Chapter 56: Grief
P.S1: Oh, I'm a little teary-eyed when I write it, isn't it a little too sensational? By the way, today's three watches, today's three watches, today's three watches! Important things are said three times, and the third is made up. The next chapter of the pen %fun %Pavilion www.biquge.info will officially end this volume.,Alas,Writing here,I'm a little regretful.,Why didn't you accept Miyamoto Rei and Poison Island Tsuneko? It's a shame that the protagonist can't be with such a great girl as they are.
P.S2: But I can't help it, in this chapter, the function of the system has been faintly revealed. To be honest, if you don't care about the plot behind, it's okay to accept the heroine directly. However, in this book, the source and function of the system are very important, and if it is forced, the plot will collapse all the way in the future.
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"Ye Jun, are you leaving here soon?" Rei Miyamoto's voice was low.
"......." Ye Zhu was silent for a while, "You think too much, I won't leave." ”
Miyamoto Li's hand caressed his back, soft and warm to the touch, "Don't hide it anymore, I already know." She shook her head, "No, to be precise, I should have known about it for a long time - Ye Jun, you will leave here one day." ”
“......”
"It should have been an intuition at first, when I looked at Ye Jun and you, I always had a feeling that I was far away from you. Even though you're right next to me, I still feel like I can't reach you, as if there's another world between us......"
Ye Zhu's body shook slightly.
Miyamoto Rei didn't notice this, and she continued, "What finally convinced me of my intuition was that Ye Jun, these days, you have been gradually transferring your power to my father...... I guess I'm right, although I'm not involved in the management of the Aurora base, I still know that you have been deliberately hiding yourself behind the scenes. If it weren't for the battle two months ago, I'm afraid that most of the people in the Dawning Base would not have known about your existence now. ”
"Uncle Miyamoto, he ......," Ye Zhu whispered.
Miyamoto Li interrupted him, "No, Dad, he didn't tell me anything, but I felt it myself...... Ye Jun, I'm not stupid, and I'm a woman, how can I not see that the two closest men around me are trying to hide from me? ”
"When did you notice that?"
Miyamoto said, "I think it was two or three months ago—because my father, he's been very decadent since my mother died, as if he wasn't interested in anything, but just two or three months ago, he changed, and I thought he was out of pain." It wasn't until I saw him crying at a picture of his mother that I realized that he had never come out at all, and since that day on, he has been living in the shadow of his mother's death to protect him, and he can't get out. ”
"Ye Jun, the reason why Dad was able to hold up the pain and act like he was okay in front of me should be because you told him something, right? For example—"
Miyamoto Li paused, "You'll leave here one day, and in order to continue to protect me and the others, you'll need him to take over your mission and manage this Dawning Base." Only then will he behave normally, even if he is disguised, because he wants to protect me...... Originally, Sister Satoka was also a good object, but she was injured two months ago and has not woken up yet. So you have to gradually transfer your power to my father, so that he can continue to protect us after you leave, right? ”
"......" Ye Zhu sighed lightly. It's all right.
Miyamoto Li smiled, but her laughter was full of sadness, "I don't know where you are going, Ye Jun, but it must be a very distant place, otherwise you wouldn't have thought about these things in advance, I'm afraid that you won't come back." ”
"Since you already know about these things, why don't you tell me?" Ye Zhu asked.
"That's because—I wish you could say it to me...... I've always wanted you to be honest with me one day, so no matter what I know or what I know, I'm going to keep it from saying it, and I'm not going to go to you, because I don't want you to think I'm persecuting you. ”
Miyamoto Li's hands clenched, "But Ye Jun, you really don't want to say anything......"
“......”
"I thought that as long as I stayed by your side, I would one day gain your trust, and then you would gradually tell me what you were going to hide—am I the only one who thinks so? It's been so long, you really don't say anything......"
Rei Miyamoto's voice began to choke.
"......" Ye Zhu frowned tightly, his face a little distorted.
His hands clenched, his nails digging into his palms, crimson blood dripping down the ground.
Rei Miyamoto was crying, he knew, but he couldn't say anything.
He's not a tight-mouthed person, really, and he doesn't intend to hide it from anyone. If he could, he also wanted to tell all the messy things about what system, what two-dimensional world, and what world he had experienced in one go, and confide in the things he had suppressed in his heart for the past year to this girl who was crying behind his back.
But—can't really say anything......
Whether it's the system or the world's experience, these words are all 'forbidden words'.
As long as he had the slightest idea of telling the truth, confiding in someone about himself as a traverser, all his words would be silenced, and even if he tried his best, he could not say anything, as if there was some kind of will in the dark that was holding him back—
He knew about it as early as the night when he was about to leave Japan for a foreign dojo.
That night, Tsuiko cried and confessed to him, saying that he wanted to stay, wanted to live with him, didn't want to leave here, and said why he was so painful but still refused to tell her all the things he had hidden in his heart?
He wanted to tell Tsumiko everything, and he knew that Tsukiko would believe these things.
However, when he was about to say everything, he found that he was speechless, and even though he roared in his heart, he was still standing in front of Yanzi with a cold face and remained silent. And his demeanor also completely broke his heart.
Until the end, he couldn't say anything, he could only watch as the son left-
What a wreck, really......
There's nothing more heartwarming than watching a girl cry in front of her, but there's nothing she can do.
"But what can I do?"
I can't say it, and I can't tell others everything, so I can only continue to pretend to be deaf and dumb.
Or is it as simple as simply leaving these people behind, living with them until the end of the world experience, and then directly breaking away and returning to the real world?
"No......"
He couldn't do that. Because he didn't know if he would be able to come back after he left here; Or like some web novels, it directly brings the heroine to the real world. But can this kind of thing really be done?
If he could, how could he not even try to tell the truth to others?
If he left here and never came back, wouldn't that make them wait for someone who would never come back? Rather than that, it's better to be ruthless from the beginning.
It would be nice to ask Alice, but before the world experience, she had already said that she couldn't enter at will, and I was afraid that she would have to pay what price she would have to pay if she wanted to enter this world. What's more, Ye Zhu knows that Alice's condition is not much better, and she, who has been deprived of all memories and emotions, may not know these things......
"Before leaving, I begged me to take good care of you. I promised her. Miyamoto Rei didn't seem to cry anymore, "But I still couldn't do it after all, I thought that as long as I continued to wait, I would definitely be able to exchange your sincerity." But I was wrong, Ye Jun, I really didn't say anything. ”
"I'm ......" Ye Zhu struggled.
Miyamoto Li suddenly smiled, "Ye Jun, it's okay, I know, you are not the kind of person who will watch us suffer, but be indifferent." You should have something to worry about, so that you can't explain anything to us. I know, I know it, and they both know it, so I'm not going to ask you for anything more-"
She grabbed Ye Zhu's shoulder, turned him around slowly, looked into his eyes, and said word by word, "Ye Jun, you're going to kill 'Jin' tomorrow, right?" ”
"Yes."
"After killing it, you're supposed to get out of here, right?"
"Yes."
"Tomorrow, please take me with you—"
Ye Zhu was stunned for a moment, and then he was about to refuse.
Rei Miyamoto's hand was on his lips, and it was clear that he could not refuse.
"Take me with you, I won't trouble you, and I won't stop you from leaving-"
She smiled slightly, her smile sad and transparent, like a clear stream that shines through the cold in winter. Looking at her, Ye Zhu felt that his heart was slammed by a hand, and at this moment he clearly felt the grief on this girl's body, like a gushing out, cold water, overwhelmingly surging and completely engulfing him.
"I know it's dangerous, but how can I not be at the end and hug the man I love so much?"