Chapter 12: The Meaning of Scars

Extremely embarrassed. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

This is the only thought in Su Zhen's mind, she really can't understand why Shen Xi turned over the past with her, those pasts, and what he said, not to mention that he didn't want to think of her, she was the same, those sweets and bitters were all pressed by her in the corner of memory, if she hadn't met him again, no one would have touched this corner of her at all.

Friends who have a good relationship with Su Zhen know where Su Zhen's bottom line is, what can be joked about and what can't, except for Cheng Lan sometimes deliberately making jokes, no one has really mentioned her and Shen Xi in the past few years, and today's situation is something she never thought of.

When she drove away from the school, the mobile phone that had been quiet rang, Su Zhen heard that it was her mother's exclusive ringtone, and hesitated for a moment without answering, she didn't want to go home at all now, so she turned around and went to the house she rented.

For the convenience of work, Su Zhen usually lives in a rented house, and will go back to accompany her mother on holidays, but at this moment, she sat on the sofa with her knees crossed, glanced at the mobile phone with a black screen, and felt relieved.

Outside the window has gradually dimmed, the yellowed street lamp light penetrates into the house, I don't want to turn on the lights, I don't want to charge my phone, I don't want to move, Su Zhen doesn't want to do anything now, I just want to quietly shrink myself into a ball, so that I can barely suppress the intricate thoughts in my heart.

"Bang bang", a knock on the door sounded, and Gu Feiran's voice came into Su Zhen's ears through the door panel.

"Zhenzhen, open the door! I know you're in there! Gu Feiran said, there was a slight gasp and eagerness in her tone, Su Zhen hugged her head and smiled bitterly silently, it seemed that her mother couldn't contact her, so she went to trouble Gu Feiran again.

Gu Feiran was still knocking on the door, as if he didn't plan to leave easily, Su Zhen was worried that it would affect the neighbors, so after thinking about it, he got up and opened the door.

When the door opened, Gu Feiran's hand still maintained the movement of knocking on the door, and after seeing her, he smiled, "Zhenzhen, auntie, she ・・・・・・"

"Come in first!" Su Zhen turned sideways and moved out of the way, letting Gu Feiran enter, then closed the door and turned back.

"Auntie couldn't contact you, so she called me!" Gu Feiran sat down on the sofa, saw that her face was not very good, and asked with concern, "Is there something wrong with you?" ”

Su Zhen shrank himself up again, buried his head in his lap, and replied sullenly: "It's nothing!" ”

Gu Feiran looked at her like this, fragile like a wounded little animal, curled up and **** the wound alone, his heart ached slightly, walked over and sat down beside her, and said in a more relaxed tone: "Zhenzhen, if there is anything you don't want to tell your aunt, you can tell my brother, and my brother will help you!" ”

"Brother, I don't want to talk now, you let me stay alone for a while, okay?" Still a muffled answer.

Gu Feiran's hand on her shoulder stiffened for a moment, and the words he wanted to say quietly swallowed back at this moment, he thought he probably knew what the reason was.

Speaking of which, since he Gu Feiran met Su Zhen, he rarely saw her so depressed, the last time was after she graduated from high school, at that time, because of the internship in his senior year, he had more time, and when he found that she was not in a good mood, he asked for leave to accompany her for a few days, and it was also in those days that he found that Su Zhen was different from the happy girl in his memory.

On the first day, when he found her at the bar near the Music Square, she had already contributed all the money she had to the bar, she was holding a wine glass and half-leaning on the bar, next to a strange man, who was bowing his head to say something to her, he strode forward and pulled her into his arms, the man seemed to want to say something, after being stared at by his angry eyes for a moment, he suddenly retreated, he stopped lingering, and led her out of the bar.

Drinking like this, it is impossible for him to send her home, Su Zhen has always been a well-behaved and sensible image in the eyes of his aunt, going back like this, she must have suffered, thinking about it, he can only take her back to his apartment, and in the next few days, Su Zhen is very well-behaved, he doesn't go anywhere, he hides in his apartment and drinks, doesn't say anything, doesn't do anything, only when the wine is finished, he will go out to buy it without saying a word, and then continue to repeat the previous state.

Fortunately, he had already said hello to his aunt, saying that Su Zhen had helped him catch up with some documents, but he also hid it, but seeing Su Zhen like this every day, he had no way at all, he persuaded it, it didn't work, he stopped it, it didn't work, until Su Zhen drank the bottle of red wine with the highest degree in his wine cabinet, he didn't know the reason why Su Zhen would be like this.

Su Zhen is very good at drinking, when he is drunk, he quietly shrinks himself up, and falls asleep, where has he seen it, saying that people who are used to shrinking themselves up to sleep are often insecure people in their hearts, he is a little distressed and holds her in his arms, at first she was very well-behaved, but after a while she began to cry lowly, the little girl leaning on his arms closed her eyes, but tears couldn't stop flowing down her cheeks, he panicked, I don't know where she was uncomfortable.

Su Zhen slurred and said to him: "Brother, I feel so sad in my heart! He doesn't understand me! ”

It was like a hammer smashed into his heart, if he didn't know why she was sad at this time, then he would be too stupid, he lightened his tone, and little by little removed the little girl's disguise to cover her scars, and then knew Shen Xi's existence.

He listened to the little girl talking about things with Shen Xi, and the tears in the corners of his eyes couldn't be wiped away, and the scars that she pressed in his heart were all revealed, and he knew that Su Zhen was not as happy as he had always known, but more to keep his aunt from worrying, in fact, when he thought about it, he understood that Su Zhen was sensible when she was a child, and this is indeed what she would do.

"Zhenzhen, is it because of Shen Xi?" Gu Feiran sighed, and used a little force to hold the hand on her shoulder, "Didn't you say that you shouldn't be sad for him anymore?" ”

Su Zhen raised his head and looked at him, his eyes were full of exhaustion, "Brother, please, let me stay alone for a while!" ”

Gu Feiran refused, held her shoulders with both hands, stared at her, and said: "Zhenzhen, people who don't understand you are not worthy of your sadness for him, it has been so many years, what kind of injury should be healed, you shouldn't continue to hold the wound and be sad, brother accompany you, we will heal the injury, okay?" ”

Su Zhen gently pushed him away, closed his eyes and fell on the sofa, let out a long breath, and said in a dumb voice: "Brother, is it shameful for people to have scars?" ”

Gu Feiran didn't step forward again, just sat down and replied to her: "No, everyone will have big and small scars when they grow up, and this is not shameful. ”

When Su Zhen heard this, he said for a long time: "Since it is not shameful, I beg you to stop tearing my scars into wounds, okay?" Why are you all trying to erase the past over and over again in front of that person in front of me recently, since the scar exists, it won't go away, I admit its existence, but I can't stand it hurting again! ”

Gu Feiran sat and couldn't answer for a while, for a long time, until he maintained the same posture and stiffened his back, he made up his mind and said: "Okay, Zhenzhen, don't worry, Auntie, I will say that she won't look for you, there will be a day off tomorrow, you take care of yourself, I'll go first!" ”