To Xiao Mo:

I'm thinking, when will you find out? Today? Tomorrow? Maybe...... Never......

But I don't want to wait any longer! I can't wait any longer! I can't stand the fact that you, who once loved me deeply, have forgotten me...... So, I chose to run away, and I ran away in embarrassment. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

The water cup on the table was given by you, and you forgot; The fountain pen I have always used, we bought it together, you forgot; The bracelet on your left hand was your last birthday present to me, and you still forgot.

I used to be joyful, excited, and even tearful because you remembered me, but I fell into deeper despair because of your forgetfulness.

I distinctly remember the day I stood in the middle of the road against the crowd, only to be bypassed as an ordinary obstacle and ignored. Only you, a man whose name the world had forgotten, stood there staring deeply at me.

Can you imagine the feeling of someone who has been forgotten by the world for more than a decade suddenly being found? I have talked to you countless times in the days that followed, about that joy, that sense of belonging, so that I suddenly saw a light and was given a new meaning to exist. You can't remember, do you? I'd love to tell you again......

After that, we had a long dream.

In the dream, we have been happy, we are close lovers, and we are inseparable every day. Even though you're a little shy and always pretend to be impatient, if I have the slightest problem, you'll be nervous! That's it, you go to school with me, go shopping together, watch movies together. I remember we watched a whole series of "Black Friday", my timid little face turned white, and you held my hand tightly in silence...... That's right! Send your Jason mask like...... You're always like this, gentle, but you won't admit it.

Then, the dream woke up.

Your gaze begins to pass through me, to the walls, to the trees, to the distance, and I know that our end is sealed. Although every time you will apologize to me after you find out, blame yourself and regret it, your heart is like a knife! But ah, we are so helpless, no matter how much we cry and shout, we can't stop this, we can only let it overpower us!

Later, I had an illness, don't you remember? I've been sick for days, and when I came back to greet you, you just responded perfunctorily, and I knew that our whole was over. Your gaze is the gaze of a stranger, with an unreachable sense of distance, as far away as a star that can never be touched, extremely cold, and like a sharp blade, cutting my heart to blood!

It's a shame I couldn't call your name when you remembered me.

Suddenly I feel that the world is so cruel, fabricating our lives, but not giving us happiness. Perhaps, it's just that we are too greedy and have the right to live, but we still have the luxury of happiness......

I once asked you, will Xiao Mo always like Mu Xiaoxiao? You didn't answer, you just took my hand and shook it tighter and tighter...... Yes! What is there forever? Mu Xiaoxiao, who can remember Xiao Mo, can't be sure if she can always like Xiao Mo in the future, and how can Mu Xiaoxiao's Xiao Mo easily promise forever......

But I'm so scared! What a loss! It's so sad! You'll never brave the rain to buy me a hot cup of milk tea again, never read a long love letter for me again, never comb my hair gently...... Xiao Mo, who forgot everything, couldn't find his Mu Xiaoxiao anymore......

Don't want it! I don't want anything! I don't want you to forget me, I don't want you to leave me, I don't want to face the abyss without you again...... I'm really, really, timid, but there's no one to cry to, what should I do......

I know it's not your fault, it's not mine. If there really is a god, then we must have been forgotten by Him, who cannot hear our prayers, and cannot see our pain.

I can't say your name, and you have forgotten my voice and smile, which is the reason for our acquaintance, and the culprit who made us cry bitterly.

Have you ever sat alone under the roots of a big tree in the park next to your school and burst into tears for some reason? Actually, I was sitting next to me! It used to be our favorite place to go, and the first time I gave you a rusty pencil sharpener was secretly buried there! Sunset, falling leaves, hillside ...... We under the tree. Do you feel it? What was lost, is it still lingering there, that's why it's like this?

When you are dazed and at a loss for what to do, and you wipe it away in a panic, but the tears are pouring out more and more, and you can only cover your face with your hands as if you can only escape, I am so sad, I want to hug you tightly, I want to throw myself into your arms and cry bitterly...... But will you accept the inexplicable tears of a stranger? We are also heartbroken, and we are only separated by a short meter! It was a thick transparent wall that we could no longer cross, and the painful voices could only echo in place and could not be conveyed. I stare at you sadly through it, but you on the other end can't tell my figure.

Since that day, I haven't seen you really smile again.

I also felt your gaze on me again, but there was no longer the tenderness in your eyes, there was only a little curiosity and questions, and the notes were no longer love poems for me, but strange novels and observations. You're probably thinking, "This girl is just as different as I am!" "Something like that, right? It's always easy to guess what you think! Unexpectedly simple and direct, paranoid and capricious.

I heard that forgetting is the greatest punishment for betrayal, and if we are born guilty, then forgetting is the greatest punishment for us!

You forget everything between us, the world has erased our love from your mind, and your clumsy and childish closed self is empty inside. But the defects will not be restored, and the wounds cut by the knife will not heal. You're restless, you're scared, you're standing there at a loss, your wounds are bleeding, and you don't know what's going on......

It's so distressing! Hurry up and run! Go for help! Go find another person to fill the wound! I don't blame you...... No...... Confused, tearful......

I'm going to change schools, I'm leaving, I'm leaving the world with you, say goodbye! Although you didn't notice......

Remember, study hard, make friends well, don't stay up late, don't sleep lazy in the morning, don't read strange books, don't fight, drive carefully when driving, and take good care of Xiaoqiu's sister......

Finally, as a girl's little willfulness, let you feel heartache for me again! For the person who is about to disappear from your life completely, your former close lover, cry for once!

Xiao Mo! I like you! Like you like you like you like you like you like you like ......you like

If...... If there really is a God, I beg you...... engraved the fact that Mu Xiaoxiao likes Xiao Mo in his heart......

――Mu Xiaoxiao, who likes Xiao Mo