CH.23 Confession of a Bastard
A year ago, Chestnut asked me, am I the person you love the most in this world? I didn't hesitate and answered yes, but you left;
A month ago, Chestnut asked me again, am I the person you love the most in this world? I hesitated and didn't answer, but you came anyway. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info
Do people know to cherish after they lose? Chestnut yes, so do I.
It is said that when you fall in love with two people at the same time, choose the second person. Because if you love someone enough, you won't fall in love with anyone else. But when Chestnut shed tears in front of me, I forgot that there was another person with me, and I even left her.
Every day after leaving her, I missed her more and more. I couldn't control myself when I thought about it, and I was floating outside like a wandering ghost. has already taken off the scarf, but I can't help but search for news.
It was raining that day, and she didn't bring an umbrella. She is always out of tune, lost, can't take care of herself, and always holds her head and shouts "Oh, it's really unlucky" when things come to an end, how can there be such a stupid person?
She said people at the new company said she was withdrawn. I suddenly felt very distressed, how could such a lively and lovely little girl be withdrawn? Is she still feeling sorry for this relationship in her heart? Is it really still uncomfortable? But...... So why bother!
I'm going on a business trip to Qingdao. I hope that I can use this to change her mood, I believe that everything will pass, and she will start her life again, with Xiao Wei taking care of me, I am very relieved.
I also know that Ruan Xiaoyu wants to give her a blind date, Ruan Xiaoyu has said it many times in the scarf, and praised the blind date to the sky, I know that Ruan Xiaoyu deliberately showed it to me and wanted to be angry with me, but I am happy that she has such a good sister.
I knew she had a cold and I was in a hurry. She is too thin and weak, her physique is not good, and she gets dizzy when she gets sick, but there is nothing I can do, and the chestnuts also need me, and the chestnuts also need to be taken care of.
But I missed her so much that I saw her scarf, and the ghost sent her to where she went. When I saw that the second thing was scolded by a stupid pig and she didn't know that the dog was bloody, her lungs exploded! I couldn't help but go up and quarrel with that stupid pig! It's the first time I've ever had a public fight in my age, and I never thought I'd be like this before. It's like never thinking that one day I'll be sitting on the road and looking at the scenery.
If it hadn't been for the encounter that day, I really didn't know how much damage I had brought her. Looking at her heart-rending crying, the rain hit her face, mixed with tears falling down, she looked very embarrassed, but she didn't know, it was me who was even more embarrassed. I've never felt this frustration, I feel so ugly, I want to do something for her, but I can't do anything! At that moment, I hated myself so much!
I am with her because I love her, not because she is like a chestnut. But, then again, why is she so similar to a chestnut? Why did I give up on Chestnut when she came back? Is it really because she is similar to Chestnut that I love her?
Is she really just a substitute? I don't know......
Chestnut has been in a bad mood lately and has started arguing with me, always saying that I don't love her as much as I used to. Time is changing, and people's hearts are also changing. After all, we have broken up for more than a year, and in this year, everyone has changed a lot, you have become more mature, and I have become more realistic. used to be with you, not afraid of heaven and earth, even if he was caught by the dormitory manager, there was a danger of reporting criticism, or going over the wall dating regardless of it; But now, if you ask me to take leave to hang out with you, I don't want to do it anymore, the leave process is cumbersome and my salary will be deducted, and it's the same for weekends and holidays to play.
It's not that I don't love you as much as I used to, but that the mentality of love is different at different stages. When I was young, I was ignorant, thinking that love was a lifetime, but after all, I couldn't resist the cruelty of reality. We have been in love together vigorously for two years, and have done what is considered the greatest thing in this life, the thrilling that we will not experience again in this life, and the wanton arrogance that we will not have in this life, the youth at that time was young, beautiful, flamboyant and pure, but what? You say, "There seems to be no love between the two of us", and you let go and give up all our ...... so easily
Leaving me alone, in the memory of my youth, walking with difficulty.
Now you are back, come back without warning, you said that you are not having a good time, you can't find love, only when you see me, you think it's love, I feel sorry for you, and I also think of our love that was sealed in the dust, you opened the seal, and I love again.
For this reason, I do not hesitate to hurt another kind girl, hold hands with you again, and start love again. But why do you think I don't love you? I love you with all my might, but I used to be too simple, and now my mentality is no longer pure.
As for the other person who can't be forgotten, I believe that time can erase everything.