That day I sent the north to go to the palace to pick up some old things of Nian'er, now she is bored in Lan Tingxuan all day long, some of the neon clothes and feather clothes in the old days of her favorite objects put around to enjoy and play to pass the time, unexpectedly, the north to bring back a manuscript of Nian'er in the past, delicate but uninhibited handwriting, which is written with her homemade brush, I can't help but turn down, read carefully, the poems and articles in it make me amazed by her talent, it seems to be such a heartless person, it turns out that her feelings will be so delicate, There are also some small stories in it, and some short dialogues that make people laugh, she can always live so wonderfully, but the last ones, which don't seem like poems, don't look like stories, and then I didn't think until I saw the familiar sentence "drunk in the king's arms" that I remembered that at the father's birthday banquet, the song that Nian'er sang, if so, then the next few are the words of the song? Some are happy, some are resentful, some are infatuated, and they are even more hot and straightforward, these are all made by her? Is this all her heartfelt feelings? To whom? I was vaguely scared, but I still turned the pages one by one.

"Nothing else but to say sorry

I'm sorry I really love you

It doesn't matter what you think, what you say

Nor will it change my decision... ”

The last song is written like this, but there is a messy note at the end, "Second brother, I'm sorry I couldn't sing it to you in person." ”

At this moment, after reading this sentence, my heart is beating so badly, as if it wants to fly out of my chest, the familiar handwriting written "I'm sorry, I really love you", and the sentence "Second brother, I'm sorry, I know it's wrong." "It's all overlapping in my mind at the moment, and Nian'er loves me?! I hurried to Lan Tingxuan, but when I arrived at the door, I was a little hesitant, I still couldn't believe that happiness would come so suddenly, I was afraid that this time my heart floating in the clouds would also make Nian'er ruthlessly thrown to the bottom again, I paced back and forth outside the door, I kept telling myself in my heart, "Be calm, calm down, it doesn't matter if she loves me or not, it doesn't make any difference, it won't affect my love for her, I've decided that I won't let go, right?" "But in spite of this, I was still restless, and it was the first time I had grown up to endure such a torment, and it was very uncomfortable in my heart, and this torment was far more unbearable than physical.

When I saw Nian'er again, my heart was a lot calmer, and I didn't want to ask questions about whether she loved me or not, I think this was enough, it was really good to be by her side like this, I watched her happily eat her favorite food on weekdays, and watched her sometimes happy and sometimes aggrieved because of the tone of my words, so she always reminded me of my childhood Nian'er, so it's good, I don't like her silent appearance.

"Second brother, I never thought of marrying Xiao Fan, if I can't escape smoothly, even if I die, I won't succumb." She said nonchalantly, but I could still see a hint of nervousness between her eyebrows.

I was stunned for a moment because of her sudden inappropriate words, "I don't care about that, I just want your people to be by my side, even if I don't even have a heart, I don't care." ”

What I'm saying is the truth, there are all kinds of rumors about her inside and outside the palace, I don't care, but I know that I care more about her, as long as she is here, I can forgive everything she has done in the past few years, even if she really has something with Xiao Fan, I can accept it.

Hearing me say this, she was a little proud and a little dissatisfied, but she didn't have any look of resistance, and turned to stop continuing the topic, "Are the father and the third brother okay?" Why didn't they come to see me? She asked at me.

Recently, my father and third brother almost demolished my imperial study, but I didn't allow them to see Nian'er again, I admit that I have my own selfishness, from now on Nian'er can only belong to me alone, even they, can't share Nian'er a penny, on the other hand, this is also a punishment for them, I didn't protect Nian'er at the beginning, and now I don't have the qualifications to be good to her.

But since Nian'er asked about their current situation, I don't mind telling her what I think.

"I also tried to let you go and give you freedom, and handed you over to them, but they couldn't guarantee your thoughtfulness, you made such a mess, now I think about it, only by putting you by my side can I feel at ease, so in the future, no matter who it is, there is no need to see you, and there is no right to be good to you, from now on you don't need their good, as long as mine is enough, whether you want to be willing or not, Nian'er, for you, I will not let go again in this life."

"But what if the person in my heart isn't you? Then you will hold on to it. There was a playful smile on her lips.

"You have me in your heart." He whispered in my ear, "Even if I didn't, I'd still hold on." ”

Looking at her like this, the excitement I had tried to suppress before became irrepressible, and I always wanted more for Nian'er.

"Nian'er, I want to hear you sing." I continued to whisper in her ear, but at the moment my heart was tense.

"What song?"

"I don't want to say I'm sorry for anything else, there seems to be a sentence that I want to hear you sing this."

"How do you know?" She was amazed at me knowing such words, but at the moment I was just staring at her for a moment, so nervous that I forgot to breathe.

"There's a book of songs in the neon clothes and feathers outside the palace, I think, it should be written for me, right?" At the moment, I was so nervous that my hands were covered with a thin layer of sweat.

"Isn't it?" Nian'er's face was a little embarrassed.

"Isn't it? Are you sure not? "Seeing her like this, I suddenly wasn't so nervous, perhaps, this time I finally got it right.

When I heard the sentence I love you sing from her mouth, the excitement in my heart, my joy, have never been experienced, because of her, I have experienced so much, sad and anxious, happy and happy, all because of her, at this moment, I can finally really have her, whether it is body, or mind, I have waited too long for this moment, and now I don't want to wait any longer, I can't wait for a moment.

These days, are the best days I have never experienced, every day I can see her smiling face, or shame and anger, or treacherous and funny, if Nian'er's eyes can recover sooner, let me see her smart eyes again, that would be better, I said, for her, I will never let go, and I will never be satisfied, but recently the matter of sending troops to Zhaoming has been put on the agenda, a large number of soldiers are in the process of training, and the affairs of the government are getting busier, and there are not a few things that need me to think about and plan, Although I have been thinking about Nian'er these days, I have been too busy to take time to see her, and I am completely relieved of her, she is not the kind of weak woman who needs to be accompanied and taken care of by me at all times, she always has a way to make herself happy.