Chapter 19: Broken
Qiu Ci under the street lamp looked at him, the light sprinkled on their bodies, faintly glowing, and the red eyes seemed to tell others how sad she was. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. biquge。 info
"Teacher." Her voice was hesitant.
Lu Fengbai was very close when he looked at her, he raised his head slightly, and his warm lips fell on her eyes: "Don't cry, I'm sad when you cry." ”
At that moment, Qiu Ci's heart was shaken, and his heart, which had always believed that he would always like Han Mo, was shaken.
It was also at that moment that she looked down on herself, she felt that the worst person in the world was herself, just like cheating, she couldn't accept it.
The next day, Qiu quit and took leave to rest at home, she couldn't go to class in this state, but Lu Fengbai returned to school to continue teaching.
Wen Ruojin looked at the empty Qiu Ci on the seat and the cold Lu Fengbai, and felt a trace of guilt in his heart, but that trace of guilt disappeared without a trace in front of Han Mo.
When school was over, Wen Ruojin met Han Mo, his mental state was not very good today, Wen Ruojin walked over and stopped him, Han Mo glanced at her and smiled tiredly: "Wen Ruojin!" ”
She said, "I'm sorry, it's all my fault. ”
Han Mo looked at her suspiciously: "What's wrong?" ”
Wen Ruojin clasped his hands tightly together, and seemed to have made up a lot of determination, raised his head and looked at Han Mo and said, "Those photos you saw were all placed on your seat, and they were all taken by me." ”
"I know." Han Mo smiled at her: "Xu Yang told me, she saw you let go." ”
Wen Ruojin looked at him and was very surprised: "Aren't you angry?" ”
"There's nothing to be angry about, I just didn't expect you to know that I like Qiu Ci, you are Qiu Ci's friend, it's normal to care about her, if you also think that teacher is more suitable for Qiu Ci than me, I won't bother." After Han Mo finished speaking, he patted her on the shoulder and turned to leave.
Wen Ruojin was stunned, she did such a thing, but Han Mo still thought she was Qiu Ci's friend? Even she didn't dare to say that she and Qiu Ci were still friends, and she didn't do it because of her relationship with Qiu Ci at all, she was caring about Han Mo and was afraid that he would be deceived by Qiu Ci.
What she hoped for came true so easily, but why couldn't she be happy at all?
On the one hand, she is a good friend, and on the other hand, she is a favorite person, she hurt Qiu Ci, and also hurt Han Mo's heart, she didn't expect Han Mo to tell her so generously that he likes Qiu Ci.
It turns out that they have always been in love with each other, but they have never said it, she is like a clown who jumps off the beam, doing dark little actions behind her back.
If she hadn't shown those photos to Han Mo, then Qiu Ci and Han Mo might always have been that kind of good friend relationship, and they would still be the kind of friends who can talk happily when they meet.
And Qiu Ci and Han Mo will never pierce that layer of paper.
She did it wrong!
In the evening, Lu Fengbai got out of class, so he went to buy some food and went to Qiu Ci's house.
When Lu Fengbai saw Qiu Ci opening the door for him, his eyes were swollen from crying.
He didn't say anything, just asked her to eat something, and Qiu Ci was also very obedient, sitting on the sofa and eating.
The only thing left in the room was the sound of her eating, Lu Fengbai looked at her, a little distressed: "Do you want to drink water?" ”
Qiu Ci didn't speak, just nodded silently, Lu Fengbai got up and poured water for her, and found that there was no hot water at home, so he simply boiled a cup for her.
When the hot water was brought over, Qiu Ci glanced at Lu Fengbai, put down the food and said in a hoarse voice: "Teacher, I don't want to go to school anymore." ”
"Why?" Lu Fengbai was still shocked when he heard this, he didn't expect to hear this sentence from Qiu Ci's mouth one day.
"I'm so tired, I don't want to go to school to see them anymore." Qiu Ci lowered his head and was a little aggrieved.
Lu Fengbai looked at her, he knew that Qiu Ci was just confused for a while: "You are escaping, this is not the way." ”
"Actually, I don't want to see you, teacher."
"But you still saw it, how uncomfortable it was to see me? Want me to disappear right away? ”
Qiu Ci shook his head: "No." ”
"Look, what's there to worry about, people are always prone to gains and losses before facing some things, just like when I was a child performing on stage, I was always nervous about what to do if I couldn't do it well before I went up, but after I went up, you were not nervous, and the result was better than expected." Lu Fengbai tried his best to soften his voice and let her listen.
"I'm still scared." Qiu Ci looked at him with sad eyebrows.
"If you're scared, think of me, and I'll always be on your side."
"Yes." Qiu Ci lowered his head and continued to chew mechanically.
It seems that she listened to what Lu Fengbai said, every time she was confused, Lu Fengbai always broke a word, and she would suddenly open up.
When Lu Fengbai was leaving, he pinched her face and said, "Sort out your mood and go to class tomorrow, I may take leave to write my graduation thesis in the next few days, you don't have to think about anything, just concentrate on painting." ”
Qiu Ci looked at him, and his eyes were a little dependent: "Will you come back soon?" ”
"Did I lie to you?"
"Nope."
"Then keep believing me, I'll get it done soon."
Qiu Ci washed herself well and lay on the bed, although she was at home all day, she didn't sleep well, she kept thinking nonsense, after Lu Fengbai came, the mess in her mind seemed to be cleared all at once, the whole person was so relaxed, and she fell asleep after lying on the bed for a while.
During this time, Lu Fengbai really took a few days off, and Qiu Ci only wanted to paint and think about anything according to what Lu Fengbai said.
When she met Han Mo on the road, she tried to avoid it, Wen Ruojin didn't like her, so she didn't provoke her.
When Lu Fengbai came back to class after writing his thesis, it was almost June.
That day, when Qiu Ci and Xu Yang were on the road after lunch, they ran into Han Mo again, Qiu Ci wanted to avoid it, but Han Mo stopped her, and Xu Yang also said to her: "Look what he has to say." ”
"I'd like to talk to you for a while." Han Mo said.
Seeing this, Xu Yang walked away silently: "I'll come to you later." Then he looked at Han Mo: "Be careful." ”
It seems that Xu Yang has a great opinion of Han Mo.
Qiu Ci stood in front of Han Mo and whispered, "What do you want to tell me?" ”
"Why have you been avoiding me since last time?" Han Mo asked unwillingly.
"I'm not hiding, I just think the most important thing for me at the moment is not what you said, I need to be admitted to a university now." It's true that Qiu Ci ran away from him, and what he said now is also true.
Han Mo was silent for a moment and asked, "I just want to ask for an answer, have you ever liked me?" ”
"Yes." Qiu Ci looked at him, his eyes were firm, Han Mo was happy in his heart, but he didn't want Qiu Ci to say, "But that's not important anymore." ”
"Why?"
"Even if we like you, we can only keep it that way."
"How come, you like me, I like you, then we are together, why can it only be this state?" Han Mo really didn't understand what she meant.
Qiu Ci said: "On the basis of our mutual liking, you have never trusted me, and I am now beginning to waver whether I want to continue to like you. ”
Han Mo suddenly smiled: "Qiu Ci, I think you are such a ruthless person for the first time, I always thought that you were kinder and gentler than anyone else." ”
"My gentleness, my kindness, have been given to you in the past, but from the day you doubted me and Teacher Lu, I decided not to give it to you anymore." Qiu Ci's voice was very calm, but no one knew that her heart was already dripping blood, and the pain had made her unconscious, only that she was so uncomfortable.
Han Mo looked at her, he didn't know what to say, and he didn't know how to keep it.
Qiu Ci looked at her, but her eyebrows were a little more gentle: "Ruojin said, if I don't like you one day, don't pester you anymore, it will look like I'm bad, I don't want to be a bad person, so Han Mo has liked you, but that's just in the past." ”
Han Mo nodded, his heart aching beyond measure: "Okay." ”
He left without looking back, in fact, what he always wanted to tell her was: If we like each other, we will be together forever, okay?
But he didn't seem to have a chance to say it again.
Qiu Ci felt that his heart was hollowed out all of a sudden, beating in his chest blankly, but he didn't feel a trace of being alive.
Xu Yang walked over, looked at Qiu Ci with red eyes and asked, "You guys...... Broken? ”
"Sort of." Qiu Ci looked at Xu Yang: "He obviously has a girlfriend, why do you want to tell me that he likes it?" ”
"Girlfriend?" Xu Yang was stunned: "You won't say that you met the girl in the cafeteria that day, right?" ”
Qiu Ci nodded.
Xu Yang helplessly held his forehead: "It's not a girlfriend, I forgot to tell you, that woman is the daughter of the proprietress of his cake shop, Han Mo said that the two of them are like brother and sister." ”
Qiu Ci panicked, did he misunderstand him?
Even if Han Mo doesn't like that girl, it doesn't mean that the girl doesn't like Han Mo, she was so close that day, but she said that she was just a brother and sister, and Qiu Ci couldn't believe it.
Qiu Ci buried herself in the painting all day long, a relationship had not officially begun, it ended in a hurry, she didn't understand why she suddenly became so bold, and she rejected Han Mo like this.
It may be that Lu Fengbai has been instilling in her, what is the most important reason for her now, she has cleared all the obstacles that hinder her from achieving her goals one by one.
Qiu Ci met Lu Fengbai on the way to school, but he didn't seem to see him, he lowered his head and was looking at his phone, she was happy in her heart, and she just wanted to go up to say hello, but she didn't want a woman beckoning in the distance.
Seeing this, Lu Fengbai immediately put away his mobile phone and waved his hand, and the woman immediately ran over to hold his hand and walked away.
At that moment, Qiu Ci was stunned, a chill emanated from the inside out, more painful than seeing Han Mo talking to the girl, she felt that she could no longer see the road clearly, she could only feel the pounding heart, and the oxygen that could not be breathed.
"Lu Fengbai, you lied to me."
Qiu Ci looked at their distant backs, his hands were tightly tugging on his chest, and he was breathing with his mouth open, but the figure was getting more and more blurred, and his consciousness was becoming less and less clear.
"Little girl, what's wrong with you?" She heard exclamations in her ears, but she couldn't see who it was.
The ground was spinning, her feet were starting to weaken, and she looked at the sky in despair, but she smiled.
Is it finally going to die? Great, I am finally relieved, goodbye to my parents, goodbye to Qiu Jue Su Nian, goodbye to Lu Fengbai......