"Sister Pearl, Nian'er wants to hug, hug. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info" I opened my arms and asked in a childish voice, in fact, I don't like the tone of my current speech, according to my actual preference, this sentence should be expressed as "Sister Pearl, you hold me." "But I'm now a two-year-old child, after careful consideration, I think I still can't express as I like, after a long period of thinking and research, I have summed up a set of expressions that show my innocence, that is, to use overlapping words in sentences as much as possible, such as hugging, kissing, full, as much as possible to add your own name to the sentence, such as Nian'er to hug, Nian'er to kiss, Nian'er is full, over time, this initial expression that made me difficult to say is now I have been able to skillfully control, And I have become accustomed to this kind of expression, so that for a long time after that, I used this meaty way to communicate without knowing it.

"Okay, Aunt Pearl." Then, I sat in the arms of the pearl, in the face of this seventeen or eighteen-year-old pearl, I really can't accept the title of "aunt", so I insisted on calling her sister pearl, although she has also been helpless to correct many times, but after all, I can't change my concept, in fact, many times looking at my young and beautiful mother, I will also have the urge to call her sister. In the eyes of my mother, I am undoubtedly a special child, other children will always cry in the middle of the night, but I won't, other children are always eating and sleepy, but I won't, I will always fall asleep quietly at night, but during the day I will always be noisy to go out to play, but the range of activities I can be limited after all, so far I have not stepped out of Lan Tingxuan half a step.

"Huahua, Nian'er, Huahua." I shouted as I pointed to the peony flowers blooming in the yard.

"Okay, then the little lady is waiting for my aunt here, and my aunt will go pick flowers for the little lady, okay?" Pearl patiently soothed me. "Yes." I nodded vigorously, earnestly reassuring. So Pearl carefully lowered me from her bosom and walked into the depths of the garden to pick the flowers I had just pointed to. I stood boredly and looked at the back of the pearl for a while, and then walked towards the gate, what kind of world is outside Lantingxuan? Is this royal palace also a gorgeous cage? What kind of country is this Golden Flower Dynasty? Endless curiosity drove me to speed up my pace, a distance of a few tens of meters was not a few steps that could be reached by me as young as I was now, and I finally couldn't stand this small speed of movement, and raised my legs and ran towards the door. I climbed over the high threshold of the gate with my hands and feet, and looked up to see a road that stretched on both sides, and the high wall on the opposite side, and sure enough, the outside of the wall was still a wall, and I simply sat on the threshold, looking at the high wall opposite and fell into deep thought.

"Little Miss, you can't run around alone." Pearl came to my side, squatted down and handed me the flowers he had just picked, and tried to pick me up, but I struggled to refuse Pearl's embrace, patted the threshold next to me and said, "Stool, sit, sit, sit." Then he looked up and continued to look at the sky beyond the high walls. I don't know what I'm thinking at this time, but looking at the sky outside the high wall makes me feel very peaceful, especially peaceful, and I admit that maybe the loneliness on my face at this time should not be what a child should have, so that when I turned my head to look at Pearl, I found that she was looking at me with complicated eyes.

I don't know if the pearl told my mother about the melancholy incident of looking out of the high wall, at the dinner table, my mother touched my head lovingly, and muttered to me with tears in her eyes: "Nian'er, my mother is sorry for you, Nian'er, woo. ”

"Mother doesn't cry, Huahua, mother hugs." I took out the pearl from my arms and picked the flower that had already withered, handed it to my mother, and the child also got into her arms, which may be the only comfort I can give her.

After dinner, my mother played with me as usual and then coaxed me to sleep, I lay on the bed, imagining the sad look when my mother looked at my sleeping face, for a while I was sleepy, there is no doubt that my mother treated me very well, Gao Mama, Pearl too, the relationship between the three of them has completely exceeded the feelings of master and servant, more often like relatives to take care of each other, mutual care, I should feel happy and happy to live in such a bad environment, but most of the time, my heart is always sad and lingering, Even when my mother looked at me affectionately and lovingly, even when she whispered to me as a child, even when she smiled and coaxed me to sleep... At any time, that sorrow may climb into my heart, I am sad that the mature soul in this young body can always see the sorrow in the eyes of my mother, I am sad that I don't know if my mother's loving gaze is born because of me or just because I can see the shadow of my father in my body, I am sad that this little courtyard is cold and deserted, but it traps everything in me... In such a time and space, I don't know where my future road will lead, I also try to comfort myself, both come, then safe, there must be a road before the car to the mountain, why should I be too worried, but thinking that I may have to be trapped in this small courtyard for a long time in the future, I can't help but be irritable, I can't see my mother and they treat me well, but I still can't kiss her and love her like I did in my previous life, I have too many confusions and doubts in my heart, too many worries make me can't let go of everything and integrate into the life hereMore often than not, I was like a bystander, silently watching my mother's joy and sorrow.

Just as I was thinking to myself, I only heard my mother whisper, "Mama Gao, I want to see Yaolin." ”

"Miss, the slave understands." With that, Mama Gao sighed and walked out of the room.

I listened carefully to the movement in the house, until my mother and mother went to bed, and nothing happened, but I still felt that the person named Yaolin that my mother would meet sooner or later would have something to do with me.

The next day, I have been paying more attention to my mother's words last night, until after lunch, my mother did not coax me to take a nap early as usual, I know, my mother is going to see that Yaolin, I obediently lay on the bed and pretended to be asleep, and then I heard my mother leave the inner room to go to the front hall, after a while, there was a sound of footsteps in the front hall, I sat up from the bed, straightened my ears and carefully distinguished, and then I clearly heard the voice of my mother and their bow to the emperor, is this named Yaolin is the Golden Flower Emperor? My father? After bowing, the content of their conversation was almost inaudible, I carefully got up and got out of bed and came to the door, only a beaded curtain was separated, I heard their conversation intermittently, only to hear my mother say, "I hope the emperor will be fulfilled." Then there was the sound of a teacup falling to the ground, and I was so frightened by the sound that I let out an exclamation.