The sound of twisting the key tugged at Guan Yunyun's nerves. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

She regretted it, but the door was open.

The dark room was quiet, she was reaching out to press the top light switch closest to the door, the light suddenly appeared in the gap in the bedroom, and in the blink of an eye, Xu Yunfeng opened the bedroom door and stood in front of her.

"I'm back." Xu Yunfeng walked over to her with a casual hoarse tone, his face was backlit, and he couldn't see his expression clearly: "If you're tired, go take a shower and rest, it's not too early." ”

She froze, completely unable to move, her mind blank.

So, he walked over and closed the slightly open door, and then put his hands around her shoulders.

The moment his arm touched hers, she woke up as if she had been electrocuted, and reflexively avoided it.

This time, the glimmer of light from the bedroom allowed her to see his furrowed brows. Still, she had to tell him, "I...... I'm here to pay you back......"

Before the words fell, he had already hugged her into his arms, blocking her next words with a tight hug.

"Don't say it, I don't want to know." He said.

Ji Wei was still crying, while Qin Hai continued his silence.

When the choked voice gradually weakened, Qin Hai finally asked on the other end of the phone, "What's wrong?" ”

"My company has disbanded, and I have completely failed......" Ji Wei tried to calm her tone, but tears still kept flowing outward, metabolizing all those who did not understand, were unwilling, unconvinced, and uncalm. She began to tell the story, starting with the difficulties of the project and continuing with Kevin's phone call a few hours earlier. She gushed endlessly for no idea how long, Qin Hai listened silently, and it wasn't until two hours later that she had said everything that should have been said that he sighed.

"Do you believe in your fate?" With a crying voice, Ji Wei asked him.

"I don't believe it." Qin Hai replied softly.

"I believe it. It's all fate, it's fateful failure, no matter how hard you try, it's useless......"

"I always thought you were an atheist, a bit of a surprise." Qin Hai took over, "Religion is just the sustenance of people's hearts, make up for what you lack in your heart, don't drill this bull's horn when you are weak." ”

Perhaps thinking he was right, she didn't answer.

So, Qin Hai then asked, "After crying, is it much better?" ”

"Much better." Ji Wei felt that her head was empty, but her mood was indeed a lot calmer.

"That's good, it sounds like there's no turning back from the current situation, so you better look forward." He suggested in a slow tone: "The most important thing for you at the moment is the next step, if you are too tired, you can rest for a while......

"I can't rest, and when I first rest, I get cranky." Just finished crying, her voice was still hoarse, but Ji Wei's tone began to return to a slightly higher state.

"Then get a good job, since you want to work so much." Seeing that she was so energetic, Qin Hai replied.

"Good job ......" Thinking of this, Ji Wei began to have a headache again: "There is no shortage of jobs on the market now, I just want a 'good job'...... That's really going to be a bit of a chance. "What's more, being unemployed at the moment is a very unfavorable situation for finding a job. She sighed inwardly, and forced not to say it.

"You can tell me about your current job opportunities, and I'll break it down for you. Although people in the United States can't help you with anything right now, some advice can still be given. Qin Hai said, and then added lightly: "If you are in a bad mood recently, you can call me at any time." ”

"Oh, thank you." To be honest, Ji Wei was a little surprised. Because, Qin Hai in her impression still has a rotten egg expression. She tried to associate the man in her memory with the gentle tone of voice now, and this incompatible picture and audio made Xiao Nizi on the other end of the phone finally smile shallowly.

Xu Yunfeng's embrace was scorching, just like his body temperature.

"Are you sick?" Guan Yunyun was shocked. In a cold room with no air conditioning on, the barefoot man in only a short-sleeved shirt and cotton pyjama pants made her feel distressed.

"It's just a cold." He buried his face in her hair and took a deep breath, his clasped hands pressed tighter.

The force became tighter and tighter, and she was a little out of breath, and she moaned unconsciously, which relieved him and let go of his arms slightly. Following this force, Guan Yunyun broke free from his embrace, but he still said reluctantly: "If you are sick, go and lie down and rest, no wonder you will catch a cold when dressed like this in this weather." ”

"Will you stay with me here?" He asked, and then asked, "You're not going to go, are you?" ”

“…… You go lie down first......" She leaned over, trying to dodge the question.

As soon as he grabbed her arms, he asked again: "Promise me not to go!" ”

Guan Yunyun sighed.

"This time, I can't promise you." She said that the head was buried low.

He did not respond.

So, she continued: "Since this scene is destined to be fruitless, let's stop torturing each other, please......"

"What do you mean that it is destined to be fruitless?"

"You will not be happy if you are not blessed and in a dilemma...... Let's let each other go and be friends again......"

"Who wants to be ordinary friends with you?!" Xu Yunfeng's tone was filled with suppressed anger: "I was fine when I left the day before yesterday, why did I empty things in a blink of an eye and want to be an ordinary friend?" What the hell went wrong?! ”

"You know your family doesn't agree with ......"

"Didn't we know from the beginning that my family didn't agree? Didn't I tell you that the problem can be solved slowly?! What else are you going to do?! His tone couldn't help but be high, and the hands that clenched his arms made Guan Yunyun only feel pain.

"Cloud Wind ......"

"I see. Does it have something to do with that guy surnamed Luo?! He asked aloud.

However, Guan Yunyun was shocked for a while. In the dark, he searched her eyes, but her head was buried lower and lower, unable to catch it, refusing to respond.

"Sure enough, ......" At this moment, Xu Yunfeng was completely angry: "I knew that you must have an ulterior relationship with him!" You don't tell me anything, you run to him when something happens! Even your father asked him to help you when he was sick, and I was the last one to know! Ha...... I'm the stupidest fool in the world! What exactly is the relationship between the two of you? You answer me! ”

She smiled bitterly, helplessly, with tears and anger—

"You're right!" For the first time, she replied so loudly: "You're right!" Are you satisfied? Then don't you still have a girlfriend outside with me behind my back?! As soon as these words came out, Guan Yunyun immediately repented, but how could he take back what he said? The situation she didn't want to face at the beginning, and the hole cards that she didn't want to explore each other the most were completely spread out in front of her.

"What nonsense are you talking about?" Xu Yunfeng took a deep breath and asked.

"I heard you have a new girlfriend and stay with her every time you go on a business trip." Guan Yunyun still lowered his eyes and twisted his index finger.

He was stunned for a long time and asked, "My family told you that?" ”

"Is it true?" She asked rhetorically.

"It's just a joke." After another silence, he replied.

Guan Yunyun curled up suddenly, buried his head deep in his arms and knees, and cried bitterly.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry...... Xiaoyun ...... Don't do that, it's really just a show. You know how domineering my dad is, and you know that I love you. Xu Yunfeng leaned down in pain to hug the trembling man, admitting his mistake over and over again.

Until the deep buried little face came out and responded: "Don't say it...... Stop it...... Don't say I'm sorry......"

"Xiaoyun, I'm really sorry......" The man who was still domineering and tough just now is as humble as a child. Such a scene made her heart ache even more.

"Don't say it...... Let's break up......" she almost begged.

"Xiaoyun, you give me a chance, and I'll take care of everything......" The childlike man hugged her tightly and refused to let go.

"Yunfeng, we can't go back to the past...... Even if I can forgive you...... You may not be able to forgive me......" muttered these words, using all Guan Yunyun's courage......

"What do you mean?" Xu Yunfeng was a little stunned.

But Guan Yunyun just repeated that sentence-

"Let's break up." She never raised her head, she was afraid of soft-heartedness......

I'm also afraid of confrontation......

Say goodbye to each other, hang up the phone, and the small desk clock shows that it is already midnight.

Ji Wei ran to the bathroom to start washing, while Qin Hai on the other side of the Pacific Ocean hurried to the company.

Opening the faucet above the bathtub, Ji Wei put down the toilet lid wrapped in a warm green fluffy cushion and sat down. At this moment, the warm hot steam gradually overflows the small space of the bathroom with the sound of rushing water flowing into the bathtub. She closed her eyes and calmed herself to the rhythm of water and steam...... I really don't know that the iphone that was placed in the living room vibrated a few times at this time, and a text message from Guan Yunyun came-

[The only thing that remains unchanged in the world is change. 】

Walking alone on the cold street at midnight, Guan Yunyun tried not to think about how he had put down the ring and key just now, so he walked out of the door and passed by Xu Yunfeng.

The tears are dry, but the heart is sad.

In Shanghai at midnight, the neon lights fade but the lights are still bright, and there is no end to the city looking forward. Just like the musician "1900" in "The Pianist of the Sea", who has never set foot on land in his life, said: in that infinitely sprawling city, there is everything, but there is no end. I can't see the end of everything, the end of the world.

In this endless world, we run and search, but we can't find an 'eternity'. Now. How many people in this city have the same loneliness...... Guan Yunyun was stunned.

She took out her mobile phone and flipped out Ji Wei's name, and a few months ago, the sentence that her friend unintentionally said when she fell out of love came to her mind again:

[The only thing that remains unchanged in the world is change - how about reading this sentence in Carina Lau's interview a few days ago? Be philosophical. Change is the only eternity, and without love, we must live. 】

Empathetic, Guan Yunyun smiled silently and sent a text message.

Not long after, a few vibrations and a text message was sent to Guan Yunyun's mobile phone.

When I picked it up, it was not Ji Wei's reply, but it was from Luo Qingling:

[Xiaoyun, I don't know if you're okay now? I'm worried about you. Call me when you're in a better mood. 】

After reading the news, she pondered for a long time with mixed feelings, then silently turned off her mobile phone and continued to walk in this endless concrete forest......

In this forest, in those endless walks and pursuits, how many people have experienced one coincidence and accident after another, and how many accidents and misses? The real city is like a landscape in the fog, faintly exuding melancholy beauty and carrying dreams without commitment. Such a night, such a forest, the best answer is silence...... Silent......

Luo Qingling lay on his side on the bed, looking at the mobile phone placed on the bedside, insomnia at midnight. He regretted that he hadn't restrained his love for her that night, leaving his reason behind when she was fragile and dazed, and letting lust take over his head. Thus possessed her, destroying the barriers disguised by friendship. Even though everything happened suddenly...... Also natural.

It's just love, but it hurts a lot of people......

Annoyed, he closed his eyes.

I think that if I am blindfolded, I can not see the world; I thought that if I covered my ears, I could not hear all my troubles; Thinking that when the footsteps stop, the heart can no longer travel far; Thought that the love we needed was just a hug. In the end, we found out that loving someone is greedy, and I want more than just a hug, but a heart that only loves me......

The same kind of people who are hurt by love, in the lonely freezing point of midnight, are they all thinking about the same question-

Why love each other?

The love and love that is difficult for the world to comprehend has already been explained by the romantic poet Cangyang Gyatso who lived in the 17th century, as he wrote in the "Ten Precepts Poems":

First, it's best not to see each other, so that you don't fall in love.

Second, it's better not to know each other, so that you don't love each other.

Thirdly, it is better not to be accompanied, so that you do not owe each other.

Fourth, it is better not to cherish each other, so that you can not remember each other.

Fifth, it is better not to love each other, so that you can not abandon each other.

Sixth, it is better not to be relative, so that we can not meet.

Seventh, it is better not to be wrong, so that there is no loss.

Eighth, it is better not to allow each other, so that there can be no continuity.

Ninth, it is better not to depend on each other, so that they can not be together.

Tenth, it is better not to meet, so that we can not meet.

But if you have seen each other, you will know each other, and when you have not seen each other.

Ander and Jun are resolute, and they are exempt from teaching life and death to be lovesick.

Perhaps, in order to avoid the lovesickness of wanting to live and die, 'breaking with the king' is the best way......

Or perhaps...... is the most painful way.

Why should we love if there is love? ……