatred in love, she hates what Hong Fusheng did back then, so that she will be hurt; But for more than a year, Hong Fusheng's care and care for her has indeed fulfilled the obligations of a father. Back then, Hong Fusheng's behavior caused bad luck to himself, he was unintentional, but today his care and care for himself is sincere, so Xiaoli shifted from hate to love, so she couldn't bear to let Hong Fusheng grieve because of his death, and the father's love he just enjoyed was not enough. Thinking of this time, Xiaoli's expression was much more sober, I can't die, I can't die, why should I choose a path of no return when I'm young? It doesn't matter what Wang Weibing, Feng Gang, they are not otherworldly heroes in the end, they will give up, nothing is a big deal, even if they can't get happiness in their lifetime, a person who has endured this life is better than dying now, as the saying goes, "It's better to die than to live", I live in the world like this, who can do anything with me. Xiaoli's mood suddenly brightened, and the idea of death disappeared, at this time, a cool breeze hit Xiaoli couldn't help but shiver a few times, followed by the stomach was also rumbling and famine, Xiaoli stopped thinking, carefully removed the rock, and then looked around, at this moment, Xiaoli only felt a beautiful and attractive scene around, she felt relaxed while enjoying the beautiful scenery, while going down the bluestone stairs one by one, through the round gate out of the park, to the small street that she walked through, Xiaoli found a snack bar, walked in, asked for a bowl of wontons and two white flour meat buns, a little, the blunt wontons and meat buns were served on the table, Xiaoli began to eat in a big gulp, that eating is Xiaoli has never been, in this strange, no one knows her place, Xiaoli can't be so annoyed, take care of her own stomach, after eating and paying, Xiaoli walked to the bus stop again, and returned to the restaurant according to the same way, it was two o'clock in the afternoon.

When Xiaoli's figure appeared at the door of Fuxing Restaurant, Ding Meiyun, who was bright-eyed, immediately shouted loudly: "Xiaoli, Xiaoli, your father is looking for you for something, it seems that he is in a hurry, you hurry to the office on the fifth floor, he is waiting for you there." ”

"Okay, I'll go right away." After Xiaoli answered, she strode to the staircase, then went up to the fifth floor in three steps and two steps, pushed open the door of the manager's room, and Hong Fusheng, who was sitting behind the desk and was writing with his head down, said as soon as he saw Xiaoli: "Jiali, where have you been, I have something urgent to look for you, but I can't contact you." ”

"Dad, why are you looking for me so urgently?"

"Your mother called and said that your grandmother was dying, and asked you to go back quickly."

"Ahh Without further ado, I will leave immediately, I am afraid that I will not see my grandmother when it is too late. ”

"You wait for a while, I will drive you to the long-distance bus station after writing this material, no matter how anxious I am, I don't care about this moment, in addition, this is a mobile phone I just bought for you, you take it, so that I don't have anything to find you." Hong Fusheng said as he handed Xiaoli the box wrapped in her mobile phone.

"Oh, great, great, I'm worried about the inconvenience of not having a mobile phone, thank you Dad, I'll fiddle with it when I'm free, besides, you try to hurry, my heart has flown to my grandmother's side, don't wait, the faster we go, the better."

"Okay, I'll write it when I get back, and I'll take you to the long-distance station first." After Hong Fusheng finished speaking, he put down the pen and paper, stood up and went out with Xiaoli one after another, went downstairs and got into the car, and drove to the long-distance bus terminal in the north of the provincial capital. On the way, Hong Fusheng explained to Xiaoli, if his grandmother left, please call her mobile phone to inform him, he will go to condole, because after all, grandma has been his mother-in-law for several years, and now that people are gone, they should express their hearts and minds, Xiaoli nodded in agreement with her father's approach, and promised to notify him.

When Xiaoli rushed to Yujialu Village in Yinlong Township non-stop, it was almost five o'clock in the afternoon, and Yu Xiulan, who was anxiously waiting at the gate of the courtyard, said as soon as she saw her daughter who she hadn't seen for more than a year, and said: "Xiaoli, hurry up, your grandmother didn't leave in a breath, just to wait for you to come back, you go to see her first."

Xiaoli took her mother's hand, and the two walked into the door together, through the hall, and went straight to her grandparents' bedroom, where the sitting and standing rooms were already crowded, Xiaoli didn't care about saying hello, so she went straight to the innermost bed, and whispered to her grandmother who was lying on the bed, with her eyes closed, and didn't move: "Grandma, grandma, I'm Xiaoli, I'm here, you always open your eyes and look at me." ”

Grandma slowly opened her eyes, she could no longer speak, she looked at Xiaoli, a difficult smile appeared on her face, and then raised her hand very laboriously and then put it down, and after a few breaths, she closed her eyes forever, passed away, and went to Elysium.

In an instant, a room full of people, except for my grandfather, all knelt on the ground and cried, tearing people's hearts and lungs with their cries, touching people's souls, which was reluctance and nostalgia for their relatives. After a long time, the eldest son Yu Xiuping persuaded everyone to stop crying with gentle words, this should be the time to deal with the aftermath, there are still many things waiting for everyone to do, so the crying gradually stopped, Yu Xiuping like a leader to tell who and whom to buy what, who to contact or notify relatives and friends, and finally instructed his two sons to take the old father to another room to rest, because he knew that the old father was the key protection object at this time, and he should not let him have another three long and two short, otherwise the matter would be even more difficult to do.

When the two cousins helped the old man to go out, Xiaoli greeted her grandfather, held his hand, and said very sadly: "Grandpa, your old man must hold on, take good care of your body, grandma is gone, you still have so many of our relatives, even if it is for us, you should live a healthy life." ”

Grandpa looked at Xiaoli and didn't say a word, and there were no tears in his eyes, just shook his head and sighed. At this moment, although my grandfather did not show a sad look on his face, the pain in his heart was far greater than that of all people.

After the task was arranged, there were only four people left in the house: Yu Xiangshun, Yu Xianglan, Lin Hong and Xiaoli. Lin Hong faced Xiaoli, who had not seen her for a long time, her face seemed to be ashamed, she wanted to say and stopped, and after pausing for a long time, she still said to Xiaoli: "Xiaoli, you're back, how are you at Dad's?" The last time it was that my aunt was not good, I shouldn't have said that about you, I was so sad that I lost my mind, and then I woke up and wanted to apologize to you, but you left again, today my aunt will say sorry to you in front of your mother and your second uncle, please don't hold a grudge against your aunt. ”

"Third aunt, where are you talking about, I fully understand your mood last time. It is true that because of my affairs, the third uncle was troubled, and there was an accident, I have always felt guilty in my heart, how can I hate you? Don't mention that matter again, grandma just left, you mention the third uncle again, isn't it worse in my heart, the third uncle is such a good person, he cares about me very much, I miss him, please don't say it again, otherwise I can't help but cry again. Xiaoli said sadly.

"Yes, yes, Lin Hong, don't mention the sad things in the past, it's already very sad here, if you mention those things again, not only Xiaoli, but our hearts can't stand it. Xiaoli, do you know that Hong Fusheng came back this time? Yu Xianglan changed the topic smoothly.

When Yu Xianglan heard this, she stared at Xiaoli in surprise, and then said in a very tough tone: "What, he's coming, what is he doing here?" I don't want to see him. ”

"Dad knows, he still tells me, if my grandmother dies, call him and tell him that he is coming to mourn," Xiaoli replied.

"He said that his grandmother was his former mother-in-law after all, and now that she is gone, she should express her heart." Xiaoli replied truthfully.

"Don't tell him, let alone come, I hate him to death, and I never want to meet him." Yu Xianglan insisted.

"Xianglan, this is your mistake, Hong Fusheng shows that he is still a loving and righteous person, he came to mourn his former mother-in-law, you have no reason not to let him come, besides, you have broken up with him for so many years, how much hatred and resentment should also disappear, not to mention that Xiaoli is now working with him again, that is, take 10,000 steps back and think, it is reasonable for him to condolence the dead relatives of his subordinates as the leader of Xiaoli's unit, if you don't let him come, wouldn't it seem that the rest of our family has a small belly." Lin Hong said reasonably.

"That's right, little sister, people sincerely come from so far to mourn your mother, you have no reason to refuse, if you don't want to see him, you can avoid it." Yu Xiangshun said.

Yu Xianglan had no reason to distinguish, so she had to acquiesce.

At this time, Yu Xiangping took a group of people into the house to set up incense and set up a funeral hall. Yu Xianglan's mother and daughter retreated to the well in the courtyard when they couldn't intervene, and the two stood there talking, Yu Xianglan asked her daughter: "How are you with Hong Fusheng, is his current daughter-in-law good to you?" ”

"Dad is very good to me, Auntie is good, and she cares about me in the past." Xiaoli simply described her work and life in the restaurant for more than a year to her mother. And took out her mobile phone to show her mother, telling her that her father had just bought it for me, Yu Xianglan looked at the mobile phone, listened to her daughter's story, and felt a lot more comforted.

"Mom, why didn't he come? I haven't seen Brother Xiaoqiang either. ”

Yu Xianglan understood who her daughter was talking about, and said to Xiaoli after being silent for a while: "He can't come, first, the shop can't do without people, and your grandparents also need someone to take care of them. The second is that he knows that you will definitely come back, and he has no face to see you, and he knows that you have gone to work with Hong Fusheng, and it is estimated that Hong Fusheng may come back to mourn your grandmother, so he is even more shameless to come here. Xiaoqiang still has to go to school tomorrow, so I didn't let him come over, and I will call him on the day of the burial. ”

"He did something wrong, he didn't dare to meet people, he hurt me so much, and ruined my happiness again, I really regret not reporting him in the first place."

"Forget it, what's the point of mentioning the past, he seems to have something wrong with his body recently, he always coughs, and the phlegm he coughs has blood in it, there may be some serious illness, I haven't had time to accompany him to the doctor, your grandmother died, I have to run this head first."

"He deserves it, and he can't die well, I hope God will take him away as soon as possible to relieve the hatred in my heart."

Yu Xianglan saw Xiaoli's indignant attitude, and knew that the incident had caused her too much and too serious harm, so she didn't interfere with Xiaoli's words and let her vent her anger.

It was getting late, and the faces in the small courtyard could no longer be seen clearly, so Yu Xianglan and Xiaoli went to the hall, sat on both sides of the dining table under the incense case and continued to chat about the situation of the two sides for more than a year, chatting and chatting, Lin Hong came over and asked Yu Xianglan to discuss things in the mourning hall, and Xiaoli went to another room to find a few cousins and sisters to talk about the matter after the farewell. The rest is the wake of the spirit, the talk of the talk, the rest of the rest.

Just after nine o'clock in the morning the next day, Hong Fusheng's car stopped at the gate of the Yu family's compound, and he and Wu Cuicui got out of the car from both sides at the same time, and then entered the door of the courtyard with their front and back feet. Yu Xiangshun saw them first, so he came out of the hall to greet them, very enthusiastically stretched out his hand and Hong Fusheng to shake together, and led them into the hall, Hong Fusheng entered the house and greeted the Yu sisters, and introduced Wu Cuicui to them, then followed Yu Xiangshun to the house where the body was parked and the mourning hall was placed, the couple knelt down and kowtowed three times to the old lady very sincerely, and then returned to the hall after burning some paper money, Yu Xiangping thanked him on behalf of the sister, and then all the guests and hosts sat down.

"This is a little bit of our heart, please take it from the eldest brother." As he spoke, Hong Fusheng took out a stack of banknotes in a white envelope from his jacket pocket and handed it to Yu Xiangping.

"We are already grateful for you to come, how can we still accept your gifts." Yu Xiangping said while prevaricating.

"If you don't accept it, you will look down on me, I am ashamed of the old man, ashamed of Xianglan and Jiali mother and daughter, this money can't make up for my mistakes, please look at my sincerity, don't back down." Hong Fusheng said with some excitement.

"Big brother, take it, they are sincere to condole, this is a little bit of their heart, and it will be disrespectful to push it back." Lin Hong said to Yu Xiangping.

Yu Xiangping had nothing more to say, took Hong Fusheng's envelope, and handed it to his daughter-in-law beside him.

At this time, Xiaoli handed over two cups of tea and gave them to Hong Fusheng and Wu Cuicui respectively.

Hong Fusheng held the teacup and asked Yu Xiangping: "How did the old lady do it, she is just over seventy, why did she die so early?" ”

"Hey......." After Yu Xiangping sighed, she told the old mother that her health had deteriorated after she fell that year, but she refused to seek medical treatment, and she and the old father hid their children together, and several of our sisters were not by their side.

"Hey, it's really sad to pity the parents of the world, who have worked hard all their lives, and in the end they didn't enjoy a day of happiness, and they took their lives." Hong Fusheng said.

"Yes, we are all ashamed of our parents' nurturing grace, and we have no chance to repay them, only may our mother's spirit in heaven rest in peace." Yu Xiangping said ashamedly.

Yu Xianglan never interjected, she looked at Hong Fusheng and Wu Cuicui, and there seemed to be an indescribable feeling in her heart.

Lin Hong woke up to something, she looked at Hong Fusheng and his wife, and then looked at Yu Xianglan's mother and daughter, and said to Yu Xiangping's brothers and two sisters-in-law: "Let's all go and accompany Dad, let them talk together."

The eldest and second couple both understood what Lin Hong meant, so they politely greeted Hong Fusheng and his wife and exited the hall.

They all left, leaving only Hong Fusheng and Yu Xianglan mother and daughter in the hall. At this time, the atmosphere suddenly became very awkward, four people, you look at me, I look at you, it seems that I haven't found the first word to speak, Hong Fusheng is a little restless and keeps rubbing his thighs with his hands, he wanted to greet Yu Xianglan several times, but he took into account the displeasure of his current wife Wu Cuicui next to him, so he wanted to stop talking, and only after a while did he pretend to be cold and coughed lightly.

Yu Xianglan seemed to understand something from the cough, she smiled and stretched out her hand to hold Wu Cuicui, and said to her very friendly: "Her aunt, I heard Xiaoli say that you are a good person, reasonable, and gave birth to a son for Fusheng, he is really blessed, I am really happy to find you such a kind, virtuous, and young and beautiful woman." You also care about and love Xiaoli, and I would like to express my heartfelt thanks to you. ”

A few affectionate words broke the deadlock, the air in the hall suddenly became very gentle, the three of them all looked at Yu Xianglan with praise, and showed a satisfied smile, Wu Cuicui was even more excited to hold Yu Xianglan's hand tightly, and said with heartfelt words: "Sister, I have the right to call you sister, I am so moved that you can think like this, I am simply flattered, since I have followed Fusheng, Jiali should also be my daughter, it is natural to care for and love her, you are also a good woman, It was Fusheng who didn't know how to cherish it back then, so there would be such an ending today, I really feel sorry for you. ”

"Yes, he was simply a demon king of the mixed world back then, he didn't return home all day long, he drank and gambled outside, and he also violently added violence to me, which broke my heart so much that I had to break up with him, but I didn't expect him to change his ways, and he looked like a dog, I heard that he worked outside and suffered a lot, I really can't imagine how he persevered, if I could foresee that he would change, I wouldn't leave him." Yu Xianglan said like a few treasures.

"He is a prodigal son, I picked up a cheap one for nothing, if you don't leave him, where will I have food to eat." Wu Cuicui's satisfied words caused the four of them to laugh.

Hong Fusheng saw the untably dialogue between these two women, who had been his own, and he didn't know whether he was happy or worried, in short, there was an indescribable taste. Suddenly, he thought of the change of the name of the beauty, so he suddenly asked Yu Xianglan: "Why did you change the name of the beauty?" ”

"Do you still need to ask? I hate you. Yu Xianglan also burst out.

"Yes, yes, I am hateful, I was too disagreeable at the beginning, it broke your heart, you and I divorced the right choice. But it touched and hit me very hard, and my parents hated iron and steel, so they simply cut off my financial resources, so that I could no longer play with those fox friends and dogs, so I had to ask a few peers in the village to work in the city, what dirty work, tiring work, hard work to do, I just wanted to make some money as soon as possible so that I could go back to your mother and daughter, I didn't expect to rely on the money of the part-time job to be enough, I was used to being lavish again, in addition to eating and drinking expenses There are only a few left every month, how can I have the face to come back to you, and then I heard that you remarried, I was completely discouraged, and I buried myself in dirty, tiring work. There are unforeseen circumstances, a chance, I have a snack bar with the help of a few friends, while changing to make snacks, never to the meeting, I have done everything, and a dry is four or five years, finally have a little surplus, this met a kind big boss, that is, Cuicui's cousin, under his guidance I expanded the snack department little by little, made a restaurant, and then through the cousin introduced to Cuicui, we got married, and after marriage with the help of Cuicui's family, we have today. Thinking about these unbearable memories, I am truly grateful to Cuicui and her family. Learn from the pain, I really regret what I did back then, not only sorry for you, but also damaged the beauty, you hate me right, I have nothing to say if I changed the surname to the beauty, but I am still used to calling her beauty, please don't care about this, I will be good to the beauty, and compensate her little by little for her father's love. Hong Fusheng said with deep guilt.

"The past is in the past, it is impossible to redeem it, we all have to cherish the present, since Cuicui has helped you so much, she also gave birth to a son for you, and continued the incense of your Hong family, I am not as good as her, she is a great hero of your Hong family, you have to love and take care of her wholeheartedly. Xiaoli is now by your side, you have to protect her sincerely, as a father you owe her too much, you can't compensate for it. Yu Xianglan said sincerely.

"Dad, Mom, you are all good people, your closest relatives, Dad and Mom are inseparable, now you have all reformed a family, let the past pass, we all have to cherish the present, and live well. Because of this, I figured it out, to tell you the truth, I went to Yanziji Park this morning, and when I saw the river flowing below, I really had the idea of jumping down and forgetting it, and I thought of you who loved me and loved me, so I dispelled the idea of death. Why do you want to die? That's the behavior of the weak, I want to be a strong man, enjoy life to the fullest, there is a good and kind man willing to marry me, I will marry him, if not, I will live alone, the world is beautiful, I haven't enjoyed enough, it is too worthless to end my life, and I still leave people with a laughing stock, lighter than a feather, am I not a fool? Xiaoli said affectionately.

"Okay, good, I'm really happy that Belle can think like this, I'm also a woman, and I've encountered a big blow, and I've had soft thoughts like you, but it's not worth thinking about it, I can get through any difficulties, and now I'm not very happy and happy, I believe you will also be happy." Wu Cuicui said emotionally.

"Yes, yes, you're absolutely right." Hong Fusheng and Yu Xianglan praised in unison.

Their conversation never mentioned Chen Hegen, so why didn't they mention it? They all know it.

"It's not too early, we should rush back, say hello to the old man, and we won't bother him." Hong Fusheng looked at the clock and said.

"I'll tell you, have you eaten here before you go?" Yu Xianglan stayed.

"No, the restaurant has been busy lately, and I have to rush back before lunch." Hong Fusheng said.

"Okay, I'll send you." Yu Xianglan said. After finishing speaking, the four of them stood up at the same time, Hong Fusheng and Yu Xiangping greeted each other, Yu Xianglan took this opportunity to pull Wu Cuicui and said: "Xiaoli is there for you, please care more about her and take care of her, you must also know about her, I hope you will enlighten her more, and I hope you will pay more attention to her personal problems." ”

"Don't worry, sister, if I am my own child, what I should think of for her must be thought of for her, and you should take care of yourself." Wu Cuicui said.

Talking and talking, the two Yu Xiuping brothers, Lin Hong and the whole family came to see Hong Fusheng and his wife, they walked to the car parked at the door while talking, Hong Fusheng asked Xiaoli: "Jiali, when will you go back, do you want me to drive to pick you up again?" ”

"No need, Dad, grandma will be buried tomorrow, I'll rush back to the restaurant when it's over, I know I've been very busy lately, Ding Meiyun is too hard to be alone, I'll go back as soon as possible." Xiaoli replied.

"That's good, that's good, you must be safe on the way back." Hong Fusheng said.

"Don't worry, dad and auntie, we'll see you in the restaurant." Xiaoli said.

"Goodbye, goodbye, and have a nice trip." The whole family waved goodbye to Hong Fusheng and his wife.

"Goodbye, goodbye, big guy, take care." After greeting everyone, Hong Fusheng and his wife got into a car and sped away towards the provincial capital.

The next morning, after Xiaoli attended her grandmother's funeral, and after having lunch with the whole family, she said goodbye to everyone one by one, and finally said goodbye to her mother Yu Xianglan and younger brother Xiaoqiang reluctantly said goodbye and embarked on the road back to the provincial capital Fuxing Restaurant.